I'm trash. Here's my very first take of writing a lemon scene. Feel free to rip it to shreds all in the name of future improvements. Also, bear in mind that this is an AU so the rules of procreation in cannon does not apply here.

- Ryan Bright

P.S. I dare you to spot the obvious reference.

Chapter 37: Only Us

He has power while the other has an army, but he who waits for the perfect strike shall claim the boon.

- Alexander Gustav, Rogue Trader

Her spirits soared as he said those words. Suddenly, as if a switch was flipped, her vision held only him. They were together and nothing else mattered. Their faces inched towards the other, their noses touched as their breathing became heightened. Her lips parted slightly as they looked at each other. She saw the silent question that he was asking and she responded by closing her eyes and tilting her head slightly. Their lips met once again, softly at first, and then progressed in intensity that made her cling to him as the only pillar for support in a swift dizzying world. Heat emanated from her stomach causing a sensation never before felt. She was unsure whether it was because of the warmth of the pool that they were on or something else.

Breaking off again she gazed at him. Her body tingled at his touches, his darkened eyes looked at her with longingness. It was confusing, it was frightening and yet it felt as if it was the only right thing in a galaxy full of wrongs. Rodemman cupped her cheeks as his breath caressed her lips. Her mind was in a daze, nothing else mattered but the two of them and the present.

She pulled herself closer to him and sat on his lap as he sat cross-legged. She rested her head onto the crook of his neck as he cradled her. They were silent but unlike earlier, it was the comforting and contented sort. Rodemman stroked her hand with his. Despite their hands were vastly different with his calloused and brutish while hers was smooth and elegant, it was more than enough to put a smile on her face. Uelesh closed her eyes.

"Uelesh." He called out her name under his breath.

The eldar responded by pulling him closer and pressing her lips to his once again. She held onto his hair, touched his bare back as he in turned massaged her sides. For the first time, she allowed instincts to takeover. Uelesh threw what she had learned and known of its dangers temporarily as she shifted to face him. Her eyes fell on his chest, a map of scars telling all the hardships that he has endured. Uelesh was a mix of being horrified and amazed at the collection of scars that Rodemman had received even if she had seen it at least once or twice before.

She felt Rodemman hold her hand and gave it a light squeeze. She looked up to see a reassuring smile on his face. She squeezed back. Both stared at each other, unmoving until an urge to trace his curved lips overcame Uelesh. After several laps on it using her fingers, his voice tickled her ears.

"Are you really that fond of kisses, Uelesh?" He asked as his chest rumbled.

In return, she pouted. "It's not that I'm fond of it. It's just because that 'kisses' aren't exactly a gesture known to our culture. At least, before we learned to coexist with your race here in Fonral." She explained.

"Lofn often told stories of the more...intimate nature. She always said that it was quite an experience but I often ignore it. This is my first time doing it."

"And now?" Rodemman cocked an eyebrow at her with a smirk.

She let out a low chuckle of her own. Leaning down closely to him and placing her hands on his cheeks, Uelesh pressed her forehead to his and her nose to his.

Uelesh whispered. "I may actually grow fond of it especially since it's with you."

The two pressed each other's lips to the other in a chaste kiss. Uelesh's neck exploded as Rodemman began tracing it with his mouth. He alternated between kissing it and softly sucking it. The action made her moan and had her clinging to his form tighter. By now, the sensation at her core had only worsened and she could already feel something aching within her. Rodemman paused at his efforts as Uelesh's hand landed gently on his cheeks. With a flushed face that rivaled her cousin's fiery hair, she positioned herself so that more of her would be freed from the misty veil.

For a moment, Rodemman stared at her in astonishment, his lips parted slightly as he gawked at her. Uelesh felt her cheeks burned even harder, if that was even possible. He was staring at her as if she was a miracle that had graced a ravaged planet. She suppressed the urge to cover her breasts as his eyes roamed her. He swallowed.

"A-Are you sure?" He asked uncertainly and with a slight shake in his voice.

Instead of replying, she opted to act. Still sitting on him, she leaned down and their lips crashed yet again. It was a fervor driven moment. He nipped at her lower lip as they parted before joining once again in frenzy. Both were pressing themselves harder to each other, wanting to get closer. They were essentially glued together, skin to skin, a heady mix of the water's and their bodies' heat, and the frictionless slide of damp skin.

Ueleh's body shivered at each contact, she felt more invigorated than she had ever felt before. It only intensified when she felt his tongue enter her mouth. She yelped in surprise but was muffled by their joining. She was again, experiencing another first, something that had never crossed her mind, something that she even dismissed as unimportant. For her, it was incredible.

Rodemman faltered at her reaction and attempted to break away. Uelesh denied him and held him with her arms locked behind his neck. She began mimicking his tongue's movements, learning as she went. Their tongues intertwined their forms pressed against each other, her breast upon his chest. They broke apart, panting and were recovering their breath. Both were reluctant to separate themselves from each other. After a few moments, they continued on though frequently broke off in short intervals.

Uelesh moaned as Rodemman cupped her right breast and started slowly massaging it while his free hand caressed her back. What started as mere light touches to which she sighed approvingly was now sending shivers down her spine. She then felt something poke at her leg that prompted her to open her eyes. The guardsman paused as she curiously looked through the clear water. She knew what it was, what its use was for these circumstances. Though she had resolved herself, she couldn't help but feel a tinge of fear creeping up to her. As if sensing her apprehension, Rodemman planted his lips on her forehead taking her attention from his manhood.

