Uncertain ch29

A/N: Remember that I kinda sorta issued a warning in my group that it's NOT all sunshine and roses from here on out?

Well you might need a tissue or two for this one, I know that I did.

Thank you, as ever, to my lovely beta, Bnjwl and to my pre-readers, Mamadog93 and Eternally Edward's girl – I love you all.

Buckle up and enjoy!

EPOV

Bella had agreed to marry me, was my first thought as I roused from sleep.

I smiled and tightened my arms around her as she slept against my chest, our legs entwined and her breath stuttered across my chest.

She was going to be my wife. She would be mine forever.

I knew it was so quick and my divorce papers were barely dry, but I knew without a doubt this time it wasn't a mistake.

When I married Irina, I had my doubts. I should have listened. I should have told my family to back the fuck off, trusted my gut and walked the hell away.

But, I didn't.

I have two regrets in my life; not leaving my name & phone number for Bella and marrying Irina. I would spend the rest of my life making damn sure that I make it up to Bella and my son. When they needed me, I wasn't there, and I will never forgive myself for that.

I almost felt like the wind was knocked out of me when I thought about the 'what if's' of me not having walked into that hospital room. What if I had not accidentally been called in to that room for the birth of my son? How I would live my life without having experienced that moment?

Before I knew what happened, I couldn't breathe, I was overcome with sorrow and pain; this had to be the exact way that Bella felt when she found out about Anthony and had no way to contact me.

"I'm so sorry, Bella. I'm so fucking sorry," I sobbed, tears flowed from my eyes faster than I could clear them away.

"Edward?" Bella said as she sat up quickly. She immediately pulled me to her.

"Bella, oh God, I'm so damn sorry. I almost lost you. I almost fucked everything up." I cried. She sat across my lap, her hands came up to cradle my face.

"Shhh, Edward, shhh, it's over. I'm here. You're here." She pulled my body flush against hers and hugged my face to her neck. Her voice whispered over and over how much she loved me, how we'd get through this, and we'd be together forever.

I clung to her.

"I love you, Edward. I'm here. I love you and we're going to be a family; me, you and Anthony." Bella comforted me as I continued to hold her tight against me, I breathed her in her scent, and I felt her fingers run through the hair at the nape of my neck in a calming way.

"What happened, baby? Why are you so upset?" she asked when she pushed me back to look in my eyes.

"I just," I struggled to catch my breath, "I just started thinking," I stopped and tried to calm my breathing down through my tears.

Bella's hands cupped my face and her hands held my chin so that our eyes locked.

"I started to think about how you must have felt without knowing who I was or where I was. And, then it hit me how close I came to almost missing out on everything. Having you in my life and being there when Anthony was born," I struggled as another sob hit me and my chest felt like it was going to explode.

"I imagined the overwhelming sense of loss that I was feeling at just the thought of not finding you and our son, and I realized it was how you must have felt. It hurts Bella. I'm so sorry that I hurt you that way." I clung to her again, and I felt her own tears fall on my skin as we wrapped our bodies around each other, her words came in reassured responses to my ears.

"I'm sorry." I repeated over and over.

"I'm here," she continued to reply.

It felt like an eternity that we stayed that way before we both pulled back, we took turns wiping the tears off of each other's face. "Edward, I know that you're sorry. Yes, that pain was devastating for me when I realized that you were gone and I was pregnant. But, it's behind us, we're together now." She held my face in her hands and kissed my cheeks, my nose, my eyelids before she softly pushed her lips against mine.

I let the feel of her wash over me, calm me, even me out.

She WAS here.

She WAS mine.

It had all worked out.

Before we could get too carried away, I pulled back and looked at her beautiful face.

"Bella, I am sorry and I want us to move forward from the past. But, I have to know that we can talk it all out, put it all behind us and truly go on with our lives. I think we might need to sit down and talk to a counselor or something. If you could agree to that?" I asked, hopeful that we truly could move forward.

She smiled at me and nodded, "I think it's only the smart thing to do. Apparently, we're both carrying around some pretty heavy baggage from our time apart."

And just like that, we leaned into one another, kissed and we were one again.

A short time later, Bella's stomach growled and I laughed.

"We need to shower so we can eat and then head back home. I miss Anthony." I admitted and she hummed her agreement against my neck where her face was buried.

"Shower with me, Edward?" she asked as she sat up, her beautiful tits were right in my face, they caused my semi-hard cock to stand at full attention.

I would never get satisfied of her body. I would always want and need her this much. We had so much time to make up for and we were both just as ravenous for the other.

I loved it.

"Water conservation is high on my list of priorities," I replied with a smirk and ground her hips against me with my hands firm against her skin.

She moaned her eyes filled with lust, "Come on, Doctor Masen, let's go shower."

I picked her up as she squealed in surprise, but I carried her to the bathroom and sat her down. We both went into action. We started the water, gathered the towels and shower essentials before we stepped, together, into the enormous shower.

There were two jet streams from each side, so neither of us was without the heat of the water.

I watched as she stepped under the spray, tilted her head back and closed her eyes.

She was fucking gorgeous and she loved me. How I got that lucky, I'll never know, but I thanked the lucky stars every single day. I promise to treat her like the most precious of souls as long as I'm allowed to worship her in this way.

I leaned forward and slowly suckled on her taut nipple, she gasped, her eyes flew open and she moaned. I continued to run my tongue over and over the hard tip, I sucked and bit my way around it.

Her hands came down around my head to hold me to her, just as my hands came around her to pick her up. I turned her back to the middle wall so that both streams came at us from the sides.

My mouth never left her skin as I positioned myself at her entrance and waited for her eyes to meet mine.

"Fuck me, Masen. Take all of me," she said a wicked grin on her lips. She knew it drove me wild when she called me that. It took me back to that weekend, when I fell hard for her.

"Your wish is my command," I answered just as I pushed hard up into her pussy. She was tight, wet and so damn hot. I groaned and began to suck on her neck while my hips found a solid routine of pushing into her, further and further, until we were completely connected.

"Do you feel that, Bella? Do you feel how deep inside of you I am? This is where I belong. This is what makes me feel whole, being inside of you, feeling what you do to me and hearing what I do to you. That's us," I said through thrusts and whimpers, before she brought her dark gaze head around to meet my eyes.

There were tears in her eyes.

"We fit perfect," her words sent a wave of emotions through me and I began to pound into her over and over as she struggled not to fall too quickly.

I knew that I was close, I could feel it in my gut and soon my balls began that familiar tingle, I didn't want it to end. I didn't want to lose this moment.

"Forever, Edward," she whispered to me before she attacked my lips and we both fell together.

At that moment, I was certain that we were going to be okay, we would figure it out, because we had forever ahead of us.

A/n: See, the rough times might not be completely over yet…there's a big puzzle piece missing for both of them. But, it'll all come out in due time, my lovelies.

So, Saturday you will be getting Elizabeth POV outtake, part 3. I do believe that it's one that you've all be anxiously waiting on hearing about from her;)

And, kudos to ALL of you that read and review, this fic is now over the 2300 mark in reviews, something that doesn't happen to me often. Two lucky readers have been able to read the outtake for being the 2200th and 2300th reviewers. I cannot THANK YOU all enough. It makes me smile so big and pushes me to write faster and more!

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See ya Saturday,

Kyla