[AN: Chapters 31-33 will be added today (10/8/11)]
~*~Jayson Clearwater~*~
Chapter 31: Explain, Change, Rearrange... Isn't that a slogan?
Running around leaving scars…
I sat on the couch looking at our little group quite awkwardly… the Shape shifters looked at the Vampires, and the vampires stared back… Confused, and very awkward expressions were on all of our faces. The Quileutes were outnumbered by three so that was a good sign that no fighting would take place. From my radar Sam, was keeping the pack out of this whole drama, so at least I didn't need to deal with that whole mess! Jordin sat beside me, and though she leaned into me and tried to get as close as appropriately possible, I tried my best to keep a distance. I wasn't sure if I wanted to give into her cute as a buttoness…es…Yah? I mean I lov- REALLY LIKED! Jordin, but she obviously placed me as a very disposable… and LESS IMPORTANT THAN HER REAL GENDER… teenage-boy-friend-best-friend-foreves…So I was not a happy camper with her at the moment.
"Soohh… You're those people that Jacob lives with…" Seth said breaking the silence.
"… How bout we get down to business then…." Edward said a curious look on his face as he looked at Seth. Leah flicked Edward off causally. I covered my face embarrassed at my mom as Edward sighed.
"Well… We're just here to collect Jayson." Sam said a blank expression on his face making it impossible to read what he was feeling right now.
"Not to be aggressive… but we can't really let you do that…" Bella said in her ditsy annoying voice… Seth turned away from his scowl at Leah and gave her a friendly smile. I was not informed about this relationship… I held back a groan as I hunched over in my seat… stupid background information…
"And what gives you the right to keep my SON from me." Leah said growling at Bella like she was a child; Bella bit her lip and gave Leah a surprised look. I was disowning my mom… she was being a b*tch to these nice, messed up, vampires!
"Leah don't be cruel." Seth growled at her barely audible, Seth and I we're on the same team? My mother ignored her little brother though.
"Look, Obviously there's some personal issues here…" Jordin's father said out of the blue in response to Seth's comment. "Can I just take my Daughter home? We have issues of our own to work out." He continued looking at Jordin unhappily, Jordin straightened up and scooted a little away from me trying to be innocent. THANK YOU JORDIN'S FATHER!
"Well… uh… No. Plus apparently we haven't gotten the full story either…" Edward said his eyes intensely on Jordin's father. Jordin's father (I really needed to figure out his real name... I felt weird calling a person… Mr… So and So!) looked at Edward defensively…
Ohh…. Was this like… A mind thingy? OHH was Edward in Jordin's dad's head! Ohh I wanted to be there! What's going on in that noggin!
Edward's eyes winded and he gave me a funky look… Ohh he must of heard that…
"Jesus! Can you stay calm for once! I mean I don't hear diddly squat from your mind and BAM in my face with all the commotion! I have enough going on here!" Edward yelled making me jump in my seat, suddenly sitting upright.
"Sorry…" I grumbled, Hey! If he didn't want to hear it, then he should of just tuned out… Edward looked away and back at Jordin's father no response to my comment- Wait… he didn't hear my mind babbles before? I opened my mouth about to voice this but was interrupted by Mr. Jordin's dad… Person… Gah… (SEE! It was weird! [I've known the guy like all my life and not once did I ask what his real name was? WTF?]).
"Mind reader…?" Jordin's dad stated nonchalantly. Edward chuckled to himself.
"Whoa! That didn't take long, seems you smarter than the average mut!" Edward started. Emmett added a toothy smile and two thumbs up in the background. "but then again you haven't spent all your time in the reserve." He finished…
CURIOUS?
CURIOUS…
CURIOUS
CURIOUS! I want to know what Jordin was also hiding from me…
"Those are personal thoughts…" Jordin's father said angrily.
"Jeez… You're like an open book!" Edward said focusing harder as Jordin's father grew angrier. The rest of us started curiously at this partially mental conversation (personally I was happy that we weren't talking about me and Jordin… and Sex… that would be a bad combination!)... Damnit, why couldn't I be a mind reader! Maybe if I think hard enough I'll do it! I squeezed my eyes shut immediately and started focusing on entering someone's head/reading their thoughts.
"What are you two talking about…?" Jordin said in a fake innocent voice that I had never heard before. I opened my eyes and looked over at her taken aback by her sudden change in tone.
