A/N: Sorry it's been over a week since I last updated this. I'm not going to give you excuses. I'm just going to say that I hope the wait was worth it.

Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush.

Big Time Sick

Officer Garcia arrived at LAX. The L.A.P.D. had brought him in because he knew Logan. The L.A.P.D. wanted to question Logan about what happened with the carbon monoxide leak. They knew that Logan didn't cause the leak, but what they wondered about was whether or not he had tried to kill himself. He must have known about the leak, yet he went into the apartment anyways. If Logan really did try to kill himself, then the best course of action might be getting him professional help.

"Papi!" Carlos shouted, running over to his father and jumping into his waiting arms.

"My boy!" Officer Garcia replied, catching his son. Both had huge grins plastered on their faces.

Officer Garcia set his son down. The two of them did their trademark greeting; pressing their foreheads together and screaming. It got them some quizzical looks from people passing by, but neither Carlos nor his father even cared about that.

"What are you doing here?" Carlos asked, beyond happy to see his father.

Carlos worried when he saw his dad's expression sober; his grin quickly evaporating from his face.

"I was brought in to question Logan," Carlos' father answered.

Carlos knitted his eyebrows in confusion. What was his dad talking about? Question Logan? Question him about what? He hadn't done anything wrong! Quite the opposite! He was a hero! Officer Garcia noticed the confused look on his son's face, and started to elaborate.

"The L.A.P.D. has a theory that Logan tried to kill himself and was using the hero thing as a cover story. They knew that I am someone Logan trusts. They thought that maybe I could get him to admit what his real intentions were," Officer Garcia explained.

Carlos shook his head fiercely. His eyes started to fill with tears.

"No! You're wrong! He saved my life, Dad! He saved Katie and Kendall too! Indirectly, he saved Mama Knight! If he hadn't called 911, if he hadn't shown up when he did…He didn't try to kill himself, Papi! I know him! He would never do something like that!" Carlos replied, raising his voice.

Officer Garcia sighed. "Well, that's what I'm here to find out."

XXXXX

The remaining two-thirds of Big Time Rush were at Rocque Records. Gustavo had just finished telling them about their predicament involving BTR needing to have a concert in now six days or Gustavo being fired.

"It's not that I want you to lose your job, Gustavo, but now's not really the time for us to be thinking about the band. We should be focusing on James' funeral and only James' funeral right now," Kendall said.

Logan scoffed.

"Oh please, Kendall! Don't pretend for one second that you even cared about James! After all, your last words to him was that he could go ahead and die for all you cared! Seems you got your wish!" Logan retorted.

"Yeah, but I didn't mean it! I was just angry with him!" Kendall replied.

"Right! Whatever you say…"

Kendall noticed how Logan wouldn't even look at him. He recalled how Logan wouldn't even allow Kendall to help him plan James' funeral. He let Carlos help though. Really, it should be James' parents planning their son's funeral, but they were nowhere to be seen.

Gustavo was inwardly chastising himself. He should've known better than to think that the dogs would actually want to continue Big Time Rush after everything that's happened. Even though it more than likely meant the end of his career for the time being, he didn't really blame them. He couldn't.

"You can't stay mad at me forever, Logan," Kendall stated.

"Watch me!" Logan countered.

Kendall absolutely hated this. It felt like he had lost two of his friends; James and Logan. Sure they had fought in the past, but Kendall couldn't remember a time when it ever had gotten this bad. He had tried to turn Carlos and Logan against each other so that way he would still at least have one of them, but that didn't work so well. If anything, it just brought them closer together. Well, except for Logan's panic attack that Carlos caused.

"So this is really the end of Big Time Rush?" Gustavo asked.

Suddenly, Logan had a brilliant idea.

"It may be the end of BTR, but it doesn't have to be the end of your music career. What about Kat's Crew? If they haven't been picked up by a record label, maybe it's not too late to sign them to yours. I'm sure Griffin won't care who has a concert so long as he's making money," Logan said.

Gustavo had to admit that Logan had a pretty good idea. It was obvious why he was the brains of the group. Gustavo recalled how he originally picked BTR over Kat's Crew. He never regretted making that decision either. He just hoped that Kat's Crew would still be interested in signing with Rocque Records after previously being rejected by the record label.

XXXXX

Logan was surprised to see Carlos' dad in Apartment 2J when he got back. He was decked out in his police garb to boot. It was hard not to notice how everyone else slipped away, leaving Logan alone with Officer Garcia.

"What are you doing here?" Logan asked, uncertainty in his voice.

Officer Garcia took a seat on the orange couch, he patted the cushion next to him.

"Have a seat," Officer Garcia stated.

Logan reluctantly did as he was asked. He had a weird feeling about all of this. Like why was Carlos' dad wearing his police uniform? Was he here as an officer? Or was he here as Carlos' father?

"If you don't mind, I have some questions for you, Logan," Officer Garcia said.

Logan wasn't sure if he minded or not. He wasn't even sure what exactly was going on. And what was with Carlos' dad sounding so…formal…all of a sudden? Did this mean he was here on police business?

Carlos' father didn't know what to make of Logan's silence, so he continued anyways.

"Did you know there was a carbon monoxide leak in the apartment?" he asked.

Logan shifted uncomfortably in his seat.

"Um…no. Not originally," Logan answered honestly.

"But there was a point when you were saving the others that you realized there was a leak, right?" Officer Garcia asked.

