Entry 37! You do not know how much I nearly cried while writting the end of this! But once you've read it I'm sure you'll agree, it's seriously sad =(
Anyway I hope you like this chapter =D Despite it's sad ending. Please R&R =3

IMPORTANT:Also, this story is coming to an end. I suspect that there will only be a few more chapters left, depending on the end.
And that's where you, my fellow readers, come in.
You see, I have a few different endings planned out in my I'm not sure which one I should use...
So I'd be really thankful to any of you that would help me with deciding the ending.
If you want to help me then please send me a PM and I'll tell you my ideas.
Also you could maybe tell me some of you own ideas if you want but I'm not sure what will happen in the end yet so...
Anyway sorry about that little notice and hope you enjoy the chapter... but not before...

Random facts
The chances of you dying on the way to get your lottery tickets is greater than your chances of winning.
The female pigeon cannot lay eggs if she is alone. In order for her ovaries to function, she must be able to see another pigeon.
A jiffy is an actual unit of time for 1/100th of a second. Thus the saying, I will be there in a jiffy.

Dear Diary,

This can't be happening! It just can't be, I'll walk up soon from this horrible nightmare...I hope.

I look over at my newborn, how fragile and pale it is.

"What is it?" Sonic asks

"We don't know yet, it's most likely to be because she is premature."

She... I gave birth to another baby girl! And if a miracle doesn't occur soon, she'll be following the same path as Eternity. I can't let that happen.

The doctor and midwifes are still examining her, trying to get her to breathe but nothing is happening. Their effort seems to be in vain.

"Can... Can I hold her?" I ask them, my words coming out quiet and hoarse.

"Amy, are you sure you want to..." Sonic questions me

"Yes." I reply; I want to hold her before it is too late.

The doctor picks her up and hands her over to me as I take her in my arms.

Looking down I see a purple hedgehog with her father's green eyes. She is the female version of him, same eyes, nose and spines. She's beautiful, everything I could want in a child. But suddenly her tanned muzzle becomes tinged with blue, her tiny lips also turning this unhealthy colour. She's in my arms and the life is being sucked out of her. I only have a few seconds to name her, to love her and to tell her she'll always be in my heart. I put my index finger towards her hand and it's soon in the gentle but firm grip of my daughter's miniature hand...

But the sight of Eternity dying in my arms is soon pushed aside as I take in the appearance of this daughter, the one whose life is also vanishing in my arms.

Eternity could instantly be recognised as Sonic's daughter but this baby resembles me more. Her jade eyes are the same as mine and the tiny button nose is also the same. Her hair is a mixture of Sonic's and mine from when I was 6. Her frame is petite and brittle, due to being premature, but she is fully formed.

I cannot help but burst into floods as she places her lavender hands on my cheek with the little energy she does have. Sonic tries to take her out of my grasp but I won't let him. If she is going to die it will be here in my arms next to my heart, where she belongs.

How could the world be so cruel, taking another baby from me? Is there no mercy at all?

I can't help but remember Eternity and her death, how bad it affected me and how this is only bringing back the memories and feelings.

"She needs a name..." Shadow reminds us, in a caring tone. I smile at him as I'm too weak, both physically and mentally, showing him my best 'thank-you smile'.

I try to think of all the names I know but none of them seem suitable. I try and think of all the names I like, but none of them will suit her.

Eternity is already taken.
Kiki, no.
Corina, no it wouldn't suit her.
Lavender, no too cliché.
Hope, again too cliché

Oh this shouldn't be this hard... Her name should come naturally to me. But why isn't it? This is so frustrating, maybe I'm really not cut out to be a mother, I can't even think of a name for my child...

"Kiara." My husband says simply.

Kiara, I'm not sure. I like it but it needs to have a meaning to it...

"It means 'princess'." My companion informs us all.

Kiara. I like it.

"Kiara, do you like that name?" I ask my stunning baby. She giggles quietly but I shush her, not wanting her to use up all of her energy.

Nonetheless it doesn't matter as I feel hear her heart slow down. Wait that's not normal...

"Can you hear that?" I ask Sonic.

"No" The room replies.

I had almost forgotten my friends where here witnessing this also.

"None of you can hear it..." They look at me bamboozled.

Suddenly the heart beat stops and so does time and space. I look around at the frozen room.

My friends are comforting each other and Sonic is holding my shoulders gently, however they are frozen also. I seem to be the only one stationary.

In the corner of the room a blinding light appears, and I feel a soothing presence. It's her. My mother.

"Mum..."

"Amy, you kept he child. I always knew you'd do the right thing..."

"Then what should I do know... Mum I've rarely asked you for help, but I can't do this on my own. I don't know what to do; I'm losing her, myself and him all over again..."

"Hush, my child. Search. Search deep inside your heart for the answer, it will not come to you so you need to search. Once you've found it you'll know. Even if it takes up all your energy to find the key to life, it will be worth it. Now I can't hang around much longer, Eternity needs me."

"Where is she? Is she well?"

"She's being brought up by me, my dear, of course she is well. Now I must go, I'm sorry I couldn't hang around for long but we've both got someone waiting for us to return. Goodbye Amelia."

She was about to disappear and I had no idea if I'd ever see her again.

"Wait, will I ever see you again?"

"Yes, one day. One day in the distant future we will be reunited. But until then no we won't. I've helped you in your time of need but what lies ahead is for you to experience. Good luck, but not goodbye as we will meet again..." With that said she vanished and time started again.

My friends are unaware of what just happened but I can't clue them in yet as I've got a baby to save.

Mum was right; all I needed to do was search to find what I need to do...

Bringing her minute head up to my face, while supporting the weight of it, I kissed her on her forehead. I can fell the power draining from my own body but I won't stop until she is well. This is what my mother meant when she said, "Even if it takes up all your energy to find the key to life, it will be worth it."

Her heart beats faster as mine slows down slightly. I can feel her body becoming warm and healthy but mine is becoming flimsy. Still I won't stop; I will not allow her to die in my arms. No way will she die in my arms if I can help it!

The fluttering sensation stops and I know that she is well; she doesn't need my support anymore. She can live without my support and she is now thankfully not fighting a losing battle for her life.

I hold her in my arms and let the darkness consume me. It was all worth it to see her smile, to hear her giggle and to feel her hand press up against my chest, directly above my heart. It was worth it to know that she will live and love. That she will grow up with people who love her in return.

My darling baby, I have given you everything I can. I have given you life...

Finally the darkness consumes me as I close my eyes, the last thing I see is her sparkling eyes and the last thing I hear is her cute giggles and attempts at words. I cannot see my friends cry at my expense and I cannot hear their sobs as I descend lower into the pillow on my bed.

You have everything you deserve, Kiara! Remember I love you!

Amy Rose x