This chapter contains adult content with graphic sexual language. If you are not 18 please do not read.
Chapter 49 – Blissful Interlude
I had to admit to myself that most people didn't meet a completely broken girl and marry a mostly healed girl in less than a year. Most people didn't meet and marry someone in a year period. To societies way of thinking it may have seemed rushed or that I was taking advantage of the situation.
However, to a vampire, I seemed negligent and uncaring of my mate for waiting so long to claim her physically. Usually when we found our mates, we consummated the bond within hours not months, like was happening in my case.
At this point, I felt like I was going insane. My thoughts were consumed with my mate and our wedding night. My need to claim her and bond as closely as we could possibly was present in any thought I had.
The last few months had shown a progression in Bella's acceptance of physical intimacy. I never pushed or asked for anything from her, but the desire for more was always there.
I had a new appreciation for the high school boys that I had been around, always thinking about sex, and wanting more than the touches they were allowed. My libido that had been all but dead, was now in over drive. I was convinced I was going to be clogging my shower drain with the amount of masturbatory emissions that went down it daily.
For a while I was worried that I was objectifying my mate and wanting her purely for sexual gratification. As I looked closer, that wasn't the case. When I was with Bella, I was content with whatever we were doing. If it was simply cuddling or holding hands, it made me feel complete. It was when I was away from Bella that the desire for more flooded me. My inner monster would whisper seductively about all the ways that my mate would feel more tied to me once we physically bonded.
I was surprised when Bella and I were exploring each other the monster kept quiet. I was afraid that he would try to overrun the boundaries I had in place of never touching Bella in a way that she hadn't first done with me, but that pushing never happened. The monster remained quietly behind the bars I kept him in and stayed silent.
My wedding night consumed my thoughts as I dressed in a tuxedo amid preparations to marry that June morning. While I was excited for the act itself, I was nervous as well. Bella and I had done nothing passed topless touching. The human part of me was accepting of this as I still had the mindset of being pure for marriage. The vampire side of me didn't recognize such human institutions and saw no need to wait. Above all else was the ever present danger that I could so easily kill her in the act.
I sighed as I ran my hands through my hair. As I straightened my tie, I smiled into the mirror, wondering what it was that Bella saw when she looked at me. She said she couldn't see a monster and thought I was beautiful inside and out. I ruefully shook my head, not understanding how she couldn't see what I really was, but thankful for what she did see.
Carlisle came in, stopping me from more internal debate. "Only you, Edward, would be brooding on your wedding day." He winked.
"I'm not brooding, I'm internally accessing myself," I said with a smirk.
"And how is that different than brooding?"
"Brooding is negative in connotation. Self-reflection can be positive or negative."
He laughed. "I guess that's true. I hope that your reflections are happy on such a day as this."
"They aren't depressing, does that count?"
He grabbed my shoulder and guided me from the room. "For you, that is a huge step."
We walked from the dressing room slowly towards the sanctuary of the church. We were having a very small service, only my family and a handful of friends. Bella hadn't wanted to invite her friends from back home, I wasn't even sure if she had told them about the wedding. She still hadn't explained to me what was going on or why she wasn't talking to them as much as she once had. I didn't sensed anger or depression about it so I didn't push.
When I entered the sanctuary Pastor Weber was standing at the altar completely at peace. I had wondered how open he would have been to Bella and I marrying after what was really only months together, but it wasn't a concern. He saw the changes in Bella and was happy for her.
Carlisle stood next to me as my best man and we looked out at the people in the pews. I couldn't remove the smile from my face. Today Bella would be mine according to God and man and then we would complete our bond in the eyes of vampires. The thoughts of my family were all happy and excited. I couldn't image basking in a more peaceful or welcoming atmosphere for the most joyous occasion of my existence.
While picking up on the happy thoughts of all around me, I was doing all I could to block the specific thoughts of the women in my family. They were helping Bella get ready and Alice threatened to break all of my vinyl records if I peaked at how my mate looked. I wanted to see, but I also wanted to be surprised. Errant images of Bella still had the possibility of coming through since I couldn't block thoughts, but with proper focus, I could limit slips.
Soon Rose started playing Pachelbel's Canon in D on the piano and everyone turned in anticipation. Esme walked down the aisle wearing a light blue dress, barely containing her joy. Glancing at Jasper and saw he had a smile that resembled a buffoon, all the happy emotions were making him giddy.
I stared towards the back and finally saw Bella, a vision in her vintage wedding dress. She looked like she belonged from the time when I was human, making everything surreal. I wanted to rush forward and grab her. Carlisle must have suspected as much as he put a restraining hand on my arm.
