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Chapter 38: "Jealousy will drive you mad…"

Two days later

"I don't think it's a good idea…."

"Oh, c'mon now! I have to make you feel better somehow!"

"I'm feeling great now!"

"Yeah, right!" Boone snorted and Ana glared at him in response.

"Okay, fine… Maybe not great, but… okay."

"That doesn't make any difference, officer. Besides… will it hurt you?"

"Playing golf, when I haven't done this before in my whole life?" she questioned, raising her eyebrows "Hell yeah!"

Boone just laughed at her and didn't reply, because just then they made their way to the golf course and Ana stopped, dead in her tracks, looking around.

"Wow…" she breathed "We… I mean the people from the tail section… we had to run away into the jungle, eat rotten fruits, sleep on a very hard ground and stuff like that… and you were playing golf?"

He stared at her with a surprised expression on his face and then shook his head, deciding to ignore her. He walked off and her narrowed eyes followed him.

If she only knew, what they had been through…

Ana had a weird feeling, that she had gone too far. She pushed his buttons and she knew it. And she was pretty sure, that he has been hiding something from her…

"Boone…"

He ignored her and continued walking ahead, making her sigh in resigned voice.

"Hey, wait!" she called and ran over to him, grabbing his arm and forcing him to stop. "I'm sorry, okay? I didn't mean it to sound so harsh."

He wanted to glare at her… to ignore her or fight back with some mean comment, but… he couldn't. He just looked into her dark eyes and couldn't help, but smile tenderly. Why? Why it was so hard for him to even glare at her?

"Don't worry… I know, how it looks from your point of vision." Boone assured her and she smiled back at him unsurely.

"Okay, forget it and let's rock and roll with this!" he announced, giving a golf club to her. Ana rolled her eyes, but took it from him, sighing.

"Here's my punishment." She murmured under her breath and he punched her arm playfully.

"Stop complaining! It was supposed to make you feel better!"

"Yeah, I'm already feelin' better." she responded sarcastically and he rolled his eyes.

"Come on! At least try!"

"Fine!" she snapped, glaring at him playfully. She steadied herself in a position and grabbed the golf club, knowing how hilarious she must have looked with it. It was definitely not her hobby. From the corner of her eye Ana could see Boone, who was smirking and eyeing her carefully. She shook her head at this and thought: 'What the hell!'.

There was a whistle and Boone had to bend down, so that the golf club wouldn't smash his head.

"Whoa!" he breathed, as he stared at Ana with widened eyes. "Why the nerves!?"

"God, I'm sorry!" she apologized "You all right?"

He let out a brief laugh and then walked off to take the golf club, that landed few meters away from them.

"I'm okay!" Boone called, as he picked it up "You know… you didn't even hit a ball." He added, making his way back to her.

"I told you I had never played before!" Ana defended herself and he smirked.

"All right… I'll show you."

He approached her and gave her the club. She took it from him unsurely and sent him a look, challenging him. Boone rolled his eyes at this and turned her around, then wrapped his arms around her from behind, so that his hands could take a hold of the club too.

"You gotta keep your arms straight." He told her firmly, not aware, that shivers ran down her spine at his touch "And you use to much force with this. Try to relax…"

She sighed heavily and closed her eyes tight shut, trying to calm down, but it was hard, when he was standing so close to her. Moreover, he happened to adjust the arrangement of her hands on the golf club. He was saying something, but she couldn't hear him at all…

"Now, raise it… and hit the ball with a sure movement." He finished, doing everything with her, still keepin his arms around her torso. After a second, there was a whistle and the ball launched upwards and they watched, as it fell down not far away from the hole. Ana raised her eyebrows in surprise and Boone smiled, pulling away.

"See?"

"Yeah, but you've done the whole job for me…"

"Bullshit." he objected and she snorted, smirking "Was just directin' you…"

She turned around and faced him, a small, true smile appearing on her face.

"Thank you…"

He did not care if it was for being with her 24/7 or for helping her deal with Danny's death or simply for learning her, how to play golf.

"You're welcome."

Later

"Golf's not that bad!"

"See? Told ya."

"Shut up, Boone." Ana said, smirking and glaring at him playfully. He snorted and returned her glare. They continued walking through the jungle in silence for the next few minutes, both grinning like idiots. After a long while, they finally made their way back to the beach and Ana sighed in relief at the familiar sight.

