Naomi went to the airport alone to pick up her brother, hurrying to him as he walked out of his gate. His eyes were red from crying and lack of sleep. He lifted his small backpack of clothes onto his shoulder and sighed. "I-I'm sorry.."
She pulled him into her arms and pet his hair. "You have no reason to be sorry.."
"I don't want to interrupt your work or anything.. I just had to leave.."
"I know..It's okay..Come on..I'll get you something to eat and we'll go home.." Naomi said.
"I'm not hungry.." Ian whispered.
"When was the last time you ate?.." Naomi asked.
"I don't know. Sometime yesterday." Ian shrugged.
"You're eating." She said softly, grabbing his hand. Ian didn't have the energy to protest as he let her lead him out of the airport. Naomi saw her phone ring and saw Blaine's number. She hit the ignore button.
"What was that..?" Ian asked.
"Eight-hundred number.." She said as they got in the car and drove home.
"Do we have to eat?"
"Yes." Her phone vibrated again and Ian saw it was Blaine.
"Why are you ignoring Blaine?"
"I'm not.." She sighed.
"Mimi.."
"Fine. He was taking Bryan's side."
"Bryan told him..?" Ian asked.
"..I did.." Naomi whispered.
"What? Why?"
"I wanted you to know everyone would be here for you. We're family.." Naomi said.
"And what did Blaine say to make you ignore him?"
"Nothing..Just don't worry about..Where do you wanna eat?.." Naomi said quietly.
"I don't want to. I just want to know what's going on." Ian groaned.
"You're eating Ian." She sighed.
"Why did he even say anything? I didn't even tell you what happened."
"Exactly, and that is why we're not discussing it. " Naomi said, gripping the steering wheel.
"Fine."
"Now, what do you want to eat?" Naomi sighed.
"I don't care."
They went to a drive-in and Naomi ordered for them. "So..What happened.." She asked quietly.
"Things have been different.. He has school and has to practice. I mean.. I love that you and Blaine are helping us. But I don't want to depend on you forever so I got a job. So I'm like never home. Well, yesterday, I took the night off to see Bryan. And we got into a fight because he wanted to practice. Naomi, we hadn't had sex since summer. We haven't even really kissed in weeks. I miss him.. He didn't understand and said if I wasn't working I'd be home. We fought.. He told me to fuck off and I left.." Ian got out before the tears started to come again. "He called this morning.. I thought he would apologize... But he.. he told me he..he slept with Austin w-when I left.."
"So..Because you two weren't having sex..He had sex with your roommate.." Naomi said quietly.
"He said he was angry and upset.." Ian whispered.
Naomi wrapped her fingers around the steering wheel and gripped it tightly as she took a deep breath.
"I just wanted to have a night with him.."
"I know..I don't see how he can justify this..I just..I don't want you to go back to him, Ian."
"Mimi, I have to go to school.."
"Then I'll help you get a new apartment. He's hurt you too many times Ian..I-" Her phone started ringing again. "Blaine..Ugh." She answered. "Hello?"
"Hey.. Naomi please just hear me out.." Blaine said quickly.
"Why should I?"
"Because I want to apologize. We both said some things that shouldn't have been said. I was just defending Bryan.. But Kurt's right. I don't know what happened. And we want to be here for Ian.."
She sighed softly. "I'm sorry too.."
"Want to come over?" Blaine asked.
Naomi bit her lip. "Yeah..I just picked up Ian.."
"Okay.. We'll see you soon."
"Bye.." She hung up. "We're going to eat at Kurt and Blaine's." Naomi said, pulling out.
"I thought he didn't care too much for me.."
"He just called to apologize.."
"Oh. Okay."
She drove to the apartment complex and sighed as they got out and went upstairs.
"Hey.." Naomi said as they walked in.
"Hey." Blaine smiled, pulling her in for a hug. Ian kept his head down as he took a seat at the table with his bag of food. Kurt walked up and hugged Ian around his shoulders. "Hey sweetie." He said softly.
"Hey, Kurt.."
"If you want I can make you something else and you can save that for later." Kurt offered.
"I'm not really hungry. She's making me eat."
"Well you need to eat..You've lost weight.." Kurt said, chuckling softly.
"I don't have much time anymore." Ian shrugged.
Kurt sighed softly, cupping Ian's cheek. "I'm always here..Okay?.."
Ian swallowed loudly. "Thanks.."
Blaine smiled weakly at him. "So am I.."
"Really..?"
"Why..Why are you questioning it?.." Blaine asked. Naomi didn't tell him, did she?
"Well.. I'm not in New York. You probably think he kicked me out or something.." Ian said quietly.
"Why would that matter?.." Blaine asked.
"I don't know.."
"Well..We're for both of you..No matter who's fault it is." Blaine said, sighing.
"Okay," Ian whispered. He didn't have the energy to argue.
"Blaine, that's enough." Kurt said seriously.
"What?" Blaine asked.
"You know what."
"Can we go home..?" Ian asked, looking to Naomi.
