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Chapter 39: Pain! Can't get enough!
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~Last time~
He leaned over Naruto so that he could tell him this without the others over hearing. He wasn't stupid. He knew they would spy on them. "Kiba…is dead. All because of you. You killed him. You dragged him into all of this. You took his life by handing him over to the ones who want you. How many more have to die for you? Why don't you do us all a favor and die already. Or better yet…why don't you give yourself over and let the rest of us have a fighting chance instead of dying for your worthless ass." Shino hissed coldly into Naruto's ear before standing straight to look at Naruto's reaction. What he saw made his heart twinge in slight guilt, but he pushed it away for the sorrow and anger he felt at the loss of Kiba.
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Naruto turned over to his side and for once he welcomed the pain. It took away what he was feeling in his heart. The pain of sorrow and betrayal.
~Now~
Naruto was let out of the hospital three days after waking up. Since the visit with Shino, he hasn't spoken to anyone. Not even Gaara. It was starting to worry his family and friends. This wasn't like him. Not only that, they noticed that Shino refused to visit him anymore. When questioned, all he would say was he wasn't wanted there.
Iruka looked on at Naruto in worry. This was the fourth day he hadn't spoken. It was starting to shoot his nerves all to hell. The guards needed instructions, but he didn't know what to do. He wasn't in charge of them! Iruka walked into his son's room and sat beside him on the bed. Naruto didn't even move to acknowledge them. "Naruto…"
Naruto turned his head and Iruka bit back a horrified gasp. His son's normally vibrant blue eyes were now dull and lifeless. He knew he was mourning for his best friend, Kiba, but he didn't even react this way when his uncle was murdered. Something else must have happened.
"Naruto…your bodyguards are in need of your attention. They need to know who and how they are to protect. I don't know anything about that stuff…" Iruka trailed off.
Naruto shifted to his side once again before he murmured in a dead tone. "Tell them all…they are no longer needed…"
Iruka looked on in surprise. "No longer needed? What is that supposed to mean? Damn it Naruto! Look at me!" Iruka grabbed his son's shoulders when he refused to look at him. What he didn't expect was for Naruto to throw a sucker punch at his jaw and make him fly backwards. Iruka held his jaw as his eyes widened in disbelief. His son just hit him!
Naruto narrowed his eyes and growled lowly. "You aren't my fucking father. Don't act like it. You are just second best. You can easily be replaced." It is for the best. Please hate me. It is the only way I can keep you safe…
Iruka bit back a sob as he scrambled up and out of the room. Naruto looked on sadly. It is for the best. He repeated in his mind. Then why did it feel like he was losing…
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Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
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Something was wrong. He could feel it. Everything was going as planned, yet it didn't feel right. Was he hurting his love? All he wanted to do was separate his love from that infernal red head. And then his love would welcome him with open arms. No one was really supposed to die. His best friend wasn't supposed to die! His uncle was going to have some explaining to do…
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You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
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Gaara looked at the text message that Naruto had sent him once again. He knew there had to be some type of joke. This wasn't the Naruto he knew. He wouldn't do something like this to the one he loves. He needed answers and he needed them now.
Gaara thanked his sister as she pulled up to his…Naruto's house. Getting out, he walked up to the front door hesitantly. He was already given a key so he didn't bother knocking. When he stepped in, he could hear sobbing in the kitchen and Kakashi murmuring to 'his dolphin' that someone didn't mean something. He ignored them for the moment to search out Naruto. Deciding to check his room first. Naruto was there. And he looked as if he had been expecting him.
Gaara let his anger take control and he threw his phone at Naruto. "What the fuck is this? Huh?"
Naruto looked calmly at Gaara before looking down at the text message. We're over. He thought it was self-explanatory. "It means I no longer want to be with you. What don't you understand?"
Anger coursed through him as he tried to override the pain that mingled with it. "Over? After everything we have been through? After we've made love? After-"
"We didn't make love. We fucked. We screwed each other's brains out. That's it." Naruto interrupted him.
"What?" Gaara asked pained. He couldn't be saying this! Not to him!
"All we did was meet each other's release. It was meaningless." Naruto hated himself for saying such lies. But it is for the best.
"What about all the times you said you loved me?" Gaara whispered out harshly.
"Pretty words to get into your pants. Do you really think you were my first? I dated k- Kiba for a year." Kiba's name hitched in his throat. It was so hard saying that name. it brought up so much guilt. So much unwanted pain. "It was so easy to lead you on. So easy to get you to give it up." Naruto bit out mockingly. Those words were thick on his tongue and he had to choke them out.
Gaara's eyes started to tear up, but he refused to let his tears be seen by Naruto. He turned around and stocked his way out. Only when he was at the door, did he remember something Guy said. 'Naruto has a hero complex. He has to save everyone.' He now realized what Naruto was up to, but he would confront him tomorrow. Right now he needed a drink.
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Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
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Shino watched the news on his boyfriend's death. They ruled it as homicide which made him snort since he already knew that. He turned the volume up when something caught his interest.
"They have finally pulled the charred bodies out of the ocean and have started to identify them. The first one is Nobunga Kawiaki and the other is Karin Leima. There was a third person to have reportedly been on the boat, but as of right now no other body has been found. If you-"
Shino turned the TV off abruptly and shot up, eyes wide. Kiba could still be alive!
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Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
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Naruto stood in the shower as he watched the diluted crimson liquid wash down the drain. He brought the razor blade back to his inner thigh and made another slice to it. He didn't even wince. He welcomed this pain over any other at the moment and right now he needed a lot of this pain.
He had successfully pushed away three of the people he cared about most and it was eating him up. Naruto knew he needed them to stay strong, but he wanted them safe. Pushing them away was the only thing he could think of. And it was starting to make him numb…
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Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
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Ok! There you go folks! It isn't much, but there is the chapter. I hope you like it. It is kind of sad, but there is a silver lining in this dreary chapter! Leave a review please! I just love reviews!