"Hey, you know what?" Bonne questioned, staring at her with a smile.

"What?"

"Let's eat somethin'."

"Now you're talkin' my language." Ana replied and he chuckled and moved to walk away to the 'kitchen', but she grabbed his arm, stopping him.

"You know what? I'll go get something to eat for us."

"Why you?"

She shrugged, smiling.

"I dunno… Just go seat somewhere around and I'll be right back."

Boone looked surprised, but nodded anyway.

"Okay…" he drawled and with one last smile he walked away. She watched him go for a minute and then went to the 'kitchen'.

She was collecting fruits, when suddenly somebody approached her from behind.

"Hiya, chica!" the person drawled happily. Ana turned around and smirked slightly.

"Well, hello there, heart-breaker." She greeted him sarcastically. Sawyer grimaced a little and leaned against the nearest desk, staring at her unsurely.

"So ya know already?"

"As a matter of fact .." she began, gathering several mangoes and putting them on a plate, that she prepared " … yes."

He nodded in understanding and looked away, while she was still smirking, now taking two bottles with water.

"So uh … who told you?" Sawyer asked, leering at her.

"Boone …"

He rolled his eyes, scoffing.

"Yeah … of course."

Ana zipped her backpack and gazed at him.

"Problem?"

"Nah, no problem there at all, Lulu."

"Good." She stated firmly, grabbing two bananas and placing them on the same plate. "You messed up a little, huh?"

He frowned and looked up.

"What d'ya mean?"

"Between Jack and Kate. They don't talk to each other anymore… because of you, Cowboy."

What was the most annoying for him? The fact, that she was mumbling all those things, not even looking at him and smirking, just like she didn't care at all about him kissing Kate.

"It wasn't my fault."

"Sure…" Ana breathed, rolling her eyes.

"It wasn't."

"Jack saw you two, you know?"

"Yeah, but--"

"So what are ya sayin'?" she asked, turning her gaze at him "That Jack saw Kate kissing coconut?"

Sawyer sighed, annoyed at her for making fun of it.

"No! But she was the one, who started it! I woulda never--"

"Why are you telling me this?" Ana interrupted him, raising her eyebrows. This caught him off guard.

"I just thought you…" Sawyer started, but he had no idea, how to response on it " I thought you'd wanna know it …"

"Yeah?" she asked, turning her back on him to grab the plate and the backpack "You thought wrong." She added, turning around and eying him, without emotions in her eyes. He sent her a confused and … hurt look, but she just shrugged.

"You wanna kiss with Kate … then kiss with Kate. But when Jack comes to you with the intention of breaking your neck, don't come to me, asking for help. If you want to be one of those guys, that tear couples apart, then it's only your business." Ana announced and then walked away, leaving him alone. His eyes followed her and he didn't like, what he saw, because she came over to Boone, who was sitting in front of his shelter. She said something and he grinned up at her, making Sawyer want to vomit. She sat down beside him and he took the plate with fruits from her, laughing.

Sawyer swallowed hard, but what he was feeling was not anger or rage. It was sadness. He somehow felt betrayed. But he knew, that if anyone should be feeling betrayed … it was Ana. But she seemed to be just fine with this. Just like she didn't care at all, that he … that Kate had kissed him. And it really … hurt him. It hurt him bad … He was even surprised, how much …

In the meanwhile

Kate wiped away her tears and let out a deep breath, rubbing the back of her head, waiting …

After a while he finally showed up. He was staring blankly at the ground, while walking and it hurt her to see him like this. And she knew it was all because of her.

Once he saw her, he stopped, staring at her in disbelief, not wanting to look at her at all. He turned to walk away, but she caught up with him and grabbed his arm.

"Jack, wait!"

He squeezed his eyes shut, breathing heavily.

"What do you want?" he asked, trying to be polite.

"You know, what I want. Let's talk … please!" Kate asked him, but he shook his head and jerked his arm away.

"I don't want to talk to you."

"Jack, you didn't even give me a chance to explain, I think I deserve it!"

He looked at her, glared actually, making her wince.

"I don't want to and don't need to hear your sorry explanations, Kate. I've seen enough. You betrayed me. And now you're standing here, still thinking you deserve something?"

