Chapter 36: Secrets

RENESMEE'S POV

The party went great; everyone congratulated us, and wished us the best. Seth and Emma were the only two, that didn't know. They had gone out for the day, and hadn't returned by the time we left so Jacob and I decided to invite them round the next day.

My grandfather took it surprisingly well. He didn't really like the fact I was making him a great grandfather, but he quickly came around. I was pleasantly surprised; I was expecting him to arrest Jacob or something. I still hadn't called my grandmother, but I decided to put that off for another day. I had had enough of saying "I'm pregnant," for one day.

The next day my grandfather was going to be at the hospital all day, Chloe, my aunts, Chantelle, my mom and grandmother all went out shopping. My mom was not happy, nor was Chloe, but they tagged along anyway since all the men went out on a hunting trip in California.

The doorbell went off whilst Jacob, and I were in the kitchen making some lunch. I stood up and went to answer the door. Jacob refused to let me make lunch, and I had to sit and watch.

"Hey Nessie!" Seth called, and pulled me into a hug. I laughed.

"Hey Seth," I greeted him with a smile. Emma then hugged me, and I motioned them inside. I made sure to wear a loose top so they wouldn't notice straight away. I led them into the kitchen, Seth greeted Jacob with a slap on the back and Emma just smiled.

"How you doing man?" Jacob asked Seth.

"I'm good, although I never thought I'd see you making lunch as your wife sits at the table. Isn't that what they're for?" he asked, I could tell he was joking. Jacob laughed.

"I know right?" he laughed. He lessened his giggles to speak. "Nah, there is a perfectly good reason why I'm doing it."

Emma looked from Jacob to me, her eyebrows rising in suspision. I avoided her gaze, my eyes on Jacob's back.

"So how come you didn't go hunting, or even shopping with your family Ness?" Seth asked changing the subject, and sitting opposite me.

"I erm… can't really do much exercise, and I'm not too keen on the blood diet anymore," I admitted, I could feel the blush coming.

"Er…. Since when?" he asked.

"Since about 3 months ago," I told him. I could see Jacob smiling as I tried to drop the hint.

"Why 3 months?" Seth asked. Jacob came over with a giant plate full of sandwiches.

"She's pregnant Seth," he blurted. Both Emma and Seth looked up at him, even I looked up. Actually I glared at him; he couldn't have been less blunt about it?

"Seriously?" Seth asked looking at me. I nodded shyly. "My niece is having a kid before me? Ugh that sucks," he moaned. Both Jacob and I laughed.

"Thanks for the congratulations man," Jacob said slapping the back of Seth's head.

"Oh right." He said turning to look at me with the biggest smile. "Congrats," he grinned then looked at Jake.

"Both of you."

"Thanks," I mumbled before turning to look at my friend sitting at my side. She was staring at me in shock.

"Really?" she asked. I nodded as I waited for her to say something more. "Well congratulations I guess," she said although her voice didn't sound so sure.

"I know it's strange from your perspective. In your society you're so used to teenage pregnancy being so wrong, but in mine it isn't. I'm not a child, or a teenager. I'm fixed at this point for the rest of my very very long life. I'm as mature as I'm ever going to be, and I'm as developed as I'm ever going to be. You know my real age, and that might freak you out more but it's happened, and it's not that different to anyone else. I have the mind of an adult; I'm even more mature than you." I said giving her a nudge and a smile.

"I can do this." I assured her. Her concerned frown fell into a smile.

"As long as you're sure. I certainly wouldn't be ready," she laughed. "Are you going back to school? You do realise you're going to get slaughtered by Amanda if you do," she said.

"I'm not going back. Neither is Chloe." I told her. Her face fell.

"Oh right." She mumbled.

"Chantelle is going into our year though. She's too old to pass as a freshman now."

"Well I guess that's something. Although I don't really talk to her," she said.

"I'll be back for senior year… I hope," I told her.

"You just going to skip junior year completely?" she asked

"Yep. I already know it all and my dad can always home school me," I said.

"Why isn't Chloe going back?"

"She's getting turned next week," I informed her.

"Oh that's still happening?" she asked.

"Yeah."

"I thought cos her mom died…"

"Yeah well she doesn't want to put it off for any longer; she knows she needs to move on so that's what she's doing. That… and I don't really want a new born vampire, around my new born child."

"Well I guess that's good. It's going to be so weird seeing her as a vamp though," she laughed. I smiled.

"I agree, I can't wait though."

"Let's just hope she has magic self-control like Bella, otherwise she'll be eating your husband for an afternoon snack." Seth grinned at me as he stuffed his mouth with sandwiches.

"Ha ha," I muttered sarcastically. "If he didn't smell so bad to them, I would be worried but I know she won't go anywhere near him," I told him

"Bella does," Seth observed.

"Bella is Bella." I said. "My mom is different."

"Well we'll see wont we? If I remember rightly, no one will be able to hold her back, if she tries to go for someone. Newborns are stronger right?" Seth asked looking at Jacob. He nodded.

"Chloe won't try, and eat me though, like Ness said, we smell just as repulsing to them as they smell to us."

"I don't think they smell that bad," Seth defended my family.

"I do," Jacob said. I glared at him. He noticed my glare. "Well I used to..." he trailed off his eyes locked with mine. "Oh come on Ness, you know you don't smell like them," I rolled my eyes.

