A/N: So this chapter took awhile to write because of computer difficulties but also because of the depth! You get to see little gems of where Makoto is going but I promise I still have a few shockers up my sleeve. So get comfortable and get ready for an emotional ride of the Past. Present! Future? Enjoy Readers! You know how to contact me by now, lol.
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As Luck Would Have It
Chapter 38
"Past. Present! Future?"
Makoto adjusted her shades and steadied herself along the gravel pathway. As she stood up and acknowledged the growing sunrise, she heard the car door close, and the light footsteps of Haruka approaching her. Haruka grabbed Makoto's hand and guided her towards a robust archway that was astounding both in construction and decor. Makoto's footsteps sunk into the gravel until she was guided to a tiled floor in the entrance of the decadent garden. Makoto stood still and Haruka lost grasp of her hand, "This is beautiful..." Makoto admired the beautiful and foreign flowers that crowded the end of the archway until the space opened into paned windows and several green plants. Makoto only smiled at the sight and looked over to Haruka's smug eyes. Makoto proceeded to walk past the blonde towards these sweet pink roses that were calling to her. Makoto admired the loveliest roses she had ever laid eyes on. The flower itself soothed her down to her inner core. She allowed the sweet smell to tickle her nostrils, completely ignoring the rest of the world including Haruka.
Haruka leaned over Makoto and reached for a rose, she inhaled the scent and then wrapped her arms around Makoto in a hug, "Mako-chan... you are safe now. Talk to me."
"No I'm not!" Makoto whispered into the rose. "I'm never safe, everytime I think I'm safe, something happens..." Makoto honestly said and fingered the thorns of the rose. She turned around and tapped into Haruka's chest. "Look I appreciate you looking out for me and even picking me up but I'll be fine..." Makoto said trying to walk out Haruka's grasp but she held on tight.
"You aren't okay. I know it and even if you don't want to talk about it..."
"You're safe here minx." Haruka whispered into Makoto's ever so gently.
Makoto fingered the rose steadily as a shiver ran up her spine. She had to hold back that name. It rang in her ears because of their past. 'It's what she used to call me...' her mind began to reel with memories.
Haruka felt Makoto's body begin to tense up. "What's the matter?" Haruka asked concerned.
"Nothing." Makoto's eyes fluttered open as she regained her composure. Her finger left the roses too. "Just like there's nothing more to talk about." Makoto walked away from Haruka towards another part of the garden that seemed to be calling to her. "We both know that I care..." Makoto paused and looked at the ground behind her, that happened to be towards Haruka's direction. "cared." she said and let the word sink into the thick air. She proceeded to keep walking through a walkway towards what, she didn't know.
She admired some lovely tiger lilies along the walk and she could feel Haruka following her, so Makoto kept speaking. "for Mamoru more than regular friends should. There were moments last night where I felt that he felt the same way." Makoto inhaled slowly the new overwhelming smell of lilies. "But I was wrong. So really I have no reason to cry anymore. He's single and I need to just accept that he's a bachelor. I need to define the limits of my emotions. Because yesterday..." Makoto paused as the bushels of flowers opened into a circle with several paths towards this grand, old oak tree. She could only smile as she took off her shoes and walked towards it on the plush bed of grass. Every step towards this tree only seemed to take away any and all feelings of anger or angst that she had felt the previous night. Until she touched it, the great roots of such a strong living plant, her stress had diminished. She breathed in the beauty of this moment. She felt at peace. Makoto opened her eyes and knew that for some odd reason Haruka's hand was stretching out towards with violently quick speed. Haruka took a jab at her but Makoto skillfully dodged the hit and responded with an aggressive jab to the gut. Haruka missed it, the only thing that stopped Makoto from landing the blow was Makoto's restraint. Her back was against the oak and she couldn't explain how her senses seemed so heightened but it did.
"Haruka, what the hell was that for?" Makoto said very unsure of herself. The peace she had was gone before she could truly enjoy it.
"I was testing you and it's your time..." Haruka said with a smile.
"The hell are you talking about?" Makoto challenged.
"I'll tell you everything soon just keep talking about last night..." Haruka said calmly, "I promise there will be no more surprise blows." she held her hands up for Makoto to see.
