Math is going to be the death of me I swear…I can't seem to get past this stupid quiz! If I could get past that fucker, then do the review I could take my test…we have to take our test in school because they have some lame ass password for it. My blood sugars have been acting like bitches lately…last night around 1 it was low, then I woke up at 6:30 this morning…it was low I had to get up at 8:30 to help my grandma with some shit at the church, I got back around 11ish, went to sleep and woke up around 3ish, it was low. I have no idea why the hell it keeps doing that, but I guess I'm going to just have to cut back on my insulin now want I?

Anyways, I hope y'all enjoy this chapter…the split POV is BACK BABY! WHEEEEE! I'm so tired but I don't want to go to bed…it's music time! Oh and I have decided to let Thief King Bakura grace his sexy ass on my birthday instead so I shall get my plushie then wheee now I just need to figure out what the hell else I want for Christmas…yeah that's sad isn't it? OOO I could get more pillow pets...CDs...Bre got me a sketchpad I'm so excited! Drawing Bakura wheee he's so awesome to draw!

I think I'm going to write a Darkshipping story…I haven't written about Yami Bakura yet, he's gorgeous I must write about gorgeous creatures….:D

DISCLAIMER:

I do not under any circumstances, own Yu-gi-oh. If I did, then Bakura would have been saved just like the rest of the villains. And there would be a lot of Darkshipping.

I own: The OC Characters, the plot, the Realm of Light, the title Queen Crazy, my Bakura plushie, my Bakura poster and of course myself.

Warning: This story is Darkshipping/Casteshipping so if you have some type of problem with the pairing of Bakura and Atem then you obviously need to hit the back button because I love that pairing. So I'm writing this story. This is a Yaoi story as well and there will be eventually a lemon. If you don't like that either then I suggests you just leave this page.

I hope y'all enjoy the new and fabulous version of this story.

ENJOY :D

Chapter Thirty-seven: Troubles

[Bakura's POV]:

"I'm going to go talk to Kisara" I said standing up.

"Okay, love" Atem said "I think I'm going to talk to your sister, I haven't talked to her in ages"

"Have at it" I said.

We went our separate ways. I headed toward the Desert Region, I figured Kisara would more than likely be in here, what would she say when she saw me? The last time we saw each other, things went down pretty badly; Zorc had forced me to bring out Diabound, taking some of her power. Would she hate me for that? Did she know what had happened? Did she even know I was here?

I walked up to the oasis, Kisara and Seto had their backs toward me, they were kissing.

"Oh, c'mon Kisara, you know that I'm a better kisser than he is" I said with a laugh. Kisara and Seto jumped. Kisara looked up, her eyes wide.

"B-Bakura?" she asked

"The one and only" I said

Seto and Kisara stood up.

"What do you want?" Seto asked "Can't you see that we're busy?"

"Seto, please" Kisara said then she turned toward me "How are you?"

"I'm here" I replied.

"I see that" she said with a smile "Would you like to talk?"

"Yes" I said taking her hand. Seto fumed with rage.

"I'll give her back when I'm through" I called as Kisara and I headed elsewhere.

"Touch her and you'll regret it thief"

"Talk to him like that again and you'll wish that you were never thought of" Atem hissed.

Kisara and I stopped, our fingers interlocking together.

"Pharaoh" Seto said.

"Bakura is mine, Kisara is yours that is the end of it" Atem said

"He's taking Kisara" Seto said

"Oh please" I said rolling my eyes "I have the Pharaoh, now"

"Well, that doesn't mean you won't cheat on him" Seto yelled

"No he will not!" Atem yelled "Seto, can we talk now?" Atem asked grabbing Seto's arm and jerking it. I laughed, Kisara and I headed toward a nearby bench, taking a seat.

"I never thought I'd see you again" Kisara said not looking at me.

"I didn't think I'd see you again either" I said.

"Seto told me about you being in the Realm of Light" Kisara said "He told me that Atem had to save you"

"Yes" I said.

"What's bothering you?" she asked.

"Nothing" I said.

"Bakura, you know that you can't lie to me, we practically dated for six years" Kisara said.

"That's true" I said "A lot has changed"

"It has" she agreed. "You're in love, aren't you?"

"I am" I said "You are too"

"And very happy, but you aren't, why?" Kisara said.

"I don't know" I replied. "I'm happy being with Atem, but…."

"You're afraid to be happy" Kisara said "I know how you feel"

Kisara and I had that in common, we were outcast, we grew up with the harsh reality that if you looked different, than you would be treated differently. People would try to kill her because of her white hair and blue eyes. Those fools should be getting on their knees, begging for her forgiveness, if it weren't for her help then Zorc would have won for sure.

