Okay this is a little sad... and remember - IT'S AN OUTTAKE!
I'm sorry if i make anyone cry, i wrote it just after my friend passed... hence the sadness.
Review though... =]
We were back at the hospital… Embry was patrolling with Jacob so it was just baby and me.
I waited patiently for Dr Samson, he was going to check the babies heart beat, and maybe even do another scan.
I loved being pregnant; I was constantly talking to my baby. I wanted her to be familiar with my voice.
"Its good to see you Lexi...Right we should check his heartbeat" Dr Samson said walking over.
I lay on the bed anxious to hear my baby…
I was jealous because Embry could hear her heart beat and I could only when I was at the Doctors.
He put some of that cold jelly stuff on my tummy and turned on the machine.
"Okay…where are you little buddy?" the doctor chuckled.
I smiled and listened to the whirling of the machine.
The doctor's face fell slightly and continued to move the nozzle around my stomach.
"Everything okay?" I asked.
"Oh yeah, this machines old, how about we just do a scan?" He said switching the machine off and wiping his hands.
"Follow me Lexi…we can have a look at him" he helped me up and I followed him to a room down the hall.
Dr Cullen walked around the corner with huge piles of books in his arms.
"Hello Lexi"
"Carlisle…what are you doing here?" I smiled.
"Just collecting a few books…another scan I see?" he smiled back.
"Yes…the doctor said the other machine is broken so I'm going to get a scan," I laughed. Dr Samson was still standing beside me, and he gave Carlisle a weird look.
"In room 13B Lexi… I'll see you in there" he shuffled down the hall.
Carlisle looked at me worriedly, but I brushed it off.
"Oh I better go… I love seeing her," I laughed.
"Where is Embry Lexi" Carlisle choked out.
"Patrol…is everything okay Carlisle?" his worried expression was scaring me.
"Is Embry okay?" I asked once he didn't answer.
"I … uh … think you should go get that scan Lexi" he looked down at my stomach.
"Right. I'll see you around Carlisle" I turned and practically ran to room 13B.
Dr Samson had everything all set up once I got there, I lay on the bed and he got straight into the scan.
I watched the little monitor, trying to find the little jellybean. The doctor's movement became more frantic…almost like he couldn't find what he was looking for.
"Hold on a minuet Lexi… I will be right back" he switched off the machine and left the room.
"Okay…"
I sat up and swung my legs over the side of the bed and waited.
Then waited some more.
Dr Samson was taking a really long time. I had a feeling something bad had happened but I wouldn't allow my mind to think it.
I just sat and waited.
Finally the door creaked open and I felt a wave of relief wash over me…then Carlisle walked in and that relief drowned instantly.
The look on his face was heartbroken; he looked at me with his hurting eyes.
"Carlisle where is Dr Samson?" I whispered, holding my tummy.
"Lexi…we need to talk" Carlisle said gently.
I waited for him to speak.
"Lexi…" he said again.
"Why do you keep saying my name?" I asked irritated.
"There were complications Lexi…Dr Samson couldn't find the heart beats." He stepped closer.
"No" I whispered.
"I'm so sorry Lexi…"
"No" I said louder. He waited but I was staring at him, waiting for him to laugh and tell me it was just a joke. There was no sign of humour in his golden eyes.
"No… he said the machine is broken. He's wrong; he didn't do it properly. They are fine. They are FINE," I sounded like I was choking.
"I can't hear their heart beats" Carlisle murmured.
"YOUR WRONG!" I screamed.
I held my abdomen tighter, trying to hold onto them.
"You're wrong…please be wrong…I can't loose them, I cant. Please!" I cried; tears were free falling down my cheeks.
Then cold arms were wrapped around me, holding me.
"I'm sorry Lexi" Carlisle said.
I pulled away from his embrace and got off the bed, my legs were shaking and I don't know how but I managed to run out.
I ran down the twisting corridors, past the front desk and out the hospital doors, then past my car.
I ran for hours or minuets, time didn't mean anything to me.
Carlisle's voice was trapped in my head, swirling around, repeating it over and over again.
