DISCLAIMER: THE TWILIGHT SAGA IS OWNED BY S.M. – I just like to screw with the characters a little.
I have NO EXPERIENCE IN BDSM and this is a fictional story – it is not politically correct and is meant to be fun! I have a wild imagination and that is what this is – my flight of fantasy as such. Now enjoy!
We ended here:
Bella brushed her teeth and quickly tidied up the bedroom, making sure that there were no clothes lying around. She switched off the lights and slid in between the sheets. She knew that she would have to accept her punishment in the morning, but she felt no anger or resentment about it. She had agreed to be collared and she had agreed to serve her Master. She had messed up and she knew it was another learning curve. She had to know that this new emotion of possessiveness and jealousy had no place in this relationship, but how did she stop it?
Bella felt surprised as she slipped into unconscious sleep. Her last thought was that she would be awake for hours…
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CHAPTER 37
Bella woke up and stretched. She felt wonderfully relaxed and rested. She looked at the bedside clock and saw that it was 7.15 a.m.
She could not believe that she had slept so deeply. Bella got up and made her bed. She moved into the bathroom saw that there was a note stuck into her bathroom mirror. Oh! Dear!
Isabella,
Get dressed in the dressing gown behind the bedroom door and meet me in the kitchen to prepare breakfast. There will be no gym today.
Be downstairs at 8 o'clock - do not be late.
Bella pulled a face at the mirror. Edward didn't sound too pissed off. She thought about what had happened the night before and she smiled at her reflection, yep, she was prepared to take her punishment.
She washed her face and hurried through her ablutions. Bella brushed her hair and pulled it into a high ponytail. Bella took off her sleep pants and top and slipped on the dark blue fleece lined long satin gown that was behind her door.
She tip toed to the door of the Master bedroom (the irony of the name made her smile) and peeked inside, but it was empty.
Bella walked downstairs and saw Edward standing at the kitchen counter cutting up fruit. He looked up and gave her a smirk before he turned his attention back to the task at hand.
"Morning Master," she said and walked over to where he was standing. She reached up and kissed him on the side of his jaw. Edward turned his face quickly and captured her lips in a kiss. He smirked at her and went back to his smoothies.
"Did you sleep well Isabella?" He asked as he added frozen berries and apple slices to the blender.
Bella moved to the fridge and pulled out milk for coffee. She saw that Edward had started the pot.
Bella looked at Edward as he stood with his back to her. He was wearing old, faded jeans that hung low on his hips, with a t-shirt and a v-neck jersey over it. He had pushed the sleeves up to his fore arms. Bella licked her lips as she caught sight of his bare feet. Hmmm… she really was a freak!
Edward chose that moment to turn around and Bella quickly lowered her gaze, while she felt the heat on her cheeks.
"You need to get weighed this morning, Isabella. The scale is in the gym." He said.
Bella gave a sigh and bit her lip. She nodded and made her way downstairs grumbling to herself quietly.
She jumped when she heard Edward's chuckle behind her. Bella felt heat flooding her cheeks.
"Oh come on, Little Girl, it's not that bad!" He said.
Edward stood in front of her and Bella smiled as she saw that she had put on a half a pound.
Edward's disgruntled voice broke the silence, "That's not enough, Isabella. My dad is waiting for you to phone him."
She let out a sigh and walked upstairs to the kitchen. She saw Carlisle and Esme's number on a writing pad on the counter.
Carlisle answered quickly and she could hear the amusement in his voice when Bella greeted him and they exchanged pleasantries.
"Hey, Bella. You sound pissed off enough for me to gather that number one, my son is standing and breathing down your neck and two, and he doesn't think that you've gained enough weight." He said, his voice sounded as if he was grinning.
Bella laughed ruefully and purposefully ignored Edward's frown.
"You have no idea! Anyway so I'm up by half a pound. That's good right?" She said and turned her back as she heard Edward huff.
Carlisle was quiet for a moment. "Hmmm… well it's better than nothing, at least it is a gain, but I think for the next week you should supplement your morning and afternoon snack with an intake of protein in the form of a shake."
Bella pulled a face. She hated protein shakes! They tasted like moldy bread.
"Do I have to? I hate those things! They are disgusting! I can't eat so much Carlisle… it's not my fault…" she whined and felt Edward suddenly whisk the phone from her hand.
Bella glared up at him as he spoke to his father.
"Hey Dad. Yeah, I know, but… that's what I thought too." He arched an eyebrow at her as she crossed her arms across her chest and Edward casually lifted a hand and ran a finger over her collar and shook his head at her.
Bella dropped her hands and put her head down.
Fuck! I should have spoken to Carlisle before he collared me! She thought tuning out of the one sided conversation. Now she would have to do what Carlisle was telling him and Bella knew that she had little to no chance of negotiating around this.
She turned away and set out muesli in bowls, together with a large bowl of yoghurt and another of honey and nuts.
"Isabella!" Edward said loudly.
Bella turned around and glanced at Edward. He was holding the phone out to her. She bit back a sigh and wiped her hands on a dish towel. She took the phone from him and turned her back on him again.
Edward shook his head and brushed past her as he finished adding ingredients to the smoothie. So stubborn! He thought to himself with a smile.
Bella wasn't pleased when she put the phone down. Carlisle had told her that he had made an appointment for her to see his friend the following week and in the meantime she was to follow Edward's orders as Carlisle had told him exactly what to do.
Oh god! Carlisle doesn't know that he has unleashed a monster! Edward in charge means that he will be even bossier and more cocky than normal!
Bella swallowed a few choice words.
Edward set two places at the kitchen table and sat down. Bella gave him a tight smile as she eyed the smoothie wearily as she set his plate before him.
She stood waiting for him to begin eating, but Edward motioned for her to join him. She got her plate and sat down.
Bella didn't look up as she piled nuts and honey onto her yoghurt.
She could feel Edward's eyes boring into her, but she was not going to give him the satisfaction of speaking first, so she kept her eyes down and ignored him.
Edward shook his head again and began to eat. He noticed that Bella kept frowning as she looked at the smoothie that he had made for her.
His father had told him to add protein powder to her morning smoothies. He had also emailed a suggested meal plan which Edward intended to make sure that Bella adhered to. He could see by the set of her mouth and the frown that she wore that Bella was barely holding back her temper.
