A/N: Three here. Do guys like the fears so far? How about the Five? You know the drill: R&R please!

****Lilly's POV****

After breakfast, it's time for the fear landscapes. Archer asks for volunteers, and Jared offers to go first. I see Jay's expression as he predicts a few of Jared's views. I didn't even realize he had walked down to breakfast with us. I was too busy thinking about kissing Archer. What an idiotic move on my part. I can't trust Archer like that! What if Jeanine found out?

Now, though, a wall separates us. I don't hear any sound, so I wonder if it's really that difficult to go through your fears. After a while, Kat is called in. Then Alex. No one bothers me as I sit in silence and refuse to make eye contact with anyone else. Jay has gone pale.

Then it is my turn. I wipe my hands on my black pants, hoping the dark dyes won't stain my hands. I don't let my racing heart I can feel pounding in my head show. This is awful; I'm nervous before even facing my fears! I pull myself together and don't let the morning's strange events affect me. I will not let Archer throw me off, which is obviously his plan by kissing me.

Once I'm in the small room, Archer smiles at me. He's bent over a computer monitor and pressing keys rapidly. Soon he stands and leads me to a chair in the middle of the space.

"Alright, all you need to do is sit down, let me inject you, and then get over your fears. That's it," he says.

I sit down, and before he injects me with a large needle, he says, "Also, Alex's fearscape revealed that he has a plan for Kat. I don't know what it is, but I just thought I'd give you a heads up. One last thing, I told the leaders our story about the bodies, so they don't need to question us yet."

I nod my head and allow him to brush the hair off of my neck and stick the needle in. I drink in the last bit of air I can before my vision goes black.

I expect to see something, anything, really, but nothing happens. I just lay in blackness so dark I can't even see myself. I don't hear anything. I don't see anything. I can't remember anything, now, either. Where am I? Who am I? What's going on?

I don't know. I don't know anything. Am I supposed to breathe? How do I do that? I feel helpless, stupid, and pathetic. I have a feeling that there's a barrier, and if I break it, all of my knowledge will come back. Suddenly, I can see that barrier: a brick wall. I press one finger to it and it goes away. Light envelopes the space, and I can see, hear, touch, and remember.

One fear down.

Next thing I know, there are bugs everywhere. I'm in that hollow tree again, stuck in place. I've got myself wedged so that even the slightest move will cause me to fall to my death. Heights don't bother me, but the bugs crawling all over do. I can't move my heavy body, I can only feel the tickle of disgusting insects.

I close my eyes and try to let the fear go away, but I can't. I hear a spray, sort of like a sudden gas leak, and snap open my eyes to reveal water pouring down from the top of the tree. The bugs are washed off, and I am no longer trapped.

Two fears down.

I am strapped to a hospital bed covered with dingy sheets. I try to get out of the leather restraints, but can't. I yell out for someone to help me, only to have a straight jacket wrapped around me. I am foaming at the mouth, insanely trying to do… something. I don't know what, but I have an urge to get out. I've gone insane.

I smile suddenly, remembering something I once read. I twist and twist until I can finally undo the belts keeping me in place. The straight jacket is off, and with it the insanity.

Three fears down.

Sunlight blinds me. The grass is green, the sky is blue, and all seems well with the world. I can see a town past the valley I'm in. It's covered in Erudite blue. Erudite is in control. How is this a fear?

Matt is lying on the ground, mangled and bleeding. I put a hand to my mouth. Jeanine stands in front of him smiling.

"You did good, Lilly," she says.

I push my glasses farther up the bridge of my nose, and find it strange I'm wearing them again. It's not like I ever needed them, but they made me look smarter. My tight bun is making my eyes water. I hear a gunshot.

Archer stands in his Dauntless attire with a gun that just shot Jeanine. She's dead. I yell at him. I scream. I have failed. Jeanine is dead. This is two fears in one. It's attacking my lack of trust and my fear of failing Jeanine. I look at Matt's lifeless body once more. I know what I have to do.

In his hands is a gun. I grab it and point it to Archer. If Archer betrays me, if he causes me to fail my mission, I must kill him. But if I do, then my trust fear will just come back. Which is more important, succeeding or Archer?

A gunshot rings out. I am dead by my own hand.

I wake up with a start. My hand clasps my chest as I take steadying breaths. Archer tries to grab my hand and calm me down, but I shove it away. It wasn't real, I know that, but it felt real. Now Archer knows I don't fully trust him. But he also knows I would rather kill myself then end him. I feel guilt for killing Matt. There, I admit it! It doesn't mean that I think Jeanine is wrong, though. Jeanine is always right.

"Lilly! It's okay, that wasn't me. That wasn't me," Archer says.

I sigh. I know that. "It was just intense. I've never been very good at trusting people…"

He nudges me on the shoulder. "That's what makes you a good spy. How about you go and do something fun to take your mind off of it, okay? You had a great time, one of the best today."

I nod my head slowly. "Good idea."

I somehow make my way to the Pit without stumbling off of the stairs. It scares me a little that walking around the Dauntless compound has become so natural. The Chasm's waves are louder today, or maybe it's just because I know that the three bodies are gone now.

I skip the bar, almost positive that alcohol isn't what I need.

I go into one of the stores and look around for some new clothes. I don't see anything that interests me, so I listen to others conversations instead. It's good practice, and you never know what you may stumble on. Dauntless conversations mostly entail dares and teasing, so I go back out to the Pit.

I step on something by accident, and it makes a strange noise. I see the tip of a razor beneath my foot. I quickly pick it up and hurry along in the crowd. I make it back to the dorm, where I want to just sleep for the rest of the day.

Alex didn't touch any of my belongings, luckily, and I'm alone in the large area. I pull the blade tip out of my pocket and reflect on what Archer told me. Archer himself is still an asset to me, but Jared…

Jared and Kat are so close, and they would do anything to save one another. Kat wouldn't be able to do much even if she turned on me, but Jared could be a threat. A nagging feeling pulls on my stomach that is much different from the sickness I feel around Archer. Jared needs to go.

A/N: Cliffhangers! Oh, how everyone hates them…. Evil Lilly is back and ready to turn on everyone! (Except Jeanine, of course.)