She blinked quickly, trying to dry the upcoming tears and looked away, as the guilt was squeezing her throat.

"I'm so sorry!" Kate cried, staring back up at him. "I didn't mean to hurt you! I just caught up in a moment…"

"You know what? If someone decided to give me money every time you apologize... I would be rich." Jack announced dryly, gazing at her with hurt and anger.

"Jack, please …" she breathed in resigned voice, but he cut her off.

"Why don't you go to Sawyer? Maybe he will be enjoying your company."

"It wasn't his fault. Don't blame him for it." She stated, her eyes softening.

"It wasn't, huh?"

"I started it… he pushed me away…" Kate told him, not wanting to meet his eyes. She could feel his burning gaze on herself. When he didn't say anything, she decided to look up.

"He doesn't want me."

"Yeah, right…" Jack mumbled, smiling coldly.

"He doesn't! He wants Ana Lucia, not me…" Kate demanded, desperately trying to make him believe her. Jack swallowed hard and looked away, spotting Ana and Boone, who were talking and laughing together. Then he noticed Sawyer, who was watching them with a hurt expression on his face.

"But she doesn't want him …" Jack mumbled quietly "… does she?"

He looked at Kate, whose face was already wet from tears. She let out a sob and covered her mouth with a hand, shaking her head. And he didn't feel sorry.

"But I know someone else, who wants him." Jack said, sending her one, last glare and walking away, not even giving her a chance to object. Although, he had a weird feeling, that she wouldn't have even denied it.

Later

"What did you say?"

"Huh?"

"To Sawyer… He looked, as if you told him to dance Macarena in front of entire camp."

Ana snorted, shaking her head with a small laugh.

"You know, curiosity killed the cat."

"I hate cats anyway…"

She laughed again, sending him an amused glance. He smirked and was about to repeat his question, when they spotted people gathering in the 'kitchen'.

"What's going on there?" Ana asked and Boone shrugged,

"Don't know…" he murmured "Come on."

He grabbed her hand and pulled her up and they both approached the crowd. They walked in on Sun saying:

"Trust her? She's one of them!"

There were some voices of support.

"Not anymore." Jack objected "They left her behind."

"Oh yeah?" Charlie threw in, doubtfully "Where'd they go?"

"I told you. I don't know." The doctor stated firmly, looking at the Briton over his shoulder. Ana glanced at Boone questioningly, but he just returned her gaze, shrugging.

"Maybe we'll better ask her." Sawyer offered and his voice sounded weird. He looked different… He was gloomy and sad, unlike his-usual-self.

"She doesn't know, either." Jack told the group.

"They're talkin' about Juliet, aren't they?" Ana whispered to Boone quietly.

"I think so…" he responded, frowning a little. She turned her gaze back at the doctor, when she felt somebody next to her. It was Claire, who was not looking really good. She was very pale and sweaty.

"Claire?" Ana asked her softly "You all right?"

The Blonde girl didn't reply, just tightened her grip on a blanket, that was wrapped around her shoulders. The Latina's gaze had lingered on her for a while, before she stared back at the crowd in front of her, keep on listening.

"Give her some time… She's afraid…" Jack said, desperate for everyone to believe him, just like they always used to.

"How much time?" Sayid demanded.

"But the fact, that I trust her should be enough."

"It's not." The Iraqi stated, his voice hard and firm.

"Claire?" Ana breathed, putting an arm around her back, when she felt her shiver. She stopped paying attention on the argument. "You okay?"

"Something you wanna ask me, Sawyer?" Jack questioned, glaring at the Southerner.

"Yeah, Jack! I wanna ask you, why you're fighting every single one of us and stickin' up for one of them?"

"I spent every moment over there, trying to find a way off this island!" the doctor called out. "I was trying to help all of us!"

Ana shook her head and turned her concerned gaze back at her friend, who was flinching with her eyes closed.

"Claire?"

"I was tryin' to get us rescued!" Jack announced firmly.

"Claire!?" Ana gasped, when she noticed blood, flowing from her nose. "Jack!" she yelled, making everyone look at her "Something's wrong with Claire!"

Boone's eyes widened, as he helped Ana held the Blonde girl up. The doctor ran over to them with Charlie hot on his heels, surprise and shock on their faces.

"Oh my Gosh!"

"She okay?"

Sawyer walked over too and his eyes connected with Ana's for a brief moment.