Makoto was obviously mad and confused, "NO!" her voice boomed, "Tell me now..." she tried to lower her voice, she was conscious of the possibility of disturbing the peaceful nature of this garden.
Haruka walked up to Makoto and tried to embrace her but Makoto's hand came straight to her chest to stop her. Haruka was a little rocked at the steadiness and swiftness of her hand. Makoto was a little taken back by her outright gesture, she murmured "Sorry." she leaned against the great oak and looked at her hands 'That was too instinctual... Where did it come from?' Makoto thought.
"No, its okay." Haruka said rubbing her chest slightly, "You've gotten stronger I see." Haruka chuckled.
"No, really I don't know where that came from..." Makoto questioned herself and sunk into the tree and slid down to the grand tree trunk.
Haruka leveled with her, "Makoto, I'll explain it to you later but trust me everything will be okay." She reached out to wipe some hair from Makoto's face. She met with no trace of resistance but every ounce of confusion was clear on her face. She stared into those deep, emerald eyes that hadn't change in the slightest from the last millennia. 'They are just as beautiful as the first time I'd ever seen them... Control yourself Haruka, focus on what you are supposed to do. Don't get lost in her eyes...'
"I guess this Mamoru thing has got my nerves shot..." Makoto admitted to herself. "I just don't want to love him or anyone anymore. I want to just be me and enjoy that. I'm tired of feeling something and thinking that its returned. I've been duped by Cupid too many times. Logically, it's time for me to just move on and not harp anymore anger towards anyone." Makoto said running her fingers through her bangs.
"But Makoto..." Haruka said taking a seat next to her and wrapping an arm around her, "We both know that love doesn't go by logic but what exactly happened last night?" Haruka asked and was met with those deep greens (her eyes). "Include the part of fucking a stripper. I need to hear this..."
Fifteen minutes later...
"Wow!" Haruka said wiping her face and mouth still agape.
"That's just what happened at the club." Makoto said plainly, her heart felt a little lighter knowing that she wasn't crazy for yesterday. "But the part that struck me as most odd... of the entire night... was when Mamoru showed up at Lex's place. I went there to forget about him and be with someone, who seemingly cared for me..." Makoto trailed off. "My head was clouded, my heart was clouded but I had taken a shower in Lex's room..." Makoto hesitated and her eyes flickered over towards Haruka's eyes.
Haruka's pupils seemed to expand to the size of quarters, "WITH LEX?" her voice boomed in shock and alarm.
"NO!" Makoto yelled. "Jeez! I'm not easy despite what you may think!" Makoto said watching Haruka clutch her chest as if she had just suffered from a heartache.
"Then why'd you pause like that?" Haruka yelled still trying to catch her breath.
"I DON'T KNOW!" Makoto said a little frazzled but she ended up laughing.
"You think its funny giving people heart attacks?" Haruka said looking at the brunette, who badly attempted to silence her own giggles.
"No, it isn't that but who knew I could even ruffle your feathers... You are always so cool." Makoto still chuckled and mocked a little.
"Look wise-guy. I can be good when we are just kidding and I can usually tell when you are. But there was a moment there when I thought that you were going to tell me that you were actually having sex with this stranger." Haruka said finally calming down.
"Hey! Lex isnt a stranger, he's a really sweet, kind, funny, attractive, sexy..." Makoto said dreamily.
"So wait you have a crush on your booty call?" Haruka asked in disbelief.
"No! He's a good friend and I don't think I have a crush on my..." Makoto air-quoted, "BOOTY CALL!"
"Mmhmm..." Haruka said with a sly look on her face, "continue your story... before you tried to kill me." she muttered.
"Look I deserve to be treated like a desirable woman and to be honest... Lex is the first guy, who genuinely, looks at me like that." Makoto was a little taken back when Haruka stroked her cheek and nodded. 'She understands...' Makoto relished in the thought and seemingly continued with her story, "But yea, I woke up at a certain point of the night after MY PERSONAL SHOWER," she accentuated and chuckled, catching Haruka smiling. "I had dozed off for a little while and then woke up with a weird feeling. I happened to look out the window and couldn't hear the storm..." she looked perplexed at her feet, "It was like the storm was talking but not to me and seemed different than normal..." Makoto looked up at Haruka in disbelief, "I couldn't speak to my element... If you can understand what I'm saying." she said slightly embarrassed with the slight blush of eagerness she displayed for Haruka to understand.
