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Warning! This chapter is NOT for the faint of heart and is another reason this has a mature rating.
Ch. 38 Scream for Me!
For a few days things went by pretty fast. I slept a lot most of it not by choice. Genesis seemed to be keeping me in a weak state so I had no chance of resisting. He only stayed for about an hour each time and I slept the rest of the time. After the first day I started to do my best to remember what I could about this place. I had tried to follow G to see where he might be going or if he left, but he either stayed here or disappeared after going so far.
I only knew the time thanks to G. He always came in at the same times every day. Every once in a while he would make a log. That told me what day it was. According to that I have been here for a month. So far he has not really done that much to me. The horrible mako he uses burns my arm and gives me the worst burning sensation. I thought after a while it would lessen, but it seems to only get worse. The mark it leaves on my arm is getting worse as well. I think even G is starting to get bothered by it. I woke up one day to find him cleaning it up. He actually put it in the other arm because of that. I was glad and unhappy with that at the same time. That arm was constantly hurting me.
Every day during the brief moments I was awake and alone I talked to someone here hoping they will not completely think that they are crazy and hearing voices. Someone in here might think that there is the possibility that someone else is actually talking to them. So far that has done little. They still think they are crazy. Maybe I should count myself among them? Whatever G is doing he seems intent on getting something out of it all. I have no idea what his intentions with me are, but I don't like where things are going. He seems too excited and as if he wants me to react a certain way. He usually looks disappointed when he leaves.
Today Genesis declared that he had something special for me. "I've planned something special. I need some data to test against and you will be helping me today. Because you have been enhanced it works out perfectly. I need all the data I can get. The longer you hold out the longer this will go" He said pulling over a small table. "This will be painful and slow." He said smiling at me. Hopefully...I heard him say in my head. Lately he has been letting me hear what he was thinking.
He had brought something in with him and now he was hooking it up to the computer and put it over my head. "That will monitor your brain activity while I do this." He told me as he looked at the table and picked up a few items. I saw a gun, a scalpel, a hammer and nails and some other things that he seemed to have randomly picked. I looked at it nervously. I had an idea of what he might be doing with all of that stuff.
He started by picking up the scalpel. He didn't bother wearing gloves. The scalpel did not even look sharp. "Now. Where should I start?" He said looking me over. He moved the table beside him so he could stand closer to me. "I think I'll start with your arm and go from there." He said smiling. He had this gleam in his eyes. He was very excited about this and he was going to enjoy it.
He put it on my skin and held it there for a moment. Then he slowly pushed down on it letting it cut me. Once he could see some blood he cut up my arm until he got to my elbow. Since it was dull it took longer than it should and it did not cut right. It was a jagged cut that curved up my arm and I felt every bit of it. I watched cringing the whole time, but towards the end I had to close my eyes. All I could do was clench my teeth and bear it. It hurt, but I could handle this. He looked at me and saw the tears in my eyes. He wiped them away with a bloody hand and left a streak of blood on my cheek. That was worse than him cutting me. I tried to jerk away from him.
He smiled and put it down grabbing the hammer as he looked at the computer and marked something on the notepad he had with him. Then he slammed the hammer down onto my hand hard. I had been prepared for it so only a long groan came from me as I clenched my teeth. He did this one more time and I whimpered at the pain and cried a little more, but there was no scream. Hojo had put me through some painful things, but I must say that this is much much worse.
"Hm. I guess you need more than that." He said. He grabbed the gun and moved it over to my chest. He stared at me for a moment without moving or saying a word. "I almost don't want to do it, but then again...I really do need to." He said evilly. He smiled and leaned in close so I could feel his breath. His eyes narrowed and I felt the barrel of the gun against my right shoulder. I suddenly realized the whole point of this.
He wants me to scream, but he wants me to hold out as long as I can. He must be using that for something, but I think he enjoys it too. Should I give up now so he'll stop? Will he actually stop?
He fired and pain shot through me. Because of the table I was lying on the bullet couldn't go through it and ended up bouncing around inside my body. It became hard to breath and I involuntarily let out a small scream because of it. I coughed up blood only realizing it when he wiped his face. "I'm sure that was painful and you will probably need some attention afterward, but I have to keep going."
He immediately started a mako I.V. I understood the reason for it, but would almost have appreciated him having started that sooner. It would help heal the wounds he was inflicting, but it would probably hurt me at the same time. After that he picked up the hammer and nails and started pounding them into my arm. I groaned every time and coughed up any blood that was collecting. When he finished he went to the computer and marked some more on his notepad with a grin.
"Well, that part is over, but I'm not really satisfied. I noticed that you're holding back. I wonder why?" I looked away and a moment later I felt his lips on my stomach and a hand on my breast. "It has just occurred to me..." He said softly.
Now what?
"You're a virgin, correct?" I just looked at him confused for a moment.
What do you want?
He laughed aloud for a moment. "I'm surprised that he never had you." He said. I knew what he meant. "He seems the type for that sort of thing, but I guess you aren't." He said finally looking at me.
"Aren't you…done here...?" I said looking away. He laughed again. He chose not to actually say anything at that moment. He put his hand on my leg for a moment and then started to adjust my restraints. It was a little confusing for me since I could move a little more now. It meant I could try to hurt him if he got too close. He paused to look me over for a moment.
"You really are a pretty little thing." He said. He moved up and put his arms around my neck. "I can see why he loves you." He said in my ear. He leaned forward and kissed me. He made it so that I could not look away from him. I held my mouth shut until he finished. "I think...he should have taken you." He had maneuvered himself so that he was laying on top of me. It was enough to remind me of that day years ago. I could still remember how I had felt. Sephiroth had been there for me, but he was not here and he was not going to save me...not this time. I felt all of those feelings returning along with a sense of fear. "Are you scared?" He said smiling.
I was shaking and I could not say anything. There was one key difference between the memory and now. I was hardly scared of those first class soldiers. They made me feel angry, but G is totally different. I'm injured and can barely move. The blood loss is making me feel tired and now all of the adrenaline pumping through me is making things worse for me. I felt his hands exploring me and I felt him kissing my neck. I could not really move so all I could do was cry. I heard him laughing. "Don't worry. It'll get so much better." He said. He sat up and smiled before he started to undo his pants. He looked very determined and he did it slow. I knew what was coming and I could not help but shake and cry.
What should I do? How do I stop this? I thought frantically. "Stop!" I screamed at him. He froze and smiled even more.
"What was that?" He said leaning forward.
"Stop." I said crying and coughing. I repeated it several times.
"Now, was that really so hard?" He said slowly getting off of me. "That is all I wanted. An honest show of fear without holding back." He said after he finished zipping up his pants. Then he turned on the water to wash his hands. It suddenly occurred to me that he had never even intended to go any further than what he did. He knew how I would react. He was counting on it.
"G?! What the hell are you doing?" It was Angeal. Genesis paused for a moment to look at him and then calmly continued to wash his hands. "What have you done to her? This is not what we agreed on." He said angrily. He looked over me cringing. Genesis just glared at him. He did not say a word and then left the room abruptly. I was glad that he did. I was ready for him to be gone. "Lilia, I'm sorry this happened." He said looking shocked. I just shook my head.
"It's not your fault." I whispered. That seemed to make things worse. He backed away from me slowly.
"It is my fault." He said before leaving. I watched him go wondering what he had meant by that. It did not take long for me to forget what he had said. I was losing blood and it was starting to get hard to think. After a few minutes I was out and dreaming horrible nightmares.
Author: Revised.