I was missing a few pieces in this puzzle…
Sam's -who stood diagonally from of Jordin- eyes caught my attention immediately. The blank look couldn't hide the emotions flowing off of him and smacking me right in the face like a ocean wave. Was it confusion? No it was too strong, to pointed. Was it envy? No it didn't connect to the conversation.
No I knew what it was… It was something I had seen him give the twins. It was obvious! It was a glare… To Jordin's dad… Muhaha! I was becoming an exterior mind reader… Wait, that made no sense…
Then my eyes shifted to Jordin, who looked forward appearing blank but I could see it all in her profile. Her large blue eyes, so blue they looked like a sunny sky, the sinister look so dark it made them appear as black and blue as the night sky in my mind… it wasn't truly sinister but it was a hateful look, no respect only disappointment filled it and directed itself to Jordin's poor father. I felt my once curious emotions fall and a sadness filled me.
More… And more… Secrets…
I couldn't even trust my best friend…
I couldn't even trust my girl friend…
I couldn't even trust Jordin… Really?
Wait those were all the same person… I need to meet more people…
My eyes shifted to my mother and Seth. They weren't curious anymore either… As if they could feel my stare they turned and looked at me simultaneously.
We we're scared.
"- So would you like to tell the rest of us? Or is it up to me?" Edward said bringing me back to the real conversation at hand.
"I can talk." Jordin's father said, he looked at Jordin for a moment who's emotions only increased and filled her whole face revealing their true form. Her father looked away back at Edward and stroked his beard slowly. I didn't look at him though my attention was to the girl right beside me.
Though Edward responded-
And Jordin's dad (WTF IS HIS NAME?) started telling the crowd what Edward had mind read.
To me…
The conversation ended here.
She turned slowly to meet my angry glare. My eyes, though they were partially covered by my shaggy hair, held all the emotion I wanted to display.
I was disappointed!
I was angry!
I was saddened!
I was PISSED.
"What?" She murmured in a fearful little squeak. I full out growled feeling Sam's eyes on me intently along with everyone else in the room.
I gritted my teeth, A familiar and hated feeling spread over my body. I grabbed my legs and gripped them tightly. The thought to reach out and touch Jordin was suddenly a compulsion, an obsession. I dug my nails into my legs painfully knowing what I really wanted to do… I was going to be violent if I didn't fight back. My body fought against me my stomach flipped and my eyes tightened. I felt like a monster was in me fighting its way out, and this feeling was all to correct. It was horrible, it was painful… It was oddly enough very intriguing but we were going for negative connotations weren't we?
As my eyes tightened the scene in front of me shifted in my mind. I saw Jordin's scared expression in her yellow rain jacket, on this smelly couch. Though in my mind, it wasn't 'her' it was 'him' sitting there at the chipped kitchen table.
The need to touch my best friend… My girl friend…The person I couldn't trust.
SHE
Pushed me over the edge.
"Don't be so disrespectful!" I yelled as time seemed to unfreeze itself. My hands released my petrified legs as I sat up and leaned toward her to fill the distance. The claws my fingers seemed to have become shot upward right to their target as she fell onto her elbows and tried to evade me.
It was seconds, maybe even milliseconds, but I witnessed it all. My hand's like claws in this version, this monster my mind was trapped in, touched Jordin's face.
It was the most disgusting feeling ever, feeling her soft warm skin through this body. I wanted to close my eyes, but this monster was obsessed with seeing the next scene in this horror movie. Though for a quick second it looked as though this body, with a human form but a monster's blood lust, was simply caressing this poor girl's face. But, the seconds after this moment, there was no mercy. There was no brief feeling of love, no spare of sympathy, the only thing this body gave my poor Jordin was pain.
I watched in horror as the claws dug into her skin and raked down her face pulling the skin right off and leaving a bloody trail behind their sharp edge. Her mouth opened as the claws left it and my hand retracted back to my body.
[AN: HE JUST WENT ALL CHRIS BROWN ON YOUR ASS! Oooh!]
A horrible shriek of pure pain left her mouth making the slow moving bubble around us pop and everything rush in. My other arm swung around to hit her again but this time Sam was there to intercept it grabbing my wrists and pushing them into my chest as a restraint. My eyes narrowed setting in on Sam's face which was just inches from mine, his mouth was open forming words but I couldn't hear it as my vision pulsed in and out of a bloody tint. I opened my mouth and growled/tried to bite Sam. Slowly my hearing came back to me in a rush.
