A/N 1: I know I often forget to do this so just once more: DISCLAIMER: I do not claim any right over this TV show/fandom, the characters and any and all copyrighted material that gets referred to in this story. I do, however, own this storyline and any and all OC's.

A/N 2: I know this story contains a lot of curtain-fic-type-of-moments. I know this is kind of boring and I apologize for it, I just really want there to be a good balance between the drama and just the everyday life these characters have.

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Chapter 31:
Fix You

This is set on Wednesday March 22nd 2006.

''Everything in life is temporary. So if things are going good, enjoy it because it won't last forever. And if things are going bad, don't worry; it won't last forever either.''

Andy's POV

I focus on the sound of my footsteps as I walk away, down the hall. Going nowhere, to be honest. I wish I had somewhere to go but I don't. Right now, I just want to get away from him, I need a moment to think things through. A moment in which I don't have to do anything, a moment in which I'm neither happy nor sad but I just am and that's enough.

''I thought you said you were going to take it easier,'' I hear Milo tell me as he chases after me.
''I am,'' I reply curtly as I keep up my fast pace.

The sound of his sigh is what makes me stop walking and turn around to actually look at him. I take a deep breath before looking him in the eyes, ''what?!''
He rubs the back of his neck before responding, ''you've had a lot to deal with these last couple of days - this last week, actually. Don't you think it would be best if you took a few days off and just... relax for once?'' He asks me.

''I just had a few days off, remember?'' I ask him, not really wanting to get into this. The only reason I had a few days off was to go to my dad's funeral, he knows that, I know that. But still... it counts, right?
Milo walks over to me and takes my hands in his, ''you know that's not what I mean.''

I just look at him for a few seconds before turning on my heel and heading back to my office. He follows me in and we both sit down before I look back at him.

''I know what you mean, I just... Right now I just want to focus on work, focus on anything other than my personal life, okay?'' I ask him.
He sits quiet for a few seconds, just looking at me and probably wondering what's best, ''a lot of things have happened in the past... 12 days, and you need to deal with them. Ignoring what happened isn't going to change anything that has happened. It isn't going to change that we nearly lost our son, it's not going to change that your father passed away,'' he tells me.

What he just said reminds me of what Lu told me after I was raped. Ignoring that it happened isn't going to change the fact that it did. Ever since I got pregnant all the new hormones have been making me a lot more emotional than I usually am, and it's only making me run away from my feelings even more. Oddly enough; other people seem to be more bothered by it than I am.

''Don't you think I know that?'' I ask him. I hate it when we fight but sometimes stuff he says just gets on my nerves. When he doesn't respond I shake my head for a second before responding, ''I have a patient to get to,'' I tell Milo as we both stand up.
''Okay,'' he responds. After all the time we've been together he's probably realized that sometimes it's better to just let me cope the way I want to.
For a second this makes me happy, just for a second.

We stand there for a second, not saying anything, before I step over to him and wrap my arms around him, burying my face in his chest.
''I just want to help you,'' he tells me.
''And that's sweet,'' I murmur, ''but right now I don't want any help.''

''Okay, then I'll see you later,'' he tells me with a smile before kissing me again and he leaves as I walk out to call in my next patient.

After I've finished up with my last off the day I walk out to Lana's office, ''is Lu still here?'' I ask her.
She nods, ''she's in her office,'' she tells me.
I give a slight nod, ''okay, she's not with a patient, right?''

As Lana shakes her head I smile at her before walking over to Lu's office and knocking on the door. As I hear her tell me to come in I open the door and find her sitting behind her desk, ''hi.''

Lu seems a bit startled to see me here and stands up, ''hi...'' She responds, ''sit down.'' She says and motions to one of the chairs.
I nod before sitting down, taking a deep breath and wondering why I even came here.
''I haven't seen you since-'' she begins but stops talking mid-sentence as she sits down in front of me.

''Since you decided not to put me on bed rest because my dad died,'' I finish for her and she nods at me.
''Are you okay?'' She asks me but puts up her hand after barely a second, stopping me from responding. ''Scratch that... how are you?'' She asks instead.