His visage filled her sight. "You don't have to force yourself."

She returned the kiss and smiled. "I'm not, I'm just a bit...scared."

The look that he gave him was painted with worry.

"We don't have to rush these things." He said but fell on deaf ears.

Experimenting, she lightly brushed the top which elicited a groan from Rodemman. Feeling her confidence returning, she decided to be a bit bolder. She grasped the shaft and began stroking it. She was once again rewarded by a moan along with her name being mentioned under his breath. She smirked at his expression but when he caught sight of it, he retaliated. In one swift motion that surprised the eldar, he carried her out of the water and onto dry land. Walking towards the alcove where they first sat, she was guided to lie down onto the clear blue surface of the crystals. He then hovered above her, watching her.

Pinned below him and between his arms, she felt vulnerable but at the same time safe. His lips buried deep into her mouth then traced a line to her cheek, neck, then in between her chest. Cupping the left much like he did earlier, he then placed his mouth on the right and began sucking it all the while massaging and teasing the other. Uelesh arched her back in ecstasy. He switched from left to right before returning to the other. The cycle continued as he massaged, licked, sucked and occasionally nipped at her. She felt something leak below her.

"Rodemman." She worded breathlessly.

His response was to kiss her again and burrow his tongue into her. They battled for supremacy with Uelesh winning and were pushing him back. Their skin pressed against each other. His body was on top of her, pushing down on her but was careful to not crush her. Her arms were wrapped around his neck to keep him still. He broke off shortly and once again hovered above her. He positioned himself in preparation to enter her.

Rodemman looked at her with eyes that shone. Uncertain, nervous, she saw the same things that had wracked her.

"Can I?" He asked quietly.

It was a simple question of his. One that could be answered by yes and no and depending on her answer, he would surely continue pleasuring her or respectfully stop. She knew him like the back of her hand despite the short time that they have known each other. And she knew that he would never force himself on her. She was tempted to say yes but the risks presented it selves to her. The prospect of pregnancy, albeit appealing to her woman side could pose problems considering the war that they were currently raging against Chaos as well as her role in the grand scheme of things.

"Uelesh." Rodemman called out to her bringing her out of her thoughts.

"I told you earlier that you don't have to force yourself." He said while stroking her cheeks.

"I still stand by my words."

She knew that postponing what they were doing would be beneficial but she couldn't help but feel somewhat guilty for denying him the moment given all the things that he had done for her. Also, she felt a pang of disappointment for not being able to push the experience further. She was just as curious and excited as the next maiden wrapped in her lover's arms.

"Hey, it's alright. Besides, rushing this will only complicate things." He assured her as he lay beside her.

Uelesh rolled to her side to face him. "But...isn't it wrong to-"

Her eyes widened as he placed a finger to her lips. He chuckled before pulling his finger back.

"So it also works on you huh?" Uelesh snorted, amused that he had copied her way of silencing him.

"Uelesh...I am neither the most saintly of men nor the most worthy for a partner. I have done more sins within the span of seven years than I could have ever imagined. I have killed and killed and killed for the sake of an ideal that had caused the rotting of our Imperium. But know this, my love for you is real and I'll damn myself to the warp if ever I somehow managed to hurt you." Rodemman said as he continued to look at her eyes.

"Your affection alone is enough for me. Pleasures of the flesh do not exactly bother me that much or does it rank highly in my priory list. So you do not need to rush yourself. I am more than happy to know that you care about me and that I have finally expressed my own affection." He said.

"But...you never had the time or opportunity too...have your release." She said meekly.

She may be lacking in experience but she was not truly oblivious to the subject of sexual intercourse. Her mother, Lofn and Elain had made sure of that. Her mother gave her the so called "talk" when she just reached the age of maidenhood explaining a lot of things and sharing both her wisdom and experiences which was enough to enlighten, fluster a young Uelesh and make her understand that it was not something that one should do in a whim. Lofn on the other hand shared her stories and what she knew about the subject to an unwilling listener which was often times, her. But surprisingly, even if the nature of her stories were often explicit, it all held underlying lessons that not only warns of the consequences of engaging in "casual and impulsive" sexual intercourse but also sings of the rewards if done at when one is prepared, at the right time and with the right partner.

She was unsure but she would always catch a sad look on the face of her former master every time she finishes her narrative. It piqued Uelsh's curiosity at the time, it still does but she respected her friend's privacy. Lastly, Elain was open and understanding and would often share her thoughts from time to time to further guide Uelesh behind closed doors either by a secured vox channel or in person. But despite all that, it still felt embarrassing for her to say things regarding it outright.

"And neither have you. But I am more than willing to wait for when you are ready. I...I don't want to ruin this just because one of us is eager to please the other. I'd rather burn a thousand fold than to make that mistake."

His words brought relief to her heart. She inched closer to his body. She was accepted and she used his outstretched arm as a pillow. A comfortable silence settled as they basked with each other's company. Her eyelids felt heavy and she knew that sleep was near.

"I love you." Although he had told him the same words earlier, it still brought an unexplainable sensation in her chest.

"I love you too." He replied.

Uelesh was then envelope in Rodemman's arms as they cuddled for warmth. Neither was willing to break away nor leave each other for their clothes. With closed eyes, she mumbled as sleep closed in on her.

"Thank you...for everything."

She felt the deep rumble in Rodemman's chest. Knowing that he had entered the realms of sleep, she followed him into blissful sleep.