I have a throbbing headache right now and just want to lay down and go to bed, but I promised you all on Twitter that I would update, so I am. :)
My life has turned around a lot these past two weeks and I couldn't be happier. Work, boys, friends. All that stuff is going much better now.
Anyway, here is the next chapter. It is over 4,100 words so I hope you enjoy it lol.
I just want to say as well, there is an anonymous review who keeps rudely telling me to update. Please stop, being rude and swearing doesn't make me update any quicker. Asking nicely is fine.
Enough rambling, enjoy! :)
This Is Our Song: Chapter 38
That night I had a breakdown, it was after dinner and I could hear Melody crying upstairs.
Shane was talking to my dad so I sighed, going upstairs to Caitlyn's room to get her. I picked her up from her crib and held her close to my chest, bouncing her gently to try and calm her down. She wouldn't stop crying and I was getting frustrated. I checked her diaper, tried to feed her but she wouldn't have it, she just wanted to cry.
"Melody, please be quiet for mummy." I tried to calm her down, rocking her in my arms.
A couple minutes later she was still crying and I was in tears myself, "Shane!" I cried out at the top of my lungs.
He appeared in the doorway a moment later and looked at me concerned, "Mitchie, what's wrong?" He asked, seeing me crying, as he shut the bedroom door behind him.
"What's wrong? Melody won't stop crying." I raised my voice at him, more tears falling down my face.
He came over to me and I handed Melody to him, sitting down on Caitlyn's bed as I continued on crying.
Shane tried to calm Melody down himself but was failing as I had, "Mitchie, why are you so upset. It's okay, babies cry."
"I am the one who has been beckoning to her cries all day," I wept, "Don't get me wrong because you have been great with her but just today, it's like you have switched off being a dad since we got here this morning."
"How can I switch off being a dad?" He asked me sarcastically, "I am her dad, I will always be her dad no matter what."
Melody was still crying and I stood up to yell, "I am exhausted Shane, even after three weeks. I don't want to leave her because I know I'm not ready for that. But I need some help with her, I know you help me a lot but I need it that much more because we are first-time parents and I have no idea what I am doing. I am only twenty and am doing my best to be the best mom I can be."
"Damn straight I help you out a lot," He shouted at me, "I'm not much older than you Mitchie, I am doing my best as well at being a parent. It's hard, we knew this and if you need more help all you have to do is ask. You don't have to get all hysterical about things and try and pick a fight with me."
"Well I'm sorry then if I get upset about things," I screamed, "I'm sorry I'm not a perfect wife who is happy and smiling all the time!"
"I don't expect you to be perfect!"
The bedroom door swung open to reveal my mother, I knew she and my dad would easily have been able to hear everything, "Pass me Melody." She told Shane.
I held my head in my hands and tried to contain myself as I heard the door close again, meaning my mom had left with Melody.
"Shane."I breathed out, pushing my hair out of my face, the tears were still streaming down my face.
He came over to me instantly, wrapping his arms around me tightly, "Shh, it's okay." He assured me, "Everything is okay."
I sobbed into his shirt, "I'm sorry." I apologised.
"It's okay." He promised me, kissing the top of my head, "You're just really tired and need some rest. Go to sleep, I'll look after Melody for the night."
I nodded into his chest before looking up at him, leaning up to kiss him gently.
…
We decided to stay at my parents for longer than a few days as they were helping us out a lot with Melody and teaching us a lot as well.
Shane and I had started taking turns at night, getting up to feed Melody from bottles I had prepared earlier in the day.
It meant we'd get six hours of sleep or so before having to get up to her cries. A little after two am, after being at my parent's house for a week, Melody woke up crying. I felt Shane shift next to me, "Your turn." He told me groggily.
"Yours." I mumbled, even though I knew it was my turn.
I didn't expect him to get up but he did. He got out of bed and went over to Melody, picking her up out of the crib and taking her downstairs.
Around ten minutes or so later, Shane returned to bed and I was more awake now, feeling guilty for not getting up.
"I'm sorry." I whispered as he wrapped his arms around me.
"It's fine." He murmured into my ear, "Just go back to sleep."
"You need to go out." My mom decided the next morning over breakfast.
"I don't want to." I told her watching my dad holding Melody in his arms.
"Your mom is right," Shane agreed, "Melody is a month old now and this is the only place you've been. How about we just go to the mall or something today? We'll go get some lunch."
"I'll look after her for you." My mom said as Melody let out a gurgle, making me smile.
I didn't want to leave her at all, but a small break sounded good.
"Are you sure you two will be alright?" I asked.
"We will be fine, won't we?" My dad asked in baby talk, talking to Melody.
"I'll go get ready." I decided, getting up from the breakfast table and going upstairs.
