Her eyes opened and all she saw was a fading ceiling. Wait fading? Chihiro slowly turned her attention to the window on the opposite side of the room to see orange rays peeking through. The last time she was awake, that she remembered, the sky was blue and cloudless. She guessed she passed out after she woke up. Chihiro slowly look back at the ceiling, closed her eyes, and let out a long breath. As she recalled what happened before, new knowledge floated around her head mixed with her memories of being a human. As she let her mind drift all the new knowledge slowly settled in her mind. Chihiro's new found knowledge twisted itself in her mind though, some of her views of the world changing.

Her views on everyone was different. She knew she promised she wasn't going to change, but memories started to surface. Chihiro remembered various instances now, not all of them, and it scared her a bit. So many many of her and the Lost Ones, personal moments, memories that seemed unreal, and moments that just surrounded her ideals. Chihiro's views on everyone now was distorted, she couldn't see clearly, but it wasn't because she was confused of what she thought of them, she was confused of what they thought of her.

Some of those memories from her past life drifted through her mind and she recognized one thing...

She was a monster.

There was just a certain group of memories, a large one in fact, the just resonated in her head. It hurt to think of them, and she tried closing them out. Chihiro wanted nothing to do with that past side of her. That one memory of her attacking Hana was planted in there. Chihiro had attacked Hana mercilessly; controlled by something far greater then her herself. This one memory she allowed to play over and over again. Anger began to build up within in her mind and heart. Is this why Hana had those strong feelings towards her? Was it because of all those times she attacked her and pestered her?

How was she, a protector and the most powerful spirit known in existence, so...so evil. Attacking her own friends? Did Chihiro even want to know these things anymore? Sure she had told Haku she was ready, but some of these images were troubling beyond thought.

'I'm a monster," she thought. 'I'm a true monster.'

At that moment her eyes snapped back open to meet the orange reflecting ceiling. One word. Just one word stayed in her mind then.

Monster.

How many people did I hurt?

Monster.

How many people did I kill?

Monster.

How many places did I destroy?

Monster.

How many times did I hurt the ones I love?

Hurt gathered up inside Chihiro and her fists clenched at her side. That word was piercing her thoughts like an infestation. There seemed to be now escape for her from the word that was now poison to her. Tears welled up at the anger that gathered inside her. Why was she given these powers if she was so evil? Questions ran through her head and she forced herself to sit up. Chihiro's hands gripped the bed sheets and twisted them between her fingers.

She knew she was overreacting a bit, okay maybe a lot, but this troubled her. She didn't want to hurt anyone anymore, and some of those memories supported that. Her hands kept twisting in the bed sheets and a salty substance started to run down her face. Those memories, she didn't want them in the front of her brain rain now. Those evil ones of her hurting people. Chihiro didn't want them, not one bit.

The disrupted bed sheets kept feeling this girls fury, her anger, and her hurt. As much as they were being tortured, this wasn't a comfortable position for them, or anyone. Chihiro kept on pulling them and sinking her hands deeper and deeper into the fabric; however, a heat started to grow. The fabric started to gradually get warmer and warmer. Chihiro's mind started to take notice of this. Her mind drifted back to reality and her tears started to slow down. Chihiro inhaled for a moment as she was about to open her eyes, but something caught her nose. She smelt something, something foul. It brought familiarity into her mind, then suddenly it fell still. She knew this smell is was...

Smoke.

'Oh wait...That's okay. It's just smoke. Nothing bad so- Wait. Wait that's smoke. SMOKE?!' Chihiro thought.

At that moment her eyes flickered open to find the sheets in front of her burning. How were they burning?! She kept wondering this and she pushed herself far away from the flaming bed sheets as possible. Little did she know as she pushed herself away, the edge of the bed was just waiting to greet her. The shifting bed sheets flames caught hold of the curtain a few inches away, setting a strain of billowing flames up it. Chihiro's eyes widened and she pushed back some more, but the bed was no longer there. A scream was let out of her mouth and she crashed onto the floor with a thud.

Chihiro's body was shaking a bit and she continued to push herself away from the bed. Although, as she pushed herself away, something triggered in her. It felt familiar. It felt right. It felt...safe. She stopped pushing herself away and starred at the fire. This felt like deju vu to Chihiro. This sort of thing, what was going to to happen to her felt familiar.

Her eyes suddenly blinked and the next they were a crimson color. Her hands instinctively drew themselves from their sides, to up in front of Chihiro. Like her eyes had turned a crimson color, her hair started to retreat to that color as well. The flames in front of her reacted to the motion of her hands.

'What am I doing?' she thought.

A scream piereced Haku's ears as he talked with Chirashi, Kokatsuna, Okami and Hana. His head whipped around tot he direction of Chihiro's room. He knew he shouldn't have left her alone. Something also caught Haku's nose as well.

'Smoke?,' he thought? 'Why would there be smoke coming from her room? Only if...Is someone attacking her?!'

With a swift motion Haku rose from his chair, causing it to immediately fall against the wood floor. The others looked at him with curiosity, except Hana. She picked up on something in Haku's facial expression. It was worry. His eyes looked in the direction of Chihiro's room, and Hana knew exactly what the case was. A tinge of jealousy ran through her. Of course Haku would notice Chihiro was in trouble, but she quickly told her mind to shut up because something else caught Hana. She smelled smoke. She redirected her eyes to Chihiro's room to see smoke coming out from under the door. Her room was on fire.

As quick as Haku stood, he was at Chihiro's door, swinging it open. The others quickly followed, but Hana forced herself to stay at the table. She didn't want her feeling complicating any more meetings with Chihiro. Hana's feelings weren't in the rise place to talk to her at the moment.