Kisara and I understood each other, we didn't have to speak to know what the other was thinking, we ran the streets together, I protected her, I made sure that she was safe, until I was tricked by Zorc to bring her to him, he told me that he would take care of her and she was the only one worthy of my heart. He told me that she was my soul mate. I wanted to believe him, but I'm glad that she wasn't.

"That you do" I said "How are you and Seto?"

"We're fine" she replied

"I'm sorry for everything that I put you through, Kisara" I said

"I don't blame you, I know that you didn't mean it" she said "I want to thank you, for saving my life, back then"

"We saved each other" I said. "I'm glad that you're doing well"

"Me too" Kisara said "But I am worried about you"

"Don't worry about me, I just have a lot on my mind" I assured her.

"Well, if you need me, you know where to find me" she said.

"I'll be sure to do that" I said.

We both stood up. Kisara hugged me. I hugged her back.

"I'm so glad that you're here" Kisara said as we pulled away "Atem was so sad before you came here, now he's so happy"

"I know" I said "You might want to get back to Seto before he throws a bitch fit again"

"Hey now" Kisara said narrowing her eyes.

"Oh, Kisara, you know I'm just messing with you" I laughed.

"I know" she laughed

Kisara headed back to where Seto was. I went to see what my sister was up to. Atem said he was going to talk to her, I guess he got sidetracked and decided to talk to Seto instead.

I walked further into the Desert Region, searching for Koranna but she was nowhere to be found.

"Atem's with Kora" I heard a familiar voice say. I turned around to see Akila standing several feet from me.

"Akila" I said

"I see that you finally talked with Kisara" she said.

"Hmm" I said.

"Come, darling" she motioned me to follow her. I wasn't sure what she wanted but I did miss her, and spending some time with her might be just what I needed.

We headed to the Forest Region, where she usually stays; we went inside of her house.

We took a seat at the kitchen table; Akila got us some drinks, and took a seat beside of me.

"I never thought I'd meet the one who captured your heart, Bakura" she said.

"I'm just as shocked as you are" I laughed.

"Bakura, stop it" she said.

"Stop what?" I asked confusion laced in my voice.

"You know what I'm talking about" she said "It's not good for you"

I sighed.

"He loves you" Akila said

"You loved me too" I said "But it didn't work out"

"No, it didn't" Akila said "But it wasn't meant to be, we were young when we met, you were my first and you will always be special to me, we have a beautiful daughter together, but I'm not in love with you"

"I know you're not" I said.

"I want you to be happy, you're letting your past affect your mind" Akila said.

"I'm not trying to" I said "it's just…."

"You think that Atem will ditch you right?" she asked.

"Yeah" I said looking away.

"Bakura" Akila said taking my hands her hers. We looked at each other. "Zorc is gone, he can't hurt you anymore"

"I know that" I said.

"So why do you hesitate? Why are you making yourself miserable, this is the Afterlife, you have your family, people that love and care about you, your daughter is here, what more could you possibly, want?"

"It's not what I want, I don't know what my problem is" I said.

"Are you afraid of losing control?" she asked

"I just don't see how Atem can love me; I've put him through so much…" I trailed off

"And he hasn't put you through some stuff? You love him right?" she said.

"Of course I do!" I said.

"Okay, can you explain why you love him?" she asked.

I blinked.

No.

I couldn't explain why I loved Atem. I loved him because I did. I fell for him the moment I saw him, I thought of him all the time, even when I was trapped inside the Ring and my memories started to fade, even when I was being touched by others I still thought of Atem. I didn't know why at the time, but now I do.

Asenath said that love is born, hate is learned. Both emotions affect us, hate in a negative way and love in a positive way. I wanted to know why Atem loved me, but didn't he want to know why I loved him?

I wanted to be able to explain my love for him, but I couldn't, there were no words that could explain the feelings I had for him. Was this what he was going through? Trying to explain to me how he felt but coming up empty? No wonder he got so upset. I feel so stupid! Father was right, I shouldn't question Atem's love, and I should embrace it. Love shouldn't be questioned, questioning love would be like someone questioning me why I was bi, I couldn't explain that, love cannot be explained, and I needed to accept that.

"Bakura, you're too hard on yourself" Akila said "You've always been that way"

"I know" I said "I don't try to be"

"You're getting better, I remember when I first met you, and you were so broken" she said.

"We both were" I said.

"But we helped each other through those times" she said with a smile.