Haruka looked at Makoto and rubbed her shoulder, "I know what you mean." Makoto seemed slightly appeased by Haruka's empathy.
"But I guess the weirdest part was also that I saw a thunderbolt..." Makoto trailed off, 'Let's see if I can find the right words to phrase this.' she got lost in her own thoughts.
Haruka seemed confused, "Did it hit you?" Haruka joked, trying to lighten the brunette's mood.
"No." Makoto smiled, "But it did seem to hit another thunderbolt... that came from the ground, really violently..." Makoto paused, "Then I was flushed with memories that didn't seem to be mine and seemed like a flashback of two people getting intimate." Makoto closed her eyes.
Haruka watched Makoto's body language, she closed her eyes as if she was reliving the moment, her hands started on her hips and slowly roamed up those infamous curves.
"The man pulled her top off, his hands roamed her curves, he kissed her intensely, she moaned in his ear, she kissed his neck, and then..." Makoto trailed off with her hands around her neck. 'Why can't I remember what happens next?' she had a mental block that she was trying to push through. 'It's like something wants me to forget...'
"And then what?" Haruka questioned.
"She moaned his name 'Mamoru!' " Makoto's eyes flickered open suddenly at the mention of his name and there were the slightest traces of tears. It was like a floodgate that had just busted open in her mind, flooding her senses. She had forgotten this morning about the memories that weren't hers. 'Why did I have to see him with a woman like that? As if the brief flash of that wasn't enough? Where are all these memories coming from?' The eerie feeling she had from last night. She wanted to forget these memories that weren't even hers.
Haruka looked at Makoto's confusion that seemed to shake her to her inner core. Haruka couldn't resist the urge anymore, Haruka pulled Makoto into her arms, "Makoto I'm sorry." she said quietly into the brunette's hair.
Makoto relaxed a little in Haruka's arms and attempted to sit up, "No don't worry about me. I'm just being emotional for no reason... I had no business falling in love for Mamoru. I knew I liked him but even made the mistake of giving him a bigger place in my heart like that. It just sucks and then on top of that I feel like I saw everything. I knew I liked him but still..." Makoto said into Haruka's shirt.
Haruka couldn't put her finger on why Makoto was feeling all of these emotions but she wanted Makoto to feel some kind of relief, 'Hera, please help her...' Haruka said and gently rubbed.
Haruka patted Makoto's back and kissed her cheek, "Its okay. We'll figure everything out."
Makoto closed her eyes and allowed herself to relax just for a moment, she could feel the same peace as before. "Something about this garden that is really trying to calm my..." Makoto had dozed off...
'Rela my little nymph... It will be okay. I'll make sure of that!' Haruka whispered to the sleeping brunette.
Ten minutes had passed when Makoto's eyes fluttered open, she was so groggy but in someone's arms. 'What happened?' she thought as she looked at the familiar blonde face.
"Morning sleeping beauty." Haruka's voice said in a husky tone.
"How long was I out for?" Makoto asked sitting up wiping her face.
"Just about ten minutes... Nothing more." Haruka leaned her head against the base of the tree.
"What happened?" Makoto asked patiently and slightly confused. She sat up and wiped her face, "I remember not finishing what I was saying because I nodded off."
"Yea but that was exactly what you needed." Haruka said sitting up along the great oak, she gently pushed back some hair that was standing up on Makoto's head, "You remember what we were talking about before right?"
Makoto nodded, "Unfortunately."
She sunk into the oak tree and closed her eyes, "Sorry for being a little frantic earlier. The memories were a little more vivid than before but I'll be fine."
"Yes, you will. You are stronger then you give yourself credit. Never forget you are a Jovian!" Haruka chuckled at the distant memory.
"What's so funny?" Makoto inquired.
Haruka cocked her head and smiled towards the brunette, "You sure you want to know?" Makoto merely replied with a nod.
