Chapter 38 Pulling Birds
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Alexis couldn't believe Sam had died. She would never see her daughter again or be able to provide advice for how she could move on from Jason.
It was Jason's fault, she had told Sam again and again, to stay away from Jason's lifestyle because it would eventually kill her.
Jason should have pushed her away sooner. God knew that he and Carly had been together for over a decade. Everyone knew. Jason had ousted it himself in the middle of a hospital corridor for everyone to hear.
She had followed the directions that she had gotten from the guard on Kristina for finding Carly's house to confront Jason.
Jason opened the door when he heard pounding, the guards had already texted him to let him know that Alexis had entered the property.
"Alexis, I heard about Sam. I already have people working on finding out who did it."
"I already know who did it." Alexis snarled. "You did! Why couldn't you have just stayed away from Sam? We both know it was someone from your business."
"You should go home and take a few moments to grief Alexis." Carly said firmly from the stairwell. Jason and Alexis both looked up at her.
"Carly,…"
:No, I get that she just lost a child, but you lost yours the same morning as Sam died. This isn't the time or place for you two to try to have a civil discussion about finding out who killed Sam." Carly said harshly.
"The difference is that Jason deserves his loss and so will you when one of your kids becomes a target he neglects to protect." Alexis cried out getting upset.
"Get out." Carly said quietly. Jason went to intervene. "Get the hell out of my fucking house. Don't ever tell me that someone deserved to have their child die. I don't think Sam deserved to die the way she did. No one does. But I will be damned if you feel it's appropriate to compare a child who doesn't have a choice with an adult who knew the risks and took them anyway. And furthermore, Sam refused guards adamantly even though Jason pushed them on her regardless and the morning she died she slipped past the detail she didn't even know she had. That is the biggest difference right Alexis, you, Sam, Kate, all the others…you thought you could live this life, but you never learned how to even understand or appreciate your own details. The door's behind you. Don't bother coming back here to talk to Jason about this. If he hears anything, I will call you." Carly finished sharply.
Alexis ran out the door slamming it as she went.
Jason looked at Carly quietly, "Carly."
"If your about to tell me some nonsense about how maybe Alexis is right or that you can't protect everyone I am going to beat the crap out of you, Morgan. You can't protect a person who refuses to protect themselves, that's true of anyone. Don't even look at me with those eyes. You did what was right for the baby and Sam both. Neither situation was one you could control." Carly said firmly as she walked to him and slipped her arms around his waist.
Emily had went home with Lucky to the house he and Elizabeth had shared. Lucky had left Cameron at Liz's home with a sitter when he got the call about Liz.
Cameron looked up when they entered the living room, "Dada look it my train." Cameron called out happily as he held up the blue model train.
"Yeah buddy it looks good." Lucky said softly. He talked to Jamie, who babysat for him at times. Jamie was a senior in high school that wanted to go into education when she went to PCU in the fall. "Emily, do you mind?"
"No, hey Cameron lets see if we can find your red train. I know you were looking for it yesterday, maybe you forgot it upstairs in the play room when you stayed the night with your Dad."
"Did everything go okay?" Jamie asked feeling tension run through Lucky.
"Elizabeth is going to be fine eventually, but the baby died a few moments after it was born." Lucky explained gently. The sadness was evident in the young officer's eyes. He had looked forward to that little boy. "I wanted you to know, in case Cameron asks you any questions. We will try to answer as many as we can before you babysit next, but kids just blurt whatever pops into their heads sometimes. I just wanted you to be prepared."
"Yeah thanks. And I am really sorry for your loss. I was looking forward to meeting that little guy. Don't worry about today." Jamie assured him. Lucky told her he knew that she needed the money for tuition, but she was adamant about not taking the money.
Before Lucky could go upstairs, a delivery man knocked on his door. There were beautiful flowers in bright blues and yellows. The note inside was simple.
"For you and your little boy. You helped me once on a horrible afternoon, feel free to ask me for anything you need cousin. Carly"
He remembered that afternoon. He had been about twenty and thought he knew everything about Carly. That she was a scheming liar, and unloyal to anyone outside of herself or little Michael. Carly had lost her and Sonny's baby due to AJ's stunt on the stairs a few months ago and even his father who despised Carly was getting worried due to the depression that Bobbie had been describing.
He had found Carly on the piers with Robin. Whose commentary had been cruel regardless of the two's past. Lucky had called her on her behavior and sent her firmly on her way. He would never forget Carly telling him he didn't have to defend someone he hated. "I don't hate you. I don't even know you. I just don't like some of the things you've done. But no one deserves to be spoken to that way." He would never forget that look of gratitude over something so simple. Something he would have done for anyone. And how quickly that look disappeared when Sonny yelled for her. They had both turned and Sonny was waiting about twenty feet away. He had never forgotten the tone of voice Sonny had used with Carly as he hurried her to the waiting car for being late. That was when he knew he never wanted to be like that. He never wanted to hear himself treat someone that way unless it was absolutely necessary and even then never a woman or child.
He wondered if he had crossed that line with Elizabeth, if there was anything he could have done for the situation to make his little boy's life not end before it began.
He placed the vase on the side table and went up the stairs. He found Emily and Cameron together on the floor. Cameron was showing Emily every feature of his three trains with painstaking detail. He had to smile softly at that. He despised who Elizabeth had become, or maybe always was. But he didn't hate her. She had given him the best gift in his life.
"Dada, when is Mommy coming home?" Cameron asked.
Right to the hard question of course. Lucky thought as he settled himself on the floor beside Emily and Cameron. "Mommy has to stay at the hospital for a while."
"Is she sick?" Cameron asked.
"Yes. Mommy is sick and the doctors will take good care of her.:
"What about the baby? Does he get to come home?"
"No buddy, your little brother died this morning. He was only alive for a little while."
"Is he an angel?" Cameron asked, as he touched Lucky's tears. Emily gripped his hand. "No cry Dada. Angels are good things, AunLu told me so."
"That's right." Emily whispered hoarsely. "Angels are wonderful things and Matthew, your little brother is one." Emily promised him.
"Can he come play?"
"No. He has to stay with Aunt Ruby and everyone else who went before him." Lucky tried to explain.
"But who will he play with? It's no fun to be alone." Cameron worried aloud.
"He won't be alone." Emily said as she pulled Cameron close between her and Lucky. "Matthew has another little boy to play with. You weren't here yet, but your Dada's cousin had a baby who died too. I think they would keep each other company. Don't you?"
"Yeah." Cameron said relieved readily accepting the simple explanation. "Miss Cary has fun boys to play with."
Cameron had played briefly off and on with Michael and Morgan who showed extreme patience with the toddlers (both Spencer and Cameron) at family holidays. For some reason Cam had picked up on Nikolas's staffs formal approach to addressing Carly as Miss Carly. His son still struggled with the names of his family members and the exact pronunciation therein. There were so many things they would miss out on with Matthew, how could Liz do this to them all? Lucky wondered.