Chapter 38

Maura pulled in to the hospital in record time, she had a small smile on her face as she thought of what Jane would say if she knew how fast she drove to get to her. She missed the monotony of things like fighting over how fast or slow the other drives, she missed a lot of things about being with Jane.

Maura dialed the number Dr. Becher text her, there was no answer. Maura decided she would try again as she walked to the lobby, not wanting to waste any time. She reached the lobby and still no answer, she was beginning to panic, why wouldn't he answer unless something was wrong. On the fourth try there was finally an answer after about seven rings.

"Maura." Dr. Becher said

"Yes doctor it's Maura, I'm here." Maura stated with a bite to her tone, angry that she was made to wait for his answer.

"I'll be down in just a minute." He stated.

Maura hung up and wrapped her arms around her body, trying to keep herself from running around the hospital yelling for Jane. The anticipation and worry were starting to eat away at what was left of her sanity. She felt as though everyone was watching, watching to see if she would crack, if she would loose it right there in front of everyone. Maura closed her eyes, took a deep breath and tried to recall a memory of Jane that would ground her. Jane always had a way of making everything alright, even if there was slim chances of it truly being alright, she needed her now. The first memory that popped in to her fragile mind was that of her and Jane's honeymoon.

"Jane we are going to miss our flight, please hurry!" Maura yelled up to Jane who was still in their bedroom packing last minute, unlike Maura who had packed a week in advance.

"Alright, alright already. We have plenty of time Maur, calm your pretty little self down." Jane said as she came down the stairs, suitcase in hand.

"Jane Rizzoli don't make light of this, if we don't leave right now we will never make it." Maura spoke as she grabbed her bags, opening the front door so that the driver they booked would come attend to them.

Jane placed her bag down next to Maura's, she took a last glance around to make sure she wasn't forgetting anything. she than followed Maura out to the car. As she stopped to allow Maura to get in the car first she smiled her signature, gotta love me, smile. " You are going to need a lot more than a smile to get out of this, I hate feeling rushed." Maura stated as she climbed in to the back of the town car.

Jane rolled her eyes as she too got in the car. " Geez Maur lighten up a bit ha, we're on our honeymoon for christ sake!"

Maura sat there with her arms folded across her chest looking like a child throwing a tantrum. Jane took a deep breath and blew it out rolling her head to the side staring at Maura. " Awe come on Mrs. Rizzoli, let's not start are honeymoon like this everything will be fine I promise. Have I ever let you down before?" Jane said as she smiled and slowly ran her hand up Maura's thigh.

Maura stopped Jane's hand from traveling any further up her thigh. She turned in her seat so she was now facing Jane, moving Jane's hand back to her own lap. "Jane I don't want to fight anymore than you do, but you know how much I like to keep to a schedule. When you disregard that schedule it make's me feel disrespected, and I don't ever want to feel that way when it comes to you or our relationship." Just as Jane was about to speak Maura held up her hand and interjected. "Before you say anything, let me remind you that you have to spend the next two weeks with me." Maura ended with a glare.

Jane laced her hands with Maura's, lifting their right hands up to her lips and placing a gentle kiss on Maura's knuckles. "I'm sorry Maur, I never meant to make you feel that way, and I promise I will do better by you. I only want you to ever feel loved by me, and I am so lucky that I get the rest of my life to prove that to you"

"Thank you Jane, I am lucky as well." Maura said as she kissed Jane on the corner of her lips.

"As long as we're being honest about our feelings here, maybe you could try to ease up a little on the anxiety. I promise I will never lead you astray. I hate seeing you so wound up, life is way to short for that babe, just relax and see where moments that you can't control take you." Jane said as she stroked their interlaced hands with her thumbs.

"I will certainly try, I was so much worse before I met you, you ground me like no other. I can feel a calming effect throughout my body at just the sound of your voice." Maura said.

"Like I said, the rest of my life babe. I'm not going anywhere no matter how psychotic you get." Jane laughed, this earned her a slap across her arm. Maura joined her in her laughter,feeling lighter now, even if they miss their flight she had Jane and that was all that was needed.

Maura smiled at the memory of Jane when she felt some one tap her shoulder. Maura turned to see Dr. Becher standing in front of her looking fatigued, that couldn't be a good sign Maura thought. "Dr. Becher..." The doctor interrupted Maura. "Please call me Jame's, I think we have gone through enough to be on a first name basis, don't you."

"Yes, Jame's I'd say we have. Where is Jane?" Maura said, for a moment it felt as though her heart had literally stopped when she saw his hesitation. "What's the matter? where is she...she's not..."

"Follow me we need to talk in private." Jame's said.

"No, tell me is she..." Maura demanded.

"No, god, no. Jane is alive Maura." Jame's said.

Maura released the breath she had been holding, and her knees suddenly became very weak she felt as though she was going to fall. James placed his hands under Maura's arms grabbing a hold of her before she could fall. "You okay?" Jame's asked as he looked her over. "Yes, I'm sorry, I'm okay just releaved is all." Maura said as she stood on her own, patting Jame's arm in thanks.

Jame's lead them to the elevators, unfortunately they were not alone so they couldn't speak. He then brought Maura to a family room just outside the ICU. Once in he checked the bathroom to make sure they were truly alone. "Maura Jane is here in the ICU."

"Why?" Maura asked cautiously.

"We were able to bring Jane back with the antidote, she was than transferred here by ambulance. I got her admitted under the alias Julie D'renda, Jane's vitals were stable during transport, but upon arrival here she started to decline. Jane went in to cardiac arrest..." Jame's stopped when Maura clumsily sat down in a chair and began to cry, he kneeled down in front of her. "Do you want me to continue?" Jame's asked.

Maura shook her head yes. " The staff here was able to get her heart back in to a normal sinus rhythm. Her vitals are now stable, she is very weak though, too weak to go through surgery tonight. We will have to wait and see if she remains stable enough to go through surgery." Jame's said, he waited for Maura to speak, it took a little while for her to gain control of her emotions.

"Ca..can I see her."Maura asked.

"Yes, of course. I told them that you were her wife and you would be here shortly. Your name is Samantha D'renda, Jane asked me to tell you a lot of things after the antidote did it's job, but I think it would sound better if it came from her." Jame's said as he stood up holding his hand out for her to grab hold of. He helped her up and out of the chair, she smoothed out her clothes, dried her eyes with nearby tissues, and shook her head to let Jame's know she was ready. "Ready?" He asked.

"Ready." Maura answered.