Shane got up and followed me and I quickly got changed into a pair of black skinny-leg jeans, a white singlet top with a red long-sleeved plaid shirt over the top.
Shane got changed into a pair of blue jeans with a simple bright blue shirt and he watched me apply a little makeup.
It was moments like this that I was thankful that my hair was already naturally straight; I didn't bother doing anything with it other than brushing it so I was ready to go.
"I'm ready." I announced.
"We don't have to leave yet," Shane chuckled, "It's only ten am."
I shrugged my shoulders, "It doesn't matter; the mall is open."
He held my hand in his and I grabbed my handbag, making sure I had my cell phone so I could home to check up on Melody. We came downstairs to see Melody lying on her back on a blanket in the living room, both of my parents were sitting on the ground by her.
"We are going." Shane announced, squeezing my hand gently.
"Just call us if you need us," My mom informed us, "We have some bottles in the refrigerator still so there is no need to worry."
I didn't want to leave her but knew it would just get harder and harder as time went on. I went over to Melody and picked her up carefully, holding her close.
"Be good for Grandma and Grandpa." I told her a little tearfully.
She let out a gurgle and Shane leant over to kiss her on the forehead, "We'll be home soon." He promised her. I set her back down on the ground gently and Shane almost had to drag me out of the house and over to his Hummer. He helped me in and I put my sunnies on, trying to hide my tears.
"I miss her already." I pouted as we pulled out of the driveway.
"I do too, but she is safe. She is with your parents." Shane reminded me.
"I know...I just can't help but miss her but I am glad to be able to have some time on our own."
We got the mall twenty minutes later and walked hand-in-hand until we got to a clothes store that I liked.
I was going through the racks and sighed.
"What's wrong?" Shane asked concerned.
"I can't wear these types of clothes yet. I'm a fatty at the moment."
Shane rolled his eyes at me and I pouted.
"I told you, you aren't fat. Let's go look at shoes or something then instead." He proposed.
"I like that idea." I beamed as he wrapped an arm around my shoulder and we left the store.
After looking at shoes and calling home to check up on Melody, Shane and I drove to a nearby restaurant for lunch.
I was fidgeting as we were waiting for our food to arrive and Shane knew why.
"She is fine; you have already called up to check on her."
"I know, I'm sorry. It just feels weird still." I apologized.
After lunch, I was so anxious to get home and Shane gave in, we got home a little after two o'clock.
As soon as I got in the door I raced into the kitchen to see my mom sitting at the kitchen table, watching the television with Melody in her arms.
"You weren't that long." She noted.
I reached out my hands and my mom passed me Melody, I brought her into my chest, "I missed Melody." I admitted.
"She might be a little hungry." My mom told me.
"Thank you for looking after her and helping Shane and I out."
"You are my daughter, I'd do anything for you Mitchie."
"I love you." I smiled at her.
"I love you too," She smiled back at me, "Now go feed Melody before she starts crying." She instructed me.
I carried Melody upstairs into my bedroom to see Shane sitting on my desk on my laptop, "I hope you don't find my naked pictures on there."
He turned around, an amused expression on his face, "You have naked pictures that I don't know about?"
"Of course not; I'm not that stupid." I laughed.
He reverted his gaze back to my laptop as I began to feed Melody, "What's your favorite song of mine?" He asked me.
"'Gotta Find You'." I answered without skipping a beat, "Why?"
"I'm on YouTube, I'm going to search videos that people have made of us."
I heard the first song he ever wrote for me start playing, I glanced over at the laptop to see clips of us at award shows, concerts, interviews and so on, playing along to it.
"We make a pretty attractive couple." Shane laughed as the video finished.
"Yeah, Melody is going to be a heartbreaker when she is older. With our DNA how can't she be?" I joked.
I burped her at this and Shane came over and sat besides me as I began to hum softly to get her to sleep. Soon enough, she drifted off to sleep and I got up and set her down in Caitlyn's room in her crib.
When I came back in my room, Shane was still sitting on my bed in the exact same position that he was in when I left. I closed the door behind me, going back over to the bed and straddling his lap.
He smiled at me warmly resting his hands on my waist, and I leant forward to kiss him softly.
"You feel so light, have you lost weight?" He asked me, pulling away.
"Suck up." I laughed, pushing him back onto the bed so he was lying down.
He grabbed my wrists gently, pulling me down onto him, I grinned and kissed him tenderly. He let go of my wrists, his hands travelling down to my bottom, deepening the kiss.
"Shane, no." I pulled away breathlessly a moment later.
"You're right, it's the afternoon and your parents are just downstairs."
"No, I was going to say that I can't have sex until I have my six week check up. I know most people say four weeks until sex but I want to play it safe."
"It's fine, it'll be just like before we were married."
I pecked his lips quickly, "Shut up, Pop Star."
"You know you are a milf now, right?"