"No, no sweetie..I'm sorry.." Kurt said softly, sitting next to Ian and grabbing his hand. Ian bit his lip. He could feel Blaine looking at him and mentally blaming him. "Blaine..Can you go..Check on dinner or something?" Kurt asked, looking up at his fiancé.
"Yeah, sure." Blaine said before walking out of the room.
Naomi followed Blaine, her hands on her hips. "I thought you just apologized.."
"I did!" Blaine said quickly.
"Really? 'no matter who's fault it is'?!" She hissed.
"It's true. Either way, we are here for both of them."
"It's not his fault!"
"I don't know that."
Naomi sighed deeply before explaining what Ian told her.
"That doesn't make any sense." Blaine said seriously.
"What do you mean?" Naomi asked.
"They fought because Ian wanted to hang out and Bryan didn't so he slept with his roommate? I'm sorry but I don't believe that."
"No, because they haven't had sex since this summer." Naomi said.
"Okay. So why didn't he just have sex with Ian?" Blaine asked.
"Because they never saw each other.."
"I'm not trying to blame him. It just doesn't make sense to me why Bryan would do that."
Naomi sighed. "Well he doesn't know either.."
"I hate this. Whatever happened, Ian's here and missing school. Bryan's alone in New York. This just fucking sucks." Blaine got out as he pulled dinner out of the oven.
Naomi sighed, looking down. "Well..Everything will work out how it needs to."
"True." Blaine agreed as they walked back to the dining room.
"Hey Blaine..? Will you come smoke with me?" Ian asked.
"Of course.." Blaine said softly.
Ian shut the door behind them and lit a cigarette. "Instead of pissing them off, just let it out now. I know you think it's all my fault. Just.. Get it out."
"Ian..I just..I don't see why Bryan would do that..Unless he had a reason.." Blaine said.
"Well, I wasn't home to give him one, I guess."
"There had to be something, Ian.."
"Blaine, I'm not lying. Call Bryan if you don't believe me."
"So he just slept with Austin for no reason?" Blaine sighed, taking a hit of his cigarette.
"I don't fucking know, Blaine. I went to meet him for breakfast. He told me he was angry last night and slept with him. He said Austin was trying to make me seem like I'm no good and he gave in. I don't get it. All I know is that my heart broke when he told me. This is why I've never opened up. I never let anyone in." Ian got out as he started to break down again. "I swear, I didn't do this.."
"Ian..I'm sorry but I just can't believe that." Blaine said.
"You really think I'd cry in front of you if I was lying..?"
"I don't know Ian..But damn. I just know Bryan. He wouldn't just go and do something like this..He wouldn't.." Blaine said seriously.
"I thought the same fucking thing, Blaine!"
"Ian, don't start with me." Blaine said, raising his voice.
"I'm not doing anything!"
"I already fought with your sister today, I don't wanna do this with you!"
"You're the one that's being stubborn." Ian said as he wiped his eyes.
"I'm being stubborn because I don't want to automatically blame Bryan like everyone else is?" Blaine snapped.
"So, I'm supposed to forgive him just like that? Pretend nothing's wrong?!"
"No, Ian, but I want you to stop acting like the fucking victim!"
"What the fuck are you talking about?"
"Bryan was sobbing over the phone to Kurt. He's taking this just as hard as you are. If this shit keeps up, he might have to start taking his depression pills again!" Blaine almost yelled.
"And I'm the one to blame?" Ian yelled back.
"Yes! At least he deals with his problems in a healthy way!" Blaine hissed.
Ian threw his hands up. "Whatever you're trying to say, just fucking say it!"
"I know he's not gonna go and fucking cut himself, and your sister called him crazy!" Blaine said. He gasped, regretting the words as they came out of his mouth.
Tears sprang to Ian's eyes for what felt like the millionth time that day. "I was so wrong about you.. I-I thought you'd be the one I could rely on. Fuck you, Blaine.." He got out, putting his cigarette out and running inside. "I want to go home. I'll be in the car!"
Naomi looked to Ian before to Blaine. "What did you say?!"
"Nothing.." Blaine said guiltily.
Naomi shook her head before running after her brother.
Kurt looked at Blaine. "What. Did. You. Say..?"
Blaine dropped his head, quietly telling Kurt.
"I..I have never..been more disappointed in you.." Kurt said seriously.
"I wanted to take it back as soon as I said it.."
"You still said it..I can't believe you..How would you have felt if Naomi said that to Bryan about trying to overdose?.." Kurt asked.
"I wouldn't have handled it well." Blaine said quietly.
Kurt just shook his head as he grabbed a coat and started towards the door.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm going to stay with Ian." Kurt said.
"Baby.." Blaine sighed.
"What?" Kurt asked, not looking at him.
"Please.. I-I'm sorry.."
"I'll think about it." He said, grabbing the keys.
Blaine groaned, plopping down on the couch. Kurt walked out the door and left Blaine with his head in his hands. He took a deep breath and decided to call Bryan.
Bryan was sitting on his bed, going through his sheet music when Blaine called.
