In the last week I had sort of gotten used to my wheel chair. I still didn't like the idea of never walking again, so nobody really talked about the battle anymore, at least not when I was around. Though one thing would brighten my day today, Sunny was getting out of the brig, which was where I was heading now.

The giant door opened and I rolled in as soon as Barricade let Sunstreaker out of his cell. "Hey." I smiled and waved at him from my chair. Both pair of eyes turned towards me and within a flash, Sunstreaker transformed into his golden stingray before his hollowform popped out and tackled me, crushing me into the ground just like his brother had done. I just smiled and hugged him back with a soft smile. "Can you leave us for a second?" I asked over the sparkbond and looked at my creator. Barricade glared at me before leaving the brig, though I knew that he wouldn't go far, I guess he didn't trust anybody near me and he was just really protective of me.

Sunstreaker pulled back, but still kept straddled over me. "Thought you died!" He scolded with an angry look. "How could you have been so stupid?!" He growled and grabbed me by my collar. "Why would you just run off in the middle of a battle zone?! Didn't we tell you to stay put with Optimus?! You could have died! No wait, you did almost die! You can't even walk anymore-"

I shut him up with a slap to the face. I didn't need to hear this from him! What was up with the sudden change of personality?! "Shut up!" I snapped with tears in my eyes, if he wanted to make me feel bad then he managed to do that. "I know, okay?! But what would you have wanted me to do?! If I didn't run then I would have been shot!" Damn him for being his grumpy self. He really knew how to make a girl feel bad. "You're such a idiot, Sunstreaker." I mumbled and pushed him off of me.

There were moments like these when I just wanted to walk away. I pushed my wheelchair up and managed to get myself seated before rolling away, leaving him seated on the floor.

Once I was out, I allowed my tears to run down my face. Why did I have to fall for this moron out of all the Autobots? I couldn't have fallen for Sideswipe or something.

"What did he do?"

I stopped in my tracks when I heard Barricade's voice. I just sniffed and kept my face turned away from him, I couldn't stop my tears. Would Sunstreaker not like me anymore because I couldn't walk anymore?

"Sparkling?" Barricade asked as he crouched down next to me. "What's going on?"

"Nothing." I mumbled and glared at my lap. "I just should have known better." I said and started rolling away again, but of course I could escape my creator.

"You can't deny what your spark wants, sparkling, that's just going to eat you from the inside." I looked over my shoulder in shock. Did he know what I was talking about? How did he know?

Barricade just smirked and shook his head. "I loved your mom, remember? If your spark says that the other spark belongs to you, then there is nothing you can do to get away from it. I know you like those twins, Static, everybody can see it. I might not like it, but not even I can come between a sparkbond. The times you swoon over them through the bond is sickening." He joked before walking away, leaving me back to my thoughts.

Of course I wasn't alone for long.

"Phoebe?"

"Shut up, Sunstreaker, leave me alone." I said and started rolling my wheelchair forwards, but I could hear his metallic footsteps follow me. I let out a dramatic sigh and spun my chair around. "What?" I asked. "You can stop wasting your time with me, okay? I'm useless now so you can find some other human to entertain you." I said and just looked up at him. I was not cooperating with my situation like I should; I was not okay, no matter what I told myself. "Forget it." I grumbled and spun my chair again, rolling away. I didn't mean to be depressing all of the time, but I just couldn't get out of it that easily.

"You're such a pain, Phoebe." Sunstreaker growled and transformed so his holoform could chase after me. I tried to roll away from him, but he grabbed a wheel and spun me around.

"Hey! What the hell do you think you're doi-" I was shut up when Sunstreaker put his lips against mine. He pushed me further back into the wheelchair, preventing me from going anywhere. I eventually got over my shock and kissed him back as I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Don't scare me like back then again." Sunstreaker said as he pulled back. "I don't want to loose you.. I can't." He sighed and placed his head against mine. "Please promise me that you wont do anything that stupid again."

I just looked at him as he spoke. Seeing Sunstreaker worry about me like this actually made me really happy. He really was an awesome guy. "Okay, I promise." I smiled and kissed him again as my hands went into his hair. It was really soft for some reason, which made me kind of giggle.

