I woke up from the sound of a door closing and Charlie calling out the usual 'Bella? Melody?'. I got up slowly, stretched and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes, before heading to the kitchen where Bella stood, cooking burrito's.
"Hey little lady, how do you feel now?" Charlie asked me when I sat down on my kitchen chair. I knew he wasn't just asking about the fact I was suffering from a headache and a slight fever.
"I feel a bit better, thank you." I replied. Bella was obviously quiet, but her mind was full of giddiness and confusion. I didn't want to hear her thoughts.
"Bella? About that Seattle trip Saturday…" Charlie suddenly asked. he wanted to know for sure what her plans were. Bella's back tensed before she turned around with an oven plate filled with burrito's. "What about that, dad?"
"Well, I just want to know what your exactly going to do that day." He stated. Saturday was going to be one of my biggest nightmares.
"Oh, well, I'm going to Seattle early in the morning and…I hope to be at home in time for the Dance at school." she answered, still tense. Charlie nodded, surprised somehow that she was going to the dance after all. I was just hoping he wouldn't fall from his chair when I told him I was going too.
"Alright, that's fine by me. Melody? What are your plans for upcoming Saturday?"
"Uhm..well, Alice kind off forced me to join them at the Spring Dance," Charlie's eyes went as big as golf balls, "so, I'm going to spend the afternoon at their place so they can use me as their life-size dress-up doll." I finished. The look on my father's face was quite priceless and I started to chuckle. Bella however, seemed enormously chagrined by the fact that I was going there with the other Cullen's – she hated it that they accepted me instead of her.
We enjoyed the burrito's , which Bella actually made deliciously, did the dishes and finished our homework. After that, I decided to call it a night. My temperature had reduced and was almost back at its normal degree.
When I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling, I wondered what would happen to Charlie after I'd changed too – he was completely human after all. Would he just let us go , grow old and die someday? The idea of a life without Charlie in it, frightened me. Sure, some day, I'd want a life on my own, if Charlie would still be somewhere, that I'd be able to visit him if I'd want too would be great. But what if I didn't make it until then? What if my mother got a hold of me before that could happen? What if she'd kill anyway? Because, I was still only human after all.
I panicked, trying to calm myself with thoughts like: 'relax, you can shield yourself then she won't find you,' or 'she gave up anyway after last time,' or 'by the time she's found me, I'm probably already changed and stronger,'.
I kept thinking about things, I didn't want any thought about. When I started to get tired, I chanced a glance at the clock. My eyebrows shot up in surprise – 03:40 AM, it read. Then I remembered something and I jumped out of the bed, tiptoeing downstairs. When I reached the couch, I crouched down, stuck my arm beneath it and retrieved the book I'd shoved under there. it would've been risky if Bella found it there while cleaning up. I clutched the book to my chest and tiptoed back upstairs again, sneaking into my room and clicking the door close without making much of a noise. I let myself fall on the mattress again and felt the sleep creeping into my consciousness.
'I fell down from sky high, the force of air whipping my hair backwards. I'd fallen, but didn't know where I was headed. When I neared the ground, I closed my eyes, preparing for the impact. It never came. When I opened my eyes again, I was standing in the middle of the dance floor. The spring Dance. I saw a few classmates, but I searched for someone. I'd know when I saw him. My ruby red dress, flowing behind me, trailing over the gym floor. The music was blaring with a vast bass beating. Where was he? For whom was I looking?
Then I saw him, with his back to me. his wary bronze hair sticking at all sides. Whom was he talking too? why didn't he turn around? I walked closer, but the distance between only seemed to get bigger. What was going on? I knew his name, I wanted to call for him, I did call out to him but as my lips moved desperately, my voice was stuck. I blinked once and then, he was gone. I began running now, searching, still silently screaming his name. Out of the blue, someone tapped my shoulder, which made me turn around. I gasped at the sight before me, even though I didn't notice whom had tapped me. There he was. Edward. In a tux, dancing with a women wearing a enormous white puffy dress and a veil. What was happening.
'Sorry, you're not invited. Get out of here.' A voice echoed through my ears. I wanted to know whom was the women dancing with him. I needed to. When they turned around, I saw her face. My heart broke again. it was Bella.
'I told you, you weren't invited. Leave! NOW!' he suddenly growled next to my ear. No! I wanted to scream, don't leave me! but there was nothing heard. I grabbed Edward's hand and struggled but another force of air, blew me backwards, making me lose grip of his sparkling hand.
I fell again, into darkness. '
I gasped, startled and bolted upright in bed. the alarm clock was beeping while I studied my surroundings. It was my bedroom, the blue walls with silver decorations, the fairy twinkle lights hanging on the wall. It was just another nightmare. I sighed heavily before climbing off the mattress, heading to the bathroom for my morning routine. Bella was already awake, having breakfast in the kitchen. Her mind was swirling with scenario's of her and Edward at the dance party. A flash of the nightmare flooded back to me, making me drop my toothbrush and almost knocking a few bottles from its shelf. I pinched the bridge of my nose, calming myself. The nightmare must have been a sign – I needed to let him go. Why? Because I loved him.
Once dressed in jeans, a red college sweater and black chucks, I descended the stairs, carrying my bag with me. Bella stood in the hall waiting for me, so I rushed to the refrigerator to grab a bite and hurried out of the door after her. She didn't utter a word to me.