I frown for a second as I realize I'm not sure how to respond. ''I feel like people have been asking me that a lot lately,'' I tell her.
''We're just worried about you,'' Lu says as she looks at me with the same look everybody has been having lately when they talk to me. The look that makes me feel fragile - as if I need other people to take care of me.
''There's no reason to-''

''There's plenty of reason and you know it,'' she tells me, cutting me off and giving me almost a mother like look. I'm a bit taken aback by her tone since usually she's not this direct. I clench my jaw as we just look at each other. I can feel the baby start to kick harder, something that often happens when I feel upset. Lu purses her lips for a second before continuing: ''There's plenty of reason despite the fact that you keep saying that you're fine and we know you're not. So why don't you just respond truthfully now?'' She asks me, her 'cut the crap' tone seeping through again.

When I don't respond she shifts in her chair a little bit and asks again: ''how are you?''
''I'm fine,'' I tell her again.
''God, you're stubborn!'' She tells me, sounding upset.
''Well, so are you,'' I tell her.

I know I look angry but I don't move, same goes for her. I don't know how long we've been sitting there when I can feel myself start to break. I don't look away, I don't even move a finger, but I can feel a tear running down my face. Just one.
I know Delgado is right... I don't want to admit it; but she is.

''So what if I'm not fine?'' I ask her.
''There's nothing wrong with that,'' she says as she leans over and puts a hand on my knee in a supportive way.
I bite my lip for a second before responding, ''I'm not fine, but I'm also not... not fine,'' I tell her, looking down and wondering if I'm still making sense. ''I don't feel happy, but I also don't feel unhappy, I'm... somewhere in between.''

I hear the front door open and it's only a matter of seconds before I hear Milo's voice saying that he's home. I can hear his footsteps on the stairs and by the time he walks into the study I have shut down my computer and I smile up at him as he walks in.

''You look happy,'' he tells me before walking over to me and pecking my lips.
''I do?'' I ask him.
''Yeah, I think it's the smile,'' he tells me with a grin as he wipes away a strand of hair from my face.
I can feel the smile start to fade as I look up at him, ''just because I'm smiling doesn't mean I'm happy,'' I say before looking away.

It takes a few seconds for him to respond, ''I know,'' he tells me and the smile disappears from his face as well. ''How was work?'' He asks me as I follow him into the living room.
''It was okay,'' I tell him, ''nothing out of the ordinary.'' I silently reflect back on everything that has happened today; from all the different appointments, to the small fight Milo and I had, to the small breakdown I had in Lu's office. Except from those last two things, it really was just an ordinary day.

Milo smiles at me, ''I'm going to start preparing dinner,'' he says, motioning towards the door.
''Anything I can do to help?'' I ask him as I follow him downstairs and into the kitchen.
''Could you clean these paprika's?'' He asks me as he gets them out of the fridge and hands them to me.

I nod and take them as I try to think of something to say, ''we have an appointment with Lu tomorrow because she wants to check on the baby, are you going to be there?'' I ask him.
''Sure,'' he responds, ''at what time?''
''Ehm, I think right after lunch, so probably around 1 pm,'' I tell him. Milo gives a slight nod and I smile at him.

As he looks at me it takes a few seconds before he smiles back, ''what?'' He asks me with a small chuckle.
''Nothing. Just thinking about our wedding. If everything had gone the way we planned we wouldn't be married yet,'' I tell him.
He has a slight frown on his face as he thinks about this, ''yeah, strange idea.'' He responds.

''If we had stuck to that plan my dad wouldn't have been at the wedding,'' I say as I focus on the paprika again. I can feel Milo look at me, this is probably the first time he's realizing this as well. I blink real fast a couple of times before I look back up at him, it's the only way to make sure I won't start crying again. I'm not even sure anymore if it's my dad dying, the pregnancy hormones, the nearly losing our baby... I just seem way too emotional - for me at least - these last couple of days.

I can see that Milo is about to say something when the front door opens and I can hear Kayla's voice, ''I'm home!''
It's just a matter of seconds before she has taken off her coat and walks into the kitchen, ''hey,'' she says, smiling at both Milo and me.
''Hey,'' I can hear Milo respond to her. I glance over at him before back at her.