"-You Idiot! What have you done! Ho-." Sam's voice rang in my ear.
"Jayson! No!" I heard my mother cry across the room followed by two sets of footsteps. I turned my head immediately to her voice and growled before I could even process her in my vision.
"-Look what you've caused-." I heard Edward growl as my eyes set in on him (who was closer to this monster I was trapped in then my mother.) Slowly I realized he had Jordin's father by the arm.
"Let me go! Oh Jordin-." Her father murmured trying to escape the statues grip of… ED-WARD. His expression…
It was too painful to describe.
And in the very background of this aftermath,
I heard Jordin crying violently in painful sobs. There was a soft chattering of familiar vampire voices echoing with her cries.
What… had… I done…
~insert creepy back ground music?~
My body kicked its legs up pushing Sam off just enough for it to roll across the floor and attempt to get away, but by now Seth and My mother were there to grab it and push it to the ground. The creature's eyes drifted over to Edward while it partially fought against the humans restraining it.
"-I didn't know he would be this violent! I thought he was better now! My daughter said he was!" Jordin's father cried though the only one who probably heard it was Edward and I.
"You knew werewolves change by the moon! You knew that he was a ticking time bomb!" Edward accused him.
"No! I didn't know! I don't know how werewolves are! I'm not the werewolf here!" Jordin's father tried to reason pushing away from Edward more violently. The monsters attention became more intense on this conversation. Its head rolling back and its lips parted open as deep breaths entered them.
I knew between fighting off people and listening to Edward this beast was becoming exhausted… I just wish I could feel it… actually now that I think about it…
"Then who is?" Edward growled. The monsters eyes flickered over to the stairs to catch a glimpse of one of the vampires carrying a bright yellow object up the stairs. The monster didn't understand what was going on but I knew they were carrying Jordin or her rain coat upstairs.
More than likely to safety…
"My daughter is the werewolf. She's the one who understands them." Jordin's father cried losing his strength against Edward. As the monster's gaze shifted to look at Edward and Jordin's father, it caught the stare of Bella. Her dark eyes were glued on the couch behind the monster only making me more worried.
Had they been carrying Jordin up the stairs? Or was it just her rain coat. I couldn't hear crying anymore only my mother and Seth struggling against this beast I was trapped in. Sam was still dazed not catching up to the real action yet.
"Well apparently she doesn't understand them, because one just tried to rip her face off." Edward growled at the Man in his grip, his eyes blazing, there must have been a mental response from Jordin's father for Edward responded immediately. "Why would you put her in that danger? You knew a young werewolf like Jayson was still unstable!"
Jayson?
That was my name!
YO SOY JAYSON!
The monster weakened a bit giving Seth a chance to get some leverage. The monster looked away and at Seth who was over top of it.
It was strange seeing my uncle's face, especially from this blood tinted eye sight.
The monster took no mercy putting all its strength in fighting Seth off of it, but Seth was young and strong keeping his hold on the creature.
"I didn't want her to talk to him! She was the one who wanted it! That was the only thing she ever wanted!" Jordin's father cried in the background of the intense struggle.
"Why did she want to so badly?" Edward said pushing the questions
Because she loved me Edward, that's why. Because she cared about me duh! I didn't even have to think about that question! Look what I've done? Why are you hating him when I'm the one who's tried to kill someone! I'm the one who's tried to hurt people! CAN'T YOU HEAR MY MENTAL THOUGHTS? AM I LOUD ENOUGH!
I heard Sam start to cooperate as Seth grabbed the beasts arms and held them down.
"Because, it was my wives job to make sure Jayson was okay." Jordin's father started. My mind was like tunnel, as soon as his words processed it they repeated over and over again. My heart, though it seemed covered in metal by this cruel creature that was coming out of me, froze. "She wanted to do what her mother wasn't able to do." Those words hit me even harder making the monster freeze for a moment. "She wanted to fulfill the job her mother died trying to do."
So then it was all a lie? Jordin never told me that side… Well she had told me the facts... but she had never connected the dots (well I hadn't, I wasn't supposed to since I'm the stupid one, but I had been completely honest with her! SO she had double wronged me!). She more than likely didn't love me, or care for me, or wanted to be my friend. She was there to raise me, like a child! (Come on people… this was not right! So what if I may be a little overreacting, I SHOULD BE!)
I was sick of Jordin's lies.
It was over. OVER, over, OVERIES (Oohh wait those are female reproductive parts aren't they?)