As Haku's eyes scanned the room, he expected to find it burning in flames. Instead he found a giant billowing fire on the bed and Chihiro nowhere to be found. As he looked closer though his keen eyes caught her small figure in the corner, but there was something off about her appearance. Her chestnut hair was not a dark crimson red color, looking like it was matching flowing lava, while her eyes seemed to hold a flickering flame to them. His eyes widened at this and they darted back to the bed. The fire didn't consume the whole bed, but sat in a select area in the middle of the bed.

Haku's mind finally registered what was going on. Chihiro was controlling the fire on the bed. He instantly forgot about that and ran to Chihiro's side.

"Chihiro? Chihiro, are you okay? Answer me." Haku said.

Her red eyes, a second later, looked over into his emerald ones. They blinked a few times and seemed to examine him. Haku looked into her eyes and saw something he hadn't before. A new part of her flickered in her eyes. A familiar person was seen in those crimson eyes. One he hadn't seen for a long time.

"Rapisu?" he whispered, trying to test the name on his lips. As soon as that name was called the fire on the bed died down and slowly faded down to nothing. Chihiro's eyes returned to normal and her hair dimmed down to it's regular chestnut color. Chihiro's eyes then scanned Haku's face and her mouth opened.

"This memories are messing with me," Chihiro said with a sigh. "and don't call me Rapisu. I know that was my former name, and know that I have my old memories back, it seems I would welcome it. Although, I don't want to be called that...Just call me Chihiro, Haku."

Haku's facial expression suddenly changed to relief and he gave a nod.

"I know. I won't call you that again. I just wanted to try out the name, to see if you would respond. So you're finally awake. Are you feeling better?"

Chihiro then remembered the current situation she had. Those memories she had, the one she had about hurting Hana. Chihiro saw other figures out of the corner of her eye, and glanced up at the doorway to see Kokatsuna, Okami, and Chirashi standing there with faces of relief. They had thought Chihiro was injured, but she turned out to be fine; however, Chihiro noticed another figure standing close behind them. Green hair reflecting the fire that was in the living room. She knew that kind of green hair and one name registered in her head.

Hana.

Those hurtful memories of her hurting Hana banged against her head. Chihiro them shut her eyes and brought her knees up to her chest. Haku noticed this and wrapped an arm around Chihiro's body.

"What wrong?" Haku said worried. One second she was responding like her old self, then the next she was curling up beside him. "You can tell me."

Haku felt Chihiro's body let out a ragged breath and a quivering hand raised. It pointed at the door and a finger stuck out. The other, Kokatuna, Okami, and Chrashi, looked at the slender hand confused.

"Is she okay?" Kokatsuna said questioningly.

"Chihiro, what's wrong?" voiced Chirashi.

"Quite guys. She's saying something," Okami called.

Chihiro's voice crept out from under her arms.

"I can't have her here."

Haku looked confused. He looked to her arm, to the others, then back at Chihiro's small form. His arm tightened around her and he leaned forward towards her ear.

"Can't have who here?" He whispered.

"Her."

Okami and Kokatsuna looked over at Chirashi standing beside them. Chrashi looked confused and put her hands up.

"Did I do something wrong?" Chirashi asked.

"Not you," Chihiro's voice started to get ragged again. Her head lifted with tears starting to sting her eyes again. She moved her hand with a fluid motion. Suddenly Kokatuna, Okami, and Chrashi were shoved to the side by an unknown force. They looked at Chihiro with wide eyes. Tears stuck Chhihiro's eyes with frustration.

"I can't have her here!" she screamed, pointing at the doorway.

At that moment everyone turned to look at the doorway. There stood a girl with wide green eyes, staring at Chihiro. There stood Hana.

"She's causing me pain!" Chihiro cried.

Haku's eyes widened, Okami stood there with the most confused face of ALL time, Chirashi covered her mouth, and Kokatsuna eyed everyone. Haku looked from Chihiro to Hana. Once his eyes landed on Hana, they met her eyes. Her eyes were wide, with some feeling he couldn't recognize, but hurt and confusion were somewhere in there. Hana couldn't understand what Chihiro was talking about. What had she done to this girl? Sure she had rough feeling towards her, but it wasn't like she stabbed Chihiro or anything.

"What did I-" Hana tried to say, but she was interrupted.

"I can't look at you! Get out Hana! Get out!" Chihiro just screamed at Hana looking her straight in the eye.

At the Hana's fists clenched and her eyes looked into her. Her body, with a swift movement, ran away from the doorway and dashed outside. Okami, noticing this, quickly followed after her. The rest of the room was left in silence as Chihiro sat there with tears streaming down her face again.

"I'm causing her pain." Chihiro said with a whisper.

Muhahahahahahaha! The evil ninja has finally awaken! Prepare to face you- *coughs a couple times and regains composure* Okay my mind is going a bit crazy. Can you tell?Well I told you guys I'd give you an update and *drum roll* Here it is! I think I'm developing "Chapter updating syndrome". If that's even real...Hey Haku go check that out!

Haku: *runs and checks a book* No it's not real. The syndrome doesn't exist.

Me: Awwwww...Well you know what? I'm have created a new syndrome *suddenly the name appears in the book*

Haku: How did you do that?

Me: Awesomeness my friend. Ninja awesomeness to be exact. Well I seriously think I'm going to be updating a lot in the next week. Keep a lookout for a chapter coming later tonight or tomorrow my friend ;) Off to do more updating! *runs away and locks myself in a room*

Chihiro: *walks out of a room to see readers standing there staring* Ummmmm...Can I help you guys? *readers keep staring* I'm guessing Savvyzzzz didn't say something...*runs into the room I'm in then comes back out* Okay! What she meant to say was remember to review! Review! Review! Review! She says she'll give you cookies if you do. Anonymous reviews are allowed ;)