"Hello?.."
"Hey.. How are you holding up?"
"As well as I can..I kinda feel like I'm gonna die.." Bryan whispered.
"Do you need your medicine?" Blaine asked softly.
Bryan sighed softly. "I don't know..But..I feel like I'd deserve it if I did..."
"Why were you with Austin? What made you go to him?"
"Well..Ian and I got in a fight..We never get to see each other and he wanted to spend the day with me, but I had to practice for my evaluation. We started arguing about how one didn't appreciate the other..And he left. Then Austin started telling me how Ian didn't appreciate me or understand me..He told me how he liked me and..It felt good to hear that. He was saying all of these nice things..And I was hurt and confused.. I told him I wanted him..and..I let him kiss me."
"That's it? You just kissed him?" Blaine asked.
"No.." Bryan said in a whisper.
"So.. Ian did not provoke this in any way..?" Blaine asked slowly.
"No..It's all my fault.." Bryan said shakily.,
Blaine let out a long sigh. "Well.. I guess we both fucked up.."
"What do you mean?.." Bryan asked.
"I.. I kind of blamed it on Ian.. Said some stuff that I can't even believe I said.."
"What did you say?.." Bryan asked quietly.
"A lot.. I really don't want to get into it. Kurt's already pissed at me. He left to go stay at Naomi's."
Bryan looked down. "Oh..Do you..Do you think I should call him?.."
"Maybe tomorrow. Everyone will be surrounding him tonight."
"Okay..Well..I'm gonna try and get some sleep.." Bryan said softly. He actually needed to speak with Austin.
"Okay. Call me tomorrow."
Bryan exchanged goodbyes with Blaine before walking into the living room where Austin was reading.
"Hey..Can we talk?..."
"Umm, sure.." Austin said, not looking up from his book.
"Can you put that down.."
Austin sighed, closing his book and sitting up.
"I'm so sorry about last night, Austin..I-I really don't know what I was thinking. I mean..You were great..But I love Ian, and I can't believe I put you in that situation..I just.." Tears sprang into Bryan's eyes. "I've lost Ian..A-And it seems like most of my family is s-siding with him...I-I don't want to lose my best friend too..."
"You won't. I just.. I have to forget first.." Austin said quietly.
"Forget what?.." Bryan asked softly.
"How I feel.. About you."
Bryan nodded. "I'm sorry..I'm sorry if I ever led you on..But..I really just need someone right now..And I just feel so fucking selfish..And if you hate me, you have a right to. But there's no way anyone can hate me more than I hate myself right now.." Bryan whispered shakily.
"You flirted back a lot. But it's my fault for letting it get to me. I don't hate you."
"I shouldn't have.." Bryan said quietly. "And you should.."
"Well it's done now.." Austin said quietly.
Bryan nodded sitting across from Austin.
"So, he's not talking to you?"
"Well he went back to Ohio..And..Kurt and Blaine keep telling me to give him time."
"What about school?"
"I don't know..I need to talk to him..But I'm waiting until tomorrow.." Bryan said softly, wiping his eyes.
"Have you been through anything like this before?" Austin asked.
"Once..We didn't talk for about a week..But ..Neither of us actually..We never..Cheated.." Bryan said, looking down.
"Well.. Who knows.. He does love you.."
"I hope that doesn't change.."
The next morning, Ian woke up to his phone ringing with a call from Bryan. He bit his lip as he debated on answering. He took a deep breath before giving in.
"Hello.."
Bryan sighed in relief. "Hey.." He said softly.
Ian was quiet for a while. "Hi.."
"Ian...I-I don't know what to say.."
"You're the one that called me."
"I just wanted to hear your voice.."
"Why..? I mean.. If you have him there."
"He's just my friend.." Bryan whispered. "It was a mistake."
"A pretty fucked up one at that.. I told you.. I told you he wanted you.."
"I know..I know..You were right.." Bryan sighed.
"You know.. If it had been anyone else, I don't think it would hurt this much." Ian whispered.
Bryan was silent as he teared up. "I'm so sorry, Ian.."
"I believe you."
Bryan nodded to himself. "I just..I miss you so much already.. I can't do this without you.."
"Naomi wants to get me an apartment.." Ian said. He needed to hear Bryan's reaction.
"B-By yourself?..." Bryan whispered.
"That's what she wants."
"Is...Is that..What you want?.." Bryan asked, trying to keep his voice from shaking.
"What I want? I want to go back to two days ago. I want to stay and make you stay with me.. I can't.. I can't live in the same apartment as him.. I just can't.."
"I understand.." Bryan said quietly.
"Do you?" Ian asked.
Bryan stayed quiet, not knowing what to say. "I just..I can't sleep without you, Ian..All I know is that I want you..And I'll do anything you need.."
"I took a week out of school. I'll be here for a few days.. We can talk. But I don't know what I want.."
Bryan sniffed as he felt tears roll down his cheeks. "I miss you.."
