"Kate where are you?" the writer asked as he slipped into his apartment, the older man following him as Rick looked around to find complete silence. He knew his mother and daughter were out for the day but he'd expected to find Kate curled up on the couch with a book or watching the television after having a bath. "Kate?" he asked again, his voice slightly louder as he continued to look around to find nothing showing life. Turning to look at the older man, Rick smiled weakly as he removed his jacket. "I'm just going to look and see if she's in my office" he explained, knowing that was where she'd escaped that morning, as Jim quickly nodded his head. "Sit down, I'll be back in a minute" he smiled.

"Just go Rick" Jim laughed weakly, smiling at how much the man obviously cared about his daughter. Walking down the corridor, the writer sighed as he quickly pushed the door open and laughed at the sight of Kate fast asleep on there make shift bed on the floor; her hair damp while she was dressed in a pair of sweats and one of his shirts.

"Kate" he smiled, shutting the door gently behind him as she groaned and began to open her eyes; her focus falling on him as he continued to watch her. "Hey sleepy head, you have a visitor outside" he admitted, a groan leaving her lips as she buried her face into the pillow. "Come on, I know you're not that tired" he laughed, moving over to kneel beside her as she continued to keep her face hidden. "Kate" he moaned, leaning across to find where his shirt had slipped down to reveal the bare skin of her shoulders. Pressing his lips against her skin, he found himself smirking when she groaned at the contact and quickly turned so she was facing him. "Hey stranger" he smiled.

"Hey" she whispered, sitting up quickly. "You don't mind that I stole one of your shirts, I wasn't comfy in mine" the brunette admitted as the writer shrugged and wrapped his arms around her; bringing her onto his lap. "You said I had a visitor" she whispered gently against him as he groaned and nodded; the two of them standing as he laced his fingers with her and began to lead her out of the room. Entering the living room, Rick sighed as he felt Kate's grip of his hand tighten at the sight of her father. "Dad" she said in shock, the older man standing at the sound of his daughter's voice. "What are you doing here?"

"We need to talk" he explained, the brunette letting go of Rick's hand as she stared at him. "Kate, I know what's going on. I know about the hospital" Jim admitted as Rick turned to see Kate glaring at him in shock.

"You told him" Kate announced. "Why would you do that?" she asked, moving away from him as Rick opened his mouth to speak. "I trusted you" she admitted, tears running down her cheeks as she moved to walk down the corridor towards Rick's bedroom. Hearing the door slam moments later, Rick sighed as he turned to see Jim standing in silence. Watching as Jim nodded, Rick smiled weakly before he walked towards his bedroom and opened the door to see Kate throwing her clothes into her bag; the shirt she'd been wearing thrown across the bed as she searched for her own t-shirt.

"Can we talk about his before you run off?" he asked as she remained silent and pulled her t-shirt on before turning to look at him.

"What's there to talk about?" she replied, her tone angry as he shut his eyes and groaned. "I trusted you and you went to talk to my dad without me. You didn't even tell me you were going to do it Rick, I thought we were going to have no more secrets" the brunette admitted as he opened his mouth to speak but shutting it when she shook her head. "You went behind my back Rick; you talked to my father when I didn't want you too".

"You always knew that I wanted to help you Kate" he explained, moving closer to her as she bit into her lip. "And helping means talking to your dad about what's going on right now. Maybe if you took the time to listen to us you'd learn that I've managed to persuade your dad to talk to someone about this and get help" the writer admitted, shock covering her face as she observed him. "When I told him that you'd been taken into hospital because of drinking, he was devastated. He loves you Kate and it's killing him to know that he had some part in you being hospitalised".

"Rick" she whispered in shock.

"Maybe you should go and talk to your dad" the writer announced, watching as she moved closer to him. "He needs to talk to you Kate" he whispered, her head shaking as she ran her hands to his cheeks; knowing she'd hurt him with how she'd acted earlier. "Go and talk to your dad".

"What's wrong with me Rick?" she asked, tears filling his eyes as he smiled weakly and wrapped his arms around her. "I've never felt like this before, I've never felt this useless" she sobbed, burying her head into his chest as he held her close to him.

"It's okay Kate, everything's okay" he whispered, pressing his lips into her hair gently before moving away. "Go and talk to your dad, we'll talk in a minute" he promised, her head nodding slowly as she moved away before turning to look at him again.

"We're going to be okay Rick?" she asked as his head nodded slowly.

"We're going to be fine Kate, we've just got to keep fighting" he whispered, her head nodding as she walked out of the room and approached her father who was sitting patiently on the couch in silence.

"Hey daddy" she mumbled, sitting down beside him as Jim smiled weakly and reached for her hand; the brunette's eyes shutting as she felt him take hold of her hand. "I'm sorry daddy, I'm so sorry" the brunette sobbed as her father's arms wrapped around her tightly; Kate's head burying against him as she felt the tears role down her cheeks.

"I'm going to get help Katie I promise" he declared as he stared down at his daughter. "I'm not going to lose you Kate, I'm not going to lose my little girl" he whispered before pressing a kiss into her hair. "I hate myself for not being there for you" he admitted as Kate looked up to stare at him. "You're my little girl, when you were sick we used to watch movies together and when you broke your arm as a kid your mother and I spent hours doodling on your cast" Jim laughed as Kate remembered the drawings she'd ended up with after she'd broken her arm. "I've been there for every illness and hospital trip and I hate myself for not being there to support you when you needed me".