Those words echoed through me as I thought them, as if the monster was a large shell of open space.
'It's over.'
'It's over.'
'It's over.'
'It's over.'
When I thought the echoes we're done a new voice chimed in.
'Stop it Jayson! Stop it!' Jordin's voice yelled like an annoying alarm in my head, it rang all over making the monster shiver in distaste. I could hear pain and sadness in her voice but even I was unable to project any sympathy I mean:
She was alive.
So at least she knew it was over.
Just then I felt my mother let go of the monster's legs and Sam put all his pressure on them. Before I knew it my mother was near the monster's head holding its arms down which Seth had just got off of.
The monster, scared and broken from the inner torment my body was treating it, faded out of my body and back where is belonged; In the very back of my head! My mind set back into place, I opened my eyes as me again the feeling of the attempted physical change started to fade as I came back to my body.
"Leah! I told you he was different!" Seth said winding his fist back in a punch, my eyes widened and I opened my mouth in protest. Apparently they hadn't gotten the memo I was back. "I told you we should have let Jacob in!" Seth said thrusting his hand forward.
Punch
My head spun as the pain set in, the force made my head turn to the side toward my mother. We made brief eye contact.
The look in her eyes was beyond fear, she was hyperventilating, her eyes were wet and tear streaks gave away how strong her emotions were at this moment.
'Mom! It's me!' my mind cried but my mouth couldn't form the words. I felt Seth's hand grab my chin and turn my face back up to look at him, his fist was going back for another shot. I WASN'T FIGHTING BACK SETH! STOP HITTING ME!
"Seth, please don't hit him again!" Mom cried to my aid. LISTEN TO YOUR SISTER MAN! Seth was getting in place ready for another shot, his eyes watery and the sign of incoming tears like a tornado siren.
"I told you the Cullens could have helped him!" Seth said closing his eyes. "I knew he was going to hurt someone!" Tears started falling out of my uncles eyes. JESUS, Seth was a man to cry in front of vampires… he was like the Christ to Jesus. But I would be more respectful to Seth if he weren't about to punch me for no reason!
My mother closed her eyes and looked away.
"He'll hurt you next if I don't do it." Seth whispered more as a confirmation to himself then an excuse to my mother. I closed my eyes as his fist started thrusting forward toward my face, my mouth opened in what would more than likely be a pitiful scream if I didn't have things to say.
"ITS ME!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. But my scream was too late for Seth laid another punch right smack across my face making me turn the other direction. My eye lids closed and my head spun unable to process what was going on.
"Jayson!" I heard my mother cry her grip on my arms disappeared and I felt her soft hands on the sides of my face turning my head back up to the ceiling. Seth's weight on my body disappeared as he stood up in disbelief and Sam let go of my legs immediately. Moving toward something else.
"Leah get away from him." I heard Sam say. The feeling of my mom's hands on my face disappeared, allowing my head to turn back to its original position limply. My eyes were still closed there for I couldn't see what was going on, I tried to open them but I couldn't move. I could hear Seth's heavy breathing over me and my mother struggling against something…. the rest of the room though was quiet. The conversation between Edward and Jordin's father had died and I heard someone run up the stairs.
There were only four heart beats in this room.
Sam
Seth
My mother
And my slow steady one.
The vampires were to quiet.
I had to move, I had to look around.
Jordin was hurt, I could sense she was in pain… So much pain. And it was all my fault.
I needed to leave, I couldn't hurt anyone else.
I opened my eyes slowly, my blurry eye sight becoming clearer as they grew wider. Sam sat near my left leg my Mom in his arms crying violently, Her arms up in protest while his held them to her sides. To my right was Seth staring at me like I was some Alien. As I looked behind him I noticed the couch cushion, stained a deep red from the blood I had just spilt. My stomach turned at how much there was. As I studied it I realized there were people behind the couch. My gaze shifted to them recognizing their Pale features.
Rosalie covered her mouth as soon as we made eye contact. Emmett opened his mouth and I'm pretty sure was starting to drool. There once bright yellow eyes were Black as coal.
There was blood? The couch? They must have smelled it… I got up slowly getting to my feet. And looking around the room.
Edward stood a foot away from me his yellow eyes still bright and not coal like the others. He stared at me emotionless but I could tell he knew what I was thinking. Bella was behind him looking at herself in the mirror hanging by the stair well and fixing her hair (OF COURSE)… Her eyes black as coal. Where were the other three?
