April 2004

Jack clenched his fist and then unclenched it as he watched Owen conduct a couple tests on his little girl. The moment she entered the Hub JJ had run down to greet her with a hug only to have her flinch away and hide behind Toshiko and Owen, no matter how much begging JJ had done she refused to even look at him, Jack can tell the signs of a raped woman and avoiding males were usually one of them. It made him furious that someone dared touch his goddaughter like that.

He watched from the CCTV it seemed somehow between the moment Owen got her out of Canary Wharf and the moment Alex Rose entered the Hub; Owen had won a little trust from her. not a lot but enough to let him take blood samples and check her blood pressure and so on, the fact Owen used a soft voice Jack never heard the man use before and kept calling Alex Rose Dr Tyler and helped a bit as well.

"Bloody bastards" Jack heard his girlfriend spit out beside him, he turned to see Donna fuming with anger, her eyes sparking with a dangerous light. "When I get my hands on them...ooh!"

"Not unless I get my hands on them first" Jack said icily causing Donna to shiver, Jack noticed and wrapped an arm round her, pressing a kiss into her red curls. "How are Rose and JJ?"

"JJ has finally fallen asleep; I put him in your bed. Suzie has taken Rose out for a drink and to convince her that none of this is her fault" Donna said sighing.

Owen had finished whatever tests had been needed and was now injecting a sedative into Alex Rose's arm who's eyes were getting heavy-lidded with sleepiness as she slumped down on the bed.

"Owen said she was refusing to sleep" Jack explained to Donna's silent question in a soft voice. "I don't even want to think why she's too scared to sleep"

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She woke up with a shuddering scream in a strange bed, she wondered if she had been moved to a different cell and then she remembered. Toshiko Sato and Owen Harper were sent to save her by Jack, their futures and possibilities have haunted her for weeks on end before she finally met them in the flesh, that despite her fear and mistrust she had already partly trusted them.

But she couldn't help but wonder why Jack didn't come for her himself. Was he still angry at her for shouting and running off? Did he hate her for being rude to Suzie? Did he no longer love her? She already lost the never there father, she can't lose this father figure. Yet the idea of him near her scared her, all men scared her right now, even her own twin.

She can't stop the memories mixed with visions the men's stale breath, someone dying, the men's rough hands touching and slapping her, blood pouring everywhere, bruises being inflicted while the grabbed her, tears falling....

She pulled at her hair and fell back groaning in her pillow, she can hear every word those men said about her age, her face, her body and her hair.

"Such a pretty little girl, such a pretty long girly hair, such a girl"

If she was a boy would they have done the same? Maybe but she doesn't want to know but she no longer wanted to be a girl anymore. She jumped up off of the bed and ran into the medic table, fumbling through the equipment until she found sharp surgical scissors. She held them up slowly, her breathing deepening when the door suddenly threw itself open.

"Alex Rose, no!" Rose shouted.

"You...you...weren't there..." Alex Rose sobbed holding the scissors closer to her neck.

"Honey, killing yourself won't solve anything sweetie" Rose said reaching out slowly to take the scissors away.

"I won't kill myself" Alex Rose whispered in a dead voice. "I just won't be a girl anymore"

"Darling I don't think regeneration works like that" Rose said gently her hand wrapping round Alex Rose's wrist.

"NO!"

Suddenly Alex Rose pushed Rose into the wall and held the scissors up, she grabbed a handful of her messy brown curls and began to hack away at them, Rose sat there in a mix of shock and relieve as she watched Alex Rose carried on hacking through her hair.

When Alex Rose dropped the scissors she crawled over to Rose who wrapped her arms round her daughter and rocked the sobbing girl.

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In an attempt to build Alex Rose's confidence up Donna took Alex Rose to the hairdresser to neaten up the hacked hair and then to some shops for new clothes since over the past year and a bit she had grown a few inches. What was a good morning where Alex Rose had ordered another couple inches off her hair and then dyed the tips red. They then went through some shops buying jeans and t-shirts, however between shops, Alex Rose went missing.

Taking shaky breaths Donna fumbled with her mobile dialling Jack's number. "Jack, I lost Alex Rose"

"WHAT?!"

Donna flinched at Jack's roar. "I lost her between Primark and New Look" Donna carried on calmly.

"Ok, ok I'll get the others to go through the CCTV and-"

"Jack, I think I know where she went. Let me go after her" Owen's voice piped up.

There was a muffled conversation before Jack's voice came back. "Owen is going after her, you come back here"

"Ok" Donna mumbled before hanging up, she has a feeling that Jack won't be forgiving her for this in a long time.

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Alex Rose's hand was hovering over the pregnancy tests, not sure what to pick when she spotted Owen from the corner of her eye, she let out a little yelp and jumped away.

"Alexandra don't worry, calm down, I won't hurt you" Owen said quietly.

"Dr Tyler" Alex Rose corrected.

"Dr Tyler I know why you are here" Owen said with a slight eye roll.

"I have to be sure" Alex Rose said calmly but her hands were shaking.

"You're not pregnant"

Alex Rose turned to face him. "W-what?"

"You're not pregnant, I did the tests, you're not pregnant and you have no sexual transmitted diseases...you're in the clear Alex Rose, you're in the clear"

"I-I-I'm in the clear?"

"You're in the clear"

Alex Rose fell into Owen's arms crying in sheer relieve.