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Carlisle's POV
Bella continued to surprise every single day. She took the news about us being vampires extremely well and I was very proud of her and happy that she didn't become afraid of any of us. That girl had been through enough upset in her life and she needed now more than anything some happiness and a family who loves and cares for her instead of what she had to deal with because of that horrid excuse of a father. I know that no matter how much that man did to Bella she would always find it difficult to accept that what he did was wrong and that he wasn't the father he should of been to her. She had made huge leaps of progress the past few weeks and she was truly becoming part of our family. I know I classed her as my daughter and that Esme did to. The others all classed her as their sister and hated seeing her so hurt and upset.
I was glad to hear the conversation about Bella talking to someone about everything and getting some help to finally be able to move on with things. I heard Edward mention that Bella could always talk to us and I was glad because I would always be here when she wanted to talk and I hoped she knew that. I know at first she was probably a bit scared of me but I can see how she is slowly coming to terms with the fact that nobody in this house will hurt her especially not me. My chest arched when I thought of the pain she had suffered by the hands of that man and the anger towards him grew everytime. I know something if Bella didn't want to speak to him, I certainly will be and no matter how against violence I was I would be more than happy to teach him just how pain felt. Seeing that poor girls injuries from spending such a short time at his hands showed just what a monster he truly was. How he could treat someone as kind hearted as Bella in that way was beyond me. She was nothing but kind and had one of the biggest hearts that I've known.
She had a long way to go through her recovery and I know even though she finds it hard sometimes, she will get through this. She is incredibly strong because of everything she has been through and however much I wish she didn't have to endure it, it has showed just how brave she is. One day when she has been show how family life is truly supposed to be again she will be much happier. I know she did once have a happy home life before her mother sadly passed away and I know just how much she missed her mum alot. That's the one thing about cancer I really hated, it always take the nice people away and leaves the horrid people that do the most unspeakable crimes behind. If Bella's mother was anything like she is then I would of loved to meet her.
'Carlisle, are you okay?' Asked my beautiful wife from the doorway. I opened my arms in invitation and she quickly made her way over to me resting on my lap. Esme is my rock and she always know when something is bothering me.
'Yeah darling, just worried and angry' I told her hoping she would understand. She frowned in concern and sadness. That's the thing with Esme if someone she loved was hurting or upset she hurt too and I hated that. Seeing your wife upset was almost worse as seeing your children unhappy. Even though they aren't technically my children, I still classed them as that.
'Yeah, I think everyone in this house is worried and angry. I know I am. I've never felt this type of anger before and I have never wanted more than to go to that man and kill him for hurting her the way he has.' Esme told me and I knew if she could be crying right now she would be. I held onto her tighter giving her all the comfort I could.
'Don't worry he will pay for what he has done. I won't let him get away with hurting her, that man deserves everything he gets' I told her trying to remain calm but feeling the anger start to bubble up again. I would make sure that he got what he deserved one way or another but what happens to him has got to be Bella's choice. It was unfair of us to take that decision away from her no matter how much we all hated the thought of leaving him alive. Hearing Edward talk about letting Bella see him and talk to him if she wanted didn't sound such a good idea to me. That girl had been through far too much and I was scared of what it would do to her having to face that monster again. One thing that was certain, she wasn't going to left alone with him. If she really wanted to see him then one of us will be with her the whole time. I will protect my daughter no matter what.
Bella's POV
When I woke up I felt confused and couldn't think straight. Once again my nightmares stopped me from sleeping for very long and I woke up feeling more tired than I did when I fell asleep. I couldn't get the idea of seeing Charlie again and talking to him before the police take him away. I couldn't decide whether it would be a good idea or not. I know he couldn't hurt me again at least not physically, they just wouldn't allow that I hope. I did want to know why he felt the need to carry on hurting me but would I actually get a straight answer this time. I had asked him many times before and it always ended in more hurt and pain but something inside me was telling me I should do it.