"It's my fault daddy" she admitted, tears filling her eyes as he shook his head. "I was so scared that you'd be angry that I did what I did and then I didn't want you there because I didn't want to burden you with my problems; especially after everything with mom" the brunette explained as she continued to rest against him. Hearing the door open quickly, Kate turned to see Rick standing behind her in silence.

"I need to get some food, I'll be back in an hour or two" he explained, Kate nodding as she stood up and moved towards him.

"Rick" she whispered.

"We'll talk later" he declared, smiling weakly before he left the apartment.

"Daddy, I've really screwed up" the brunette admitted as she turned to look at her father. "I can't lose him daddy" she explained as Jim smiled and patted the space on the couch next to him. "I love him so much dad but everything keeps going wrong now. One day he'll just decide that I'm too damaged and he doesn't want to deal with me and will go back to models or someone like he's been with in the past" she blurted out as Jim laughed gently at his daughter's nerves.

"When your mother and I were dating we had a fight" Jim explained. "It was over something stupid, the fact that I wasn't apparently very present in the relationship, and we weren't even angry with each other, we were just upset because we thought things were falling apart around us" he admitted, surprising his daughter with the newest story. "So I called your mother and told her that we needed to talk and when she'd arrived at the apartment I'd made her dinner and we curled up on the couch and watched movies" he smiled, remembering Johanna's shock when she'd arrived to find a homemade dinner being prepared.

"And what happened after that?" she asked quickly.

"Well we did end up married with a beautiful little girl Kate so something must have gone right that evening" he laughed, Kate smiling as she looked down at her father's wedding ring. "If you want him Kate then you fight for him" the man explained before pressing a kiss to her forehead. "Rick's signing me up to a programme which starts next week so I have to go and discuss getting time off work" he explained, Kate nodding slowly as he stood up. "Your mother would want you to be happy Kate" he admitted, approaching the door as the brunette remained silent in her seat on the couch.

XOXOXOXOXO

Opening the apartment door, Rick sighed as he looked up from his shopping to see almost all of the lights off except for a lamp by the couch; confusion covering his face as he kicked the door shut and looked across to see Kate standing in front of him in her sweats and t-shirt. She looked nervous and he couldn't help but love the shy look that was covering her face.

"What's going on?" he asked, Kate's head shaking as she walked over to him and took hold of his hand in silence. "Kate what's going on?" he laughed, following her as she led him towards her bedroom; silence filling the room as she quickly shut the door and stared at him. "Kate, will you please talk to me?"

"I wanted to do something special for you so I dug out your Star Wars movies and got us food for the evening. The pizza should be here soon" she admitted, smiling weakly as he ran his hand to her cheek in amazement. "There's something I need to tell you first though" she smiled, Rick nodding as he sat down on the edge of the bed and stared at her; watching as she paced nervously for a few moments.

"Kate?" Rick whispered, watching as she shook her head and stared at him for a moment.

"I love you Rick, I love you so much" she admitted, tears running down her cheeks as he continued to watch her in amazement. "I've always been stubborn and I struggle to believe in certain things; fate, Santa Claus…" she began.

"You don't believe in Santa" he commented, Kate laughing as she nodded. "When did you stop?" he asked as Kate sighed.

"Three years old, I realised that it was impossible for Santa to come into my apartment because we didn't have a chimney" she admitted, Rick nodding as she sat down beside him. "But one thing I know is true is the fact that I love you and I want this relationship to work more than I've wanted anything in my life" she smiled as his hand moved to take hers. "I may be damaged and it'll take me a while to trust people fully but I'm not going to let this go" she sighed, leaning in to kiss his cheek gently. "And I'm not ready to be where we were before my mom…" she began before falling silent.

"Kate this isn't just about sex, this is a serious relationship. I think it's my most serious relationship actually" he declared quickly as she listened to him, taking in everything he was saying. "Honestly, I'm just happy cuddling with you watching my Star Wars collection so why don't we relax, watch our movies and cuddle throughout it" he laughed, Kate nodding slowly as she hugged him.

"Thank you for what you're doing for my dad, I don't know whether I could have coped with his drinking on my own" she whispered, knowing this was the only time she could mention it that evening. "And I'm sorry that I got angry earlier, I know I came across as ungrateful but I'm not. It means a lot to me that you want to help us".

"Kate, it's in the past. It doesn't matter anymore" he smiled, starting the movie before he leant back and relaxed against the headboard of the bed. "Your dad is going to get through this and so are we so let's just enjoy tonight because honestly I'm rather excited to have a woman with me who wants to watch Star Wars without being forced".

"What do you mean? Star Wars is awesome, how could anyone not like it?" she declared, shocking him slightly before he laughed and wrapped his arms tighter around her.

"Katherine Beckett you just get better everyday" he laughed, pressing a kiss into her cherry scented hair before relaxing back to enjoy the movies with her.

Just to state, I am a major Star Wars fan so I had to put it in here!

Thank you for your wonderful reviews to previous chapters, I love hearing from you and every comment has been so lovely. Hopefully you enjoyed this chapter although I don't feel like it was the best and I hope to hear all your opinions; it makes my day when I get reviews and also it does make me review faster.