The girls.
I can't stand the girls.
Not with Hikaru right there, turning on the charm like always. He's finally Hikaru but I'm not and I can't stand this…
And then he talks to me.
For the girls' sake. Not mine. Nothing to do with the fact that I love him and he's in the middle of savagely rejecting me.
I know what I'm supposed to do.
I'm supposed to swoon and pretend to love him…
…But I can't because it's not pretend…
…And I can't pretend to not know that he doesn't love me back…
…And I start crying.