Chapter 51
Previously on Don't Forget
"Nate! Call Shane and Frankie and Jason and the police! Zayn is in my house and he wants to . . ."
The phone was whipped out of my hands and I stood staring at a very angry looking Zayn.
"That was not very nice!"
I felt my body go cold as he threw the phone against the wall and it broke. He then pushed me against the wall and proceeded to kiss me again, leaving hickies on my neck and chest.
"You will do as I say, or else Nate will die. Nothing will come between me and you tonight. You wanted me."
"No, I don't want you Zayn."
"Oh yes you do. I know you want me so bad, that is why you threatened Perrie."
"That was a long time ago . . ."
"Doesn't matter, does it?" he said, starting to kiss me again. I tried to push him away but he kissed me on my neck and slid his hands down to my thighs.
"You like that, don't you."
"Zayn, please, don't do this. Please. . . "
He looked at me, then smiled his signature smile. "Girls always say no while meaning yes."
"Not me."
"And that spraying, what were you trying? I have a family to think of! But you will pay."
I watched him, freaking out as he came closer. Just as he was about to carry out his threat, someone knocked on the door.
"Ray Ray, its me. Nate. Are you okay?"
"Oh, he is here"
"Nate! Get . . ."
"So he loves you after all. You really are every man's dream girl, aren't you? Damsel in distress, beautiful girl, talented Kenyan Beauty, desirable woman . . . ugh, they never end. But I know one thing. You are mine, and I don't share."
"Sarah? Are you in there?"
"You are gonna open that door and be a good girl. If you don't do that, I will kill him."
"Please don't. I will do anything."
"Anything?"
"Yes," I said, looking at him and knowing that this was the end of Sarah Kadesa as I knew her. How had I fallen for a psychopath? How could I have known that beneath that beautiful face, that amazing body, there was a guy who was psychotic? We were over, but he was trying to get me pregnant. Oh my God! He would force me to marry him as his second wife after Perrie. Oh my God!
"You spend the night with me. you do everything I tell you to do. And you have no say whatsoever. Deal?"
He had this look in his eyes that I didn't like, but for the sake of Nate, and Caity, I would do this, even if it meant that my life would end tonight.
It was all my fault.
"Sarah, I am coming in if you don't open this damn door."
Zayn smiled at me, kissed me and then shoved me in the direction of the door. After this, I will never ever trust anyone I don't know. Ever. I am done for good, that is if I live after this.
I took a step towards the door and reached out my hand to open it.
I took off, running around the furniture but he dived for me, grabbing my leg and flattening himself above me.
"I don't wanna hurt you." He said quietly. I froze at the sudden change. "I love you Sarah and I want to make tonight special."
He turned me round and stared down at me. "I want to be with you tonight but I don't want to scare you at all. Because even I wouldn't want to be with a guy everyone thinks is mad. But I tell you, I am not mad, just misunderstood."
I looked up at him as he spoke. For a moment, I saw the old Zayn back, but then he disappeared.
"I just hate it when every other guy gets to be with you. Because I want you, and that is why I couldn't stand it when Louis kissed you."
He then took out a roll and lit it up. I pulled away, feeling scared that he would burn me with it. "I would never hurt you." He said as if he read my mind. That still didn't convince me. Even then, this cigarette did not smell like ordinary tobacco.
Oh my god, it was pot.
I heard Nate knock on the door, and Zayn nudged me to open the door, which i did.
"Are you okay?" he asked me, walking into the house.
I remained quiet, trying not to cry. Just then Zayn materialized behind him and hit him on the head. Nate blacked out immediately.
"Come, my Queen," he said, after he tied Nate up and gagged him on a chair. He lead me back to the bedroom, and laid me down, then started kissing me all over. I knew better than to resist. I tried that and he dived for my leg the last time. Oh crap, watching him do that made me want to be sick. How did he get like this? He said he wanted me back, but I never thought it would end with him trying to rape me. how could I be this messed up?
Louis warned me, I should have put that alarm system that Harry told me to about. I should have closed my windows. Niall said he would come in through that. oh my God, this is all my fault. He kissed me on the lips, biting my lower lip. I tried to stop him from going any further but his hands were doing things that I had never been done to. No one has ever touched me like this, and even Shane never touched me like that. he was sweet and every part of me he touched left tingles.
I felt like throwing up and I was really praying that Nate called the rest. I made a bargain with Zayn not to harm Nate. In return, I would do whatever he wanted. I felt a tear slip down my cheek as he kissed me all over. This was not how I wanted it to end.
He took off his tee.
He took off his trousers.
He got out of his boxers.
He had a gorgeous body, but I didn't want him. I didn't want ANYTHING to do with him. and he was stoned, so I couldn't really do much. I had already tried every stunt, and none had worked. He seemed to have gotten stronger. His eyes looked a little glazed, and he licked his lips, as his eyes raked over my body. oh my God, I was gonna throw up.