"Me too, Bryan.." Ian said softly, trying not to break down. He didn't want Bryan to feel even worse. "If I come back but get a new place.. If I wanted to.. Would you go?"
"Of course..Of course.." Bryan said without hesitation.
"And if I didn't want you to see him?" Ian asked. "I'm not saying you can't. But I need to know how you feel about these things so I can think."
"I..I don't know...I understand that you wouldn't want me to and why..But he's my friend..And I've been talking to him about it too.." Bryan said softly.
"How do I know you won't be with him again..?"
"Because..I just..I know..I don't have feelings towards him..And..It was a moment of weakness." Bryan said softly.
"We're going to get into fights. It won't always be sunshine and rainbows. I'm going to be wrong. You're going to be wrong. What happens then?"
"Then we get through it like we did before.." Bryan said.
"Which is what I thought we'd be doing now.. Not dealing with this.." Ian sighed.
"What do you mean?.."
"When I left.. I thought we'd sleep it off. Talk it out the next day.. Not be talking about how I'm no longer the only person you've been with.."
Bryan took in a shaky breath. "Oh god.."
"What?"
"I just..I never..I always just wanted to be y-yours..And now..I.." Bryan whimpered, sniffing.
"I loved that about us before.. But now.."
Bryan pulled his hair lightly as he started to cry. He felt so disgusting. "He..He wore a c-condom..I swear.."
Ian couldn't hold back anymore. He let Bryan hear his tears. "Y-You were the only one.. I never let anyone.. I-I don't count my..my uncle.. Then.. I.. I-I was your only..."
"Ian.." Bryan whispered. "I'm so sorry..I'm so sorry..I..I hate myself..I just..I feel so d-disgusting.."
Ian curled up in his bed, hugging his pillow to his chest as he let the tears come.
Bryan just listened as his heart shattered in his chest. "I wish I could fix this..I..I just want you.."
"I-I don't know what t-to say.."
Bryan wiped his eyes. "I love you, Ian...And..I just want you to be my last.."
"I-I have to go.."
"Ian, please.."
"What..?"
"Please just s-say it back.." Bryan got out. "Please.."
"You know I do.."
"I need to hear it.."
"I love you too.." Ian whispered.
"I love you so much, Ian.." Bryan said, just as quietly.
Ian's head perked up as he heard someone knock at his door. "I gotta go.."
Bryan nodded, saying goodbye before they hung up.
Ian wiped his eyes and composed himself before sitting up. "Come in.."
Kurt slowly opened the door. "Hey sweetie. How are you?"
"Fine..I guess.." Ian said softly.
Kurt walked in and sat down. "I'm sorry about Blaine.."
Ian looked down, he didn't want to think about that.
"He's wrong, okay. I just got off the phone with him. He talked to Bryan last night and now feels like the biggest asshole. Don't worry, I told him he was," Kurt said, chuckling and trying to get at least a small smile from Ian.
Ian's features didn't change. "I just talked to Bryan."
"How did that go?"
"I don't know..He told me he was sorry..I told him I knew..And I just..He was with someone else..It was always supposed to be just me.."
Kurt sighed softly. "I know sweetie.. He made a big mistake. I'm not justifying it at all. But I do know how much he loves you and is beating himself up about it."
Ian looked down. "I can't believe it..I was thinking about it last night..What Blaine said.."
"What about it?"
"I thought about doing it..."
"Oh honey, no.." Kurt said, pulling Ian close. "That's never the answer, Ian. Trust me.."
"It feels like it would..I just.." Ian traced his fingers over his sides. "It helped before.."
"No it didn't. It may have felt that way. But it makes you worse. I used to get so high and watch myself do that. Want to know what really made me stop?" Kurt asked. "You can't tell anyone. Not even Blaine."
Ian nodded, looking up at Kurt.
"I overdosed. I woke up in the hospital and I knew I was lucky to be alive. I knew there was something out there meant for me. So I came here, hoping it was Blaine. And it was. It was him. It was Bryan. And you. This is where I am meant to be. I had to go through shit to realize it. Learn from my mistakes. It doesn't help you."
"Kurt..You never told me that much about your past before.." Ian said. "What..What happened to you?.." Ian asked, looking up at him.
"I didn't have many friends. I was always the smart, nerdy one. I was lonely. Especially from hating myself for leaving Blaine.. I was desperate for friends and got involved with the wrong people."
Ian nodded, looking down. "But..You're..Kurt.." He said.
"What do you mean?"
"I just..I could never think of you doing that stuff.."
"I know.." Kurt sighed. "But I will tell you about any of it if it keeps you from doing that stuff. I want you to be healthy and finish school."
Ian nodded. "Thank you, Kurt.."
"I'm always here, Ian. I mean it."
Ian nodded again. "I just..I thought..Blaine..I never thought.."
"I don't know what's going on with him.. He was completely out of line."
Ian didn't say anything. "I just..I really miss Bryan..And..I want to go back to him because I don't want him to hurt himself. He doesn't have his medicine, and I just get so scared because the first time he tried was because h-he was alone..A-And he's alone now.. And I left him." Ian got out, his eyes filling with tears.
