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I am so sorry that I have not updated in a while. I have the weirdest tendencies ever!

I mean its not that I am not feeling this story its just like I know what I want to write and I know the point I am trying to reach in each chapter but for some reason lately I have just not known how to word it right so that It sounds good!

I don't want any crappy chapters so I have just opted not to write and that's not a good thing.

ITS NOT I KNOW YOU DON'T HAVE TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD!

Its just I was finding it to hard so I got frustrated and went to eat black walnut ice cream and totally forgot. Then I lost the flash drive I saved it on so I had to find the motivation to retype the beginning.

Anyway lemme get to this chapter.

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*Renesmee*

"Seriously?!" I said incredulously and slightly irritated.

I mean it was truly upsetting me. I understand that I have a weird body and I may not always know what is wrong with me but if there is one thing I am sure of is that I am not pregnant.

IM NOT!

I know my body well enough to know something like that.

I sat on the small twin sized cot bed that Carlisle always kept at home for when someone had to have medical attention.

It was originally put there for me when I was younger and would often need medical attention due to my odd body.

Carlisle was going to take it back to the hospital once I became older but I guess it came in handy, especially with all the wolves and vampires constantly in fights and etcetera.

"Renesmee, I understand that you may not want to take the test but you can not deny that you have been changing. There are certain ways that I can tell without having to take test and one of those things is that you're not feeling well."

I tried to cut in and almost told Carlisle that I was fine but he immediately cut me off, " Renesmee, you don't have to deny it. There have been a few times within the month that I have seen you look more pale than usual, look sick at the stomach and there have even been times when I could literally feel the heat radiating from your body."

There was really nothing I could think to say to that. Only thing I could do was look over at a stone blank faced Jacob.

He was looking down at the floor with this unreadable expression. That expression really tore my heart to pieces.

I was always able to read Jacob, He is my other half and to think that his emotions were so complex that his face could not even depict his mood really destroyed me.

I couldn't help but feel guilty. Maybe I should've told Jacob about how I was feeling.

I mean I know how he is and I know he will now be seriously worried and he may even think that I don't trust him enough with my well being.

I don't know why Jacob would think something so stupid but Jacob often thought ridiculous things about my love for him.

I looked up at Carlisle just so I wouldn't have to look at the expression on my Jacob's face, so I wouldn't feel guilty.

"Besides, think of it like this, you haven't had a check up since before your last birthday and I really need to check you anyway, especially with your seventh birthday coming up so soon."

I looked up at Carlisle with shock. With everything going I had totally forgotten that my birthday would be in about 5 months.

Wow, only five months until my body would be eternally frozen.

I was still upset about taking this test, I know I am not pregnant.

Or maybe im just so afraid of what the results will show.

What if I am pregnant?

I looked over and Jacob and saw the expression on his face and it saddened me but even beyond his tough exterior I saw the man features that he possessed and couldn't help but imagining them being more child like.

Jacob and I would have a beautiful child.

I knew that if I was pregnant….

I would keep it.

"Whatever" I mumbled in frustration and lay back on the bed giving Carlisle access to my stomach.

He sighed and I felt bad, I know I am definitely a grandpa's baby, Carlisle never liked to see me sad. Even as a child Carlisle, Esme and Rose definitely spoiled me far too much.

"Renesmee this is going to be cold and it may be even colder due to your hot body temperature. I am going to do a quick analysis because I don't know how long the gel will work properly is correspondence to your body heat."

I nodded my head and looked over to Jacob who had seemed to have partially come out of his paralyzed phase and was now looking at me with worry, concern, and … love.

Although it made me sad that has so overwhelmed it made me happy to know that he still looked at me with love.

I began to shake slightly with fear and reached my hand out for Jacob's but began to recline afraid that he would decline my hand but just as I was beginning to retract my hand I felt Jacob's warm big hand take mine and I immediately felt loved and relaxed.

I knew Jacob was scared about the thought of me being hurt child labor difficulties and such but truly I was not that concerned.

I was taken from my thoughts when the cold gel was placed upon my stomach I hissed slightly.

This shit really was cold!

Once I adapted to the coldness of the lube I released my monkey grip on Jacobs hand and just went for lightly holding his hand for comfort.

Jacob still looked discomforted but I guess to make him feel better he put his other hand in my hair and stroked the long strands.

It soothed me immensely.

"hmmmm…." Carlisle sighed with concentration.

I arched my neck so I could look up at him and see if I could decipher the look on his face but all I got was concentration and curiosity. A look that was often on my grandfather's face.

"Well it would seem that you are not pregnant…"

BOO YAHHHHHH WHAT DID I SAY !?

"Hmmm…. Let me try this instead."

Carlisle took out a stethoscope.

He's going to check my heart beat?

He laid that cold ass thing on my belly and once again I flinched in displeasure but soon adjusted to the temperature.

He closed his eyes, probably so he could concentrate on hearing whatever it is he wanted to hear.

" hmmmm…" He took the stethoscope off of his ears and turned around hurried, placing the tool on the medical table.

"Well, despite you not showing child and me not getting the main signs of pregnancy I did pick up the increase in blood pressure and flow being directed towards your abdominal area."

I didn't know what to say to that. Was that a good thing? Bad?

I looked up at him concerned and from the corner of my eye found my fiancé having the same expression on his face.

"So…. What does that mean?" I finally asked once the silence became too much for me.

Carlisle looked tired and slightly frustrated and ran his hand through his soft hair.

"I can't be sure Renesmee. There are so many things it can be and that's just in human comparison. I can not even be sure of the possibilities when it comes to your body. Usually it will either mean you are pregnant or you are having your period. I would think the latter but you have already been through that stage so I don't know what this is suppose to be or mean."

We were all quiet until I thought of something that may help.

"Well, maybe we can contact Nahuel and the others and they can maybe see if they have any insight."

"Renesmee, I have spoken to them before and they have said that they have gone through things but most of them are not to the same degree or magnitude as yours."

"Well, even so, out of everyone they would probably be the vampires most insightful to the problem" spoke Jacob, surprising both me and Carlisle.

"I guess that is true."

Jacob didn't say anything else after that.

"Well" Carlisle said interrupting the awkward silence that continued to seep through the room, "I guess it's settled.,,"

"It's time to call Nahuel."

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I know I kNow IKNOW!

It has taken me entirely to long to come up with this stupid short chapter and I am sorry but I have been busy, my phone got stolen and I had a big family fight that I will not talk about it or it will either make me cry or piss me off.

Now because I love you guys and I want to make up for my absence and for missing Their Love anniversary, for all those who don't know the TL 1year anniversary was 9/11/12. Also a very historical day for Americans.

I will make it up by doing something very special something I have only did once at the very begging of when I first started writing.

I know it may take a bit but I will do it.

I will not update the next installment of TL until I have written 7 chapterS!

I will upload all seven chapters at the same time.

Those seven chapters, if that will end TL2.

I love you guys and again I am sorry. I am starting writing those seven chapters right now!