The expression on her face changes just a little bit as she glances back and forth between the two of us, probably feeling the small tension in the room, ''is everything okay?'' She asks us.
I run a hand through my hair as I smile at her, ''just great.'' I tell her - it even sounds sarcastic to me, even though it wasn't - completely - meant that way.
Kayla bites the inside of her cheek before she takes a step back, ''I'll be upstairs if you need me,'' she tells us before turning on her heel and starting to walk away.

''Dinner will be ready in a half an hour,'' I tell her and she gives a nod without turning around before disappearing around the corner.

Thursday March 23rd 2006.

''No more bleeding, cramps or anything else that might ring an alarm bell?'' Lu asks me as we walk into her office.
''No alarm bells,'' I tell her with a smile. ''Everything seems to be going good.''

Milo's appointment ran late so he isn't here yet, but Lu and I decided to go ahead and start already.

''And how are you feeling, non-pregnancy related I mean,'' Lu asks me - it's the same question everyone has been asking.
''Better than expected,'' I tell her.
''Are you still seeing that therapist that you went to a while ago?'' She asks me.
''Yeah, just not as frequent as before. I think I've seen her about five times so far,'' I tell Lu as we sit down on the couch.

I clear my throat and look at my watch real quick as we sit in silent for a moment, ''I have a favor to ask you,'' I tell Lu.
She looks at me with a slight frown, ''what is it?''
''Milo and I have finally decided when to have our honeymoon,'' I tell her. ''We're leaving on the 12th of April. Now, I've asked Lana not to plan anything for that week, but if a patient of mine comes into the ER I need somebody to be there.''

''Well, I guess that Nick, Kayla and I will be able to handle them,'' Lu tells me and I smile at her. ''So, are you looking forward to it?'' She asks me, ''I mean; it's not my intention to pry or anything like that, just wondering.''
I look away for a second. Despite all the things I've talked to her about in the past, it still feels weird to discuss all these private issues with her, ''sure, I'm looking forward to it,'' I tell her but I can feel the smile fade from my face.

''Really? Cause you don't look all that excited,'' she says with an almost worried expression on her face.
''I am! I just...'' I take a deep breath and when I finally feel able to put my thoughts into words I can hear the door open.

''Sorry I'm late,'' Milo tells us as he rushes in and closes the door behind him.
Lu and I stand up so the three of us can go into the exam room, I can feel Milo grab my hand as we do so. I sit down on the exam table with Milo standing next to me as Lu puts her gloves on.

She turns on the ultrasound monitor and squirts some gel on the probe as I watch her. As I lift up my shirt and she puts the probe on there I'm once again surprised by the cold of the gel - like always. However, that fades away when the image comes on the monitor. He has grown a lot since our last sonogram and I can't help but smile before looking over at Milo who is still holding my hand.

''Everything looks good,'' Lu tells us before turning on the speakers and letting us hear the fast heartbeat. She nods slowly before smiling at us, ''sounds good.'' She turns the monitor and speakers back off before turning her attention back at us. ''Can you feel him kick a lot?'' She asks me as she feels my belly to determine how much my uterus has grown.
''Yeah, he barely ever stops,'' I tell her with a small grin.

I put my shirt back down when she's done and wait for her to measure my blood pressure, ''did you get the results of the amnio yet?'' I ask her and I can see Milo's expression change slightly just from the mention of it.
''I got them this morning, they're on my desk now. We can go over them when we're done in here,'' she tells me. ''130/85, A little high but nothing alarming,'' she tells us. ''I'll measure it again next time and we'll just keep a close eye on it.''

I nod as I sit back up a little bit more.
''Okay, we are done in here,'' Lu tells us and we all get up and go back into her office. Milo is still holding my hand as we sit down in the two black chair in the office, waiting for Lu to read the results.

We watch her go through them for a minute and it takes me a few seconds to realize I'm holding my breath. ''No chromosomal problems, normal lung development, no infections, Rh compatibility is normal and just all-round it seems to be going good,'' Lu tells us as she sits back.

''That's a relief,'' I hear Milo saying next to me.
''Do you have any questions?'' Lu asks us as she closes the file and looks back and forth between Milo and I.
We glance over at each other, ''none that I can think of,'' I tell Lu and Milo nods.

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