I was like a zombie at this point unsure what was going on around me. So I did the first thing I could think of.
I walked past Edward and Bella, their gaze intently on me, and then out the door. They both stared at me briefly shocked that I was actually able to function and get myself out of the door.
When I got outside I rubbed my face and looked at my torn up sleeve in dismay, Seth really gave me a bloody nose… I heard someone gasp beside me making me turn in fear.
"Oh thank god." Alice said with a sigh as I looked at her, I raised my eyebrow. What was so good to see about my bloody human self? At least I found one of the three lost vampires "We need to get you to the airport." Alice said briefly and walking over to me.
"A-airport?" I stuttered out.
"You have a ticket to London."
~*~TLA~*~
- tearing love apart.
I looked outside the plane window. Everything was an utter blur in my mind. I couldn't remember how I got here, why I was here? All I remembered was Alice taking me by the arm in a death grip and leading me to the garage. The captain had said we were landing in London so I guessed we weren't in New York. I looked down at the sweatshirt Alice had thrown on me sometime in the trip from the porch to the garage. As I unzipped the zipper my other hand pulled at the white shirt underneath, which had a dark red spot on it along with many holes.
Who's blood was on my shirt, I didn't know… It could have been mine… It could have been Jordin's…
Jordin… Oh how my heart felt like a stone when I thought about my poor Jordin. The cuts I had left on her face… no, more than likely the scars now… and then the things I had said before I had stumbled out onto the porch… oh if she hated me now, I would know why…
I had tried over and over again to send her an apology mental message, but it was like she wasn't there, she couldn't hear me…
Suddenly there was a beep from above as the seat belts on light turned off. People started exiting the plane, I sat there for a moment thinking until almost everyone was past me down the aisle. I then got up and made sure my jacket was zipped up all the way. I grabbed my bag (Which Alice had grabbed sometime during the time I had been with my family and…other… people…) out of the luggage compartment and walked out of the plane into the terminal, my eyes glued to the floor.
As soon as I walked into the gate I smelt it.
It was Horrible.
It was revolting,
My nose stung it was so abrupt.
I looked around the open space my nose wrinkled and my teeth bared. My eyes drifted over to the departing gate, and stared there.
Their skin was pale, and though their eyes weren't red or yellow or even black I knew they were wearing contacts.
VAMPIRES,
A literal SWARM of them sitting in the gate departing too Seattle Washington.
They were dressed in normal human clothes except for black cloaks they had wrapped around their neck. Wait a second… I may not be very smart when it comes to vampires… but I know for a fact that not this MANY vampires travel together, especially not to Seattle Washington, naturally.
Weird, have to ponder it later… I thought with a shrug and then hurried up to follow some people in my flight, I was sure they were on a connection flight to where ever I was supposed to go… DAMNIT! Why couldn't I remember where I was going!
Soon I found myself in a small shopping area where some travelers split up to buy some grub, I kept my eye on a couple who had been talking about London constantly during the flight and walked around a bit.
As I walked past a small gift shop I slowed down, a weird feeling rushing over me. My legs tingled and my heart raced without warning. I looked over into the gift shop confused, was I hungry? Was something in there? What was with all these scents? It was like everything in the world had crawled into the gift shop and was tempting me through smell to go in.
This wasn't right… I should walk away, I knew I should. But something kept me in my spot.
Suddenly the door opened making me turn and look immediately.
A short blonde, probably my age and a boy just a bit taller than her but about the same age from what I saw walked out giggling, a bunch of candy in their hands.
My eyes fell on the girl and wouldn't budge. My body refused to turn away.
What was going on with me? What was with this girl?
Slowly she turned and looked in my direction a smile on her snow white face. Her angelic features made her appear like an angel in the airports artificial light.
Our eyes met.
Her blood red eyes on me intently,
My dark brown eyes wide.
The horrible stone in my chest that I had been carrying around seemed to disappear. And from it I heard my heart beat.
I couldn't remember Jordin,
I couldn't remember Carlie, or my dad, or even my mom.
The Cullens….
The pack…
The past.
Everything was in those Red eyes.
"Hi." The girl said in a soft voice, her eyes growing softer with mine. "I'm Jane." She whispered just a foot away from me.
"I'm Jayson." I said taking a step and filling the distance.
And everything at that moment,
My whole life…
It… All…
…Changed…
-Don't come back at all.