"It's still her family," Emma mentioned.

"Well they're practically mine too, you don't always like your family," Jacob told her. She shrugged.

"You don't like them?" I asked shocked. He sighed.

"You do not understand what I'm saying. Of course I like them, but there are parts of life you don't like, and their smell is one of them. I stand it because I live here. It's not as bad as it used to be. When your mom was pregnant, and I used to spend a lot of time here it was almost unbearable. Now you're here it's not as bad." He said with a soft smile.

"Yeah, like when we used to take turns keeping Bella warm," Seth said.

"You kept Bella warm?" Emma asked. Her right eyebrow rising. "How did you do that?" she asked. Seth looked over to his imprint.

"Well you know… it was a long time ago, she's a friend…. Hey at least I didn't make out with her like Jacob," he argued. Jacob and I glared at Seth; Jake slapped him upside the head.

"That was even longer ago," Jacob said.

"Wait you made out with Bella? Your wife's mother?" Emma asked. I groaned. I so didn't want to have this conversation.

"Yeah," Jacob admitted awkwardly, he looked over at me. I was staring down at my hands as I rested them over my stomach.

"Yeah, he was in love with her for quite a while. Totally hated it when she got pregnant with Edwards kid, he wanted to kill Nessie, so did Edward. It wasn't a good time to be in Jacob's head. All that pain he suffered seeing the girl he loved in pain-" Seth said. My head shot up.

"What?" I interrupted. Did I hear what he had said right?

"Oh god. SETH!" Jacob said once again hitting Seth.

"You wanted me dead?" I asked my voice breaking.

"Oh you didn't know that?" Seth asked. I didn't answer him.

"No she didn't," Jacob said, his voice was sad as he stared at me.

"What did you mean 'so did Edward?' Did my dad want to kill me?" I asked.

"Well not really kill you… he wanted to terminate Bella's pregnancy because you were killing her…" Seth trailed off.

"So basically he wanted to kill me!" I nearly shouted at him.

"Ok yeah I guess… technically, but he didn't know who you were then, he only cared about Bella." Seth said. The more he spoke the worse it got. I think Jacob noticed too.

"Seth just shut up." Jacob told him. He didn't look away from my face. I felt the tears already falling from my eyes. My emotions and hormones were heightened, and hearing two of the most important men in my life wanted me dead, at one point completely shattered my heart. Jacob stood up and walked over to me. I was frozen in place. He reached for my face but I flinched away from him. His face dropped.

"Renesmee… you have to understand that that isn't who I am now. That was a long time ago and I was different then," he said. I wasn't looking at him but I could see him in the corner of my eye. He started to blur as the tears poured out again. "Sweetheart please don't cry" he said, his voice cracking. I took a deep breath. "It wasn't me; it isn't who I am now. That wasn't your Jacob." He tried to persuade me.

"It was Bella's Jacob right?" I asked, I didn't mean for it to come out harshly, it just… did.

"You could put it like that I guess." He said, I felt his warm hand rest on my back and I was surprised I didn't flinch away. "It's not who I am now. I would never ever wish that on you. You have to realise that now, all the things I've done for you, all the times I've saved you, and your family. All the things I've done to make you happy. I would die to protect you now and I will never ever, in my very long life forgive myself for what I thought back then." He said. This time I managed to look into his eyes as he spoke to me. How could I be mad at him? He was right. He had given everything up to be with me, he did everything for me. I nodded slightly and I reached my hand to his cheek to gently caress his skin.

"I forgive you," I whispered; my tears drying. His smile lit up my world. As if it was a nudge of encouragement I felt my baby move for the first time inside me. I smiled widely and reached for his hand, I placed it over where I felt the baby and waited again. The baby moved again and Jacobs smile was so big it was covering his whole face; he leant forward to give me a quick peck on the lips.

"There better not be any more secrets because I don't think I can handle any more," I told him, back tracking a little to our previous conversation.

"There aren't any more I promise," he said with a smile.

"Good."

"And don't be mad at your dad. He regrets it just as much as me," he told me. I could see the concern he felt towards my father, I smiled at the clear friendship they had for each other.

"I promise. I might use it against him but I understand that you didn't know. You both thought I was a monster for killing my mom and I don't blame you." I told him.

"Well they got a beautiful baby girl out of it though so it's all good," Seth grinned. I looked over to him, nearly forgetting he was here. Emma was sitting next to him now. I smiled at him.

"We did," Jacob agreed giving me a kiss on my temple.

"Alright let's have some fun." Seth called and stood up. I laughed as he tugged me into the cinema room.

Jacob, Emma, Seth, and I watched movies all day until my family started to re-emerge in the house.

I was tempted to make Renesmee act all annoyed and storm off into her bed room just how a teenager normally would but I decided after I wrote it that I wanted to change it. I didn't want her acting like a spoiled brat running off to cry. I wanted to show how much she's grown as a person and that she isn't just a teenager anymore. Of course her hormones still affected her but not to the extreme. I might put the alternate version onto my blog soon. Next chapter is Chloe's POV, only a few more chapters until she's turned :D

As for those who are asking about Chloe being able to get pregnant, Chloe CAN get pregnant as a vampire, as long as it's with Eddie in the moon pool he was conceived in. That will be brought up again soon.