Bella finished her breakfast and was about to get up to fetch the coffee pot when Edward spoke again.
"You haven't had your smoothie yet, Isabella. I think you should finish that before you have any coffee." He said and Bella's head whipped around to stare at him horrified.
"Be careful, Little Girl." He said softly and Bella heard the Voice warning her.
He's cutting me off from my coffeepot? My god… does his brand of evil know no bounds!
"Just until you drink your smoothie! Are we going to do this the easy way or the hard way, Isabella? It's your choice." His velvet voice was deceptive in its quiet tone.
Bella said nothing as she put down her mug and picked up her glass of… what the fuck was in this anyway?
She closed her eyes and began chanting in her head, do not puke, do not puke, do not puke!
About half way through, Bella's taste buds woke up and she realized that the concoction was actually really, really good.
She lowered the glass and licked her lips. "Hmmm…" she said and drank the rest.
She could taste various berries, but there was an undertone of chocolate as well.
Edward didn't say a word, but he watched how she had scrunched up her nose and eyes as she put the glass to her lips and swallowed as quickly as she could. Bella had almost psyched herself up into a total panic attack. Then when she began to actually taste what he had made her, he watched as the look of disgust and dismay had changed to delight and chagrin as she set the glass down.
Bella's cheeks were tinged pink with chagrin, her eyes stared at the table as she spoke quietly, barely making herself heard, "Thank you Master. That was delicious."
Edward simply held out his coffee mug for her to replenish and she brought the two mugs back to the table. Bella stood staring down as she frowned.
"Do you want to talk about it, Isabella?" He asked.
Bella started to shake her head and then stopped. Honesty – one of her words was honesty. She had made Edward a promise that she would be honest with him, no matter what the consequences.
"You are not my father." She said and Edward's eyebrows shot up into his hairline.
"I know that" he said quietly.
"I feel as if I don't have any control of this weight thing. I've got you checking up on me! Alice and Rosalie phone me every day! Maggie makes me lunch and I take fucking... um I mean darn brown bags to work each day and she threatens to tell you if I don't eat everything! Well it's too much!" The words tumbled out of her mouth as she waved her hands around.
Edward was trying hard not to let his temper flare up, "Isabella…" he warned.
"It's not like I chose this! I'm not anorexic! I don't have an eating disorder! I just need to put on a few pounds! I think you all forget I have been looking after myself for a long time before you all come along! Everyone is making a huge deal out of this and it isn't. I'm not sick and I am definitely not a child! You just need to let me handle this by myself!" Bella finished in a rush.
There was a heavy silence in the kitchen after her tirade. Okay, so I have the honesty thing down pat, but I forgot about the respect and obedience… SHIT!
Edward pursed his lips as he looked down into her rebellious eyes.
So fucking stubborn! It was going to be an interesting Sunday. Had she learned nothing from last night? That smart mouth of hers…
"Fair enough, Isabella. I can see your point, but you are walking a thin line this morning. You need to adjust your fucking attitude." Edward said firmly.
Great, now he's pissed! As if my ass won't be tender enough from last night. Oh fuck it! I am right about this.
She opened her mouth but at the subtle shake of his head and his dark look she closed it again.
Edward stared at the table for a moment, wondering if he should insist that they finish eating, but one look at Bella's insolent glare, rebellious scowl and her quite muttered "Fuck my life…" was enough to make up his mind.
"Playroom, Isabella! NOW!" he growled.
Bella actually gasped at the abruptness of his tone. For a split second she wondered whether she should safe word, but she knew that she would be punished for trying to get out of punishment.
Edward pushed his chair back and Bella turned and swiftly made her way upstairs.
There was so much more that she wanted to say, and for the first time she was impatient for the day to end so that her collar could be removed.
Edward watched her disappear upstairs and with a shake of his head he cleaned up the kitchen slowly. It seemed that Isabella was quite the jealous girlfriend. Her reaction the previous night had proved it. She had to learn though, that as his submissive, she was not to show that she felt threatened. BDSM was a very closed community and if she started trying to dominate him in public, he knew that he would lose credibility and the other subs would resent her.
He thought back to Vanessa cornering him upstairs. She had wanted to know why he had felt the need to collar a submissive when she was freely available. Edward knew that she would swing either way. Edward had told her that Isabella was exceptional. Vanessa had asked if she could witness them together and so he told her that she could be in their presence, but she could not watch them. He knew that she would get off on that. She didn't like to watch, Vanessa preferred not to use her eyes, her specialty was engaging her other senses, smell, touch, sound…
When Bella had come out of the bathroom, Vanessa, together with the other two 'floating' subs, Jennifer and Bridgette were telling Edward how they were so happy that he had found someone of his own. Bridgette had raised a concern that Miss Mandy, who had trained all three girls to be submissive, was worried that Bella was not 'broken in'.
That was the last thing that Edward wanted. He had no desire to break Bella's spirit or her will. She had to give herself to him freely. She had taken so many strides forward and Edward could see every day that she really made an effort. He could see that she felt more and more comfortable in submitting to him and her desire to please him was unparalleled.
The problem came in that sometimes her desire to please him conflicted with her very strong stubborn streak!
But the lady had a temper that spiked at the worst possible times and Edward could see that there were instances, like this morning, when Bella knew what the consequences were and what she was facing, but she just didn't seem to care when her anger took over. It was his job to make her care.
Edward had spent a sleepless night lying in bed without her and he didn't have the heart to wake her up. He had found release by his own hand last night and again this morning. He could feel that his jeans were tight just thinking of her in the playroom.
Edward stood in the doorway and stared at Bella who was kneeling on the floor in perfect pose, naked. She had hung up her robe. Her head was in a low ponytail and her hands were resting in her lap. He walked in and closed the playroom door loudly. Bella jumped slightly.
Edward pulled his jersey and shirt off and wasted no time as he unsnapped his jeans as he walked to stand in front of her.
"Let's put your smart mouth to some good use Isabella." He said and he wove his fingers into her hair, pulling it out of the tie. He fisted it and pulled her towards his crotch.
Bella felt a thrill of excitement. She loved it when Edward was like this! She hadn't deliberately provoked him… or did she? But however it happened, she reveled in Domward!