"And then..If that fucking happens..It'll be my fault..A-And..I can't, Kurt..I..I can't.." He said before bursting into tears.
Kurt held Ian and let him cry. "Are you ready to go back? Honestly?"
"No..I-I can't see Austin..I can't see them together..If I do..I'll think about him fucking him..And.." Ian tensed. "I just hate him so much.." He clenched his fists as his breathing grew heavier.
"Shh, its okay.. We'll keep calling. We'll make sure he's okay."
Ian relaxed a bit. "Kurt..If I see Austin..I won't be able to stop myself.."
"You'll have to, sweetie.."
Ian just shook his head. "I can't.."
"Do you want to stay in school? Do you want to keep Bryan?"
Ian looked up at Kurt and nodded.
"Then avoid Austin." Kurt said seriously.
"How am I supposed to avoid him if Bryan still wants to be 'best friends' with him?" Ian asked.
"I guess you can't. So you'll have to control yourself. Buy a punching bag or something."
Ian nodded. "I just..I love Bryan..And..I want to be mad at him..But..I'm angrier at Austin.."
"He should've been able to respect the fact that you're with Bryan."
"But I need to be mad at Bryan too.."
"You're not?" Kurt asked.
"I am..But..I know I'll be able to forgive him too easily.." Ian said.
"Don't. It's okay to talk. But don't go right into it. Wait a while before you even kiss. Start over."
"I feel like we've started over too many times.." Ian whispered.
"Well, only you can answer that one.. Whether or not it's worth it.."
Ian looked down at the tattoo on his chest and gently traced his fingers over the letters. "I just love him so much..But..Naomi.."
"Naomi will have to respect whatever your decision is," Kurt said softly.
"What if she doesn't?.." Ian asked, biting his lip.
"Then she'll be mad and worried until Bryan proves that he's really in this."
Ian sniffed, nodding. "This is too hard.." He whispered.
Kurt chuckled lightly. "Welcome to life."
Ian gave a small smile. "Yeah.."
"So how's school going?"
"Alright..I'm doing good in some things, and not in others, but I'm doing well.." Ian said.
"But you like it?"
"I love it." Ian smiled.
"So if I asked you to do my hair, you could do it?" Kurt asked.
"Oh, yeah." Ian said confidently.
"Wanna do it?"
"Really?" Ian smiled.
"Yeah. I haven't been in a while and I want to see you do it." Kurt grinned.
Ian nodded, smiling. Ian took Kurt into the bathroom and washed his hair for him. "So, how do you want it?" He asked.
"Umm.. Not much taken off the top. But a little longer as it goes to the front. And tighter in the back."
Ian nodded, grabbing his shears and clippers and starting to cut. Kurt watched Ian and couldn't help but smile at how at ease he looked. This was the calmest he'd seen him..Well, ever. A while later, Ian finished styling Kurt's hair and smiled. "Take a look."
Kurt got up and ran his fingers through his hair. "Wow.. I love it.."
"Really?.." Ian asked.
"You're really good!"
"Thanks..I try." Ian grinned.
"You look like you love it." Kurt said softly.
"I really do. It..It just puts me in this headspace." Ian said.
"That's good, Ian."
Ian nodded. "Welp. Anytime you need a haircut let me know."
"You might want to ask the girls before you put those up," Kurt chuckled. Ian grinned wide, at least he had something to keep his mind off of Bryan.
Naomi and Thea both wanted a cut. "If I buy the stuff, will you give me lowl ights?" Naomi asked.
"Of course." Ian grinned. "I'm thinking about coloring my hair too. I think a new look will do me good."
"What are you thinking of doing?"
"I was thinking of a two stroke four five. It's a black with red-red-violet." Ian smiled.
"That sounds kinda hot." Thea grinned. "Look at you all smart and knowing what you're talking about."
Ian smiled. "Thanks."
They went to the store and got everything they needed. By middle afternoon, Naomi had reddish black low lights, Thea's hair was a Little Mermaid red and Ian had the red violet black in his hair.
"You look great." Kurt smiled.
"I think I want to cut it.." Ian said.
"How?" Naomi asked.
"I don't know how to explain it." Ian lied. He just didn't want to be talked out of it.
"Alright. We'll leave you to it." Thea smiled.
Ian closed the door and stared at himself in the mirror. It was time for a change. He ran his fingers through the long shaggy tresses before getting to work. Almost an hour later, he had finished and cleaned up the bathroom. He smiled as he checked himself out in the mirror. This is exactly what he was going for. He grinned, nodding to himself before walking out of the bathroom and into the living room. "Whaddaya think?" he said.
"What did you do to your hair..?" Kurt asked carefully.
"What, you don't like it?" Ian chuckled, running his hands over the shaved sides. He shaved the sides of his head in an undercut and cut the top of it a bit shorter in choppy layers, longer towards the front.
"It's just..different.." Naomi said as she stood and walked over to her brother. She ran her hands through his hair. "Kinda bad ass actually.."
