Girl Behind The Red Door Confessions
Chapter 52
May these words be the first to find you here.
The world is brighter than the sun. Now that you're here.
Though your eyes will need some time to adjust.
To the overwhelming light surrounding love.
You are loved
More than you know.
"Mom." Nathan said softly.
Deb looked up at him. Her eyes softening.
"Nate I was so relieved to hear that everything ended up being okay with Jamie." Deb said. Looking at them.
"Deb, you know you are a part of the family and are welcome anytime." Haley said. Looking to her.
"I appreciate that but between Dan's choices and my own mistakes I've stayed away for your sake as well as my own." "I should've of been a better mother to you." "It has been something that has eaten away at me for so long now." "You're a better man than you're father ever was." "And the kind of parent neither of us were capable of being." "I'm sorry about that." Deb said. Looking away as she wiped her eyes.
"I don't hold any of that against you." "Dan made his choices." "And I always knew you loved me." "You did the best you could I never needed more than that." "Come back with us we can get some food and keep talking." Nathan suggested.
"No, you were and are the only thing in my life I've gotten right and I'm so proud of you." "You go on about your day." Deb said to him.
Nate and Haley began to slowly walk again. Continuing their way out of the cemetery. Looking back at Deb as they headed to their car.
Eventually driving off. Deb looked around the cemetery.
Wrapping her arms around herself. Her mind that once raced with so many thoughts she couldn't keep up. Between her inability to love again because of everything he put her through. And her pill addiction that lingered in the back of her mind like a tightrope she waved on day after day. Hopeful that the memories of the family she once had would somehow compensate for what she lacked now. She had done so much and knew that she would keep her distance because the knot in her throat that held the emotion she refused to feel ran deep. Taking a breath. She began to walk back to her car.
Driving as she passed the liquor store. Her hands shaking. Her throat feeling dry. The sinking feeling, she felt every time she got on this damn bridge started to take over her. Causing her stop.
Parking her car on the side of the street. Away from any of cars. As she decided to walk home.
Her steps heavy. Memories swimming to the surface in her mind.
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Karen's Café
"It's like The Notebook but better he asked you move in. He gave your own home studio. Your madly in love with each other." "I'm happy for you Sawyer the two of you have been through so much together." "It seems like life is finally giving you both a break." Juliet said. Taking a last sip of her tea.
"I know we're in the best place either of us have been in so long." "I didn't tell you the most memorable part in his drawer I saw a ring box." "I couldn't believe it he's ready to spent an entire lifetime with me." "I just want to pinch myself it doesn't seem real." Sawyer said to her.
"A future wedding." "For you." "A possible new baby for Matt and I." "We need to go a double date the two of us and Matt and Jamie." Juliet said. Excitedly.
"I'm in Jamie will be too." Sawyer said.
"Matt is always up for some guy time especially with him being outnumbered between me and Dakota." "It's going to happen later on this week." Juliet said. "Now tell me all about it." Juliet said. Looking to Sawyer.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Sawyer said. As she ate her blueberry crumb muffin.
"You know exactly what I'm talking about." "It's not random anymore with work and Dakota." "I live vicariously through you." "So, spill it."
Juliet said. Eating her pumpkin donut.
Sawyer looked up at her. "I didn't think I could love him anymore than I did that night just made everything clearer for me." "I found the person I'm supposed to be with." "I'm home is every sense of the word." Sawyer said in response.
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Jamie
Now on his break. Between eating his lunch and getting back into one of his favorite books. While checking to see if he has any texts or calls. He stops what he's doing when he hears a familiar voice.
Coming closer to him.
"Hey there officer." Chuck said. Smiling at him. While he sat down.
"Hi what are you doing all the way over here.?" Jamie asked curious.
Giving passing over the extra food he didn't have time to finish.
"Visiting my brother of course." Chuck said. Looking back at him.
"Plus, I'm off today and you know me I need things to keep me busy."
"So was she surprised about the house.?" Chuck asked him.
"Completely mom gave me the ring that grandpa was planning to give to grandpa Lydia." "But ended getting a new ring when she found out and opened the box." "So, it's in need of being used and worn." "She's going to be so surprised." "I have it all planned out but will let you know when the day is closer." Jamie said with a smile.
"About time you two crazy kids stopped denying what was right in front of you." "As future best man prepare for the speech I will tell at the reception." "I actually need your advice." "You probably don't know her." "She actually went to our high school but didn't hang around our group of friends." "She's a writer for this independent company." "And the two of us have way more in common than I ever would have thought." "Which is really surprising to me." "I don't do relationships because of well you know how I grew up my walls are sealed tight." "The idea of giving my heart to anyone causes me to completely shut down." Chuck said.
"I remember you never really ever dated anyone." "Random girls at certain times none of them ever stuck. I never met any of them." "Which told me enough." "What's so different about this woman compared to others.?" Jamie asked him.
"She has this toughness and protectiveness that at first comes off as someone you want to stay away from but that's only because she's been hurt too. We're alike but different she didn't get adopted like I did she had a crappy parent and ended up getting emancipated during freshman year and has been on her own since then." "I like her a lot and that scares me." "But the last thing I want is to run from this." Chuck said in response.
"Wow what is her name.?" Jamie asked. Really curious to who had effected his brother so much.
"Her name is Samantha Walker." Chuck said. A smile coming to his face.
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