The familiar silver Volvo stood parked in the driveway, with its owner standing gloriously leaning against the door. Let him go, my mind reminded me. I glanced at him once, seeing him looking back with a sad expression. He did that a lot – as if he felt pity for me.
Without a second thought I went to the old rusty truck and slung my bag in it.
"What are you doing? You're not going to drive with us?" Bella hissed at me. I looked back, eyes narrowed. "No. have a nice ride." I growled back before slamming the door of the roaring beast shut. in my rearview mirror, I saw another pitiful look from Edward. completely into the rush of anger I couldn't stop the remark I barked out.
"Fuck you."
The pathetic feelings of heartbreak were suddenly replaced by ultimate hatred and anger towards the man I'd fallen in love with. He wouldn't love me back anyways. I ignored the shocked look on his face and started to rhythmically tap the steering wheel, waiting until he'd turned out of the driveway. When his car raced through the street, I started the rumbling engine and backed out of the driveway, starting my ride to school as well.
I'd calmed down a bit during the way to school. why I acted like that in the morning, was because my feelings were awfully conflicted. Maybe letting him go completely, wasn't an option – it made me feel depressive just thinking about it. I decided I needed to find the right compromise.
"Where the hell was that right for! I mean, God! Why are you always being so mean to Edward!" Bella was by my side the minute I'd safely jumped out of the truck. I rolled my eyes. She was acting like the protective girlfriend already. the irony of it made me chuckle.
"What!? do you think this is funny or something?" she bellowed.
"Christ Bella! I'm not happy peppy all day! Can't you just leave me the fuck alone for a change!?" I fumed back at her, slinging my bag over my shoulder, ignoring the Cullens and stomping my way to my locker.
When I was on my way to the cafeteria, I saw Edward and snatched him away. He's way stronger than I am off course, but he just obliged while I pushed him between two buildings where no one could see us. when he turned to me, he got a wary look on his face. I, however, was like always the blushing picture of innocence.
"Melody, what's go – "
"I want to apologize to you." I rushed out. There, I did it. Edward looked confused for a second, wanting to ask why when I interrupted him once more.
"Look, the reason why I acted so weird this morning was because..I don't feel really well. I mean – everyone seems to think that I'm always happy, clumsy and irritating, but seriously; I'm most definitely not. And you know, that 'fuck you' comment, well it was quite ironic since – " I was cut off by his large hand covering my lips, making my nervous ranting stop. I blushed even more than I already did.
"I already accepted you're apology when you snagged me away from my path. No need to explain yourself, little one – you're my best friend. So, I'm going to drag my hand away and then you're done apologizing alright?" Edward said, his voice soft like velvet. I nodded and he let go of my mouth.
" – you're actually already undead so the term fuck you doesn't suit with it." I finished the Edward induced broken sentence. He laughed, throwing his head back.
"You're crazy you know that?" he chuckled, leaving the space between buildings with me following him.
"I'm surprised you're even saying it – I knew I was going to be like this from the moment I was conceived." I stated dryly. Edward laughed again, leading us to the cafeteria.
"you must've been a smart egg then." Edward said with a serious tone. I looked up at him, mouth agape until he shot up his eyebrow, "What?"
My lips started quivering from the laughter I tried to hold. He was so dead. A giggle escaped my throat before the bouldering laughter followed.
"An egg..!?" gasp " Seriously!? " laughter, gasps "oh fuck me!"more laughter "have you seen you're eggshell head in the mirror lately, Cullen!?" I snorted through my huge giggle fest.
"Eggshell head? Do I look like an eggshell? Fuck! I'm supposed to be beautiful!" he replied, chuckling. I decided to make I a bit worse.
"Have you ever seen a sparkling eggshell?" I asked, calmed down a bit but still giggling. He gave me a weird look. "No?" I chuckled again.
"Well, then you seriously should've seen my Easter eggs from when I was four, I mean those eggs we're covered in pink sparkles." I chuckled, Edward went along with me.
"What's wrong with the pink sparkle part?" he asked seriously, eyeing me with amusing filled eyes.
"I wanted blue sparkles! You should've seen me crying!" I added. He roared with laughter, and by this time I was doubled over, holding my stomach that hurt from the fun. I didn't know for long we laughed and this topic went absolutely nowhere, but it felt so natural to have fun with him like this. When we were just after-giggling, they bell rang.
"Oh fuck! You haven't had any lunch, I'm sorry." Edward apologized, grabbing his bag from the ground.
"Ah, I don't mind. I'll eat between class shifts." I reassured him. Just at that moment, Alice came bouncing to us.
"What have you guys been doing? We missed you at lunch." 'I didn't know Bella could look so chagrinned.'
"Well, we wanted to got here, but we didn't even made it to the cafeteria." Edward told Alice seriously. Alice's eyes went wide and she thought about one thing, 'Oh my GOD! Did you guys jump each other in school!?'
"What! Woah! Alice no, I meant that we were laughing so hard on our way here that we didn't make it to the cafeteria." Edward explained hastily.
"What did you do to make him laugh so hard?" Alice had turned to me. I shrugged.
" I only apologized and told him about what happened to me when I was conceived." I told her seriously. When I finished the sentence Edward was already gasping from laughing again.
"Seriously, what have you done with him!" Alice laughed joyfully along with us.
The rest of the week went on like this. Edward and I started to form a really close friendship. But that's what it only was – friendship. And even though I longed for more, I'd put my feelings aside, enjoying the time an fun I had with him.
The problem was – I began to fall in love with him even more.