"Kinda what I was going for." Ian smiled. "I just feel like.. Like I need to change. It'll do me good."
"Well, I like it!" Thea grinned.
"Kurt, you'll warm up to it." Ian chuckled.
Kurt laughed as he shook his head. "What do you want to do today?"
"Um..I dunno.." Ian sighed, plopping down on the couch.
"Well, if you think of something, let us know." Naomi said softly.
Ian nodded, sighing softly when the doorbell rang. He got up, opening the door to see Blaine.
"Hey, Ian.." He said, softly.
Ian rolled his eyes. "Come to insult me some more?"
"I..I actually wanted to apologize."
Ian stepped aside, letting Blaine in.
"Hey everyone.." Blaine said, giving a weak smile.
"Hey.." The girls said together.
"Kurt.." Blaine sighed softly.
"Yes Blaine?"
Blaine just looked down. Maybe he should talk to Ian first. "Ian..Can I talk to you on the porch?.."
"Yeah." Ian said, following Blaine. Blaine sat down, pulling out his cigarettes and holding one out to Ian. Ian took it and pulled out his own lighter as he sat down.
"Ian..What I said was..Completely out of line.." Blaine said quietly.
"It was.."
"I'm so sorry..I just..I don't know what came over me.."
"I just don't understand why you'd be so quick to blame me."
"I know..I wanted to believe that Bryan wouldn't do that without a good reason..But I was wrong..And I'm sorry.."
"Its fine. I probably would've done the same if I were you."
"It's not fine, Ian..I feel like shit.."
"I know you just want to protect Bryan." Ian said seriously.
"It doesn't excuse it..I just want you to know..That I am truly sorry.." Blaine said quietly.
"I know.. I'm worried about him too.. I just.. I can't see him yet.."
Blaine nodded, looking down. "I understand."
"I don't know what to do.." Ian whispered.
"I know..I've been through the same thing..But..I was engaged..And I walked in on it.." Blaine said.
"Oh my god.."
"Yeah..But..I got through it." Blaine said, nodding.
"Naomi wants me to move out.."
"Is that what you want?.." Blaine asked quietly.
"I don't want to be without him but I can't be in the place knowing what they did there."
"Well maybe you can talk to him about finding a new place.. Kurt and I will help you.." Blaine said.
"Really..?" Ian asked.
"Really." Blaine nodded. "I know Naomi doesn't want you two back together..But I hope you think about it."
"I will. I'm so hurt. But I know I don't want to be without him.."
Blaine smiled weakly. "You'll get through it.."
Ian nodded. "I know.."
"C'mere.." Blaine smiled, opening his arms. Ian gave a small smile, letting Blaine hug him. "You're family too, you know that, right?.."
"Yeah.."
"I'll always be here for you."
"Thank you, Blaine." Ian said quietly.
"I love you, Ian."
"I love you too, Blaine."
Blaine smiled, kissing Ian's forehead. "I like the hair."
Ian chuckled. "Thanks."
"You want me to take you to get a tattoo?..It won't make everything better, but it might help." Blaine offered.
"Are you serious?" Ian asked.
"Yeah." Blaine smiled.
"Can I get a piercing instead?"
"Of course, anything you want."
Ian grinned. "Thanks!"
Blaine told everyone they were going out to get a bite to eat, which was only half a lie, and drove Ian to the tattoo parlor.
"I'm so excited." Ian said happily.
"What do you want?" Blaine asked, smiling.
"Well...I really wanna get my other nipple pierced." Ian grinned.
Blaine shook his head. "It's your body. Do what you wish."
"Don't judge. Guys think it's hot." Ian chuckled, waggling his eyebrows. Blaine couldn't help but laugh as someone came over and helped them. Ian was excited to be pierced again. He hadn't really had the money or time to do it in New York. He told the piercer what he wanted and gave Blaine a thumbs up before being led to the back.
It didn't take long before Ian was back. "How'd it go?"
Ian smiled, lifting his shirt and revealing the new piercing. "Like it?"
"Yeah," Blaine chuckled.
"I really feel a lot better now, Blaine..Thanks.." Ian said softly.
"I'm glad I could help," Blaine smiled. Ian nodded, hugging Blaine again.
The next week was relaxing. Ian talked to Bryan on Wednesday and Friday. The conversation was casual. Nothing emotional was discussed. It was easy. Normal..Yet, so different.
Naomi and Blaine looked at apartments online. Ian sighed as he helped. "It doesn't have to be that nice. I just need a kitchen, bathroom and a bed."
"Have you talked to Bryan about it yet?" Blaine asked, earning a glare from Naomi.
"A little bit." Ian said, ignoring his sister.
"What did he say?.."
"That he wants to move with me. I don't know.. I just kind of want to see him first."
Blaine nodded.
"Ian.." Naomi sighed.
"Naomi, please.. I know what he did was wrong. But I love him.."
She sighed softly, looking down at her brother before giving in.