Bella opened her mouth and Edward wasted no time in pushing his cock into her mouth. Bella was prepared as it hit the back of her throat, even so she felt her eyes water as she gagged; before she forced herself to relax and breathe through her nose.
Edward threw his head back, "Fuuuck! Take it all, Isabella. Put that tongue to good use!" He was still holding fistfuls of Bella's hair. He gripped it tighter as he began to buck his hips to meet her mouth.
Bella could feel her saliva run out of the side of her mouth and down her chin. Her head was starting to get sore from where he was pulling her hair and Edward was showing her no mercy. He was dominating her mouth. He was showing her that there was no mystery as to who was the Dom in this relationship.
Edward felt his release coming closer and he picked up his pace. Bella had to grab onto his hips to keep from falling over. As he was about to cum, Edward pulled back so that his cock lay on her tongue, "Swallow everything! Suck me hard!" He ordered sternly as he shuddered and his cum poured down her throat. Bella struggled to keep up with the strings of cum. When she was sure that he was finished she began to lick his shaft from the base to the tip making sure that it was clean. She winced as his hands were still wound in her hair making it impossible for her to sit down. Bella could feel her muscles taking strain at this angle but she willed herself not to fidget.
Edward came down from his high and he realized that his fists were clenched in Bella's hair. He released her and massaged her scalp to sooth the ache that she must have felt.
Bella lifted a hand and wiped her mouth quickly. She took a shaky breath and sat back on her heels.
She was so aroused by Edward display of dominance, that it scared her a little.
Edward left his jeans unbuttoned and stepped back a step.
"Look at me Isabella." He said and Bella lifted her head. Edward could see how aroused she was and it surprised and pleased him. Bella was growing indeed. There was no hint of fear or trepidation. There were no ill effects of their bad experience from the wax play. He only saw lust, desire, and excitement as she licked her lips and stared at him from heavily lidded eyes.
"You disobeyed me! You disrespected me! You were insolent and rude to a Domme and to other subs! You were argumentative this morning! You refused to eat yesterday evening, after I have given you very specific instructions regarding the care of this body! Do you have anything to say in your defense right now?" Bella was silent and shook her head.
Edward nodded, "Go and climb on the whipping bench. You know the drill – stretch your arms above your head and legs apart. Come on. Don't keep me waiting. You will regret it! You will get ten warm-up strokes with the hand and ten with the paddle. I know that some people would think that I am being lenient on you; maybe I am! But after your little stunts last night maybe fifteen should teach you a lesson. I won't gag you today, you will count for me, and if you stop counting, we will begin again."
Bella had moved over to the whipping bench as Edward was speaking, she climbed up and put her feet in the stirrups on either side of the bench. She stretched her arms above her head. Inside, Bella was furious! How dare Edward say that she deserved to be spanked after what she had done! What about him? Prick! He let someone else kiss him, touch him!
Edward wasted no time in using the shackles that hung from the large rings on the top corners of the bench, to secure her wrists and then her ankles.
Bella turned her face to the side and pressed against the smooth surface of the leather.
Edward spoke again as he let his fingers trail down the contour of her spine, "You will thank me for your discipline when we are finished and you will apologize for everything that you have done wrong this weekend. Do you understand me?"
Edward moved closer and Bella felt him mould his body against hers. His thick, hard cock was pressing against the small of her back he ran his nose and mouth along her shoulders and up her neck, rubbing them into her hair.
Bella nodded and closed her eyes as she felt her juices run down her legs.
"After each count you will say one of your words that you think is appropriate for your actions. Let's begin the warm up." He dropped a kiss into her neck and pull away from her.
Edward was precise with his warm up smacks, never stopping for too long and spreading them out over her cheeks and the backs of her thighs. He could smell her arousal and his cock jerked in protest.
Bella's cum was dripping down her pussy and she could feel its warm slickness on the bench. It was almost too much for Edward. He wanted to bury his face in the junction of her thighs. He was dying to taste her sweet, tangy nectar again, to lap her and make her squirm as he sipped from her core, ignoring the tempting little button, until she screamed from frustration only to suck and nibble until she came in his mouth!
Edward shook his head to clear it. He had a job to do! Fucking get your head out of her cunt and do the fucking job! Don't be such a pussy! Do it already!
Edward checked Bella's ass and saw that it was a delicious pale pink. He ran his hand over her cheeks and heard her sharp intake of breath. Edward couldn't resist and used an index finger to trace down her ass crack and into the pool of juice leaking out of her.
Bella bit her lip. She didn't want to feel so turned on! She didn't want to give him the satisfaction of knowing what he did to her, just by the sound of his voice, just by allowing her to get him off with her hands and her mouth!
He fetched the paddle, "Ten strokes, Isabella, remember count and I want to hear one of your words!" He said loudly.
The crack of the paddle gave Bella a fright and she yelped as she instinctively bucked her hips to avoid the smack. Edward threw the paddle down and stormed around to face her.
"What the fuck was that? You know better than to move when you are being disciplined, Isabella! Do you fucking want me to hurt you?" He shouted at her and she flinched away from the harsh tone.
"I'm sorry, okay! I wasn't ready!" She said and Edward's hand shot out and he smacked her ass hard.
"OW!" she shouted.
"Enough!" he said and Bella heard him moving around, throwing things out of the drawers.
Edward came back and put what felt like a stiff leather belt around her waist, except that it was about two inches across. He clipped the 'belt' on either side of her onto O-rings on either side of the bench. Bella was immobile. She could barely turn her head.
Edward picked up the paddle. "Begin again and you have earned yourself and additional five with my hand! And that makes fifteen!"
This time Bella braced herself.
THWACK!
FUCKING HELL!
"One! Honor!"
THWACK!
BLOODSUCKING BALLS!
"Two! Respect!"
THWACK!
BASTARDS!
"Three! Obedience!"
Bella stopped fighting the pain and allowed herself to push into it. She found that as she did so, the punishment made sense. Edward was her Master and she had deliberately set about disobeying him. She felt a pain in her heart that had nothing to do with her ass and thighs. Bella felt the tears slide down her cheeks.
On and on her punishment went, each time she willed herself to embrace the pain, to find solace in the fact that her Master loved her enough to correct her mistakes.