"Let's get her up… let's get her up." Jack told them and Charlie, Boone and Sawyer helped him. Kate covered her mouth with her hand and stood next to Ana, who didn't even recognize her present. As if on clue, Juliet appeared, staring at men, who were carrying unconscious Claire to her shelter.

"What happened to her?" she asked Sun, making Kate and Ana turn around. Jin mumbled something in Korean in response and Sun looked at Juliet coldly.

"He said: 'what do you care?'"

The Blonde woman stared at them, not knowing what to say and then shook her head and stormed off, followed by many glares.

"Can't she just mind her own business?" Kate asked with disgust in her voice. Ana just looked at her and then went to see on Claire, leaving the stunned and ignored Brunette behind her.

Later

"So she's gonna be fine?"

"Yeah, she will be okay… That's what Jack says anyway…"

Ana let out a sigh of relief and nodded, smiling slightly.

"It scared the shit out of me…"

"Oh really?" Boone questioned, smirking and she rolled her eyes and punched his shoulder.

Not far away from them, Sawyer was standing. He has just left Claire's shelter and was making his way to his shelter, when he saw them.

Boone said something. Ana laughed. Sawyer glared.

'Friggin' moron...'the Southerner thought and with one last glance at the couple, he walked away.

"Without trust, there can be no love…

Jealousy… yes, jealousy will drive you mad."

In the meanwhile

"You all right?"

"Yeah, I'm fine…"

"You don't look so good…"

"Wow… thanks."

Sun smiled gently and looked away.

"What happened there?"

Kate frowned and sent her a questioning look.

"What do you mean?"

The Asian stared back at the Brunette and her smile faded.
"You guys are acting weird… All of you."

"How come?" Kate asked, shrugging.

"Since you came back, you're not the same… "

"I don't know, what you're talking about…"

Sun let out a sigh, scoffing.

"Jack seems to be disconnected, he doesn't talk to anyone, he walks away for almost entire day sometimes, God knows where…" Kate looked down at this, feeling guilty, but Sun continued "Sawyer walks off to cut wood for a couple of hours… Don't know if you noticed, but he doesn't use his famous nicknames anymore… And every time I look at you, Kate, you're sad… almost depressed… Only Boone and Ana seem to be all right."

Kate closed her eyes, swallowing hard and then opened them and looked at Sun with a small smile.

"I'm sure we just have to get used to the situation… A lot happened…We'll be fine in a couple of days… " she assured the Asian woman, who smiled back a little, nodding.

"Yes… you're probably right…" Sun responded and then patted Kate's shoulder friendly and left. The Brunette's smile faded quickly afterwards… and then she spotted Juliet, sitting in her new shelter, few meters away from the 'kitchen'. Kate glared at the Blonde, clenching her fists and feeling, how her blood was boiling at the sight.

But then Jack appeared, carrying a tray with food. He said something and Juliet looked up and smiled at him.

"Jealousy… yes, jealousy will drive you mad"

With one last angry and hurt glance at the couple, Kate walked away.

Later

Sawyer was laying in his shelter, trying to relax. He grabbed some book and attempted to keep his mind occupied with something… Anything…

He couldn't focus... She was filling his mind all the time…

Suddenly, Kate burst through the tarps with a very serious look on her face.

"What?" Sawyer spat, looking up. She didn't answer, but approached him and sat in his lap, then grabbed the book from his hands and threw it behind her.

"Shut up and don't talk." Kate breathed and ignoring his surprised gaze, she bent down and kissed him.

Sawyer's eyes widened in shock. There was Ana's face in his mind again. He pushed the Brunette away slightly.

"What the hell are you doing?" he asked, frowning.

"I said shut up." And with that she tore his shirt apart and started nipping and licking on his chest, slowly making her way up. He groaned, fighting with himself. She moved up and kissed him again. Ana's face vanished, replaced with Boone's…

"…Jealousy will drive you mad…"

… and he kissed her back.

A/N: Took me a while again… I'm sorry. Hope You enjoyed.

Next chapter: Sawyer tells Jack about what happened between him and Kate and the doctor fumes and attacks him. Ana confronts Sawyer and they argue. Boone sticks up for her and it ends up with Sawyer storming off. Ana follows him with Boone into the jungle and the least pleasant thing meets them…