Peeta, Glimmer and the girl from 4 are walking away to search dry wood for the fire.

I push my back against a tree and slowly sit down. I look up, and see Katniss sitting there.

Seriously, why did we gave up? We could have killed her.

But maybe it was just meant to be like this, we should make a real show of killing the fire girl.

The 3 make a fire of some lighters and the dry wood.

I'm so hungry, one of us should go back to get some food from the cornucopia.

We hid the food in the pyramid stable and we brought nothing with us, when we were going to hunt.

I'm not that type of person to hunt animals, but I guess that this time I don't have a choice. I want to eat, so I have to.

When they finally have made a fire, it's already getting dark. I feel the warmth coming to me.

I sit closer to the fire and warm myself.

The others do the same, it's pretty cold in the arena now.

I stare into the fire, blinded by the light. I wink a few times and see the flames again, but in other colours.

We were on fire a little time ago, now we're almost frozen.

I try to catch the warmth, but it isn't that easy. I don't know why I am so cold, and the rest is acting like they're not, maybe they are not cold at all.

Nowadays you can't trust anybody, everything may be just an act.

Peeta is still chasing Katniss, they're in 'love' right? Then why the hell has he made up this plan? To kill her tomorrow.

We kept him alive, to lead us to fire girl. After his job is done, we would kill him anyways.

He's so dumb, and at the same time unbelievable annoying.

He was able to tell Panem that he 'loved' her forever. Maybe he does really love her, but if you're in love with somebody then that person won't beat you to a wall and tell that person that he made you look weak.

If you're in love with somebody you don't only act like you are in love for the cameras. That's even more pathetic than my situation, not acting like we're in love for the cameras, while we are in love.

Suddenly we came to the point where the question is not 'When are you in love.' But 'What is love?'

The answer is too easy; love is putting someone else's needs before yours.

And that does not include the fact that he is willing to kill her, to save his life.

I'm pretty sure that as I would be in that situation, I would let myself be killed. No matter how hard love can be, I would never tell other people where they could find Cato, and kill me afterwards. The clue is actually pointless, lover boy and fire girl are acting like they're in love, but they're not.

For f*cks sake they're just acting for the cameras, game makers and whole f*cking Panem that they're in love. Those people don't deserve to win, they're too fake, and the world doesn't need more fake people. I will do everything to kill them.

No one will live forever, we just be remembered for what we do now.

And all I am going to do now, in the arena, is going to kill them!

Cato hold his sword in the fire, it glows a yellow-orange fire colour. When he puts it out again he blows on it. The colours change, into a more bright yellow.

'Boys…' Glimmer giggles.

I'm annoyed by the fact that she's still living. I just roll my eyes and don't spend any attention at her, but on a lizard.

Normally I would be shocked as I saw a lizard, but I'm not shocked at all. Actually I'm quite calm.

I want to play with the lizard, we're still in the Hunger Games right? 'Games' are meant to be played, and I'm going to win these games.

I grab one of my knifes and hold it in my right hand. I throw it, the knife twirls and sticks in the little lizard.

It isn't dead yet, poor lizard. I'll put it out of its misery, that sounds like a fair deal right?

I grab another knife and throw it in the same lizard. There's no sign of life in the little animal anymore.

My stomach growls. 'Shall I-I eat it?' I think, and look around.

Usually I wouldn't even think about eating a lizard, but I could use some energy now.

I look around myself on the ground, and grab a sturdy stick. With my knife I sharpen it, it almost looks like a spear.

I pin the lizard on the stick and hold it above the fire.

'What are you doing?' Marvel asks me.

I'm sure my face is turning red, ashamed of the fact that I'm going to eat a f*cking lizard.

'I'm hungry, maybe you should find something to eat too' I reply while I roll my eyes.

I twist the stick with the lizard on it, so the other side is turning brown too. But actually I'm not sure if it meant to be brown.

After a while I pull back the stick, and feel the lizard, it's warm enough.

I use my fingers to pull off its skin, and to eat the little bones with flesh.

It's not the best I've eaten, but it's okay I guess.

I still don't have the choice to eat something else.

My eyelids feel heavy, I'm getting tired. Maybe I should take some sleep.

I make a pillow from my jacket and lay my head on it, facing towards the fire. It may be not completely dark, but when I open my eyes again I don't want to look at a scary animal.

I close my eyes and drift off to a light sleep.

When I slowly open my eyes again I see dark, the fire is not burning anymore, and it's still night.

When my eyes get used to the darkness, and I'm finally able to see, I see that Peeta is the one awake.

I turn my head around and see Glimmer laying with her head on Cato's arm.

The feeling in my chest is back, like it wants to push in my ribs or heart. Maybe it wants to make my heart smaller, so I could feel less love and then I wouldn't be hurt the whole f*cking time.

Maybe it isn't only jealousy, but more disappointment.

If I could only kill her right now, I would do that. But suddenly karma will visit her right? Actually I don't think that karma is going to help me out of this, or the f*cking Hunger Games. I guess that I should have to do everything alone again, as always.

I close my eyes and fall asleep again, no dreams at all.

I get waken by a bomb of a thousand zooming insects. They prick me, and it hurts like hell.

I quickly get up, trying to slap all the insects off me.

The rest is waking up too, no time to think, just run.

I sprint away, still slapping around to kill these Trackerjackers.

'To the river.' Cato yells, he's running in front of me I guess.

I can't see anything, everything is blurry again. I just follow the silhouette in front of me.

I try to focus on my steps, so I don't pass out.

Suddenly I stumble over a branch on the ground. I trip over a rock, and then into the water.

I'm underwater and swim up. Cato still stands on one of the rocks. '

Watch out, there are branches where you can fall over, we're still in a forest you know' He tells me.

I chuckle 'I know, just tested it.'

Marvel jumps next to me in the water.

Only me, Marvel and Cato are here, where the hell is the rest of the group? Or did karma finally did her job?

'Wait here!' Cato tells us.

He runs away, into the woods again.

I hear a voice yelling 'GO, KATNISS WHAT ARE YOU DOING? GO!' That can't be anyone but Peeta!

I get myself out of the water and sprint after Cato.

I fall over my own feet, and lay down onto the ground. The hallucinations and the blur are too much now, I can't f*cking walk anymore.

I try to see what's happening and look around myself. I see that Cato is fighting with Peeta and almost cutting his leg off. I smile a bit, take that lover boy!

When I look further I see the corpses of the girl from 4, and Glimmer.

Karma has done her job, finally that b*tch died. I smile even more, but then everything becomes blurry again, and turns white.

I'm not seeing anything, but though I know I'm not dying. I can't die. I have to fight, I have to be remembered by the people who're watching the Hunger Games, like whole f*cking Panem.

'Fight against the pain.' I want to tell myself, out loud. But nothing more than a very quiet whisper is coming out of my mouth.