Chapter 39

11:32 AM

Brennan sat at her desk, the cursor on her computer blinking, ready for her to type. She stared at the monitor, but didn't really see it. She was too busy in her own thoughts. She replayed the argument she had with Booth that morning. He had apologized and they had left the house together, but the car ride to the Jeffersonian was a cold one. Booth didn't walk her into the building as he usually did. Instead, he just dropped her off. Brennan began to question whether she had done the right thing. Should she have told Booth about the pregnancy test? The only reason she hadn't told him was to spare his feelings. She wondered whether or not her decision was correct. Even after nearly three years of marriage, Brennan still felt like she didn't know anything about how a married couple should work. She couldn't help but wonder if she would never be the kind of wife Booth wanted and deserved.

"Hey Brennan," Angela said, poking her head into Brennan's office. Brennan was pulled from her concentration.

"Hey Angela," Brennan replied.

"I just gave my final report on the Walker case to Cam. She wants to know if you finished with your report so she can give it to the district attorney for trial."

Brennan looked at her computer screen. The report she was writing wasn't even half done.

"Ah…I haven't completed it yet," Brennan replied. "Could you please tell her it will be done by the end of the day?"

"Sure." Angela glanced at her watch. "I thought you and Booth were supposed to be picking up Parker."

Brennan looked at the time on her computer. She couldn't believe how quickly the morning had gone by. Booth would be arriving at the Jeffersonian in less than a half hour. There was no way she would be able to get the entire report done in that amount of time.

"I will get the report done," Brennan stated.

"Are you ok, Bren?" Angela asked. She took a few steps into Brennan's office and closed the door behind her. "Did something happen between you and Booth? I didn't see him come in this morning with you."

"That's because he didn't," Brennan said.

"Oh."
Brennan concentrated back on the report, determined to get it done as quickly as possible. She looked at the notes she had taken on the case. She began to type them up. Brennan wished she could just give the task of writing the report to an intern, but she knew it was her responsibility. Only she could explain what needed to be explained in the detail that was needed and expected.

"Bren?" Angela said, trying to get her attention. Brennan looked up at her. "Do you want to talk about it?"

"He found out this morning that I took that pregnancy test several weeks ago."

"The one I told you you should tell him about?"

"I wanted to spare his feelings."

"Did you tell him that?'

"Of course I did."

"And what did he say?"

"He told me I should have told him about it."

Angela made her way over to the couch and sat down.

"How did he find out?" She asked.

"He saw the box," Brennan answered.

"He flipped out, didn't he?"

"He was angry, but he later apologized for overreacting. Despite his apology, however, I sense that he is still upset."

"And why do you think he's upset?"

"He doesn't like when I hide things from him. He thinks that married couples should share everything with each other. But it's not as if I lied to him about it, Angela. If he had asked me several weeks ago if I took a pregnancy test, I would have admitted it to him, which is exactly what I did this morning. I read that couples often have difficulty coping if someone in the relationship lies, but I didn't lie."
"You may not have lied to him, Brennan, but you did omit the truth."

"It's not the same thing."

"In a relationship, it can be."

Brennan paused. "I believe he was also disappointed that I am not pregnant, which is precisely why I did not tell him in the first place."

"Booth would have been…upset whether you told him then or now. That's just how Booth is. He lays his heart out there and sometimes it gets hurt."

"And I don't."

"He will be ok. Just give him time."

"He believes that we still have the chance to have a child. He thinks I can get pregnant."

"What do you think?"

"I've seen the tests, Angela. The probability that I will ever carry a child is minute. He won't accept that."

"Booth isn't as rational as you, Bren. If he thinks there's a chance, he's going to hang on to that hope. Maybe it's not such a bad thing."

"What if he blames me?"

"For what?"

"For not being able to get pregnant. He says it's not my fault, but I can't help but think that maybe he blames me."

"He doesn't blame you, sweetie."

Brennan looked back at her computer so Angela couldn't see the tears that were threatening to fall from her eyes.

"I should call him. Let him know I won't be available for lunch so I can finish my report," Brennan said, officially ending their conversation.

"I will tell Cam that you'll have the report for her soon."

Before walking to the door, Angela went over to Brennan. She bent forward and hugged her.

"He loves you, you know. You can see it in his eyes. You're everything to him."

"I know," Brennan said.

"Just don't forget it."

Angela released her and headed for the door. Brennan took out her cell phone, ready to call Booth. He probably wouldn't be too thrilled that she was going to cancel on lunch, but she knew she had to get the report done. She also couldn't help but wonder if a little time away from each other would do them both good.

"I don't think you'll have to call him," Angela said.

"I do need to call him. I should tell him I'm not going to meet him for lunch."

"Well, you can tell him in person."

Angela pointed through the glass door. Booth was walking by the platform and towards Brennan's office. Angela opened the door and gave Booth a smile.

"Hey Booth," she said.

"Hey."

Angela quickly left, heading straight for her own office. She did not want to get in between Booth and Brennan.