It wasn't working. She closed her eyes to see red talons on his green shirt, red lips' kissing his mouth, his lips molding themselves to someone else's…
At ten, Edward threw down the paddle and flexed his arm. He had not been soft on Bella and his shoulder felt it. He walked into the bathroom and wet a face cloth with warm water he carried it inside and opened a bottle of water before drank deeply from it. Edward walked to Bella and put the bottle to her lips. Bella shook her head and turned her face to the other side. Edward took hold of her chin.
"Open your eyes, Little Girl." He said and he waited for Bella to open her eyes. They were red and puffy, and her nose was running. She had not made a sound other than to let out little whimpers between smacks, and counting, with saying an appropriate word.
Edward picked up the damp face cloth and gently wiped her eyes and nose. He kept hold of her chin. Bella's eyes showed her sorrow and anguish and Edward had to harden his heart to continue with her punishment.
"You need to drink, Isabella." He said sternly and Bella obediently opened her mouth and drank some of the liquid.
Edward put the bottle down, Bella's eyes were closed again and he saw the tears running down her cheeks silently. He brushed the side of her face with his finger. "Five with my hand, Isabella. You will resume counting on ten."
Bella nodded.
SMACK!
"Agh! Eleven… Safe Words" Bella's voice rang out.
SMACK!
"Twelve! Honor." Her voice was thick with unshed tears.
SMACK!
"Thirteen… Submit" Edward inwardly cringed at the sadness in her voice.
SMACK!
"Fourteen… Love" she whispered.
Edward heard the pain and sorrow in her voice and he knew that she finally got it. This was what he had set out to achieve, her repentant heart, not a broken spirit.
He steeled himself for a last smack of his hand.
"Fifteen… Trust" Bella said through her sobs.
Edward could see how red and slightly raised the skin of her ass was. He used the hand that he had not struck her with to graze her reddened skin. His hand was cool and Bella hissed as it made contact and soothed her tender skin.
Edward stroked his fingers over her hip. He could see the welt forming where the restraining belt was digging into her soft skin and he winced. Edward undid the buckles and let the belt fall to the floor. He knelt down and untied her ankles. Edward ignored her as he unclipped her wrists. Bella struggled to stand up but Edward stopped her.
"Move down on the bench." He directed and Bella could hear the desire in his voice. She obeyed.
Bella made a decision as she did so. She was going to teach Edward a lesson. He ran a gentle hand over her tender skin and Bella bit back a hiss.
"You are so wet for me, Isabella." He said and she felt his cock nudge her core. Edward was trying to go easy on her, he was trying not to hurt her; he wanted her to learn that she belonged to him. Her body and the orgasms it produced and enjoyed were his to give. The thought excited him and he picked up speed.
Bella was ready to scream at him! She kept her eyes closed but all she saw was Miss Mandy grabbing her face, the triplets and Vanessa as she watched Edward arousing her, dominating her!
Edward was close and her felt Bella clench around his arousal. "Cum, for me! Cum Now!" he shouted. Bella felt him shoot his cum deep inside her, but she was dammed if she would obey this time! She felt the sweat break out on her lip as she held her climax back.
Edward stopped moving. What the fuck?
He knew that Bella was close to her orgasm and yet she had not allowed herself to cum. He could hear her panting with the effort of holding back.
He pulled out of her "What the fuck? Isabella? What are you doing?" He was hurt and then pissed off. What was this?
Bella turned her head and stared at him.
"Are we done, Master?" she asked in defeated tone.
Edward just stared at her. Stubborn, stubborn Little Girl!
"Yes, go and get into the hot tub… don't fucking argue with me just do it!" he snapped as she opened her mouth to say that she would prefer to shower – alone.
Bella slid off the bench and walked into the bathroom without looking at Edward. Edward pulled his hair with one hand as he sighed and followed her.
The hot tub was full and swirling as he stepped carefully into the water and sat down. Bella knelt on the seat adjacent to Edward and crossed her arms on the side of the tub, and rested her head on her arms.
Edward picked up one of the bottles of water that he had put on the side of the tub and opened it. "You need to drink some water" Edward said and held it out to her. Bella took the water from him and drank half the bottle before she set it down.
Edward spread his legs out in front of him and sank down into the water; he closed his eyes and ran his hands through his hair.
He was drained. Emotionally, mentally and physically, he was drained.
Bella shifted again. Her bottom was tender but not sore, and she knew that she wasn't bruised. She tentatively turned around and sat down very carefully. Fuck! She looked at him but in that moment Bella didn't see his beauty. She saw the weariness in the lines in his forehead and around his mouth. She could feel the tension rolling off him.
"Master, can we talk? Um, is this still a free zone?" she asked.
Edward opened his eyes and sat up. He nodded, "Not here, let's go downstairs. I need to put cream on your ass." He said quietly and got out of the tub.
He handed her two towels. Bella wrapped one around her hair and the other around her body.
Edward dried off quickly and tucked the towel around his hips.
He held out his hand and Bella put her small one into his.
They walked through the playroom. Bella noticed that it was a mess where Edward had pulled equipment out of the drawers. She would clean it up later.
They went downstairs into their bedroom.
"Go and lie on the bed, Little Girl, I'll get the lotion for your ass and legs." Edward said.
Bella dropped her towel and put it onto the comforter and lay face down on top of it.
Edward pulled on a pair of sweat pants and came back with the cooling lotion. He knelt down next to Bella and poured a little into his hands.
"Okay, you talk while I work. This is a free zone and you can feel free to express yourself. Remember to do it respectfully." He cautioned as he looked at the feint marks from the belt. He started to smooth his palms over her skin.
"Well, I was just so mad at that Miss Mandy or whatever her name is! I didn't like the way that she manhandled you, acting as if she had a right to kiss you and touch you like that! I'm not a jealous person, Ed, I mean, Master, but she… well, I didn't like it!" Bella tried to turn over, but Edward stilled her movement.
"Lie still!" he ordered.
Bella huffed and lay back down. The calm that she had felt in the tub was gone and she felt irritated again.
Edward was still smoothing cream onto her pink cheeks and thighs.
"Can you talk about this to me without freaking out?" he asked and Bella bit her lip to stop herself from saying something she would regret.
"I'll try Master." She said.
"What else?" he prompted.