Edward that had left the room to get me something to eat returned with a tray with my favourite soup and a cup of coffee. My mouth watered in hunger at the smell. He laughed a little at my expression before placing the tray on the table next to me and helped me to sit up gently against the pillows. After thanking him for helping me once again I dug into the soup that I had begun to totally love. It was finished within minutes and Edward took my tray and placed it on the bedside table before climbing into the bed and gathering me into his arms. His was extremely cold but somehow he seemed to spread warmth through my body.
'How are you feeling?' Edward asked me while he played with my hair which had become familiar for me now. When he first done it I flinched away but I know Edward would never hurt me so now instead of feeling the fear spike through my veins, I now feel nothing but comfort and love.
'Better but confused. I don't know what I want to do about seeing Charlie. On one hand I want to but on the another hand I don't ever want to see him again knowing what he has done to me.' I sighed as I couldn't make my mind up still. Even though I knew that he couldn't physically hurt me, his words could hurt just as much as physical blows as I knew far too well from years of enduring it.
' it's understandable to feel like that Bella but you need to do whatever you feel is best for you and know that no matter what you decide that I will support your decision and be there for you I promise' Edward said and I was grateful for his words. Knowing he would be there for me made me feel stronger and like I could do it. I have a family here and they all cared for me as much as I care for them and i felt I had to do this to prove to him that I wouldn't let him get in the way of my life no more. I took a deep breath and looked into Edwards eyes which were filled with love but I could see traces of worry.
'I think I need to see him. I need him to know that I won't allow him to ruin my life and I'm not afraid of him' I told Edward in voice that I hoped was confident but probably was full of nervousness.
'Okay Bella ill get jasper and Emmett to bring him here. But if things get too much for you please just say and he will be out of this house straight away. I wont have him hurting you anymore than he already has, ok' Edward said and I nodded. I trusted Edward to keep me safe when Charlie was here and I know that none of them would let Charlie hurt me not physically ever again. I still couldn't understand how this feeling of trust came when it comes to the Cullen's. After years of abuse and suffering, I never thought I would feel safe and be able to trust anybody not to hurt me again but being with the Cullen's give's me a sense of belonging and fills me with the hope of having an family at last. I definitely would need Edward and maybe even Carlisle there with me when I talked to him. I don't think I could face that alone and knowing that they would be there give me the confidence to be able to do this.
Edward left the room to go and get jasper and Emmett to bring Charlie to the house whilst Alice and Rosalie came in and helped me to wash up a little bit and get into some clean comfy clothes. I was still in alot of pain and couldn't do much with my injuries, especially my back. Just the moment of moving my arms hurt like hell. Every movement caused sharp pains to fly through my very sore ribs. I felt worse than I have ever felt. From my injuries I was very lucky to be alive. Carlisle told me that I would be in pain for along time and this just caused anger to flare in my body. I didn't even need to look in the mirror to know I was covered in bruises because I knew just from touching any part of my body hurt horribly. I was just glad that he hadn't... Raped me again. I flinch as the memory hits me full force and put my hands on the side of my hair to try to stop the flashback. I felt sick remembering his hands on my body like that.
'Bella, Bella are you okay?' I heard Rosalie ask as she sat down next to me on the bed but I couldn't answer her. I felt the sobs starting and before I know it I'm in Rosalie's arms and crying again. She holds me to her and rubs circles into my back but doesn't say anything knowing that right now nothing she can say can help me whilst I'm in this state. Rosalie is probably the only that can truly understand the pain and the effects that being raped has. Would this ever end? I needed to know how she seemed to cope with things so easily and how she got through it. So once I calmed down and took a deep breath, I pulled away from her and looked into her eyes seeing understanding and sadness in her eyes.
'Does it get better?' I ask in a hoarse whisper my voice sounding strange from crying so much but I needed to know if this pain I felt would ever go away or at least get better. Even though I didn't say the words, by the look in her eyes I knew she understood immediately. She stayed quiet for a moment before taking an unneeded breath.