"We did" I said. "Thank you"

"Oh, Bakura, you know you don't have to thank me, giving me Jamila, I'll never be able to repay you for"

"Hey, you helped too you know" I laughed.

"Ha and you liked it too" she smirked.

I rolled my eyes.

"Where is she anyways?" I asked.

"I have no idea, she comes and goes as she pleases" Akila said "Why did you want to talk to her?"

"I did, but it's fine, we have all the time in the world" I said.

"That we do" Akila said "And she understands"

"Understands what?" I asked.

"Your situation, I told her everything" Akila replied.

"Oh" I said. "I still feel bad for not helping raise her"

"It's okay, what's done is done, you can still spend time with her, I know it won't be the same but we all end up here anyways, so who really cares that the two of you start forming a relationship in the place you'd end up at anyways" Akila said.

She did have a point. If we passed judgment, then we would spend the rest of our existence in the Afterlife, if not, well, we wouldn't exist anyways. Everyone I talked to was right. I needed to accept that Atem loved me, but could I? I wanted to, but it was terrifying to think about. I hated feeling so weak, but what I was taught was weak, really wasn't. I loved being with him, he made me happy; I wanted him to understand that it wasn't him that was causing me to feel so broken.

I hated thinking about my past, I felt like I was living it again and again, I was trapped inside a glass bottle, wanting to break free, people shoved small notes in the bottle, giving me advice on how to break free, but somehow I still was trapped.

Asenath told me that Atem loved me for me; she told me that Atem was happy being with me. Why? I wasn't anything special, he could have anyone in the world that he wanted, why chose me? I had hurt him so many times in the past, and now, he was in love with me. Love really doesn't make any sense.

Mother said that she would never accept anyone that was with me, I didn't expect her to, after everything that she had to go through just because I was too stupid to figure out that Zorc was lying, she should be furious with me that I put her through so much pain.

Why the hell do people love me again?

The questions I want answers to, cannot be answered because no one can answer them. Love is something that cannot be answered; it's something that you feel, something that makes you alive; it makes you strong. Asenath said that she knew that Atem was in love with me the moment he started talking about me. I'm sure that he was talking about how much he despised me, so how would she come to the conclusion that he loved me?

When did he fall for me?

I wanted him to understand that it wasn't him that was causing me to be this way, I knew that he blamed himself for my unhappiness, he and Mother had that in common, I didn't want him to blame himself, it wasn't his fault, he had helped me through so much. When I was in the water, drowning, the darkness above me, Zorc's hand was submerged in the water, trying to pull me up into my comfort zone, but Atem, he was in the light, deep under the water, trying to challenge me, he wanted to take me out of my comfort zone.

I fought him, I fought the light, thrashing about, I tried to take Zorc's hand but something kept pulling me under, I gasped, wanting to resurface, but I failed, then I drowned into the light, and I became undone. Atem broke the control Zorc had on me, with a single kiss, thoughts rushed through my mind, the thoughts of what Mother and everyone taught me, the key turned slowly, he showed me that he loved me, that day, when I was being pulled through the gate, the God of Darkness battling with the chosen Pharaoh, battling for my soul.

That's when I realized that Atem did love me. He wasn't just saying it to get some of me, no, he truly, loved me for me. He was who I had been searching for all my life, he wasn't scared to challenge me, and he wasn't scared to be near me. He wasn't afraid of me. I love him so much, but I don't know how to.

"You have so much going for you, darling, don't let Zorc win, fight it, I know you can beat him" Akila said.

I smiled "I hope so"

[Atem's POV]:

Seto and I walked toward an empty bench, taking a seat.

"Seto, I know that you don't like the fact that Bakura and I are together…" I said

"No, I don't" Seto said "How could you?"

I blinked. "Seto..."

"I mean you know what he did, you've hated him for over five-thousand years Atem; how do you go from hating him, to loving him?" Seto asked.

I sighed.

"I don't like it" Seto said "What makes you think he won't snap again?"

"Seto, he won't" I said.

"But how do you know that?" he asked

"You don't know Bakura, like I do" I whispered.

"Oh and you do?" Seto asked "Face it, Atem, you know nothing about him"

"I know that I love him" I snapped.

"Atem, please" Seto said.

"What Seto?" I shouted "What the hell is wrong with you?"

"It's not me!" he shouted "It's your little boyfriend!"

"What do you have against him?" I cried

"Atem, you know what he did! You know that he tried to destroy the world, now the he suddenly comes into the Afterlife you fall for him?" Seto asked.

"I fell for him the moment I saw him!" I yelled.