"The three bitches? What the fuck was that about? Vanessa kneeling at your feet, while you… while we…" This time Bella moved away from Edward and she turned over, completely forgetting that she was naked.
She was glaring at him.
"Isabella…" he said.
"Okay, I'm sorry. Please can you explain this to me?" Bella was trying to hold onto her temper. She knew that it had no place in this room.
Edward ran his hand over his face. Fuck, being a Dom was hard work. He would never make fun of Jasper or Garrett again when they said that they needed down time!
He opened his eyes and looked into Bella's worried brown orbs. He knew that she was worried that she had overstepped again. He knew that she was worried that he would think that she was not worth the effort. Edward forced himself to relax, knowing that it would help ease her worry if she knew that he wasn't angry with her.
Edward took hold of Bella's hands. "Isabella, I need to explain this to you and you need to hear what I am saying. I am your Dominant. You are my submissive, do you understand that?" Bella nodded.
"Okay, so I don't have to ask your permission to interact with other Doms or subs. I will not play with anyone else Bella! I promised you that! Keep in mind I will talk to whomever I please. You have agreed to submit to me. That means that you follow the rules that I have set for you. You agree to this every time I collar you. I collar you, Little Girl! Last night, I asked you if you would be willing to let me try something and you agreed. I gave you a choice not an order. Vanessa asked me about you and she gets off on being around other people when they are getting off.
"I was not going to make a big scene about it and she wasn't watching. She was telling me that she thought you were good for me when you came out of the bathroom. They are friends of mine and they are concerned that you aren't ready for this lifestyle. You trying to stake your claim on me; was completely out of line. These people expect submissives to behave in a certain way Isabella and if you can't then we will not go again." Edward was speaking calmly, trying to convey the sincerity of his words.
"Why did you disobey me in the playroom when I told you to cum?" He asked and Bella looked down at her hands.
She shrugged, "I'm not sure…"
Edward was silent staring at her.
"That's not good enough answer, Isabella! You do know! Stop being so fucking stubborn all the time!"
Bella moved across the bed, away from him. She couldn't think straight!
"You hurt my feelings last night! You acted as if I didn't matter… like they could say whatever they wanted! I had to stand there and just take it! You let them touch you and kiss you! How would you feel if it was me? How would you feel if I allowed some other man or woman to kiss me, touch me or you?" And finally, Bella is being honest about what's really going on in her head, Edward thought with relief.
He was frustrated that it had taken fifteen smacks and withheld orgasms to get her to really open up, but at least she had!
"I can't do this right now; I need to get some perspective on this. I feel like last night was one big mind fuck!" she said and quickly walked into the dressing room, ignoring him when he called her name.
"ISABELLA! STOP!" he shouted, putting his hands out as if to stop her.
She turned to look at him. She knew that she was going to burst into tears at any moment and she really needed not to do that in front of Edward.
"What?" she asked.
Edward moved to stand on the side of the bed. "Don't do this. Do not walk away from me! We need to talk this out. Don't ever use sex or your orgasms as a weapon against me... that's… that's bullshit! What color are you right now?"
Bella felt her jaw drop, "WHAT? RED OKAY! Right now, I'm fucking red! You use sex all the time, Master! You just look at me, touch me or talk to me and my body responds to you! It's like I don't have any control anymore, not even over my own body! BDSM is all about sex, will and submission, like Miss Mandy said, "Maybe, I should be broken in…."
Bella bit her lip and walked into the dressing room. She blindly grabbed a pair of grey yoga pants and a t-shirt, not bothering with underwear.
She came back into the bedroom where Edward stood where she had left him.
"I'm not walking away from you or this… I just need to get some perspective on what happened and where we are… I need you to take my collar off, please Master." She said quietly.
They stared at each other.
Edward motioned with his hand for her to turn around; Bella felt tears leak out of her closed eyes as he removed her collar. She was biting her lip so hard that she tasted blood. Bella's hand reached up and she touched the empty space where the heavy heart hung.
Edward knew that he had to have patience with her, this was a lesson that was not going to be easy for Bella to learn, but there were certain practices that she was going to have to accept if she wanted this lifestyle.
He pulled her back against his chest and wrapped his arms around her middle. Bella clutched his arms as the tears fell faster.
"I love you, Baby." He said as he kissed the back of her neck.
"You do NOT need to be broken in, Bella. That's the last thing that I would ever want to happen. I will never let anyone break you! I love your spirit and your independence. I love your feistiness and your temper, Baby. I know that we have lots to learn, but I will never, NEVER give up on you, Bella Swan. You are it for me." Edward said against her neck.
Bella felt her anger subside just as suddenly as it arose. She felt terrible. She didn't want Edward to choose between her and being amongst his friends. He had so few people in his life that he could trust with the knowledge of his lifestyle in any case. And if they wanted to grow as a couple, Bella knew that she would have to interact with other people. If truth were told she wanted to have friends where she and Edward didn't have to hide their alternative lifestyle.
"Edward, I am sorry. I just didn't expect to come face to face with other women who… knew you… like that. I don't know what I thought, but I just didn't expect them to be right… there in my face… I want to try! I really do, but I don't know how to fix this." Bella felt tears well up in her eyes and she brushed them away.
Bella turned and looked up into Edward's eyes. "Please have patience… I'm sorry…." She whispered.
Edward brushed his thumb over her cheek and wiped a tear from her skin. He wasn't giving up on her.
"Baby, you have already apologized and it's over. You accepted you punishment. I have forgiven you. There is nothing that you can do to make me stop loving you Isabella. We just went a bit too quickly, that's all. This lifestyle isn't easy, Bella. We have bumped our heads enough times to know this." He kissed her mouth gently.
"I need to sleep. I am finished, do you want to join me?" he asked as he reluctantly let her move out of his arms. Bella watched him as he changed from his sweat pants into cotton sleep pants.
Bella shook her head, "I'm going to head upstairs. I need to clean up the playroom and then I want to spend some time in my studio. I'll see you later?"
Edward nodded, "Don't forget to have your snack, okay?"
Bella rolled her eyes and nodded. "Okay"
After a moment Bella walked to the door as Edward climbed onto the bed and stretched out.
"Edward?"
He opened his eyes and stared at her. There was so much hanging in the air that they hadn't said.