"Well in the silver millennium back when we had first met. I was new on the Jovian grounds but the second outer to arrive for the Outer Planet Conference. I was lost around your grand castle but I was getting a tour. We were admiring the beautiful gardens from one of the hallway balconies. There was such peace and we turned around to walk down the next corridor and all of a sudden there was an obscene amount of yelling from behind us from the window. I couldn't help but look even though I had lost my tour guide. I walked over to the balcony because I started to see some royal blue fabric float downwards from the archway. Then I saw some flat clad feet, I said,
'I'm coming!' I said running now. Long and behold as I get to the archway, I see you dangling from the vines on the outside of the castle, 'I'll catch you!' I offered. But you just responded with a long "shush!" you seem to fuss a little more down the outside vines and drop down with little warning. You drop into my arms like you were going to land on your feet but I caught you. However, I underestimated your height and uhm... Body shape!"
Makoto cocked her head and looked at her, "What do you mean?" she raised an eyebrow in a suspicious manner.
"Well your breasts landed right on my face because I'd underestimated how full your butt was that got caught on my arms.
You responded by flailing your feet and saying, 'I would have landed on my feet ya know?'
I put you down on your feet, clearly underestimating your height because the distance wasn't far, 'Most maidens would simply reply with gratitude.' I said dusting off some shrubbery that had fallen on me. That's when I finally noticed you. You were a tall, auburn, curvaceous lady in this tightly clad, royal blue, elegant, balconet bustier-like dress that had flowing sheer fabric from the bodice. The fabrics only teased on-lookers with the high slits that showed off your shapely legs in an elegant manner as you moved. After looking over your whole frame, for the purposes to just 'size you up'. I noticed those timeless deep emerald, eyes that pierced through my cool demeanor actually. I just thought you were some unfortunate maid. I should have known better but I had heard tales of the ravishing beauty of Jovian women.
You broke my train of thought by saying, 'Jovians aren't usually maidens in the galaxy that need to be saved. People usually need saving from us. But I guess you've gotten your thanks already.' you said looking at your boobs and then back at me.
I only laughed and you smiled. 'Nice to see Jovian women have a sense of humor... But how do you know I'm not Jovian?' I asked intrigued.
'That crest is Uranian' you said to me touching my breast pocket quite boldly but gingerly, 'And I'm assuming you must be Princess Haruka.' you said calmly and formally curtsied.
'No need for that considering the situation but I am impressed you know that...' we were then interrupted by a woman who yelled over the balcony above that you had just escaped from,
'There she is!' the lady said.
'Hera!' you seemed to curse under your breath, 'Well that is my queue to leave.' you gathered your skirts to make a dash and dash you certainly did.
'How can I see you again?' I yelled after you, 'You can always find me in the kitchens or out in the gardens with the brightest and sweetest of roses.' And just like that you were gone." Haruka said staring off into the distance.
"So you were a perv last millennium? Great!" Makoto laughed at the blush that crept on Haruka's face.
Haruka seemed to turn away and smile, "Thank goodness I don't have to deal with such temptations this millennia!" she joked.
"Hey!" Makoto exclaimed and proceeded to push the blonde. "My past life sounds better then my present life." Makoto chuckled, "How'd you find out who I really am?"
"That's an interesting story actually that I'll have to tell you later. But Makoto on a serious note I have to tell you why I brought you here..." Haruka said regaining her infamous cool demeanor. "When most of the evils are defeated from this millennia there is a transitional period that you inners are supposed to go through." Haruka paused to look over Makoto's entranced demeanor. She listened intently and patiently. "Last night was an example of how your powers are growing. Because like you, when the winds were picking up and this storm was brewing that no weather channel had predicted was occurring there was an unsettling feeling in my house. Sets noticed it first and excused herself from the family room to go to her lab. However, I noticed when I excused myself to grab something from my bedroom. The wind was picking up and like you I couldn't speak to it. I knew it was you before the clouds even appeared and went to look for Sets, she said that you were in distress. I started towards the door but Sets said that you could handle whatever was going on. There were low level spikes of Jovian energy."
"So I caused the storm? And last night were low levels?" Makoto said amazed and confused. She felt Haruka lift her chin to meet her comforting eyes.