They finally found out that Ian agreed on. It was a one bedroom with a full bath and small kitchen and living room. It was in a neighborhood a few blocks from where he was living now.
"Well, it's small, but..Maybe that's what you two need." Blaine said.
"I like it." Ian said as he leaned back. "I think I'm actually ready to go back."
"Tonight?.." Naomi asked.
"I was thinking maybe tomorrow evening."
Naomi nodded. "Alright..I'm gonna miss you.."
"You can always come visit.."
"I will..Tell Bryan if he tries anything else-"
"Naomi.." Blaine said softly.
"He won't, Naomi. If something with either of us happens again.. It will be over.. But I want to try again." Ian said seriously.
"Alright.." Naomi said softly.
"I'll be okay, Mimi."
She smiled, kissing his forehead.
The next day, Bryan called Ian to check in.
"I'm coming back tonight.." He said softly.
Bryan was quiet for a moment. "Really?" Bryan said. Ian could hear the grin in his voice.
It made him smile. "Really.."
"Oh god..I..I can't stop smiling right now.." Bryan giggled.
"You're so cute.." Ian said, biting his lip.
"I just miss you so much.." Bryan said softly.
"I miss you too, Bryan.."
"I already have some of my stuff packed..Austin moved out yesterday. He's staying at the dorms at NYADA." Bryan explained. "I didn't pack it all because I didn't want to assume."
"We'll talk when I get home."
"Okay..I love you.." Bryan said softly.
"I love you too." Ian said before getting off the phone.
Later that night, Bryan was sitting at the airport, anxiously awaiting Ian's arrival. Ian felt like his hear would pound out of his chest with nerves as he stepped off of the plane and walked out towards the baggage claim. How would he feel when he saw him? Would Bryan like his hair?
A minute later, Bryan gasped as he saw Ian, running towards him. Ian dropped his bag and wrapped his arms around Bryan. Tears sprang to his eyes as he felt his boyfriend holding him. Bryan clutched to Ian, sniffing lightly before turning his head to kiss him. Ian didn't think twice as he let Bryan press their lips together. He inhaled sharply as he moved his lips with his boyfriend's. Bryan pulled back, looking up into the crystal blue. "I love you.."
"I love you too.."
"Your hair.." Bryan whispered, running his hands over the shaved sides.
Ian closed his eyes and hummed. "That feels good."
Bryan's eyes immediately darkened. "I-I like it.."
"Thanks," Ian said, biting his lip.
Bryan looked down, taking a deep breath to calm himself and grabbed Ian's bag.
"Let's go.." He smiled, lacing their fingers together.
Ian couldn't help but smile as they walked out and headed to the apartment. They walked inside and Ian saw all the boxes stacked around the apartment.
"Didn't pack much, huh?" He chuckled, trying not to think of Austin.
"I'm just excited.." Bryan said softly, smiling. "So..What's going on with this new place?"
"They've already picked it out. It's not as nice. But it's cheaper and we won't need a roommate."
Bryan smiled wide. "Anything with you will be perfect.."
Ian nodded, walking to the couch. "We need to talk about this though."
Bryan nodded, suddenly nervous. "Okay.." He said as he sat next to him, but with a bit of distance between.
"Where did it happen..?"
Bryan looked down. He couldn't look at Ian. "The..counter.."
Ian kept his eyes anywhere but on Bryan. "Did you like it?"
"I did.." Bryan whispered, afraid of Ian's reaction.
"Better than me..?" Ian asked quietly as his heart broke a little more.
"No.." Bryan said honestly.
"Do you want to be with other guys now that you've had more than me..?"
"No, of course not..I only want you, Ian.." Bryan said quietly.
"What made you do it?" Ian asked.
"He..After you left, he practiced with me..And..Was saying all this stuff about how you weren't right for me..A-and that I needed someone who would understand me..But he said he didn't want to come between us.." Bryan said quietly.
"I've been telling you for months he was trying.."
"I know.." Bryan whispered, his eyes glued to the carpet. Ian brought his knees up and hugged them to his chest as he grew silent. Bryan scooted a little closer to Ian. "I'm so sorry.."
"I just want to sleep.." Ian whispered.
Bryan nodded. "Okay..The bed is still in the room.." He said quietly, kissing his cheek.
"I'm gonna stay out here tonight.."
Bryan looked down and nodded. "Okay..Night." He said softly. He stood, walking to the bedroom.
Ian sighed, laying down and trying not to think. He looked over at the counter, his mind racing in the ways he was trying to avoid. He couldn't stop his wandering eyes though. He closed his eyes. Every time he did the vision of Austin and Bryan filled his head. The more the imagined it, the more rage filled him. He turned over, burying his face in the cushions. How dare Austin touch Bryan? Bryan was his. He belonged to Ian. Something inside Ian snapped. He quickly got up and burst into the bedroom. "Get up. I'm taking you somewhere."
"Wha?.." Bryan mumbled, sitting up and rubbing his eyes.