"Yeah?" his voice sounded… defeated.
"I love you so much, even though I've ruined our weekend," she said and before he could answer, she was gone.
Edward sighed and reached for his cell phone, "Garrett, have you got a moment? I need some advice about Isabella…"
Edward told Garrett everything that had happened and how their session had ended. Garret was annoyed that Edward had given Bella so much leeway and assured him that consistency was as crucial to their relationship as all of the other cornerstones. Garrett was pleased that Edward had sought his advice before reacting to Bella out of anger. He arranged to see Edward on Monday morning to talk about it.
Edward said goodbye and layback down.
He closed his eyes and sighed.
They were going to be okay. They had to be okay.
****~~~~PLU~~~~****
Bella sat in the playroom. She had clean and scrubbed and sterilized every surface. The linens on the bed had been changed and the bed was remade. Bella had cleaned the bathroom from top to bottom, washing out the hot tub and scrubbing the shower.
The dirty linens and clothes were in a hamper by the door, ready to go downstairs. Bella sat in one of the chairs with her feet up. Her tears were long dried. Bella had thought about the night before in painstaking detail.
Bella had given Edward permission to push her. He had given her ample opportunity to safe word or to protest throughout the evening and she hadn't. It wasn't because she was afraid to say 'no'. She trusted Edward with her life. The real truth was embarrassing for her to admit to herself, never mind to Edward, but she had to.
The truth was that she had enjoyed what they had done. She loved giving herself over to Edward so completely. Bella also knew that in doing so she couldn't keep giving and taking back all the time. She was his. Completely, but that also scared her. She was afraid that he would use her submission against her. She was frightened by the fact that her body responded to him without question, without caring when or how he chose to use it.
Bella was changing and she could feel it. Edward woke something inside of her. It was as if he had opened something inside of her and she couldn't lock it away or deny its existence any more. Bella realized that she was like a lotus flower that started at the bottom of a pond in the mud and muck, that slowly grew up towards the water surface, always moving toward the light. Once Bella broke through the surface of the murky water she began to blossom and turn into this beautiful flower. Bella now understood that Edward was the sun. For years Bella had believed that she was twisted, sick, disgusting for feeling the way she did. Being with Edward was making her realize that this side of her could be beautiful, satisfying and fulfilling.
She had to relearn who she was now at this time and not the shadow of the mud and murky water of that, was now in the past.
Perhaps Edward had pushed her too far, but she had wanted it! Freaking out about it afterwards was childish, even though it was understandable. What am I so afraid of? Failing, not being good enough. I can change that, Bella thought.
Bella had made a promise to herself and to Edward to always tell him the truth and she had done that. Now it was time to make another promise to herself and later, she would tell Edward of her decision. She was going to begin learning how to be the best submissive that she could for Edward. She was going to commit to this, no matter what she had to do. This was not just for Edward's benefit, but also for hers. She was going to fully embrace what it meant to be Edward's submissive.
She knew that he had been easy and lenient on her. The way she had spoken to him today should have been enough to land her back in the playroom with a ball gag and thirty lashes, but he had let it go! He couldn't keep doing that either. He had to stick to the rules that he had! If it meant that she had a sore ass every weekend, then so be it!
Bella finally felt at peace. She regretted that it had taken last night and the morning to figure it out and that she had hurt him, but she could move forward now that she knew what she was doing.
Bella spent the next hour in her bedroom on the Internet. She found tons of information, but was very confused bythe conflicting information that she got. Bella picked up her phone and called Garrett and Kate.
She asked Garrett if Kate could help her in finding some information on the net. Garrett was only too happy to pass the phone over to his wife.
Kate was thrilled that Bella wanted to learn and she quickly gave her a couple of websites that were reliable. She also promised to drop some reading material off in the morning. Bella didn't even know that there was material that she could read. Kate laughed and she told Bella that every submissive went through 'growing pains'.
Kate said that she was starting her off with a book called: Training With Miss Abernathy: A Workbook for Erotic Slaves and Their Owners as well as The good Dominant.
They talked for a while longer and Kate told Bella that they were having a Shibari class during the week. Bella was excited about that and said that she would tell, um… ask, Edward.
****~~~~PLU~~~~****
Bella went downstairs and put a load of washing in the machine. Next she set about making a late lunch. She made chicken casserole, rice with mixed vegetable and a salad. She made herself a protein milk shake and opened a bottle of wine.
Once everything was ready, she checked the clock and was shocked to see that it was after 4 p.m.!
Bella went upstairs and saw that Edward was out of bed. She heard the shower running and as much as she wanted to join him, she knew that sex wasn't what they needed.
Bella made up the bed and tidied the bedroom and sitting room. When she finished, she sat on the loveseat waiting for Edward to finish up in the bathroom.
Edward walked into the dressing room and Bella watched how he idly towel dried his hair, while he had a towel wrapped around his hips.
Bella could feel herself beginning to drool; he really is the most beautiful man in the world.
Edward pulled on a t-shirt and an old pair of jeans, not bothering with underwear. He glanced in the mirror and ran a hand over his cheek, he should shave, but he really didn't feel like it. He saw a slight movement behind him and saw Bella sitting on the loveseat staring at him. She had her legs curled up and she was playing with her hair as her hot gaze stared at his back. He smirked to himself, and turned to face her.
"Hey, Baby." He said and Bella's eyes quickly looked down as her blush tinged her cheeks.
She smiled and looked at him, "Hey. I came up to wake you for something to eat, but you were in the shower."
"You could have joined me." He said and his smile became a grin, as Bella blushed even more, confirming that she was very turned on right now.
Bella rolled her eyes and got up, walking towards him. "Believe me, I was really tempted to, but I thought that we should eat first and I need to talk to you this evening, if that's okay?" her statement came out as a question.
She stopped in front of him and her hands reached out tentatively to rest gently on his chest. She was biting her lip and Edward could see how she was worrying her lip. He reached out and pulled with his thumb.
Bella took a deep breath, "Edward, I …" she started but he interrupted her.
"Shh, not now, Baby, let's eat, and then we will talk."
Bella nodded in relief when he pulled her against his body and kissed her, slipping his tongue into her mouth, showing her without words that they were fine.
He pulled away and kissed her forehead, "Come on, feed me Woman!" he growled and Bella giggled.