Sunstreaker might seem like a grumpy bot with a big personal space issue when it comes to his altmode, but he is really sweet and probably not as tough as he seems to be. Best thing about him was that he is all mine and I don't plan on sharing him with anyone.

XxX

Sunstreaker and I were sitting on the hood of his altmode, watching the sea from the shore. We weren't cuddled up like those cliché couples, we were just sitting next to each other, enjoying the view. We had basically spend the rest of the day together, Sideswipe popped up a couple of times, but every time we talked about going for a drive of having some fun, he just brushed it off and said that he was busy and that he didn't want to disturb our moment. I don't know if I'm right, but I have this feeling that there is something wrong with Sideswipe. He had been acting pretty weird ever since I woke from the battle.

The sound of an engine snapped me out of my thoughts and made me twist to look over my shoulder. Barricade transformed and looked at Sunstreaker and I. "Come on, sparkling, time to go home." He said.

"Why can't Sunstreaker take me home?" I asked. Did something pop up? Normally Sunstreaker took me home if I stayed with him.

"Sunstreaker is called for a meeting, so I'm going to take you.. Any problem with that?" He added with a slight growl.

I just smirked and shook my head.. "No, there's nothing wrong with it." I said with a slight smile and reached up my hands like a small kid wanting to be picked up. It wasn't like I could walk. Barricade rolled his eyes, but picked me up and placed me on his shoulder. "See you tomorrow, Sunstreaker." I smiled and waved before Barricade started walking towards the house.

"So-"

"Don't say it." I cut Barricade off, knowing what he was going to say. "You were right about it. You cant give up on the things your spark wants." I said with a small smile. "Was it hard for you to follow your spark when you met mom?" I asked him suddenly, my smile faltering a little bit, wondering what the woman would have been like.

Barricade looked at me from the corner of his optics and sighed. "When I met your mother, I was scouting for the Decepticons. It was different back then. The war told us to be cold. Love and feelings only made you weak. If a comrade died, you were trained to never look back and forget about them. You weren't allowed to keep your memories. After your first couple of battles, they would erase your memories. Once the bot was dead, they no longer existed, but the procedure was so painful that after your first three battles you would know to just forget them. The first real memories that I kept, were the ones with your mother. They were to precious to be forgotten, though I would never admit that to anyone.. So don't tell anyone that." He added quickly before continuing. "Eventually after the three years I spend with her, I forced them to the back of my processor, knowing that I could never have that happiness again, but I never erased them. Some got lost, but seeing you, you bring my memories back again. Good ones, bad ones, the ones I wouldn't mind having erased. You're very similar to your mother."

I smiled softly at him and leaned my body against his helm. I just loved it how my dad talked about my mother, he seemed like a whole different bot when he talked about her. It's like I'm talking to the soldier behind the mask, the real Barricade. He must have really loved her if just memories can turn him into somebody else. "Would you want to see her again?" Barricade stopped for a second and took a deep breath. "No." He said and continued walking again, but slowly. "Seeing her could bring her harm and I've already done enough damage in her life. She wont forgive me for it and I wont forgive myself either. She's happy now and I don't want to take that away from her."

"How do you know that?"

"The world wide web." He smirked, causing me to laugh softly. His smirk didn't last long though and turned sadder instead. "I'm happy that she was able to move on, but it hurts at the same time." We stopped on top of a hill and looked at the sky that was filling up with the first stars of the night. "Your mom got married a couple of years ago to a lawyer. They have a daughter and a baby boy together."

My face fell just as Barricade's did. There was this slow pang of pain going through my chest. Mom had forgotten about us and moved on. She had replaced Barricade with another man and me with her children, even though I am basically one too. Why did she keep those babies and not even give me a chance?

It was hurting more then I expected as tears slowly started to run down my face. Just because I was a rape baby gave her no right to just forget about me. I deserved a chance to! Barricade deserved a chance to explain himself. He was her sparkmate, she couldn't just move on with somebody else, sparkbonds didn't work like that.

