We went home and my headache still hadn't subsided so I went to go take a nap. I've been really tired lately, there has just been so much going on and I am stressed out of my mind. With everything going on I feel like I can't see strait. I feel like I'm not doing my part in this family. Hanna is the main care giver to my son right now because I haven't been physically capable to.
When I woke up my headache was a little better, but I didn't feel too great. I got up out of my and I felt blood rush to my head and I fell right back onto the bed. I layed my head down in-between my knees.
I heard footsteps, "Aria, I heard noises in here. Are you alright? Is there something wrong with your head?" she asked me. I felt her sit down next to me and start to rub my back.
"Just started to feel a little light headed. I should be fine. How's Joshua?" I asked her slowly sitting up to see that she is holding Joshua.
She smiled and handed me my son. "He's doing just fine. Why don't I bring you something to eat? That should make you feel better." she suggested.
"No thank you. I am not hungry at all. I honestly feel a little sick." I informed her leaning back against some pillows, and with my free arm I massaged around my eyes.
"Honey, you need something to eat. You haven't eaten all day. I know that you don't feel good, but it just might make you feel better." she said trying to encourage me.
All I did was nod my head no. She didn't push the situation any farther. "Tell me when you want my to take Joshua again." she said and walked out the room so she didn't leave Alison alone for too long.
Holding Joshua close to me I snuggled with him. A tear ran down my cheek. So much has happened that I just don't have the ability to take it all in. Ali walked in to check on me. "Aria, what's wrong?" she asked me putting her hand on my arm.
It put on a fake smile, "Oh it's silly, I was just thinking about when he was born, I was so drugged I though he looked like Harry Potter." I said.
"Yeah, I remember that day too. But those weren't happy tears, those were the world is ending tears. Tell me what's wrong?" she asked my giving Joshua a kiss.
"I'm just stressed, and I don't feel good. With the pregnancy that I had it's to be expected though." I informed her.
She looked sorry for me, "A lot has changed in just a short amount of time. Trust me I feel that way to. But Aria you need to realize that you need to take care of yourself. If you don't it will just make you feel way worse. It breaks my heart that you feel so bad and that I feel better than I have in years, but there isn't any reason for me to get all depressed." she said.
I sat up and gave Joshua to her to hold. "I don't want you to feel bad. I don't want to feel bed myself, and I'm trying my best to take care of myself, but my head has been spinning for so long that I have trouble remembering which way is up and which was is down." I informed her.
She rested Joshua on her shoulder. "You need to be talking to you doctor about this." she ordered me.
"No I don't, it's just some post pregnancy depression. It talks about it in all of my baby books. Besides, it'll pass in a few weeks." I informed her with full confidence in my voice. I'm going to be just fine and they all know it.
Ali took Joshua and left me to my thoughts. I felt my stomach growl but I ignored it. If I'm going to loose my baby weight any time soon I don't need to be eating. That's the only quick way to get the weight off. At least that is the way that I feel right now.
I walked out of my room after a few minutes. I walked into the nursery with Hanna and Ali and the room stated to spin and I collapsed into the floor and I lost control of my body. I heard them run over to me. "IS she alright?" Ali asked Hanna checking my pulse.
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