"I can't hear their heart beat"
"I can't hear their heart beat"
"I can't hear their heart beat"
"I can't hear their heart beat"
I couldn't see where I was, the salty tears were blurring my vision, but still his voice continued to torture me.
I can't hear their heart beat"
I can't hear their heart beat"
I fell over; instead of pulling myself up I cradled my stomach and cried harder than I ever had.
I can't hear their heart beat"
I can't hear their heart beat"
I was faintly aware of a group of people surrounding me.
"NO!" I screamed as the voice continued to repeat.
"Lexi?" A soft voice broke through the murmurs.
"Oh my god … Lexi!" Then I was being pulled into someone's arms.
"Sam!" She called.
"Lexi…are you okay? What's wrong? Are you hurt?" She scrubbed the tears from my cheeks but more fell in their place.
"Emily? What's wrong…Oh. What happened? Lexi?" Sam's voice was right next to my ear.
"Is she hurt?"
"She just keeps saying 'he's wrong'" Emily said holding me to her.
"Come on, lets get her out of the rain" Sam said and picked me up in his arms.
The tears didn't let up the drive back to La Push; Emily sat in the back and cradled me.
"Do you want to go home or go to ours?" She whispered quietly.
"Home" I managed to choke out.
We got to the house and Kora ran out…
"Lexi? I'm so sorry honey" she awkwardly hugged me; Sam was holding most of my weight.
They took me inside and lay me on the couch, and then they all walked into the kitchen.
"What happened Kora?" Emily asked quietly.
"Dr Cullen rung me…she lost the babies" she whispered.
I shuddered and flew off the couch… then out the back door to my room.
I locked the door behind me and slid to the ground.
My crying turned into hysterics and I couldn't move, my body ached, but still I continued to wail in the darkness.
The afternoon's events played over in my head like a broken record.
I felt sick, my stomach was tight and my head seemed to spin, I crawled to the bathroom and managed to throw up in the toilet.
I lay on the bathroom floor whimpering.
How could this happen to me?
They were so real to me… a part of me… apart of Embry.
Embry.
Embry.
What about Embry?
How could I possibly face Embry, knowing that his babies died inside of me.
My babies. His babies. Our babies.
They couldn't die, how could someone so loved ever die.
Especially when they hadn't even lived.
I couldn't just lie here… I need Embry. I need to tell him I'm sorry.
I need him more than anything.
And he needs me.
I scrambled to my feet and broke through the door and into the dark forest.
I knew he would know by now… it was night and Carlisle would have told him.
I let my feet carry me in unknown directions, the trees whipped past me but I never fell.
"Embry!" I screamed still running.
"Embry!"
"I need you! Please!" I yelled pleading.
I came to an unfamiliar break in the trees and stood there and called out again.
What if he hadn't found out? What if Carlisle hadn't told him? Would I be able to tell him?
Then I heard it… it felt like a blunt dagger was being pushed into my chest. It hurt more than anything I ever felt… I dropped to the wet grass, aching.
A heart-breaking howl had lit up the night, it was mournful.
Sad, painful and worse … it was Embry.
His song continued and then others joined in… I leaned my head back and cried out up at the sky, along with him.
The howling didn't stop; in fact it grew worse as more joined in. It wasn't just Jacob's pack… it was Sam's as well. My cries quietened down until it was just sobs.
But something had changed, the howling was fading away, I couldn't stop my crying to listen more intently. I was lying on my side; the rain had stopped so all that I could hear was my cries.
Then something warm nuzzled my neck, I opened my eyes to see Embry still in wolf form, huge tears the size of baseballs rolled down the fur under his eyes.
He lay down next to me and I curled up into his fur.
My crying didn't stop; it was drowned out by his cries.
A chorus of howls erupted … I looked around and both packs were there, in a circle around us. Embry let out a sad whining noise, it was a painful sound; I cried harder.
Everything went blank after that...
Okay, i never really finished it but ... meh!
Lol sorry if it was terrible... you can review if you want =]
Love Summer