Edward made sure that Bella was relaxed throughout dinner. He opened a bottle of wine and as they ate, Edward talked about his next project with Garrett. Bella could hear that he was excited about it and Edward was pleased that she asked so many questions about the reasoning behind each project that he took on and how he got into each role. He loved that she was so genuinely interested in learning about his work.
Bella watched Edward as he began to explain something to her. She could see that he loved the world of making movies. He took care in preparation and took pride in delivering the best possible performance that he could. She loved that he cared for the people that followed his career and seemed genuinely puzzled by all the fuss that surrounded him. Bella teased him about having been voted the world's sexiest man and laughed out loud when he blushed.
Once dinner was over, Edward suggested going into the den. He lit a fire and turned the lights down. He put some classical music on and poured them each a glass of port as Bella followed with a tray of coffee.
Edward had pulled all the pillows off the couches and arranged them in front of the fireplace.
Bella put the tray on the low coffee table and sat down on the floor facing him. Edward handed her the glass of port and he raised his glass in a toast. Bella raised her hand and cocked a brow at him.
"To us… our life together… all of our life, Bella the good and the bad." Edward said. Bella felt tears well up in her eyes at the love and sincerity in his voice.
"To us…" she echoed and their glasses touched.
They took a sip of the dark liquid and Edward laughed as Bella pulled a face as she swallowed.
"Aaaagh! I'm sorry, Edward, but that is gross!" she said and quickly put her glass down. She poured herself a mug of coffee and took a sip to mask the taste of the alcohol.
"May I…"
"Do you…"
They chuckled as they both spoke at the same time.
Edward nodded his encouragement, "You first, Baby." He said gently and picked up her hand that was lying in her lap. He gently rubbed his thumb over her skin and Bella felt her nerves settle.
"Um, I know that it's over and all, but I really need to talk about what happened last night and this morning. First of all, I behaved horribly last night, and I'm really sorry for that. I deserved all of my punishment and more. The lines between girlfriend and sub crossed and I reacted like your girlfriend and not you're submissive. I realize that I've got so much to learn about our lifestyle and I really want to. I am going to make a promise to you, like I did with learning to be honest with you."
She looked up and saw that Edward was nodding and smiling at her.
"So, my promise is this: I'm going to study to become a good sub, well the best sub that I can. I've already spoken to Kate, and she has promised to mentor me. She has given me the names of a couple websites that she uses; she has guaranteed that oddballs do not run them. Kate is also coming over tomorrow to give me some reading materials and we are going to have our first lesson."
Bella leaned forward and clasped Edward's hand in hers.
"I am serious as a heart attack about this, Edward. I want to be the best submissive that you have ever had. I want to reflect your great teaching as a Dom and not my bad manners or stubbornness; I want to go with you to the next play party and have other Doms see that you didn't make a mistake with me, that I can make you proud. I trust you, Edward, as my Master and as my boyfriend."
Bella brushed a stray tear away and carried on quickly, because she knew that she had to get all of this out in the open.
"I… I enjoyed um, what you… what we, um did last night. I wanted to do that and honestly, it scared me a little. I didn't think that I was like that. An exhibitionist, but, I liked the fact that someone was watching us, smelling my arousal…" Bella was blushing furiously, but she ignored it.
"From when I was fifteen and these feelings made themselves known, I believed that there was something wrong with me. When things happened with Jacob, I was convinced that it was my fault because I was a freak. Now, with you, I'm realizing that I'm not a freak and my feelings are valid. It's like all these things are running around in my brain and I know that I'm sending out mixed signals to you, but I want this, with you." Bella stopped talking and quickly drank her coffee, looking anywhere but at Edward.
Edward could feel himself beaming. He was so fucking proud of Bella. She didn't see herself clearly at all. She didn't realize how much she had grown and changed in the past three months. She had so much more confidence in herself and in their relationship.
"There is just one thing more that I need to say. I know that Miss Mandy or Vanessa and those other women have known you in the past, and maybe in the biblical sense. You are my boyfriend and my Dom, it's NOT okay for you to allow them or anyone for that matter, to kiss you or touch you, unless you and I have an agreement or a signal of some sort, that either it's okay or it's not." She was clutching Edward's hand tightly almost as if she was afraid that he would pull away from her or reject her.
"Bella, look at me Sweetheart." Bella looked at him. She wasn't sure what reaction to expect, but the smile on his face wasn't one of them.
Edward moved to pour himself a mug of coffee. He sat back down with his back against the couch and his legs stretched out in front of him and crooked his finger at Bella, "Come closer, Baby, you're too far away". He said with a smirk.
Bella turned and sat in-between his legs with her legs over his.
"Okay, let's deal with the issue that's really worrying you… the women at the play party. First of all, Miss Mandy is like the resident 'sub training Domme'. She is really harmless! She flirts with every man and tries to dominate all the subs and the Doms! She is also only interested in girls." He said with a hint of humor in his voice which turned to a chuckle when Bella's eyes got as big as saucers.
"You mean Miss Mandy…" she said.
Edward nodded, "Yes, she is very happily gay and so she is no threat to me. Believe me when I say that I will break her fingers, if she touches you again." Edward's face showed Bella he was serious.
"Miss Mandy knows better than to touch another Dom's sub and I made sure that she knows that, okay?" he said and Bella nodded, relieved.
"As for Vanessa, Bridgette and Jennifer, they are three 'floaters.' They currently don't have full time or permanent Doms and they will either play with whoever is there and wants to play or whoever doesn't have a permanent submissive, like Jasper and I were."
Bella's eyes flashed in anger and Edward just shook his head at her. "Isabella as your Dom and your boyfriend, I have played with them, but there was no emotional attachment from either side, that I promise you. And I agree that we should and will have a signal for when it gets too much for you and I will not play with any of them again."
Bella let out the breath that she had been holding in, "Okay." She whispered.
Edward brushed a strand of hair from her cheek and tucked it behind her ear. "I meant every word that I said to you this afternoon. I love you. I love everything and I mean everything about you. I know that you are having a tough time right now, submitting to my will. I am so honored that you want to go into training, Bella. Kate will be a great teacher and you will learn a lot from her. I would like to suggest that we read the material together, if that's okay with you?"
Bella nodded.
