(singing the smurfs melody) La la la la la la, new, new chapter! La la la la la la, typos everywhere! Okay. I'm done now.
But argh! This chapter was hard to write! It took me ages! And then it was almost midnight and I have to get up early in the morning, Yay.
And another reminder: after chapter 50, I won't update for a short while.
And I don't own Kuroshitsuji.
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Chapter 49
Where was I? I was everything, felt everything, but I couldn't do anything. I saw it, felt it as I grabbed Ciel into my arms and spread my wings. But I was even too far gone to be surprised at the fact that I even had those.
It was her. The woman from the garden. Angela, or something. She had put herself in my body, something that sounded really strange out of context. But she was there, in my mind and I had no idea how to stop her.
I just hoped that Sebastian would know a way. And have it be a way in which I live, pretty please. I still had to ask Ciel why he kissed me (yes, I'm a teenage girl. And no, I don't know my priorities).
I had absolutely no idea where we were. A really, really big library. Bigger than Ciel's library. Bigger than any library I could even phantom. And I wasn't sure why, but I had my hands and mind back for a short while. Angela had put Ciel on one of the couches in the library, near the door. I was sitting on the couch right next to him and it felt really strange to feel my body like still. Humming with power and powerful wings that felt like part of me on my back. For all I knew they were legs. They felt so… familiar. As if I'd always had them.
'Ciel,' I said, happy to see that he was alright. Happy to use my own voice again.
He got up slowly and first looked at me with a hateful look before he realised that it was – in fact – me and not an imposter. 'So it's you, Clarissa?' he said, laughing a laugh without happiness. 'I should've known you would become my downfall.'
'Well, I'm not doing anything!' I immediately said, waving my arms. Then my hands suddenly stopped moving. It was as if Angela had woken up, and was taking control over again. I could feel my soul being pressed back somewhere in this mind and body. 'How did your past feel?' Angela asked, using my voice in a completely different way than I did. 'Was it soft like burnished velvet? Or was it more like over washed cotton's—'
'Shut up! That hand… was my father's hand' Ciel said hateful, but I again was too far gone to understand what he was talking about. Maybe I wouldn't even know if I wasn't lost in my own body. 'You killed them, didn't you?'
Angela gave no reaction, which in this case seemed like a confession.
'Why?' Ciel asked, disgusted and angry. 'Why did you kill my parents?! What could you have possibly gain—'
'"Killed?" What a disturbing thing to say,' Angela said with my voice. 'Am I the only one who harmed your parents?'
I didn't understand. Ciel seemed to be confused.
'Didn't your butler… No, didn't you kill them again?' Angela asked and I felt how she pressed my lips into a wicked smile. She laughed, but it certainly didn't sound like my laugh. 'You were brilliant. I didn't expect you to stay sane in the face of that distorted past.' She stood up now, slowly walking towards Ciel.
But Ciel was standing too, and starting to move backwards. 'Why, you…'
It was no use, of course. Angela – or I – was faster than Ciel could ever be. 'You are thoroughly sullied,' she said, appearing in front of him. 'However, underneath the surface is a glow that would be a shame to waste.' With my hands she grabbed his chin and brought my face closer to Ciel's. And Ciel looked at me with hateful eyes and even though I knew they weren't meant for me, it still sort of hurt. 'Shall I change your unsightly, impure past for you?' she asked, wrapping her wings around Ciel as she trapped him.
No, don't! I screamed at her, but I was almost certain she couldn't hear my. I couldn't do anything. Dammit. Why wasn't I stronger?
But more importantly, why wasn't Sebastian saving his precious master?
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POV change
'Angels have to ability to tamper with Cinematic Records,' Will explained to Sebastian. He'd joined their little rescue mission the moment he'd sensed Sebastian in the library. An angel on reaper grounds? That was uncalled for. And it would certainly cause him extra paperwork.
'They can change the past?' Sebastian asked.
'I doubt even God could do that,' Will said in a denying way. 'They merely give you false peace. It's what angels do before a human dies. They give them peace and bring them to heaven save and sound. But someone as powerful as the girl could probably just rewrite the past written in Ciel's soul, deleting the memories that drove him to darkness and cleanse his soul.' He readjusted his glasses. 'Not something you would enjoy, would you, demon?'
Sebastian didn't react, but he did start to run. Something like that really wouldn't be something he'd enjoy.
And even though Will would normally love to harm a demon, the girl and a human were involved with this, as well as the stolen Cinematic Records. If he took care of this tonight, a lot of his work would be gone.
They reached the main hall of the library, only to find Ciel in Clarissa's arms, his Cinematic Record flowing out of him like rivers. His body glowed with an angelic light. But the thing that disgusted the demon the most was that strange smile on Clarissa's face, a smile that clearly did not belong on that face. 'His past is being rewritten,' she said calmly. 'He's being purified, made clean and white as snow.'
Will just stood there, pretty impressed by the huge wings the girl had. Much bigger than average angel wings. Probably even bigger than the wings of that vile demon…
'Purified?' Sebastian asked, knowing that this only confirmed Will's earlier words.
