Erik and I stared at each other for a long time neither of us saying anything.
Finally, Erik came all the way into the room and sat on then bed once more.

"We have been together all of this time and you never told me about this? You write, you play the piano and the guitar and you… you have one of the most beautiful voices I've ever heard. Why? Why didn't you say anything?" Erik gave me this piercing look like he was trying to look through my eyes into my soul.

It made me uncomfortable I couldn't help but look away. "I didn't because of the same reasons that you don't let people know about your music. You're out in the world now why don't you showcase your music. You are an amazing composer, you're a freaking musical genius but no one in the world knows it but me. Why didn't I tell you? I didn't tell you because I've never told anyone about my music. It's just that, MY music. I don't even play or write that much anymore unless its for an assignment so it never eveb crossed my mind to say anything to you about it."

Erik stayed quiet giving me that same intense look. After a few minutes he grabbed my chair and pulled me closer to him. "Ok I can understand why you wouldn't tell other people but this is me were talking about. No one would understand your love of music better than I would. Not only that but I didn't think that we were still keeping secrets from each other, I mean I know I am new at this whole dating thing but it seems to me that we have been together for long enough now that we shouldn't be keeping things from each other anymore. You know everything about me, there isn't anything about me that you don't know. I guess I just expected them same in return."

I felt so bad, Erik was right. I did know everything about Erik; I had seen so many sides of him; the good and the bad.
I sat there for a few seconds thinking about everything that Erik and I had been through and everything that he had just said. Finally, I made a big decision; I decided to do something that I had never done for anyone before.
I looked up at Erik once more, taking a deep breathe before speaking. "Erik do you want to hear my songs?"
Erik just nodded waiting for me to go ahead and start. Erik and I spent the next 8 hours together in my room. First I played every song I had ever written. Next thing I knew Erik was helping me with them, we were rewriting them or changing the tempo or adding this instrument or that instrument. Never once during those hours did I think about what time it was or the fact that we the next day was Christmas Eve and we would have to get together with the family. I just concentrated on my songs and pretty soon
I realized that Erik and I made beautiful music together.
Finally, after eight hours Erik and I finished. We had changed something about every song I had ever written. Looking back on it now you would think that I would have been mad that Erik was changing my songs but I really wasn't. They were good to begin with but Erik made them amazing.

Before Erik left he laid on my bed with me holding me until I fell asleep.

11/26 3am

I can't believe how much everything has changed in just a few days. Everything is falling apart. This was the worst Christmas ever. Erik is gone and I don't know if he is coming back.

Here's what happened:

When I woke up the next morning it was 2 o'clock in the afternoon. I got up and started running around like crazy. Erik and I were supposed to have been at Mom's at noon. I was just zipping up my new dress when I heard the mirror sliding open and in strode Erik. He looked great in black dress pants and a green dress shirt with a black tie. I couldn't help the thoughts that immediately entered my mind.

I smiled as I walked up to Erik kissing him softly before straightening his tie. It took me about another ten minutes to finish getting ready then we went up to my parents.

The next few hours went by much like Thanksgiving had. My sisters and I helped my mom in the kitchen while the boys sat in the family room playing video games. Erik was right at home playing with my brothers. He was laughing and yelling right around w2ith them. It brought the biggest smile to my face seeing him interact with my family. It gave me an idea for a great present for Erik but it was definitely something that I would have to think about and not rush into.

Finally at about 6:00pm dinner was just about ready and we were all sitting in the family room playing cards when the doorbell rang. My brothers and sisters and I looked around at each other not sure as to who would be at the door now. Our parents stood up smiling at each other. "O this must be our big surprise for you guys." And with that my parents opened the front door and ruined everything.

In through the door walked my mom's best friend Nicole and her son Jacob my ex-boyfriend.