Logan nodded his head. Carlos' dad feared as much. He hated to admit it, but now it seemed like the L.A.P.D.'s theory wasn't as far-fetched as he originally thought it was. That didn't stop Officer Garcia from still hoping that he was wrong.

"If you knew it was dangerous to go into the apartment, then why did you continue to go back in?" Officer Garcia asked.

"Are you kidding me? I was trying to save as many of their lives as I could! If I did nothing, they might have died before help even got there!" Logan all but shouted back.

It wasn't often that Logan shouted at anybody. In fact, it was to Officer Garcia's knowledge, the first time Logan had ever shouted at him. Not that he could blame him though. But he wasn't here as Logan's best friend's father; he was here as a police officer.

"Was there ever a point when you thought that you could die in the apartment?" Officer Garcia pressed on.

Tears sprang to Logan's eyes. Officer Garcia also saw the betrayal that Logan's eyes held. It pulled at his heartstrings. He hated that he was doing this to Logan, but he still hadn't got the answers he had been seeking. He wasn't going to stop until he did either.

"Why are you asking me this? Who put you up to this?" Logan replied, his voice nasally.

The longer this conversation continued, the more disheartening it became to Officer Garcia. Now Logan was evading his questions. People typically only did that when they had something to hide.

"Just answer the question, Logan. Please?" Officer Garcia asked gently.

"Why should I? You're not answering my questions!" Logan retaliated.

Logan rose from his seat. He turned his back on Carlos' dad as he started to walk away. He didn't have to put up with this any longer. What was with Officer Garcia giving him the third degree? Since when was saving people's lives a crime?

"Were you trying to kill yourself?" Officer Garcia asked, cutting straight to the point. "If so, it's understandable. You probably thought you could finally be reunited with James that way."

Logan froze in his tracks. With his back still to Officer Garcia, he spoke.

"I don't know, okay? Did the thought that I could possibly die ever cross my mind? Yes, it did. Did it stop me from trying to rescue the others? No, it didn't. Does that mean I wanted to die? I'm not sure," Logan said, his shoulders slumping. "But like you said, if I had died, then it couldn't have been too bad, right? I mean at least I would have gotten to be with James again."

Officer Garcia feared as much. James' death had really messed Logan up. He felt bad for the teenager. Not only might he never be able to have an intimate relationship with anyone ever again without being reminded of what James did to him, but he also kind of admitted to attempting suicide.

"I know what you're probably thinking, and you're wrong. I'm not suicidal," Logan stated.

"Not in a typical, obvious fashion at least. But you are the type that would try to kill yourself but disguise it as something completely different. What's next, Logan? What happens if the next time you actually kill yourself?" Officer Garcia asked.

Logan spun around on his heels so he was facing Carlos' dad. He looked legitimately offended by the accusations being hurled at him.

"You're wrong! I didn't try to kill myself then! And I'm not going to try to kill myself in the future! I saved Kendall's, Katie's, Mrs. Knight's, and your own son's life! Why can't you see that for what it is?" Logan shouted back, his voice cracking.

"You're in denial. You rather see it that way then admit that you really were trying to kill yourself," Officer Garcia replied, keeping his voice calm even though he was being shouted at.

"You know what I hate about you police type? You all think you have all the answers when in reality, all you do is jump to hasty conclusions!"

Carlos had been eavesdropping on the conversation, and he couldn't listen to anymore. He came barreling into the living room. His eyes already full of tears.

"Stop it! Stop fighting!" Carlos pleaded.

"Answer me this; when did you become such a judgmental prick?" Logan venomously asked Carlos' dad. "You have no right to show up out of nowhere and judge me! You haven't even been around! You don't even know what's going on!"

Officer Garcia was stunned by Logan's behavior. It was very uncharacteristic of him. However, it just validated the idea that something truly was wrong with Logan. Something that none of them could fix on their own.

"Logan, please stop!" Carlos begged.

Logan rounded on Carlos. The latter didn't like the look that the former was giving him either.

"You knew about this, didn't you? You knew that's why your dad was in town? And you never thought to give me a heads up, did you? I guess I know where your loyalties lie!" Logan remarked.

Carlos felt like the worst person on the face of the planet. He hadn't really had time to warn Logan. It wasn't that he didn't want to. He hated how Logan thought he was choosing his dad over him. He didn't want to take sides! He loved them both so much! Carlos' body shook with sobs.

"I'm outta here! Who knows? I might find a granny who needs help crossing the street, but secretly I'll throw myself in front of a speeding car!" Logan remarked, that last bit directed at Carlos' father.

"You shouldn't even be joking about that!" Officer Garcia responded as Logan was already out the door.

Carlos found himself in a comforting hug as his father wrapped his arms around him. Tears continued to stream down Carlos' face. His body continued to be rocked by sobs. He could definitely feel it now. He was slowly but surely losing Logan.

"Do you really think he tried to kill himself?" Carlos asked in a pitifully small voice.

"I'm afraid so, son. He needs help, Carlos. I know of some facilities around here and in Minnesota that are some of the best in the nation," Officer Garcia answered.

"You're wrong, Papi. I know Logan better than you, and he would never try to kill himself. He's just…lost…right now."

"I know you don't want to believe that there's something wrong with Logan, but that doesn't change the fact that there is. The sooner he gets the help he needs, the better. For now, come on. Let's follow him and make sure he doesn't do something stupid."

The father and son left Apartment 2J to trail Logan, keeping a watchful eye on him. James looked down from Heaven and frowned.

To Be Continued…