I rolled off him onto the bed, snuggling into his side, "A what?"
"A mother I'd like to fu-"
"Shane!" I cut him off, laughing hysterically.
…
It was the day before Shane's twenty-third birthday that we finally decided to go back home. Being back in Jersey, away from the media, helped a lot. Melody was six weeks old and I was scheduled in for my six-week check up with her in two days time.
"It feels good to be home." I admitted, sitting on the couch.
Shane set down a blanket on the floor in front of me and placed Melody down on her stomach. She began gurgling happily and Shane sat down besides me, wrapping an arm around me tightly.
"How's your last day of being a twenty-two year old?"
"I'd say it's been pretty good so far, I've gotten to spend it with my two favorite girls."
"Your gift should be arriving tomorrow if I have timed things correctly." I told him. I had ordered it online a few days beforehand.
"You know what you could give me? Melody is six weeks old now." He winked.
I hit his arm playfully, "I told you, I am having the check up first."
"I know." He laughed, amused at my response.
We sat in silence, listening to our daughter's gurgling and watching her kicking her legs behind her.
"You know, we should probably think about getting some photos taken professionally of her soon to release." Shane brought up a moment later.
"Okay, can you get your band's photographer to do it? I'd feel much more comfortable than having a stranger do it."
He nodded, kissing the side of my head, "I'll arrange it within the next week or so. In the meantime, what are we doing for my birthday tomorrow night?"
"I have arranged it all, we are going to go to your parent's for dinner then we are going to go to a club with the others so you can chill out and have some drinks. You parents are going to watch Melody for a few hours."
"I am pretty sure that you aren't twenty-one yet." He laughed.
"I am pretty sure I'll be able to get in regardless."
"Well you have lost some baby weight, I think a nice dress to show off your legs is a good idea." He smirked.
"You'd like that, wouldn't you?"
…
The following morning I woke up early, thanking my lucky stars that Shane's present had arrived. The deliveryman wheeled the box into the living room and when he left, I was able to quickly wrap it up.
Shane woke up not too long later, hearing Melody's cries before I got in to feed her. He found me in the nursery, just as I began to feed her.
"Happy birthday, Shane." I smiled widely at him.
He came over and kissed me tenderly, "I'm going to go make us some breakfast."
"No, I'll make you some. It's your birthday." I laughed.
"Fine, I'm just going to go get changed then." He kissed me swiftly before leaving.
When Melody was done feeding, I brought her out into the living room, setting her down on a blanket with a couple of plush toys to look at.
"So where's my present?" I heard Shane ask, coming into the living room.
"I don't know, maybe it's that huge thing a few meters in front of you wrapped in gift paper." I teased, "Open it."
He went over to the box, ripping the gift paper off it as if he was a little kid.
"Another stroller?" He asked me, seeing the picture on the box.
"Not just a normal stroller, it's one specifically to go jogging with." I explained, "I know you like to run and such to keep fit, so when Melody is a little older you could take her with you."
He broke out into a smile, "I love it, thanks Mitch." He said happily, kissing my cheek.
"Also, I got one more thing for you." I told him, grabbing a smaller wrapped present (that I hid behind the television), handing it to him.
As soon, as he unwrapped in his eyes went slightly watery, "Daddy's girl." He read out loud, looking at the framed photograph of him and Melody.
He pulled me into a hug, "I love you."
…
Savannah and Jason ended up coming with us to Shane and Savannah's parents house for dinner as they didn't want to go out afterwards. Shane assured Savannah that this was fine. She wanted to rest.
"Melody probably needs to sleep soon." Shane told his mom after dinner.
"She will be fine with us, no need to stress." His mom assured us, bouncing Melody gently in her arms.
"Don't drink too much Shane." His dad told him.
"I won't." Shane laughed.
Soon enough, we were on our way back to the other apartment to get ready to go out again. Caitlyn grabbed me as soon as we walked in the door, pulling me in the direction of her and Nate's bedroom to get ready.
"Hello to you to Mrs Gellar Bing." I laughed.
We began doing our hair and make-up; it was the first time that I was truly excited to be going out in a long time.
"I really will laugh if we don't get in." I admitted.
"You're famous, don't worry, we'll get in." Caitlyn laughed, putting the finishing touches on her now straightened hair.
I laughed with her, slipping the simple black dress over my head. It wasn't skin-tight, as I wasn't comfortable in skin-tight clothing for obvious reasons, but it was rather short and therefore club appropriate. I slipped on some amazing black stiletto heels as Caitlyn put some lip-gloss on.
"Ready?" I asked her.
"More than ready." She grinned.
We came out into the living room to see Shane and Nate; both dressed rather handsomely, waiting for us. Savannah and Jason were on the couch watching television.
"Are you two finally ready to leave?" Nate teased us.
