I Do Not Own CSI
"It's nice having the night off" Gil said as he watched his sons and daughter play on the ground. Gracie and Wyatt were on there back and Matthew made funny faces at them
"Yes it is" Sara said cuddling up to Gil on the couch, watching the scene before her
"Abcde" Matthew started singing, that's as far as he had learned so far, but Sara was working on it
"EFGHIJK" Sara joined in
"LMNO" Matthew knew
"PQR" Gil added, watching as Matthew never left eye contact with the babies who were looking at him intently
"ST" Matthew sang
"UVWXY" Sara said raining her eyebrow
"And Z" Matthew yelled a little louder, clapping, causing Wyatt to smile, a first genuine gummy smile
"Sara look" Gil sat up pointing
"He smiled, Wyatt's smiling" Gil said getting of the couch to squat beside Matthew
"Matthew clap you're hands again" Gil asked the boy as Sara came to sit on the floor with them
The sound of Matthews claps caused Wyatt to smile again and Gracie to join him
"Matthew you made your brother and sister smile" Sara said beaming at her children
"Me mad dem smile" Matthew asked, his own smile stretching across his face
"You did buddy, you did" Gil said hugging Matthew close
"I think you deserve a cookie for that, what do you think" Gil asked, already knowing the answer
"Me need cookie" Matthew said running towards the kitchen
"What about you Sara, want a cookie"
"No I'm good thanks but enjoy the one I know you're going to have"
"Oh we manly men are going to enjoy it with a big glass of milk" Gil said retreating into the kitchen
"Well it looks like daddy has shown Matthew what a sweet tooth is" Sara said cooing to her two smiling babies
"So yesterday was interesting at work" Gil said as Sara snuggled back up to him on the couch. Matthew had been put down for the night and the babies had finally gone down as well, they should be down for most of the night
"Oh yeah, why is that" Sara asked stroking his chest
"Nick" was all Gil said
Sitting up a little and looking at Gil in the eye she asked
"Why, what's wrong with Nick"
"Nick is staring to freak out a little bit, the baby is due in a couple months and I think the first time father jitters are coming out"
"Oh yeah, what did he say"
"Hey Girss you think I could talk to ya for a few minutes" Nick asked jogging up from the end of the hall to meet him
"Sure, what's going on" Gil asked rounding his desk and taking a seat, watching as Nick closed the door
"Umm can I ask you a couple questions about what you felt when Sara was pregnant because I'm starting to panic a little bit" Nick said running his hand through his hair
"I'll answer to the best of my ability Nick, what do ya want to know" Grissom asked smiling at the nervousness he saw in Nick
"Were you completely freaking out by the end because I am, how do I know if I'm going to be a good dad, what if I faint in the delivery room, what if something happens to Lisa during the birth, is this it for me now, is the baby going to take away all that independence Lisa and I have"
"Nick stop and calm down for a second here" Gil said holding up his hand so Nick would stop rambling
"Nick I can assure you everything you're feeling is perfectly normal, I felt it, I actually went to Jim one night and did the same thing you're doing right now"
"You did"
"I did, and Jim calmed me down enough to see I was just panicking and that everything was going to be ok.
Nick everything will be ok, every expectant father worries about how good of a dad they'll be. Look at me Nick I'm 52 years old and I just became a dad. I am not as young as you and I still worry about how I am going to keep up with three kids who will be out playing and running in another few years. Matthew already is running. But between Sara and Jim telling me that everything will be ok and that I'm not too old to be a dad I was, no still am ok. You will be too Nick, just wait until you meet you're son or daughter, after that you'll know everything will be ok, you may have sleepless nights and never enough time to see you're wife but just looking in to you're child's eyes makes it a little better.
As for the delivery room, for me, watching Wyatt and Grace Come into this world was the best thing I have ever witnessed in my life; it's in my top three best moments"
"Oh yeah what are those" Nick asked somewhat calmer
"The first one is the first time I met Sara, second is when we got married, and third is there birth, Matthew coming into our lives rounds out number four"
"Meeting Lisa was the best thing that ever happened to me, but I think I'm still scared to death I'll faint in the delivery room"
"For me that was never a real big problem but Jim said he felt the same way.
