Jen didn't have time to turn around before Tilly popped her head around the door ..

Can I come in? She whispered..

Jens eyes widened she thought she had gotten away with having to talk to Tilly what with a house full of people .. She hadn't prepared for what she would say..

Her explanation for her stupidness.

Now isn't a good time " she whispered back worried someone might come up the stairs ..

I won't keep you " Tilly said looking behind her ..
I just think we need to talk about last night ..

Jen gasped before swallowing the mouthful of fluid that had formed in her mouth ..

There's nothing to talk about." She muttered ..

Tilly raised her eye brows" you don't think so"?

Jen shook her head .. You win Tilly .. You have your ammunition .. Do what you want with it !

What you taking about? Tilly asked confused ..

Jen looked at her .. Jessie! You can tell her I made a pass at you .. You can ruin my life all over again..

Tilly was shocked and slightly angry .. Ruin your life ?.. Again? I'm pretty sure we played equal parts in what happens Jen...

Yeah well now you can finish me off can't you " Jen snapped ..

Tilly shut the door a little more just in case they were interrupted

Look Jen .. I don't want to argue ok? Tilly sighed .. And I certainly Didnt come in here for a slanging match or to score points ..

No? Jen asked .. Then what did you come here for ?

Tilly shook her head .. I just came in here to tell you that .. She paused Taking a deep breath ..

Well I'm not going to say anything .. To Sophie to jessie .. To anyone..

Jen laughed shaking her head ..
It was a stupid mistake .. A drunken stupid mistake .. I don't know what came over me ..

Tilly knew that wasn't the case.. She would have never treated Jens wound if she was intoxicated.. But she wasn't about to argue about it ..

Well that's fine then" Tilly lied .. We can forget about it .. Pretend it never happened..

Jen closed her eyes turning her back to Tilly .. Pretending it never happened wasn't going to be easy .. Every time she saw Tilly she would be reminded of it...

Pretend like it didn't happen? She sighed ..

Well I think it's best" Tilly continued .. I mean in pretty sure you don't want to keep having this kind of conversation

Jen turnt to Tilly .. She wasn't angry with her she was angry with herself .. But Tilly was an easier target . Taking her frustration out on her ..

This conversation ? She laughed .. I don't want this conversation or any other conversation with you .. Not now .. Not ever ..

Tilly frowned ..she hadn't expected Jen to be so nasty .. She after all was doing her a favour .. Jens words upset Tilly but she wasn't about to show her that .. In fact she was going to give Jen the same treatment she received

Tilly nodded .. You know what ? You don't deserve me to keep quiet .. Your a nasty spiteful cold heartless bitch.. And if it wasn't for the fact I actually really like Sophie .. I would tell jessie everything ..

She's a lovely girl and deserves so much better then you ..

Tilly opened the door to storm off ..turning back quickly ..

Oh and your hand ?! Yeah your welcome .. By the way

Once Tilly left Jen sat silently .. Stroking her bandaged hand as tears rolled down her cheeks

She knew she deserved everything Tilly had said and she knew Tilly was only acting in retaliation to her spat of nasty words ..
The worst thing for Jen was she hated the way she was..
She hated the fact she was so cruel to Tilly
She knew it was a case of history repeating itself ..
But the fear of letting Tilly in even slightly .. scared her to the point where she couldn't stop herself ..

She also agreed with her .. Jessie did deserve better "
She deserved a girlfriend who loved her more then anything else in the world ..
She deserved someone to want to move on and make a life with her .. So one who wanted to build a home .. A life .. A family ..

Jen knew deep down that wasn't her .. She loved jessie as much as she could bare to..
But she knew her heart would never be completely in it ..

Tilly said her goodbyes to Sophie and headed home .. Feeling relieved she had some long shifts at the hospital ahead of her .. So she didn't have to see Jen again for a while..

Once jessie was home she slumped on Jens bed ..

Ugh I really don't know why I go out with my mum .. She moaned.. All she ever does is look down on me ..

You say this everytime" Jen stated ..
And yet I still go .. Jessie moaned ..

All I got off her was" when are you going to start acting like a grown up and get your own place ..

Jen rolled her eyes " A hint of ever she heard one " she thought ..

Them it's all " when's this " gay" phase going to end? Jessie moaned on ..
I mean for god sake .. I couldn't punched her ..

Jen wasn't interested . She knew Jessie's mum didn't like her and disapproved for their relationship .. Hearing jessie moan about it was like running finger nails down a black board to Jens ears ..

On a good note she was quite taken with Tilly " jessie said .

Typical" Jen muttered .. Not expecting jessie to hear her ..

Ok spit it out" jessie said sitting up ..
What is your problem with Tilly ?

Jen sighed .. When is this ever going to end" she thought to herself ..

I don't have a problem with her" why do you keep going on about it !?

Because of this " Sophie answers holding her hands out ..
Everytime someone mentions her or she's here.. You get all twitchy ..

Jen made herself busy .. Tiding around her room " I don't think so..

I do.. Sophie argued .. Look ..if you don't like her that's fine babe.. But you need to hide it a bit better .. Sophie would be crushed of she found out .

For god sake" Jen shouted " what is it bitch at Jen day? I told you .. I "don't" have a problem with the girl .. Why don't you get off my back " she added grabbing her bag rushing out of her room ..

Jen shot down the stairs nearly knocking kez over ..

Woaaaaah" where's the fire" she choked moving out of Jens way..

Jen didn't answer she just carried on hurrying out of the house ..

Kez looked at jessie who was on top of the stairs .. Well!?

Jessie shrugged.. I dunno.. But I'm getting fed up of it ..

Jessie watched out of the window as Jen got into her car speeding off ..

She's probably havin a bad day"? Kez smiled trying to make jessie feel better ..

No" jessie shook her head .. She's been funny for weeks .. She isn't herself ..
Kez have you noticed anything strange about the way she is with Tilly ?

Tilly ? Jessie frowned

Jessie nodded her head .. Yeah .. Between you and me this is ' .. I have a feeling Jen doesn't like her ..

Tilly's is great why wouldn't she? Kez asked ..

Beats me" jessie shrugged .. But I've noticed when Tilly's here Jens different .. If Soph goes on about Tilly .. Jen rolls her eyes or leaves the room .. Telling ya" something's not right ..

I haven't noticed it" kez shrugged .. Maybe Jens just funny with strangers ..oooor Maybe she fancies her " she joked ..

Jessie frowned .. Looking like she deep in thought

I was joking" kez worried seeing the look on her friends face..

Maybe it's not Tilly .. Jessie sulked ..
Maybe it's Sophie

Sophie? As if" kez laughed .. Jen doesn't fancy Sophie ..

Why not? Jessie asked .. She's a good looking girl ... What's not to like?

Jess that's madness .. Seriously ? Soph is far to immature for Jen .. Shit you barely scrap by.. Kez joked making light of Jessie's crazy notion..

Well it would make sense.. Jessie added .. I mean we been fine lately .. Sophie brings a girlfriend home. .. It's looking serious and Booooom.. Jens distance .. Grumpy.. Angry..
Seriously Kez
.. Apart from the other day .. Jen and I haven't had sex in weeks .. She barely touches me ..
And when she does it's to stop me wanting to talk about "us"

I'm telling you something's not right.