'No one wants to harbour hatred,' Clarissa said, closing her now completely purple eyes. 'That holds true for him as well.'
That sounded like something Sebastian really didn't like. 'You master!' he said, starting to approach the girl.
'How rash,' Will said, almost sounding kind of bored. It actually made Sebastian stop his attempts to get closer to listen to what Will had to say. 'If you forcibly stop her now, the child's past won't be properly contained in him, and he will become less than human. Also, you still aren't allowed to harm the girl's body.'
'Yes, yes,' the other creature reacted using Clarissa's voice. 'He will become white as snow.'
No, he won't! a voice suddenly shouted through the library and Ciel flew out of Clarissa's grip, into the air. Sebastian didn't understand what was going on, but the reapers seemed to know. 'He's rewinding the Cinematic Record by himself?!' Grell said shocked.
No, Sebastian thought, narrowing his eyes. Not by himself. 'Clarissa!' he shouted, not even sure if she would be able to hear him.
Then Ciel's Cinematic Record rolled back inside of him and he started to fall down. Sebastian managed to catch him easily, but Ciel still looked like he was in pain. 'You always exceed my expectations,' Sebastian told him when Ciel opened his eye. 'You are truly worthy of being my prey… no, my young master.'
The fact that Ciel was saved didn't change the fact that something was still possessing Clarissa though. 'Tsk,' she said, disgusted. 'The horror of such an unclean heart! Depraved, stagnant, without light… My brother should never have shown you mercy.' She closed her eyes and stood with her wings spread. 'I shall purify you here and now!'
Sebastian took out his knives. 'Let's do it, then!'
Will didn't seem to like that idea. 'Still not allowed to hurt the girl, demon,' he said. 'But, disturbances in the library fall under grim reaper jurisdiction. So we'll at least join the fight, Grell Sutcliff.'
'Oh, we're a trinity! The door opens on a passionate battle!' Grell said fangirly, not even realising that this wasn't going to be much of a battle if they weren't allowed to hurt the opponent.
And then the Undertaker walked passed them, pushing a huge amount of books. 'Yes, yes, coming through,' he said casually. He walked up to one of the gigantic cases and started looking. 'Let's see… Number eight… number eight…'
'Undertaker!' Ciel said, surprised.
Undertaker just turned around and gave Ciel a small wave and a big smile. 'Hi!' he said and the somehow managed to make that small word sound incredibly long.
'Hey!' Grell said, confused. 'What are you doing here—?!'
Will smacked Grell on his head. 'Mind you tongue!' he ordered. 'This is the virtuoso who passed judgement on the famous Robin Hood and sent Marie Antoinette to hell. He is the legendary grim reaper who makes the staunchest of souls give up the ghost.'
'Wait a minute!' Grell said, not believing a word his elder said to him. 'He doesn't look anything like the fellow you just described!' He walked up to the Undertaker. 'How could this dreary old man be a legendary grim reap—' Grell pulled up the hair that covered Undertaker's face and whatever he found there, he obviously liked it. A lot. He hugged the man, who just smiled awkwardly, and said: 'Make love to me.'
Clarissa – or that things possessing her – clearly had enough of this stupid conversation and pulled herself up into the air while shining like the sun. 'As you seem so busy,' the creature said, using the sarcasm that this body was so used to, 'I'll start my purification with that abbey.'
'Running away again?' Sebastian screamed, trying to provoke the hybrid creature.
It ignored him completely. 'I shall show you all what happens to a world ruled by impurity.' Then she vanished.
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Clarissa's POV
Angela started to purify – or should I say 'torture' – everyone in the abbey while I still sat locked up in this body, only able to witness this horribleness. But then, Sebastian suddenly appeared in the middle of the church and I felt Angela's boiling anger. Still she spoke so calmly when she said: 'What a pious demon you are, to wish to die at an angel's hands… Sebastian Michaelis.' Huh. I totally forgot that that demon had a surname too. How odd.
'So, you're an angel?' Sebastian asked, narrowing his eyes. 'Why is an angel taking over miss Lane's body?' he threw a few of his knives, but Angela avoided them easily. Their positions changed. Now Sebastian was standing by the altar and she was standing in the middle of the church.
'Unless, you're not an angel anymore,' Sebastian said, clearly only trying to buy some time. 'But a fallen one. I've heard about you before. Mostly about how mad and obsessed you are.'
William T Spears appeared then, piercing Angela – and therefore – me to the wall with his gardening tool. 'Grell,' he said, handing over another death scythe to the reaper that just appeared right next to him.
'Yes!' Grell said, taking the death scythe to pierce Angela against the wall as well, both their strengths possible enough to hold her in place. Even though William had made sure that his death scythe barely hurt me, Grell was a bit more clumsy and I felt the pain in my wrist as his death scythe cut me.
'Wash it and return it when we're done here,' William told Grell, not saying anything about hurting me. Yet. Maybe it wouldn't matter now. Maybe they were already planning on killing me.