"No you look nice?" Caitlyn retorted, she was in a strapless skin-tight royal blue dress. She looked stunning to be honest.
"You look hot, babe." Nate assured her with a smirk.
"I just called my mom and she told me Melody is sound asleep." Shane told me. I felt a little guilty to be going out and leaving Melody, but it was for Shane's birthday.
"You haven't had a night out since before she was born." Shane said, sensing my worries.
I let out a heavy breath, "You're right, let's go have some fun."
"No drinking." Savannah advised me, "You either Caitlyn, you are underage."
"By like just over a month."
"Well have fun telling that to the media when they find out that Nate Bing's underage wife was caught in a club drinking."
"Point taken." Caitlyn sighed, she went over to give Savannah a hug, "I'll see you tomorrow."
We decided to get a taxi cab to the club, called 'Marquee', Shane sat up the front with the driver and Nate, Caitlyn and I sat in the back together.
After a ten minute drive, we pulled up to the front of the club where a huge line of people were waiting out the front. Shane quickly paid the driver and got out the taxi, opening my door and helping me out. He then helped Caitlyn out and Nate got out next.
It didn't take long for the line full of people to notice us standing there; a few of the females screamed out excitedly but the majority seemed to maintain themselves.
We walked into the VIP line, straight up to the security team who let us in instantly, one of them escorting us inside. We were met instantly by extremely loud music, flashing lights and lots of people. The security member (a huge bald man) led us inside, Shane and Nate wrapped their arms around Caitlyn and myself of course.
Making our way through the crowd, we went upstairs to the VIP section where there were less people around. I had arranged for a table for us already and the security lead us to one that was reserved for us. We all thanked him, sitting down at the booth.
A lady soon came over to our table, "Hi, I'm Marion one of the promoters here. I spoke to you on the phone Mrs Gray." She introduced herself loudly so we could hear her over the music.
"Mitchie," I laughed, "Just call me Mitchie."
"Can I get you any drinks? They are on the house."
"You don't have to do that. We will be happy to pay." Nate assured her.
"It's the least we can do, I'll start you boys off with out finest beer. Ladies can I get you anything?" She asked Caitlyn and I.
"Could I just get a Red Bull, please?" Caitlyn asked.
"Sure." Marion replied.
"Same for me, please." I said.
We got a lot of looks from club-goers who passed by our table, but none came over to us. Celebrities apparently had been coming to Marquee for years so I was confident that things would be fine for us and that nothing crazy would happen at all especially because we were in the VIP section.
"Cannot believe I am in a club with two underage girls." Shane laughed.
"It's not like we are under eighteen." Caitlyn replied, laughing with him, "We sleep with you two don't we?"
"Nice, Caitlyn." Nate chuckled.
"Can I have my phone?" I asked Shane, having given it to him so he could put it in his pocket for me as I chose not too bring a clutch with me.
"Mitch, Melody is fine. I promise you."
I gave him my best puppy-dog face, but he responded in pecking my lips.
"Not going to work." He winked at me.
Our drinks soon arrived and we toasted to Shane. After finishing our first round of drinks, Caitlyn and I decided that we wanted to dance. Shane and Nate were both apprehensive to us going on our own but we assured them that we would be fine as long as we stayed upstairs.
Caitlyn grabbed my hand and lead me over to the small dance floor that was upstairs; we were given a load of smiles from those around us and began to dance with each other, completely enjoying the experience. We made sure to stay in the view of Shane and Nate so they could watch us and feel assured that we were safe.
"This music is great!" Caitlyn shouted.
"I know." I agreed.
After dancing to a few songs, we returned to our table to see some champagne with four champagne glasses waiting for us.
"Explain." Caitlyn eyed her husband and mine suspiciously.
"You might as well have a drink or two and celebrate with us, you are both almost twenty-one." Nate answered her.
I was shocked to hear these words coming from Nate, "Seriously?" Caitlyn asked, thinking it was a trick.
"Seriously." Nate laughed.
I bit my bottom lip, contemplating whether or not to drink. I had only ever tasted alcohol once in my life; I had tried some of Shane's beer one time when he and my dad said I would hate it. I knew I was almost twenty-one, but there were people all around and word could easily get out that I was drinking and I did have younger fans.
I gave Shane a look and he brought his lips to my ear, "If you don't want to you don't have to drink. It's enough to have you here celebrating with me."
I gave him a smile, "Pour me a drink."
I wanted to drink to celebrate with Shane; sometimes I had to forget that we were famous. Sometimes I had to just live in the moment, live my life without worrying what others thought of me.
"Happy birthday." We toasted to Shane again, our glasses all clinking together.
Woot.
So we had Smitchie fighting, Shane's birthday, Mitchie drinking underage. Haha.
Oh yeah, Mitchie is a milf lol.
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