"So you feel that your willingness to do wrong and evil to protect this girl was your downfall."
"No, not at all Dr. H. I just feel like me not wanting anything to hurt her ends up hurting me."
"What makes you draw that conclusion?"
"The drug thing, it all started with me doing something to protect her, but in the end I ended up the one in pain and messed up."
"So you think she's not good for you?" She sounded perplexed and genuinely interested in my answer.
"Not at all. If anything she's the best thing that's ever happened to me."
"But you just said…"
"I know, but that's more of the things she does, not who she is."
"Care to explain?"
"I don't think I can." I truly didn't think I would be able to explain mine and Emma's relationship because truth be told I didn't understand it myself.
"Try me."
"Okay… here goes nothing… Emma has one of the brightest souls I've ever known. Her spirit alone could light up the dark side of the moon."
"That's very sweet, but if she's that entire how…"
"I'm getting to that… Emma's soul, her spirit is something that make me want to do better, BE better. She makes me see what I can do and I like it."
"You're still not getting to the…"
"I know… I'm getting there… Even with all of that Emma has this cloud around her."
"A cloud?" She seemed confused.
"Yes, a cloud… She wants so bad to make everything in her life different and better, but the steps she takes to make it better always find a way to make it worse… It's like she can do no wrong, but at the same time no right."
"That's very interesting Jayson."
"What?" I don't get how my feelings about Emma are interesting.
"You contradict yourself a lot when talking about this Emma girl."
"What do you mean, contradict?"
"Well first you say that you don't want her on a pedestal but you yourself have her on one. Then you say she gets you hurt and in pain, but she's the best thing to happen to you. Then you say she can do no wrong, but at the same time no right… She can't be all of that. Jay it just isn't possible."
"But she is ."
"Then there we are."
"What do you mean 'there we are'."
"Just that we've found your root… Emma."
"Emma's the root to my addiction?" There was no way.
"No, not exactly. But she is the root to what motivates you to do something whether good or bad."
"Emma?"
"Yes, Emma." She seemed very excited to have made this development.
"So, what now?" I really needed to know where to go from here.
"You come to terms with your feelings about her and move on with your life."
"What feelings?"
"Now Jay we've made so much progress… can we NOT go back to where we started. Now think Jay, how do you feel about Emma?"
"She's one of the most precious people to me." I was confused and a little afraid of what my answer might be. "She's special. More special then any girl I've ever known. I mean she's important to me… I lo… I care about her."
"No, wait one second and go back to that last thing you said."
"I care about her." I was starting to get a migraine. What was she getting at.
"No, what were you really gonna say. BEFORE you switched and said that you 'care' about her."
"That…that…"
"Just say it… trust me you'll feel better."
"That I…LOVE her."
"Boom… the barrier has been broken." She seemed so proud. Me on the other hand was completely petrified.
Damn I LOVE EMMA.
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