"You ready for lunch?" Booth asked, lingering in the doorway. He didn't go into her office and greet her with a kiss like he usually did. He knew it wasn't her fault. He knew her reasons for not telling him about the pregnancy test were valid. She wanted to spare his feelings. That didn't make it hurt any less. After each of the invetro fertilization procedures, and Booth found out Brennan wasn't pregnant, his heart broke a little more.

"You're early," she stated.

"I don't want to be late picking up Parker."

"I'm not done with my report yet," Brennan said. "I was going to call you and tell you I wouldn't be able to make it to lunch."

"Oh."

"I'm sorry. If you weren't so early, I would have been able to call you and cancel so you wouldn't have had to drive over here."

"So now it's my fault?"

"No, I'm simply stating that if we had stuck to our original plan from this morning, this wouldn't have happened."

"This morning I was a little bit distracted to care about our plan."

"Perhaps you should be more observant."

"I'll see you later," he said. Brennan watched as Booth walked away from her office. Normally Booth would have insisted that she take a break no matter how pressing the report was. He would have begged her to go to the diner with him. But this wasn't normal. They were fighting and there was no way around it.

"I can meet you at the park later," Brennan suggested, chasing after him.

Booth stopped. "Fine. I should go. I don't want to be late."

As he turned to leave, Hodgins ran out of his office through the lab.

"Good, you're both here," Hodgins said with a big smile on his face.

"I was just leaving," Booth replied.

"Wait."

"Hodgins, I really have to…"

"Just wait. One minute. We've been waiting for everyone to be in the same place at the same time." Hodgins looked around as if he were searching for something. "I need Angela and Cam. Just wait."

"Dr. Hodgins, what is so important?" Brennan called out as Hodgins jogged off towards Angela's office. Booth crossed his arms over his chest, annoyed. He knew he wasn't going to be late, but he didn't want to be in the lab anymore. He wanted to leave. He needed to get fresh air and clear his head.

Hodgins returned a minute later, practically dragging Angela by the hand. Cam was walking behind them.

"Hodgins, what are you doing?" Angela asked. Her brow was creased, her eyes flitting back and forth between Hodgins and Brennan. Hodgins squeezed her hand and smiled a big goofy grin.

"I know everyone is busy so I will make this quick. Angela and I have been waiting weeks for everyone to be in the same place at the same time so we could tell all of you."

"Jack," Angela warned.

"We have some news to share with everyone."

"Now is not the time," Angela said. She knew exactly what he was going to say and she didn't know how to stop him.

"They're going to find out sooner or later, Ang," Hodgins said.

"What's the news, Hodgins?" Booth asked, wanting nothing more than to be away from the lab. "I've got to pick up Parker."

"Angela's pregnant. We're going to have a baby!" Hodgins yelled.

Cam clapped her hands. With a big smile plastered on her face, she hugged Angela. Angela looked over Cam's shoulder to look straight into Brennan's eyes. Brennan's face appeared emotionless. Booth, on the other hand, was stunned and he was having difficulty hiding it. He knew he should feel happy. He knew he should plaster a smile on his face and give Hodgins a slap on the back, but the only emotion he had was jealousy. Hodgins and Angela were pregnant while he and Brennan couldn't be.

"I'm so happy for you both," Cam said, letting go of Angela and giving Hodgins a hug.

"Thank you," Hodgins said.

Booth shook his head and put on a fake smile.

"Congratulations," he said, shaking Hodgins' hand.

"Yes, congratulations," Brennan said, her face still void of emotion. She looked at Angela and then over at Booth. Booth wouldn't meet her eyes.

Angela approached Brennan. "I'm sorry," she said in a low voice. "I didn't think he'd announce it today."

"It's ok. I'm happy for you, Angela. You will be a great mother."

"Thanks. I just…I don't want you to think…I know that…" Angela stuttered. She couldn't find the words. "I'm sorry, Bren."

Brennan gave her a swift hug not because she wanted to, but because she knew that was the appropriate response. She had learned enough about people that she knew that the appropriate response when someone told you good news was to be happy for them.

"I need to finish my report," Brennan said.

"Oh come on, Dr. B, why not finish it later? Let's go out for lunch to celebrate," Dr. Hodgins suggested.

"Sorry, I've got to go pick up Parker," Booth said. He kissed Angela on the cheek. "Congratulations again."

"Thanks," Angela said.

Without another word, Booth turned and walked out of the lab.

"I really should finish that report," Brennan said. She went back into her office. Brennan sat down at her desk, but the last thing that was on her mind was her report. The only thing she could think of was the look in Booth's eyes.

Author's Note: Ok, so I know I am becoming the worst updater ever. I really thought I would have this story completely posted by now, but real life always has a way of getting in the way. It's amazing that even though I'm a teacher, summers are sometimes more busy for me than the school year. Anyway, I just want to thank everyone for sticking with me and taking the time to read this story. 6 chapters left!