Nick just think about all the gruesome things we see everyday and then think about what a miracle birth is, you and Lisa made something out of you're love together and now that thing, that person is ready to meet you and show off to the world. I guarantee you will not faint Nick, you will be too elated at watching you're son or daughter come into this world screaming.
Did I ever tell you guys that the twins didn't stop crying in the hospital room until the nurses put them in my arms, after I held them there cries stopped, just like that, like they already knew who I was even though Sara was the one to have that physical connection for nine months" Gil said smiling at the memory
"I never knew that, so it was really not as bad as everyone says it is" Nick asked
"Oh don't get me wrong Nick, it's messy and somewhat gross and there are doctors and nurses everywhere telling each other and what Lisa needs to do but just block out everything but Lisa and what she's doing and focus on the baby and everything will be all right, I promise.
Lisa will be fine, you can't focus on the negative and what could go wrong, that's like thinking you are going to die as soon as you walk out of this room, you have to believe that everything will go smoothly and that there are doctors and nurses around so that if something should go wrong and I stress 'should go wrong' that they will do everything in there power to fix it, just like we do everything in our power to bring justice to victims"
"Yeah, I guess you're right"
"And as for independence, well that will change. You're life is going to revolve around something else from now on and you're going to have to get used to that.
Sara and I kinda got thrust into parenthood with Matthew, we didn't have time to get used to our lives interrupted like you do with a newborn but you adjust and find time for yourselves. Sara and I still manage to find time together even with three babies in the house so I'm sure you and Lisa can find some down time together as well.
Now did any of that help or did it just go in one ear and out the other" Gil said smirking at the now more relaxed look on Nick's face
"No it actually helped a whole lot. And I am going to keep everything you said in my mind so that when I feel the need to freak out I can just remember what you said and know that I'm not alone in feeling this way.
Thank you Griss, you have no idea how much you helped" Nick said standing up
"Hey Griss"
"No worries Nick this stays between you and me"
"Thanks, I'm just going to go finish this" Nick said holding up his folder
"Bye Nick"
"You know that doesn't surprise me" Sara said
"What"
"Nick freaking out"
"Why"
"Because it's just the way Nick is, I figured he was bound to have a freak out, Lisa did"
"Oh yeah"
"Yeah"
"Hey Sara"
"Hey Lisa, come on in" Sara said holding the door open, Gracie on her shoulder
"Sorry to just stop by but I really need to talk to a female who is not my mom"
"About what"
"About this" Lisa said pointing at her stomach
"Freaking out"
"Yeah, how did you guess?"
"Because I felt the same way when I was pregnant, come on in to the kitchen, I'll fix us a drink while the babies are sleeping"
"Thank you Sara, you're a lifesaver" Lisa said sitting down at the kitchen table as Sara put the baby down and put on a pot of tea
"So start talking, what's freaking you out"
"The first thing is childbirth, I am afraid of the pain, if I can handle it" Lisa started
"Well by the sounds of it you saw the video, I told you not to watch it, it will just make you close you're legs.
I won't sugar coat it, childbirth sucks, it's not like the movies where it's all neat and tidy and as soon as the baby is born everyone is ok cuz' it's the complete opposite.
It's messy and painful. You were there with me when I was having contractions, they hurt, but then again I didn't take any drugs. But I am telling you, if you are in enough pain take the drugs"
"Why didn't you take them?"
"Because I tend to get pretty loopy from them and I wanted to be aware of what my body was doing and coherent enough to meet my babies.
The great thing was Gil was there the whole time, never let go of my hand, which was great. I think I actually left a handprint bruise on his hand because I squeezed so tight but he never let go and never asked me to lighten my grip, probably in fear that I would yell at him though"
"But what if something happens, what if I can't do it"
"You can't think that way. You have to focus on that baby and getting it into this world and know that if something goes wrong which it won't but if it does there are doctors and nurses all around to make sure you and the baby come out fine.