'You're so mean,' Grell said dramatically.
'Now then,' Will said, readjusting his glasses with his free hands. 'What to do about this situation? It doesn't seem like Clarissa is conscious in there right now.'
'Why not just kill it?' Sebastian said and even though my brain wasn't really working right now, I understood that he wanted me dead now that he saw what my body could do. I didn't blame him. I knew him way too well to blame him for what he was anymore.
'Clarissa, listen to me,' William said, sounding strangely serious. Even though he always sounded serious, this time it was different. 'You're more powerful than whatever is possessing you. If you don't get the overhand, we will have no choice but to kill you to save these people. And you don't want to die yet, do you? You haven't even said bye to the child yet.'
Geez, he really should stop with referring to Ciel as a 'child'. He was only two years younger than me. Jesus.
But his words gave me some power to try and fight back. But it was no use. You couldn't fight an opponent that you couldn't find. And right now, I was lost in my own head. I wanted to scream. Tell them that I wanted to live, but that I didn't know how. Where was my body? Where did it start, where did it end? I didn't know.
The moment Angela started to cry was the moment I realised that maybe I had never lost the control over my body to begin with. 'H-help me,' I managed to say, but then I noticed that my power was taken away from me, like two little children fighting over the controller of the Xbox or something.
Grell, Sebastian and Will both narrowed their eyes as they realised that I was – in fact – still there. Then I saw that Sebastian made a decision. I just saw it in his eyes. He realised what he had to do. The problem was that I didn't. And that look in his eyes kind of scared me for what he was doing to do. 'Bring her down,' he told Will.
Will readjusted his glasses again. 'I'm not going to what a vile demon like you tells me to do…'
'Just do it!' Grell said, almost sounding annoyed.
Will sighed, but agreed and together with Grell they put me down, but pierced me to the wall less high in the air to keep me – or Angela – from escaping.
Sebastian slowly came closer and everything he did was almost catlike. 'Clarissa… you haven't forgotten our little deal yet, have you?' he said, coming closer and closer until he finally touched my face. No. Angela's face. And Angela didn't like that at all. But I felt that my body did. My body was still my body and my whole body loved his touch. The angel inside of me didn't, though.
He tilted his head to the side. 'What? Are you telling me that you don't like me?' he said innocently. He leaned forward and pressed his mouth against my ear, breathing in my hair and neck as he said: 'Clarissa. Let me in.'
Angela started to scream and I felt I lost sight when everything bathed in light. The floor started to shake and I heard the sound of falling rocks. Was the building falling apart? I couldn't see.
'Feel free to run if you'd like,' I heard Sebastian say, to who, I wasn't sure. But it sounded further away.
'Grell Sutcliffe,' I heard William say, 'We'll retreat as well. Demon, take the girl with you before she blows the building up with herself still inside. That would cause me a huge amount of paperwork.'
I wanted to roll my eyes, but I felt like my eyes were burned away. Geez. Always worrying about his paperwork…
I heard how Grell made all sorts of funny noises while I felt Sebastian's familiar arms around me, holding me close to him as Will said: 'Well, really! Never mind overtime pay, I'd like to request a day off.'
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I wasn't lying on the ground as I woke up. I was laying against something hard and solid and I felt the morning sun on my face. I didn't want to open my eyes, though. Scared of Angela. Scared of Ash. Scared of Sebastian. Scared of everything this horrible world had to offer.
I started to panic, though, when I heard Ciel's voice say the words: 'A promise is a promise. Take it.'
I wanted to open my eyes, wanted to scream, wanted to save him. I didn't even get to say goodbye. But was it over? It wasn't over, right? It couldn't be over. I heard footsteps followed by silence, then, only a few second later, I heard that Ciel was still here. 'Why, Sebastian?! Why aren't you taking my soul?! We found her body! We killed her! She must be dead! Or…'
Even with my eyes closed I knew that Ciel was slowly turning to me to look at me. 'She's… you aren't saying… Do you mean there's someone else…?'
Short silence. Then: 'I'll be serving you a while longer, young master.' Another short silence. 'Well, then. Shall we return to the mansion? We need to tell the Queen that she doesn't need to worry about the occult anymore.'
A deep sigh. 'Yes. She has one worry less now,' Ciel said, but I knew he wasn't looking at his butler, but still looking at me. I could almost feel his eye on my face. 'But it seems I gained something new to worry about.'
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So, end of the chapter! Next one will mostly be filler, but also it will explain stuff to Clarissa (she still doesn't really know anything yet).
Sliver Moon Fairie: Ash and Angela. That's what happened. I'm happy that at least Angela is done now. I think. I hope.
promocat: well, Grell behaved himself rather nicely I must say XD
Guest: Thank you so much! Love to hear that people like it :)
MrMichaelisLover: Thank you so much! And yeah, there will be a bit more of that whole situation in the upcoming chapters and Sebastian will definitely be jealous (even if he won't be able to recognize this emotion).
Thanks everyone for reading and all that good stuff! Love every single one of you! Until next chapter! Bye bye!
