Chapter 38
It was early morning and Jax woke up with Tara entangled in his own body. He looked down at her and the peace she had on her face as she slept hurt Jax because he knew all to well in the next few moments he was going to destroy it. He needed his wife back, he needed Tara to be herself and not Gemma. He needed her to go back to school. He needed Tara to remember all the promises she made to herself. He had to hurt her to keep her and the dread was building up inside. It was now or never...
"Tara, Babe." Jax whispered. Kissing the top of her forehead pushing her hair out of her face.
"Mmhmm." Tara stirred in her sleep.
"Babe, you awake we need to talk." Jax voice was crackling in fear. He feared very little but this scared him. There was two endings to this and one he did not like at all. He would push Tara too far and she would be gone from him forever or they would have some hard times and in the end be stronger.
"Yea, Babe I am up." Tara grumbled as she sat up rubbing her eyes. "Whats going on?"
"We have a problem!" Jax breathed out as if he was trying to catch his breath.
"Is everything okay?" Tara was now more awake.
"Babe, its you. You are so focused on SAMCRO and our family you have forgotten you." Jax jumped in. "You are turning into Gemma and I don't want my mother in my bed. I think we need space. I think you need to find you."
"Jackson, I don't understand?" Tara cried, "We don't need a break!" Tara was now standing up in protest. Anger and hurt fueling every word. "Jackson, what has gotten into you. You just going to leave your wife and kids. You are going to abandon us." Tara wanted to hurt him.
"That's not fair." Jax protested back. "Tara I love you and I love our kids but you are turning into Gemma. You stopped caring about who you are, you stopped caring about what you want. Go back to school Tara." Jax said as he pulled his pants on. "Don't abandon yourself and your kids because that's what you are doing. You give up on you, you give up on me and whats worse you are giving up on our kids." Jax tried to hurt her hoping she would give up and see his point. He grabbed his kut and walked out the door.
"WE ARE NOT DONE HER JACKSON!" Tara screamed down the hall as the front door slammed shut. "Damn you Jackson." Tara cried out loud in her now empty home. This conversation was not over and both Tara and Jackson knew this and Jax knew he had to push Tara away and it would have to be big. He knew she would follow him to the club house and he knew just how to push her hard enough to push her away.
Jax walked into the club house and found the closet sweet butt and took her back to his apartment. She started to kiss his neck and Jax was so filled with disgust but knew this was the only was to push Tara from the club. He rationalized that he had to do this to save his wife. The sweet butt slowly made her was to her knees and began blowing Jax. He heard her coming and a his eyes began to water knowing the look on her face that was about to happen.
"Jax, babe we need to..." Tara began opening the door to become frozen in horror. She turned around slammed the door. Jax pushed the crow eater of his dick and zipped up.
"Shit," The hurt was too much to bare. Jax chased Tara down the hall, through the bar stopping as Tara took her children from Trinity and loaded them. He knew he had accomplished what he wanted to do but her eyes were haunting him already. He followed her home from a distance just to make sure she would be ok.
"Tara, sweetheart whats wrong." Gemma walked over to the car as Tara pulled into her driveway. Tara did not respond with words and what happened next was anything but Tara's original plans. She sat her purse down quietly and in one swift move cold cocked Gemma in the face and this time she did not stop once Gemma fell to the ground Tara stood over her and continued to lay blows till Jax ran up and grabbed Tara off his mother.
"What the fuck Tara?" Jax screamed. Again not saying a word Tara turned back to the car grabbed her purse and her twins and walked into the house.
"Mom, you okay?" Jax asked as he helped his mother up from the ground.
"What the fuck was that Jackson?" Gemma asked wiping the blood from her nose and lip.
"I don't know." Jax lied.
"You need to talk to her Jackson," Gemma said. "Set her straight."
"I will handle this mom." Jaxs said as he walked off leaving his mom to get to her car herself. As he got to the door of the house it was locked so he went to the back door only to see Tara in the living room packing bags.
Tara could not believe what had transpired today. How could she be so blind, so stupid. She had to get away. Jax walked in behind her and she turned throwing a bag at him.
"You don't need to be here. I heard you loud and clear. Now get out." Tara ordered.
"Babe, you know I love you." Jax teared up.
"GET OUT NOW." Tara ordered louder not wanting to hear another word out of his mouth. Jax took his bag and left. He would have a prospect come over and keep an eye on her and the kids.
It had been an hour since Jax left his house with his bags when he saw Rat boy return.
"I thought I said stay with Tara and the kids" Jax jumping out of his stool ready to pounce.
"She is not there." Rat said defensively. "She is nowhere."
"What do you mean?" Jax was beginning to panic did he just push her away for good! Jax quickly dialed her cell and when it rang and rang Jax throat began to close when he heard it down the hall. She must of dropped it earlier that day. He quickly dialed Donna's number and when Donna said she had not heard from Tara his air way seemed to get smaller and smaller. Same when he called Trinity who seemed pissed that Tara was missing and had asked Jax what he did. No one had seen her or heard from her. She and the kids where gone.
Ok I know I know, Jax cheated but Tara wanted closer and Jax didn't know any other way. So I wrote the dick move in. Sorry guys. Please leave me reviews and I will update sooner!