You can do this, women have been having babies since the beginning of time, were designed to carry, nurture and deliver a baby, just remember that. I have done it, Catherine has done it, you're mother, grandmother etc. etc.
You will be fine.
Have you read what to expect when you're expecting or any birthing books?"
"Yeah, what to expect when you're expecting"
"Then you know what's going to happen during labour and after labour"
"For the most part, but I'm still worried about if I can do it"
"You'll be fine, trust me what you're feeling is normal. I was freaking out about the labour and delivery and Catherine calmed me down and eased my fears about it. Told me what I was feeling was normal and that she felt the same way, scared and freaked. How are we supposed to fit a watermelon through a lemon, right? Bodies just shouldn't do that, but they do and it's painful and hurts like hell but once you finally see the life you helped create it's not so bad anymore, don't get me wrong my body hurt for a few days after the delivery, it hurt to go to the washroom or even walk to long but watching you're baby grasp your finger or look into you're eyes eases that pain and makes you feel all that much better"
"See that I can't wait for, seeing this baby that's inside me, seeing what Nick and I made"
"And I'm sure it will be amazing"
"But will I be a good mom, I know I always wanted kids but now that were getting one I'm not so sure how good of a parent I'll be"
"You will do fine. No one is perfect. That was one of my biggest concerns when Matthew was brought into our lives, I was an instant mom all of the sudden, I had never had any real experience with babies before and I'm still learning something new everyday! I wasn't even 100 sure I wanted kids of my own."
"You mean to tell me you never had any experience with children, you're so good with Matthew and the babies, it looks second nature to you. And why would you not want kids?"
"I wasn't sure on the kids part because I didn't have the greatest childhood growing up, I won't get into details because they are fairly personal to me and there are only a couple people who know about my past, but I was forced to grow up pretty quick, Nick probably told you I spent some time in foster care"
"He did mention it but I didn't push for the reason"
"Because he doesn't know the reason. But after foster care it kind of dulled my senses to make a family of my own.
But then I met Gil and after years of floating around one another we got together and then Matthew was placed in our lives, and after I asked about kids one night and him saying he wanted one of his own I wanted that too, I wanted that family I never really got to have as a child and a teen. I wanted to make that and enjoy it and also to see what a child that Gil and I created looked like. And we got double what we asked for, we would have been happy with one, but no we had to be over achievers and make two" Sara said laughing at the last part
"I Promise you will be fine, if I can do this and every mother you know can do this then you can do it too, and don't forget you have Nick to lean on too. He's probably freaking out a little too, talk to him about it and discuss it. Trust me it will help. Gil and I spent many nights when I couldn't sleep just talking about how our lives were going to change and if we were prepared for three babies.
So did any of this help ease you're fears" Sara said picking up Gracie who started to whimper
"It did, thank you Sara"
"Anytime"
"Who would have thought we would be giving advice on parenting" Gil thought out loud
"I know" Sara said caressing his chest now
"Sara if you keep doing that it's going to take a lot of restraint to not finish what you're starting" Gil said stilling her hand
"Who says I don't want to finish" Sara said a seductively
"Are you sure you're ready, I know it's been two months since you gave birth but are you sure" Gil asked a hopefully. It had been almost four months since he and Sara made love
"I'm ready Gil, I need you to make love to me and there's never a better time then the present. The babies are down for the night or at least until six tomorrow morning and Matthew is sound asleep and you're off tonight, and hopefully I can get you off in another way too" Sara said grabbing his hand, pulling him off the couch and dragging him up the stairs
"You can always get me off Sara" Gil said into her ear
"Good to know, now make love to me Gil" Sara said just before he kissed her passionately, tongues fighting for dominance, Gil finally succeeding the battle as he laid her down on the bed, ready to make love to her all night long
Chapter 38 is here
Hope you liked the freaking out of Nick and Lisa and Gil and Sara coming to the rescue, lol
I think every expectant parent goes through some sort of 'can we do this and how are we going to do this' phase and I never really showed that side form Gil and Sara so Nick and Lisa were the next best targets
I did want to get to potty training this chapter but it started to run longer then I thought so next chapter will feature potty training Matthew
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