"Yes you did but you can control that. This is why I'm here, we had a feeling that you would be first considering that you are an outer scout and probably have the most powerful transition and elements to master." Haruka merely said.
"An outer?" Makoto said blankly.
"Yea." Haruka said frankly releasing Makoto's chin and chuckled to herself. "Your mother was the first Jovian to join the inner scouts after a request by the Moon and Earth kingdom. It was a heated topic of discussion because she had been raised an outer but was requested at the discretion of the Moon and Earth kingdom due to their growing threats. Your mother's presence was the difference needed to subdue the evil forces. The Earth was also changing, it had been predicted that the reigning princess was to conceive a son and only a son, which threw off the balance. However, she had to resign from her scoutly duties because she got ill for years then when her health was better, she got married, and she soon became pregnant afterwards."
"Wait... that math isn't right?" Makoto said trying to calculate things. "How much older was Mamoru than Usagi? Here he's four years older."
Haruka sat back and thought about it, "I think it was just about the same there too, maybe 5 or six years older but the queen of Earth, miscarried a lot unfortunately."Haruka simply explained.
"So let me get this straight... Ruka, I caused that storm yesterday? With all the rain and thunder?" Makoto said a little concerned.
Haruka looked at the brunette and could sense her uncertainty. Haruka reached out and laced her fingers with the wood nymph. "Yesssss" she drew out her answer, "But you should be proud!" Haruka exclaimed but was met with the most confused facial expression. "I'll explain myself, last night I kept bugging Sets to check her monitor on Sailor energy levels. Everytime I came back she was like 'She's fine!' until Sets offered for me a transportable monitor and closed up her lab. I watched that thing steady throughout the night. Even in my bedroom even when everyone had gone to bed and I should have been sleeping." Haruka paused to make sure the brunette was still following her, Makoto was watching hanging on her every word. os Haruka continued, "Surprisingly, Sets was right. You were fine. Not because you aren't capable of such causing such a possible ruckus with your intense powers but because you are capable of such control and restraint of them. I was afraid that something would trigger you and you could hurt yourself or someone else. Your element is definitely one of the most powerful and beautiful of the inners. Hence you being an outer" Haruka joked but watched Makoto nod in understanding. "At one point I was in bed..." Haruka treaded lightly.
"Sleeping next to your wife..." Makoto said frankly, "It's okay to say it Ruka. Let the past be the past and move forward with a smile. I give up on love. I'll get a royal sperm donor for the future!" Makoto smiled.
Haruka bursted out laughing, "That will never happen, Sets would never allow such a thing!" Makoto smiled at the blonde, "But I was laying in bed and Sets texted me at around 4 AM to meet her in the lab. When I arrived she requested the portable monitor. 'Haruka, she's fine. I'm sure she's done for the night and you can check on her in the morning. Just let me have the monitor, if you keep it, you won't sleep and we both know this, she's stronger than we thought! We know the dangers but she's making us proud. Take it easy.' Sets said to me. I slept for an hour before I was up again but she was right. Despite the things you experienced last night, you seemed to manage your emotions and your gifts."
Makoto laughed, "Gifts... Right." she murmured to herself. She stared into her lap and played with her fingers, 'As if life wasn't hard enough.' she felt Haruka reach out and touch her cheek. Makoto instinctively turned into her touch and looked up to the blonde.
"They are gifts Mako and your birthright. It's just the next phase of your life with some training you'll master them with no problem. Your present isn't a mistake things will be better then before and your future will be bright with true love. No sperm donors!" Haruka joked but couldn't help but melt at the vulnerable state the brunette was in and she smiled at her too, warming the blonde's heart. 'My thunder goddess... Don't worry I promise to you that you'll soon be okay!' She looked lovingly into the brunette's eyes and couldn't help but want to kiss those rosey-pink lips, 'She's still my weakness but I've got to let her go and help her move forward!' Makoto interrupted her thoughts.
"But why are you helping me? Like are you supposed to be my mentor or something? No offense or anything!" Makoto asked frankly.
Haruka pulled her hand away and thought. She looked at Makoto simply and said, "Because I made a promise!"