I was having a real hard time focusing on the paperwork today. The summer weather was just so tempting, but I would feel guilty leaving the office. There's lots of paperwork that's due on the 1st which is coming up soon. So I settled on just sitting at my desk and letting my mind wander. I reflected on my new acquaintance Matsumoto-san. We've enjoyed a few lunches together at this point. She has a peculiar taste in food.
She said something that got me thinking. Something about having a feeling you can't pin down. Like things went this way before, or that you knew that this was going to happen and if you had remembered what was on the tip of your tongue, you could change everything. Hopefully for the better. I would say they're like echoes resounding still from your last life. But as you grow older here, they become fainter.
It made me wonder, what were my previous lives like? Was I like how I am right now? Did it affect who I am now? I don't remember much of anything from my last life in the real world. Would remembering help me? I'm content with how things are going currently. Saimitsu and I have been working hard, I've been meeting new people, I am good at my job and I serve a decent captain. There have been days where things have been tough, but I cannot find fault with my circumstances.
Could Saimitsu be someone I knew in a previous life? If he was, was he important to me? I would think that he was because my soul takes his form. I must have cared a great deal about him if Saimitsu, a reflection of my soul in the next life, resembles him.
Today really wasn't as productive as I hoped. Much more speculative and thoughtful though. I've also gotten the feeling that Matsumoto-san is lazy like Taicho. I hope today wasn't evidence of either of their personalities rubbing off on me. I really have too much paperwork to get done.
A/N: eh, not a fabulous chapter, I actually switched it with another cause it didn't fit quite right. And I apologize for those have gotten used to longer chapters. I have to get up wicked early tomorrow so I cut my writing time a bit short. (Maybe I'll disobey myself and write that side story I've been thinking of)
On another note, I keep all of the finished chapters in one document and today I checked how long Nanao's book is so far. 28 solid pages single spaced and no spaces between paragraphs! wow! I wonder if she'll get to 100....