"Also, thank you for being honest about last night. I know that took a lot of courage." He smiled at her tenderly, "I can bring you so much pleasure, Bella. I understand your past experience was not the best introduction into this lifestyle and has frightened you, but you have to understand that I am not him, I would never hurt you like him, and I will never let anyone ever hurt you like that again. We both know that this journey isn't going to be easy, but it's worth it to me, and I think it is to you as well."
"It is", Bella confirmed.
"We can talk about going to another play party when you are feeling better and able to handle whatever may happen. One of the things we do need to do is work on some protocols, that you feel happy and safe with before the next play party, that's all." Edward said gently, smiling at Bella. She gave him a sad half smile in return.
"I think that we should take it slowly. We will invite Jazz, Ali, Garrett and Kate over this week and they can give us some ideas, okay?" Bella smiled at this and nodded.
"I think that's a great idea, but Kate said that they are having a Shirabi lesson, I said that I would ask you if we could go." Bella said and Edward was glad when he saw the sadness fading from her eyes.
He put his mug down and took Bella's from her and put it on the table as well.
"Does that excite you, Bella? The thought of me tying you up, making your skin pink, hypersensitive, and bringing you to orgasm over and over… does that excite you?" Edward asked quietly.
Dear sweet baby Buddha! You can recite the Gettysburg Address and it will excite me!
Bella went scarlet as Edward laughed out loud and said, "The Gettysburg Address, Baby?"
Fucking filter! Bella rolled her eyes and shrugged.
Edward's eyes darkened "Now, enough talking. I have wanted to do this." He kissed her mouth, "And this," he kissed her cheek, "And this," Bella moaned as his lips found the side of her neck just under her ear.
Bella turned her head and her lips captured Edward's in a fierce kiss. She wove her fingers into the hair at the back of his neck and crossed her feet in the small of his back. Edward's hands ran up and down her sides and back. He pulled her closer and Bella felt his hard length pressing up against her hot, wet core. Edward pushed her backwards and Bella fell back onto the cushions. Edward came after her, pressing his body against hers,
"I believe that make up sex is the best, Baby." He said as he kissed her neck and moved her t-shirt up her stomach with his hand as his other one dipped into her yoga pants.
Bella giggled, "All sex with us is the best. Now take these fucking jeans off, please!"
They were undressed and back on the cushions within seconds. Edward's fingers pinched her nipples, twisting them slightly, "Will you give yourself to me, Baby? Will you let yourself go for me? Please…" he whispered against her skin as his mouth covered her nipple and his hand moved down to her Mons. He slipped a finger into her slit, where he felt how wet she was for him.
"Yes… I'm sorry… about… oh fuuuuck… please, Edward, take me…" Bella was nipping at his throat, sucking on his shoulder. She wanted to mark him, to make him hers again.
"Bella, I need to be inside you…" he lined his aching cock up and at her nod he pushed inside her, not stopping until he was fully encased in her slickness and heat.
They moaned against each other's mouth. The intensity was almost too much. Edward stilled for a moment and held Bella's hips as she tried to move.
"…wait a moment, Baby" he urged and Bella knew that he needed to regain his control.
They stared into each other's eyes as their lips met softly, gently over and over.
"I love you, Bella." Edward said as he looked into her warm, trusting eyes.
"I love you so much". She replied as she framed his face with her hands.
Edward rolled his hips against hers and Bella's eyes rolled back into her head with the intensity of the sensation. Edward set a steady rhythm, moving deep and slowly. Bella moved with him, matching his movements with her own.
"Faster… Edward, faster…" she panted.
Edward began to drive his cock deep inside her, picking up his pace. Bella clutched his back almost bringing herself off the floor.
"So close…" she said and Edward gripped her hips as he pulled her higher, hitting her g-spot with each thrust.
"OH GOD! OH!…" Bella shouted and Edward moved one hand between them to rub her clit with his fingers, pinching it slightly and sending Bella spiraling into a climax.
He pulled out of her as she came down from her orgasm.
"Turnover! On your hands and knees!" He said and Bella quickly obeyed.
She looked over her shoulder at him, "Can you pull my hair a bit…" she bit her lip as she wiggled her ass in front of him.
Edward grinned and smacked her ass. "Your wish is my command…" he said darkly and moved behind her. He smacked her ass again and Bella felt how her nipples pebbled at the sensation.
Edward's cock filled her in one movement. He took hold of a fistful of her tresses and his other hand slid around her stomach and he began to rub her clit.
"Can you feel me filling your sweet pussy, Bella? Can you feel each inch of my hard cock inside of you? Fuck, you feel so good, Baby. You're so hot, so wet for me… tell me" he said and Bella felt her insides begin to spiral into that familiar tension again.
"Only you Edward, only you can do this to me. Only your cock can make me so wet, Baby. I love you. Your cock… is stretching me, filling me, making me cum again… Edward…" she was panting.
Edward pounded into her and Bella felt herself begin to clench around him. Edward moved faster and harder and Bella screamed her release, her arms were shaking so hard that she collapsed onto the pillows.
Edward felt her walls clenching, releasing, milking his cock and his orgasm was swift and powerful. Edward fell forward onto Bella's back and they lay there gathering the strength to move.
Edward rolled to one side, bringing Bella with him. He cradled her in his arms.
"Wow…" he said and Bella started to giggle.
"What?" he asked.
"Well, that's normally my line." She said.
"Are you cold?" he asked as his hands ghosted over her shoulders and down her back.
"No, I don't want to move right now. Do you?" she asked as her fingers stroked his scalp.
Edward closed his eyes, "No… that feels so good." He said.
Bella put her head on his chest and sighed.
When they were almost asleep, Edward roused himself and gently rolled Bella off his chest.
"Nooooo" she pouted.
He got up and picked her up in his arms.
"Wait, we need to clean this up… Maggie…" Bella protested half heartedly.
"Maggie knows that we make love, Bella. Let's go to bed." He said and he switched off the lights as he walked upstairs.
END CHAPTER
A/n: I hope you liked it – let me know. Thanks for the review and a special thanks to the champion of Beta's my Fee – who butchered this baby and made me rewrite it and then she chopped it some more and then made it twice as good!
So, they cleared the air…
Love till next time
Michele (justginger/peoplelikeus/justginger007)