"Throw some clothes on. We're going somewhere." Ian repeated before turning and heading out to the living room. Bryan looked confused but did as he was told. Ian took Bryan's hand and lead him outside. They walked a few blocks until Ian found the apartment building. He lead his boyfriend up to the third floor and crouched down to pick the lock.
"I-Ian. ..What are you doing?.." Bryan whispered, looking around.
"I don't have the key yet. I know what I'm doing." Ian said, grinning as he heard the door unlock. Bryan gasped softly, his heart racing at the act. Ian turned, winking at Bryan as he pushed the door open. Once the door was shut, Ian pulled Bryan close and threw him against the wall, leaning up against him. "This is our apartment." He nipped at Bryan's neck. "You belong to me."
"O-oh god..." Bryan whimpered, looking up at his boyfriend.
"Say it." Ian growled, pressing Bryan closer to the wall.
"I..I belong to you..." Bryan said his voice high and breathy. Ian unzipped Bryan's pants and pulled them down aggressively. He dropped his own and looked at his boyfriend with dark, lustful eyes.
"Suck me."
Bryan immediately dropped to his knees and began licking at Ian's growing member. Ian let out a growl as he watched his boyfriend. Bryan smiled, looking up at Ian with lust-filled eyes. Ian tangled his hands in Bryan's hair and started to thrust. Bryan moaned loudly, gripping Ian's hips as he took him.
Ian hissed. "Fuck baby.. I need to be inside you.. It's been too long.."
Bryan nodded, pulling off and standing. "I'm yours Ian.."
Ian lifted Bryan and pressed him against the wall before entering him. Bryan cried out at the rough, dry, stretch. He clutched to ian like he was a lifeline as the pain tore through him.
"Holy fuck," Ian breathed out.
"Ian...Ungh.." Bryan got out, his voice shaking.
"Bryan.."
"W-wait.." Bryan whined as Ian tried to start thrusting. Ian groaned, gripping Bryan's hips as he stilled. "Please say something. ." Bryan whispered.
"I-I missed this.. Missed you.." Ian got out, looking down as teared welled in his eyes. Bryan cupped Ian's cheek and leaned up to kiss him deeply. Ian moaned, melting into the kiss.
Bryan pulled away a bit. "Ian...You can go..."
Ian blinked rapidly, trying not to show his emotion as he started to thrust.
Bryan gasped, wrapping his arms around Ian's neck and moaning softly. "Oh, Ian... So good..So good.."
Ian bit down on Bryan's neck as he hit his prostate. Bryan cried out, throwing his head back. "Ian!"
The taller gasped, continuing to slam into the same spot. Bryan's moans grew louder as Ian fucked him. "Fuck, baby, I'm yours!"
Ian slammed Bryan against the wall, fucking into the tight ass that he missed so much.
"Harder! Oh god, Ian..Ah!" Bryan was already skirting around the edge of his orgasm as he pulled the taller's hair. Ian felt the coiling in the pit of his stomach and growled. "Shit.. Bryan.. I-I'm close.."
"S-So am I...I love you. ." Bryan whispered.
The taller's thrusts became erratic. He buried his face in Bryan's neck as he came long and hard. "I..love..you.." He whispered through his panting. Bryan screamed Ian's name as he shot his come between them, his entire body trembling as he rocked his hips, milking his orgasm as long as he could. Ian gasped and hissed as he felt Bryan fluttering around him as they rode out the orgasms. Bryan gasped quietly, looking up at Ian with sated eyes. "Ian.. I want you to rim me... please..."
Ian couldn't stop the animalistic growl that escaped his throat as he set Bryan down. Bryan bit his lip. "You're so sexy, baby.."
Ian turned Bryan around and dropped to his knees. He spread his boyfriend, moaning as he admired him and leaned in to lick at his slightly stretched hole. Bryan gasped. He'd missed this feeling. Ian was always so good this at it. Ian gave a long groan, sending vibrations through Bryan. Bryan gasped with over sensitivity and pressed his face against the wall. "Taste yourself in me, Ian? Ungh.. All yours.."
"Keep talking." Ian got out before pressing his tongue inside his lover.
"You feel so fucking good.. No one else could even make me feel th-this way..Ah!"
Ian pressed in as far as he could, bringing his hand up to tease Bryan's perineum.
"Ungh!..Ian...Just.. Please come kiss me.."
The taller got up and pulled Bryan close. "So fucking hot."
"I love you so much.."
"I love you too.." Ian said, placing Bryan's hand over his tattoo. Bryan gave a shy smile, leaning down to kiss the tattoo softly.
"You'll always be the only one to have my heart.." Ian said so quietly, Bryan almost didn't hear him.
Bryan looked up at Ian with tears in his eyes. "And you'll always have mine.."
"Forever..?"
"Forever.."
A single tear fell down Ian's cheek. "I missed you.."
"I missed you too.." Bryan said quietly.
Ian kissed Bryan again before showing him around. "What do you think?"
"It's amazingly perfect. ." Bryan smiled.
"Are you sure..?"
"Of course! " Bryan grinned. "I love it."
Ian pulled Bryan close. "I love you."