'It will take time but yes it will entirely get better. I know it doesn't seem like it right now but I can promise you that in time you will be able to move on. I'm not saying its going to easy because its not. It took me a long time after what happened to come to terms with it and with the support and love of Emmett and my family I found a way to deal with it and get on with life but even now I still have times where the memory of that night get to me and it hurts but Bella you are so strong and I know that you can get through this. You've been so much and I know things are bad right now but it will get better, just let us help you and you will be fine. I'll always be here if you need to talk just remember that' she said with sadness seeping through her normally strong voice. To see Rosalie here knowing that she had been through something as similar to me and knowing she managed to get through it give me the hope that I could as well. I just hope this pain would go away entirely.
'Thank you Rosalie. I just want it to stop. I cant stand the flashbacks of his hands on me, how he hurt me. It makes me feel disgusting and sick to my stomach thinking of it and no matter how hard I try I cant stop the images. I think that's what I'm finding hardest about this, the fact that he raped me. The beatings were bad but I could deal with them but I never thought he could do something like that to me. I just don't understand what I did to make him hate me so much and as much as I wish it wasn't true I miss my father. How stupid does that make me after everything he has done. I miss the dad that used to protect and love me' I told her feeling the pain in my heart growing. The day I lost my mum, I lost both my parents.
'Bella I don't know what made him to that to you but one thing you have to realise that it was not your fault. No matter how upset he was over your mum passing away he had no right to do what he did. You didn't deserve the pain he caused you and is still causing you. The flashbacks will become easier to deal with as time goes on but I doubt they will ever truly stop and again with the right support from all of us it will get better. Bella your not stupid to feel like that because at the end of the day he was father before all of this happened and you will probably always miss him just like you miss your mum but what he has done to you is so wrong and he needs to be punished for it. He needs to pay for everything he has put you through and he will, I promise' she said. What she said makes sense and she was right he did need punishing for what he has done. I wiped the last of tears away and smiled at her to show that I was okay now.
'Just please don't bottle things up. We will all be here if you ever need to talk.' Rosalie said before pulling me in for a quick and gentle hug. We had come to be so much closer lately and I loved her just like the rest of the family.
'I know, thank you for being here for me. I don't know what I'd do without all of you' I told her honestly.
'Your welcome and your much stronger than you think' she told me before hugging me again and leaving the room. About five minutes later, a quiet knock shook me from my thoughts and in walked Edward. He smiled my favourite smile before coming and sitting next to me and holding my hand in his.
'Are you okay sweetheart?' He asked me.
'Yes I am now' I told him leaning my head against his shoulder. Being here with Edward made me able to forget things for a while and relax. I loved the feeling of security that being in his arms brought me.
'Good, Are you ready to do this? Emmett and jasper are on their way with Charlie and Carlisle wants to get you settled on one of the couches before comes so that your as comfortable as possible with your injuries. You shouldn't be on your feet because of ankle. So if its okay with you ill carry you downstairs' he asked me. Fear gripped me and nerves exploded inside me. Was I strong enough to do this? I needed to be.
'I think I'm as ready as I ever will be. Edward can you promise me something?' I asked him.
'Anything darling, you know that' he said.
'Stay with me whilst I talk to him please. I don't think I can do it without you' I almost begged him.
'Of course darling and if you want Carlisle can be there as well' he said which made me sigh in relief.
'Yes please' I told him.
'Okay he will be there darling. I love you Bella' Edward said and his voice was full of the love that shows in his eyes everytime he looks at me.
'I love you too' I told him. A large smile broke across his lips which ended up in me smiling in return. He leaned down and carefully placed a small kiss on my lips before gently gathering me up in his arms and made his way downstairs. The closer we got to the living room the more nervous I got. I just hope it doesn't end to badly.
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