This was it, I said to myself. I closed my eyes as he prepared to fulfill his fantasies of me, to me.
He ripped off my clothing and I was only left with my underwear. I tried to hide, curling up to my side, but he was too quick. He turned me back to face him, and he stared at me, looking goggle-eyed at me.
"I Knew you were beautiful, but I didn't know you were this beautiful," he says, looking down at me. for a moment, he seemed even afraid to do what he wanted to do.
"No, I can't do this to you."
"Please . . . don't Zayn. I know you are a good guy and you wouldn't hurt me."
He turned and looked at me. "I am not hurting you, I am taking what is rightfully mine."
"No you aren't."
"Shut up! I love you, can't you see that I love you? No one else can have you if I can't. its either me or no one."
He got back on the bed, moving towards me, and I tried to run but he grabbed me again. "Oh No, YOU DON'T!"
After this I will never be the same. I will not be a virgin. I might get whatever disease Perry has. No ways is he pushing that thing into me. But I can't do anything, because he swore to hurt me if I did anything stupid. My heart starts to beat faster as I feel him lying against me, with that thing getting harder and I am praying to God, oh God, please save me.
Just as he prepared to do what no man had ever done, he was torn off me and I heard him yell as he got beaten. Next, I felt someone wrap their hands round me, and add a jacket to cover my shivering, almost naked body. the person wiped my tears away. Oh my God, I was crying.
"Shh, it is gonna be okay. I will never ever let you go. I promise."
"Shane?"
"You are safe, I swear he is going away, for a very longtime. Frankie, don't . . ."
"OUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCH!"
Oopsie!
Nate was all cocky when he woke up. He had gone into a coma because his blood glucose had dropped but the paramedics got to him before he got worse.
Zayn on the other hand, well, lets just say his thing got broken. Apparently Frankie kicked it really hard after he found out that he called me Slut.
I decided to ask for a lighter sentence for him because his entire family begged me to not have him get hurt. He didn't get jail time but was forced to go to Court-Ordered Rehab because of his weed problem. Thank God Perrie is having him for dinner and whatever else she eats him for. Yuck. I don't even want to imagine what else those two psychos do.
I was also taken for counseling. That experience freaked me out. I was starting to scare because this was my second time almost getting raped. Luckily for me, I had the entire Grey family, my own and the Gellers. I think I am gonna be okay.
Actually, I was gonna be okay. All I needed was time.
"You are My HEROES," I told Shane and Nate later that day after my last counseling session. It was 20th December, and we had decided to go to New Jersey to celebrate the last few days to Christmas by going to a Jonas Brothers' Concert.
"AWW!" they all said, and I laughed, hugging them both. Jason saw us and yelled, "GROUP HUG!"
Soon, I was surrounded by Caity, Danielle and him. okay,that was just tiring, yet refreshing.
"I love all of you guys. I really do. Thanks for being there for me through out this whole incident."
"Aww!" everyone said. "GROUP HUG!"
There we were, all together, the six of us. Enjoying Jason's childish mentality. Till the baby started to cry.
"Shoo!" we were all kicked out by the two proud parents to our niece, Erica Grey. Nate and Caity left for his room, probably to make out, and Shane and I went to his room, probably to talk.
"So, are you gonna watch 'Toy Stories'?" I asked Shane as we prepared to sit down and enjoy the movie I had been begging him to buy. Don't blame me, blame Liam!
"Yes, I will."
I smiled at him as he put the DVD into the machine and then snuggled into him. it was four thirty pm and we decided to pass time buy watching the movie before we went to the concert.
However, Shane soon fell asleep. I don't blame him. I had been all over the place earlier and I knew how crazy I had been. As I watched the movie, I felt his arms tighten round me. I already knew that fighting to get away from Shane when he was asleep was a losing battle, he reminded me so much of him.
Him.
I hadn't thought of him for a while. I didn't hate him, I just hated what he tried to do.
I miss the old him. I wonder if Miley became worse when she did the drugs and danced on Robin Thicke's crotch. How did Liam feel breaking up with her? Luckily, Zayn was going to rehab and community work while Miley was still smoking like crazy. Oh yeah, I knew that because Selena told me. I think it was a stage. Surprised that Taylor, Shane, Nate, Jason and Kevin didn't pass through it.
As I mused, I took up my phone. Louis and the rest of the boys except him had wished me a Merry Christmas, singing at the top of their voices like the kids they really are.
I had recorded the call from the start, smiling as I did.
Shane muttered in his sleep, and I looked down at him. he looked really cute, and I smiled at him. I found myself staring at his lips. I wanted so badly to touch him.
And to feel his face. But I knew it'd wake him up. So I set the alarm to half past 6pm and curled into him, feeling him relax. Hmm, I could get used to this.
