Apart By More Than Words

Chapter 52

I'll wake you up

And serve breakfast in bed

I'll give you coffee and a kiss on your head.

I'll take the kids to school

Wave them goodbye.

I'll thank my lucky stars for that night.

I'm so in love with you

I want to stay with you

Until we're grey and old

Just say you won't let go.

5 Months later

So, we decided to keep the baby's room white until we find out the gender.

But we are and have been filling the nursery with clothes and toys.

Every time I pass the room. My heart just races. To think we're only a few months away is so exciting.

Nate has been reading and learning so much about babies and their early years. It's heartwarming. To see him simply talk about the baby to be or life once the three of us are home.

Just makes me smile non – stop. He said he wants to be as hands on as possible. Which doesn't surprise me at all.

I've been truly blessed to have married that incredible man.

Today is the day we're going to the find out what the sex of the baby is.

Nate literally jumped into the car this morning.

As I look over at him taking his hand. While he kisses it.

Continuing to drive. While I laid my forehead on the glass.

The coolness feeling nice against my skin.

He parks in closest parking spot near the front door.

Then takes my hand holding it securely as we walk inside.

Awhile Later

"Welcome back Mr. and Mrs. Archibald." The doctor says happily.

Smiling as we ask how he is as well.

Then I lay down on the table and the lights go down.

As Nate holds my hand. Looking at the screen excitedly.

"The baby is wide awake and is actually sucking its thumb."

The doctor says as he shows us.

Laughing as I turn to Nate. "Seems like someone is taking after daddy."

"You have no proof of that." Nate says playfully.

"Would you like to know the gender of your baby.?" The asked.

Looking at us both.

"Yea we want to know." I said smiling at Nate then turning back around.

"The gender of your baby is. The doctor said smiling.

Hours later

"So now that we know does that make it more real.?" I ask him.

While we start driving again. He turns to me. And smiles.

"It makes me feel that much more ready for this."

"I'm really going to dad." Nate said as looked in my eyes.

Turning his focus back on road.

At that moment, just now.

I wished silently for everything to continue to go smoothly.

He needed it.

I honestly didn't know if his heart could take on anymore.

Putting my hand on my stomach.

Just as Nate parked the car at the next location we had to go to.

While I quickly took his hand, and put it on my stomach.

Smiling at him.

As I spoke.

"Look at that daddy." "Baby wants to say hi." I said looking up at him.

Seeing the happiness and hope in his eyes.

Made me want to cry.

Instead I leaned over and kissed him.

"You are such a good guy Nate Archibald." I said to him.

Causing him blush and look away.

"True but have you seen my wife.?" "She is my backbone and the real hero of this story." He said caressing my face as he kissed me. Leaving me breathless.

"I'm in love with you." "You keep me strong." He said to me.

"I'm in love with you too." Tears start welling up in my eyes.

"I can't help it okay he just loves me so much." Serena thought to herself.

While she looked away.

"Time to go." I say as we started to get out of the car.

Looking up at her as she smiled. She was so beautiful.

But pregnancy has given her this eternal glow.

Opening the door for her as she walked in.

Then I walked in next beside her.

Taking a breath as I looked around. Finding empty seats.

We sit down. Checking to see who's here already.

Noticing some familiar faces. We make small talk.

Then the room quiets.

Hello Everyone

As always we start our meetings with stories. And current events happening in our lives. This group is all about supporting each other and understanding. Most importantly being honest with ourselves and each other.

"Is there anyone who would like to start today.?"

The group leader asks.

Nate raises his hand.

Smiling as he acknowledges him.

"Go right ahead Nate tell us what is on your mind.?"

Taking a breath.

Nate looks around the room then to his side at Serena.

As he begins to speak.

"I'm scared that I'm going to fail and not be enough."

"As a husband and a father." "And in the end that she will regret agreeing to marry me."

"And that my child must settle for me because I'll be lost without her.

And have nothing ever feel whole again.

In my life or my heart.

I want to slow down time.

I don't know where I fit into this new dynamic that is going to be happening.

And how I will explain why things will suddenly change.

when my child wakes up.

And I can't find my way to them.

Because the sun in my world will have darkened.

The world and my view from that point on.

"That is all thank you."

Nate said taking a breath.

As he looked away.

I look into his eyes.

Unsure of what to say in response or what to do.

My heart aching.

Realizing he won't meet my gaze.

The feeling in my chest rising as I watch him.

Leave from his chair and walk outside.

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