"It's going to be okay, sparkling." Barricade said and patted my head with his metal hand. "We're fine the way we are."

I just nodded my head and he continued taking me back to my foster parents. Barricade still loved my mom so much that he would let somebody else have her and make her happy. I could see from his sadness that he still loved her. He didn't want to ruin my mom's happiness with his own wishes.

"Do you still love her?" I asked him as I wiped my eyes and sniffed.

"She's my sparkmate, I have no choice." Barricade said with a sad sigh and I could tell that it wasn't easy on him. Being away from your sparkmate if you've been together once must hurt.

I kept my mouth shut after that and just held onto him. I was starting to get to know Barricade better and better, which I was very grateful for. I got to see my real creator, my real father, the man my mom had fallen for. I didn't want to let him go.

I promised to myself that even if Optimus would leave us and we would be the only two left, I would never leave Barricade.

We reached the house all too soon as Barricade put me down in the grass. He transformed before stepping out in his holoform and picking me back up. There were no lights on in the house, so I guessed that Thomas and Darla were sleeping. Barricade took me inside and headed up to my room where he put me down on my bed.

"Get some rest, okay? Tomorrow is going to be another long day, there's gonna be a new bot arriving so get yourself ready for that." He said and started to head towards my door.

"Okay, goodnight dad." I said with a small smile. "Love you."

Barricade stopped as he was about to close the door and turned around to look at me over his shoulder. "… Lo... Love you too, sparkling." He said quickly before quickly shutting the door behind him.

I grinned and squeaked in happiness. Barricade told me that he loved me, something I wouldn't really have expected from him, but it made me really happy. I quickly pulled my PJ shirt from under my pillow and changed into that before getting my legs straight. It didn't take long for me to get comfortable and fall asleep with a smile on my face.

Extra

Sunstreaker and Sideswipe were walking back to their chambers after the meeting ended. They were on the exploring/pick up team to make sure that nothing would happen to Wheeljack as they welcomed him to earth.

"Do you think that she will ever find out?" Sideswipe asked his brother. "She's your sparkmate as much as mine, she has to know that, I cant sit back much longer." He said.

Sunstreaker sighed and stopped in the hallway, turning towards the other. "I don't know, Sides. It's not normal for a human to be with two persons, or bots, at the same time. Trust me, I can feel your frustration, but I don't want to freak her out with the two for one package." He said and crossed his arms over his chest. "Maybe you should spend some time with her, get close to her like I am. We'll find a way to tell her."

Sideswipe started walking again and punched his brother playfully in the shoulder. "We better find a way soon because I want to kiss Phoebe too. Oh and Sunny, I will make sure that eventually she will be more mine than yours." He joked and started running when he saw Sunstreaker's face.

"How many times have I told you not to call me that!?" Sunstreaker shouted and started running after his silver twin. "Get back here Sideswipe, you scratched my paintjob, you sparkling of a glitch!"

"Hey! That glitch was your carried too, you know!"

"Shut your frag face Sideswipe and get back here!"

"Oh so you mean your frag face too? We're twins, stupid!"

"You're stupid!"

"No, you're stupid! Argh!" Sideswipe shouted as Sunstreaker tackled him to the floor.

"Take that back, you junkyard scrap!" Sunstreaker snarled as he started wrestling with his brother.

"Afthole punk!"

"Second hand good for nothing!"

"Half bit!"

"Scraplet fragger!"

"Oil filter!"

Ironhide and Ratchet watched the twins from afar with a deadpanned expression. "It seems to be that they are going at it again." Ironhide sighed and rolled his optics.

"Yep." Ratchet said before the both of them turned around and headed for their own recharge chambers.

N/A!

Hey guys!

Sorry for the really late update. A lot has been going on lately, went to Dallas, had to train a bunch of interns and had to basically make them an entire book on how to do things, but I hope that I made it up to you guys with all the fluff. Let me know what you think and I would love to hear some of your ideas!

Oh one more thing, would you guys rather be reading here or do you want me to start my sequel? Please let me know! =^^=

Love you guys!

XxX KneelingAngel