Chapter 39 The World Spins Madly On.
"Why don't you tell her? You know when she's conscience?"
Severus turned to see Remus, standing there with a very smug 'all knowing' look. He wouldn't be made a fool so he stood at his full height and looked down his nose at his friend. "Why haven't you?"
"Because I don't feel the same you do about her. Yes I love her, but in the same way I loved Lily, like a sister." At Severus's scoff he continued. "yes I thought I felt strongly for her, but there is something that was missing, and it wasn;t too long before I found out what was missing." He looked from the sleeping Carina to the stiff backed, black clad Severus. "Her heart belongs to someone else, she gave it away along time ago, long before I met her."
Severus scowled he must be lying, he had seen the all to obvious signs of infatuation surely he didn't, there was no way, "You don't mean to tell me you are in love with Tonk!?"
Remus chuckled at the dumbfounded look on his friends face, "Oh Merlin, No!" he was still laughing and then something struck him. "Wait you think I love someone?"
"Of course, you go all doe eyed, and you sigh that confounded whining sound when ever your lost in thought." Severus sat at one of the winged back chairs that were at a tea table. "Tell me about it." Good his mind sighed, if it wasn't Carina he could move on from the jealousy that gripped his heart every time they were together.
"She is...a special person." Remus was floundering over his words.
"The adjective special is an vague adjective, in these times it could refer to a number of things, for example one might say the same sentence and its meaning being that the person is physically or mentally handicapped. Is that what you are telling me?"
Remus glared at the man who smirked back darkly, "No, though you may beg to differ. She is passionate, and excitable. She doesn't care to fancy herself up like others her age. She is young, being just of legal age, hence the fact I haven't broad casted my feelings all over the Wizarding World."
"You love an ex-student?" it was a plan simple question, it was not pointed as Remus thought it would be.
"Yes though my feelings began after I left school, in fact my feeling have only just began. The problem is that she is still a student. But none of this matters, her own feelings are far from mine I'm sure."
"Well, I suppose we have common ground you and I."
"Yes I suppose we do."
The Months passed, and Winter was almost there. Carina's first few days had been completely anti climatic, no students came. But it didn't take long for all the first years to start popping in. Most were homesick and found no maternal comfort from their Heads of House, mostly Gryffindore, Slythrein, and Ravenclaws. The Hufflepuffs seemed to have been adjusting well with there mother hen, Professor Sprout, she herself claiming to treat her 'sprouts' like the rear Ambrosia Rose.
She had a Slytherin first year whose parents had ignored, and just waited for the day until the child was sent to Hogwarts where they could "Pay someone else to worry for him.". They had ignored his need for studies, saying that he only needed to learn "magic not muggle nonsense" and therefore did not know how to read. The teachers didn't understand why he could answer all the questions allowed but when test came and homework was to be turned in they were blank. Severus had marched the child to her office sneering out "Your a 'problem solver' solve this!" and ,arched right out of the office, leaving the boy who stood stiff back and a sneer on his face. HE was a smart boy and was learning fast, and Carina worked a system with the teachers to work around his inability to read.
Her first Hufflepuff she came across in the halls on her way to lunch. As she was walking she felt a terrible sadness coming from a corner, and sure enough there sat the little Hufflepuff crying into a torn robe. When she coaxed the girl to her office she found out that the child was from a large poor muggle family, and her only robes were hand-me-downs that some Slytherin had torn. Carina cast a spell on the robe and it was fixed, the girl then told her that most everything she owned was in one way or another in need of mending. Carina now stood staring at a small pile of clothes that were tattered and torn. None of which were fit for the on coming cold of Winter.
Her first older student came as a suprize, he opened the door to find Hermione looking at her. She was taller then Hermione since she was wearing heeled boots that Madam Hooch had taken her to get from Hogsmead claiming "Its not right for 3 years to be taller then a school Madam.".
"Miss Granger come in!" She had already forgiven Hermione but Hermione looked as shame faced as ever.
"Madam Hannah, I... I'm want to know if you will ever consider being my friend?" She seemed to have tears in her eyes so Carina knew that there was something more to the story so she lead the girl in and sat her down and made up the tea.
"Whats wrong Hermione?" she poured the tea and offered it to her.
"I don't have any female friends except Ginny, but I can't talk to her about this, it would be awkward. And I can't talk to any of the girls in my dorm Lavender is apart of the problem, Parevati would run straight to Lavender. Luna would talk about Kilborn Higs were flying about my head. I need a friend."