What the hell is wrong with Seto? Why is he acting like this? Is he that upset that Bakura took Kisara to talk to her? Kisara is a grown woman, she can talk to whoever she wants, Bakura and she had a past together, and he has every right to see her again.

What pissed me off was how Seto had the audacity to say that I know nothing about Bakura. Sure, I didn't know a lot, but that's what we were working on. We had begun to get to know each other, he just got here, I just saved him from an existence of suffering with Zorc, and these things take time.

"Atem, I don't think he's a good influence on you" Seto said.

"You're just jealous because Bakura and Kisara were lovers!" I shouted.

Seto's eyes widened.

"WHAT?" he cried standing up.

"Seto, sit down" I said.

Seto balled his fists at his sides, but decided to sit down.

"There's no need to get upset, cousin" I said "You should have known that Bakura and Kisara were going to run into each other"

"I can't believe this" he muttered.

"Kisara loves you and Bakura loves me, they're not going to cheat on us, especially not with each other" I said.

"Kisara won't…but Bakura" Seto trailed off.

"Are you suggesting that Bakura would rape Kisara, because that's something I know he would never do" I yelled.

Seto gave me a look.

"Yes, believe it or not, Bakura has never raped anyone" I said.

"Yet, he's done everything else" Seto said.

"Why are you having such a hard time with this?" I sighed.

"You're like a brother to me, seeing you with him…it upsets me" he said looking away.

"Seto, I'm happy" I said. He turned to face me again. "I'm in love with him; he makes me so happy; I don't want you to hate him"

"This is just a lot to take in" he said.

"I know, but can you try at least, for me?" I said.

Seto nodded.

"Thank you" I said with a smile.

Kisara walked up toward us.

"Hey sweetheart" Seto said taking her hand and pulling her on his lap.

"Hey Kisara" I said.

"Hey, Atem" she said, smiling.

"How did the conversation with Bakura go?" I asked.

"It went well" she said. "Take care of him"

"I will" I said standing up.

"He didn't try anything with you did he?" Seto asked.

I sighed.

"Seto, please" Kisara said

"Well, you never know" Seto muttered.

"Thanks for talking with Bakura, Kisara" I said

"No problem" she said.

"It was nice seeing you again, you too Seto" I said.

"Hmm" Seto said.

I walked into the Ocean Region, going to the ocean, I watched the waves crash.

"Hey Atem" Koranna said coming up, standing beside of me.

"Hey" I said.

"How are you?" she asked.

"Not so good" I said

"Is it Bakura?" she asked looking at me. I nodded.

"I'm worried about him" I said "I don't know what else to do"

"He seems to be getting better, don't you think?" Koranna asked.

"Yes, but…" I said

"Atem, things like this take time, you know that' she said.

"I know, I guess I just need to stop rushing things" I said

"Just be there for my brother, he needs you, more than ever" Koranna said.

"I know" I said.

"He loves you" she said "I can tell he does"

"He keeps questioning me on why I love him" I said.

"Oh, Ra he used to do that to me all the time" Koranna said.

My eyes widened. So I wasn't the only person he questioned their love for him on? Bakura questioned his own family's love? I thought he was questioning my love for him because we had been enemies and Zorc had raised him to believe that love was evil, now that he figured out that love wasn't evil and he realized that he actually loved me instead of hated me, well, he was taking that hard, but now, I knew that wasn't the case. No, Bakura had always questioned love.

"I thought it was just me" I said.

"Oh no" Koranna said "Every time I would tell him that I loved him, I would tell him that I loved him. He would say "Why sister?" and I would have to tell him that love doesn't have a reason. He still asked it though, but I never stopped telling him that I loved him"

"Nalori said that she was sick when she had Bakura…" I said.

"Yes, she was" Koranna said.

"How was it like, raising Bakura?" I asked.

"It was difficult" Koranna said "I'm not going to lie, but the people in my village helped a lot"

"Well, I'm glad you had some help" I said

"I am too" she said. "You know, Bakura's birthday is coming up"

I blinked. Wow, already? Time sure does fly by fast. When did Bakura arrive here? I thought it was just yesterday? It was so hard to keep up with time these days…

"I can't believe it" I said "Just yesterday I was walking through those doors"

Koranna laughed "It sure seems that way"

"What do you plan on doing for his birthday?" I asked.

Koranna smiled "That's for me to know and for you to find out"

Me: I have amazing plans for Bakura's birthday y'all I mean it's going to be AMAZING! I can't WAIT to write it! Anyways…until next time wheeeeeee