"Well I can be your friend, I understand what you felt when you were trying to help Soot, in fact I think it was more tactful then how I freed him. Blackmail is a very Slytherin thing, however if saved a poor abused house elf i was not opposed to do it." She smiled knowing Remus had told her the story. "So tell me all about your problem? I take it you hate that Ron and Lavender are dating?"
Hermione looked up at her with a shocked look. "How did you know?"
"I've seen the two walking around, and I've noticed you have been MIA when Ron is with Harry."
"I don't know I guess I used to like him, and now its like he is hideous to me when i think of 'being with him'. I mean I still care for him as a friend, but the whole way he handled the situation I was furious, I'm his best friend if nothing else, how could he treat me like that? I suppose I just upset that I liked him, and that he treated me so terribly."
"You don't like him now?"
"I don't see how I could, even if he says he is sorry the damage was done, and as sorry as I am I've moved on."
"Moved on? So you have feelings for someone else?" Carina smiled at the blush Hermione's cheeks sported.
"Yes but its a crush and I want to keep it secret."
"I understand."
"You care for Professor Snape don't you?" She looked at Carina inquiringly.
Carina smiled.
"I don't understand it. I mean I heard Fred and George talking about how pretty you are, I also heard Ron and Harry, so why him?"
"What do you mean by 'why him?'?" she was still smiling she knew that most people would never understand her attraction to the snarky man. "I find his dry humor matches mine, I like the way he looks, and he is by far the most noble man I have ever seen in these walls."
"Noble?" Hermione's brow furrowed, she was the only student who stuck up for him, even his Slytherins would get upset with him at times, but Noble?
"Hermione have you ever heard "No Greater love hath a man then to give is life for a friend?"
"Yes, it's a Biblical saying I believe."
"Correct, but how much greater is it for a Man to risk his life for people who hate him?"
Understanding sunk into Hermione's eyes, "Oh."
"Yes, he is the most Noble man I have ever met, but he himself denies it. And yes I care for him."
They talked a while until Hermione noticed the pile of clothing, she inquired about it and Hermione told her of the poor child. "After I fix these up, I'm hoping to make her some sweaters for Winter."
"May I help? Mrs. Weasley taught me how to knit. I can charm knitting needles to follow me as I knit by hand, about three at once. And since S.P.E.W. is at a stand still I miss knitting."
"Are you sure?" Carina looked for any signs of doubt, she didn't want to burden her new friend.
"Of course! I love knitting and I feel bad for the girl."
Later that afternoon Carina had another surprise guest. Remus walked in her office, he looked upset.
"Hello Remus how can I help you?" She wasn't sure if it really was Remus, he had been to her house last night and told her he wouldn't be able to visit for a week. This could be Tonks again.
"Yes I... why are you winking at me?"
"Don't you remember?" she asked as she winked again.
"No I don't Remember! Now stop you look like a maniac." Tonks said simply.
"Excuse me a second To... Remus." she picked her locket out of her shirt and whispered Remus. In a few seconds Remus was standing beside 'Remus'.
One of the Remus's ran to the door put it was quickly locked by Carina. It was time once and for all to settle this farce.
A/N sorry it took so long, I think I'm getting sick, plus I'm working my hind off in school.
Tammygirl359 - Where you in a sugar comma when she walked into your room lol. I'm glad you like CarinaXSeverus, because in the beginning it wasn't going to be but then I was not buying that Carina would up and like Remus more.
MioneRocks- Soot is the main House elf in this story and dobby is hangin round the castle, Hermione isn't a maniac she is simply passionate and thinks Soot may be being treated like a unloved slave, so i don't blame her. Severus and Carina are in love with each other and they are keeping secretive. And as far as Lily and Severus, yes in the 7th book it does tell their story, but i began this story before the 7th book so as far as i'm concerned he and Lily were friends. Besides that love was terribly one sided so he has never experienced what a true love is. I'm not diminishing how he may have felt but i believe its stronger when both parties feel the same lol. Tonks was kinda hiding because she found out that Carina was Albus Dumbledore's daughter. But she hasn't seen or heard from Remus in so long so wanted to visit Carina.
Depjunk- I know Dumbledore is a imaginative loon, and just as he would do anything for the 'Greater Good' he would also be totally off his rocker to do stuff like this for Carina. I got you though with it being Remus. I know he has to be away but I also want him to still be a big part of the story so he gets to visit still.
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