Finally, after what seemed much too long, she was at my side. She placed her diminutive hand in mine and the rush of warmth from her skin grounded me as nothing else could have.
Looking back, I remembered everything with my photographic memory, so I knew I all that happened. On that day, though, everything seemed to fly by without me paying attention. I was focused on Bella and overwhelmed with the ceremony of it all.
All too soon Pastor Weber pronounced us husband and wife.
I turned to Bella, who had a beatific smile on her face, holding her as she melted into me as we kissed for the first time as a married couple. Ignoring the clapping and the cat calls from my brothers, we did not stop until I felt Carlisle nudge me and give a discrete cough.
Bella giggled as I pulled away and escorted her down the aisle. Soon we were surrounded by well wishers and I gave part of my attention to something other than the glorious creature next to me. I didn't want to share her. I wanted to leave immediately and take her away so we could be alone, but I knew that wasn't a real option. Thankfully, we didn't have anything elaborate planned for a reception, so we wouldn't be there much longer.
Bella amazed me with how confident she was. Admittedly, she knew my family and our friends, but not my cousins from. I had once told her that three of them were the original inspiration for all the succubus legends, yet she didn't falter at all.
Everyone left the church to go to the reception we were having at a restaurant called Post. Instead of a large sit down dinner when more than half the guests were vampires, we planned on having small finger foods laid out.
Bella and I rode to the reception alone in a chauffeured limousine. She cuddled up with me and we whispered to each other about the ceremony and everyone there.
Nothing prepared me for our reception. I had seen receptions in the minds of people over the past and hoped to never experience such mind numbing frivolity. Ours was wonderful. It was small with only twenty-five people, allowing everyone to enjoy themselves and surprisingly most of the humans didn't have a difficult time being around so many vampires in an enclosed place.
Three hours into the reception, Alice claimed Bella so she could change out of her wedding dress into something more suitable for our plane trip. I followed suit and took my tuxedo off, trying to not let my nerves start building about what would be happening when we reached our destination.
When Bella appeared, I pulled her to me, excited about where we were heading, knowing it was a surprise for her. Quickly saying our good-byes we left for the air port and boarded our family jet with the same pilots that had taken us to New York five months ago. Five hours into our journey, Bella inquired where we were going that was taking so long. I simply smiled, not giving her a clue.
When it came to the wedding, most of the planning had been done by Alice, Rose, and Esme. It wasn't that they didn't ask or want Bella's or my opinion; it was that we didn't have many to give. The few things that Bella had wanted, Bella got.
The honeymoon, though was all me. The only thing I didn't have complete control over was Bella's wardrobe. I didn't have the first clue about women's fashion so had Alice get outfits together for Bella telling her to remember Bella's demure nature. I knew Alice liked to push her boundaries and I didn't want to have Bella stressed about anything for the coming weeks.
Soon enough, we were landing in a private hanger in Rio de Janeiro. I woke my mate, who had been cuddled up tightly again my side for the last few hours, after falling asleep over Mexico. She blinked rubbed the sleep out of her eyes. I scooped her up and walked off the plane. Her eyes were wide taking in everything around her. Finally, she looked at me curiously. "Soon, I'll tell you where we are soon," I said as I leaned in and kissed her forehead.
I climbed in the limousine waiting to take us to the marina where we would take a boat for the last leg of our journey. When Bella saw the boat she gashed slightly and I'm sure she was worried about the fact that she stumbled on solid ground much less a boat that pitched.
"Don't worry, love. I've got you and won't let you fall."
She laughed. "Seriously, Edward, first we were in a car, then a plane, and now a boat. Is our honeymoon a tour of different types of transportation?"
I pretended to glare at her. "I promise we will do more than travel. We have a quick boat ride and we will be at our destination, after that no more going anywhere, unless you want to."
By this time we were on the boat. I started the engine and quickly hopped out to untie us. Once back on board I sat at the controls and Bella sat on my lap. I had long ago gotten over the embarrassment of Bella coming into contact with my erections when she was sitting in such a way. They were inevitable and actually helped her to see that even though I wanted her physically I wasn't going to push myself on her.
It wasn't long before I could see our destination. I paid close attention to Bella to watch her face as it came into view to her human eyes. I wasn't disappointed a few minutes later when she leaned forward to peer into the distance.
"That is our final destination."
She turned to me with huge eyes. "What is it?"
"Isle Esme," I replied. "Decades ago Carlisle bought it for Esme so she would have a get away from being in a houseful of forever teenagers. She was gracious enough to let us use it for an extended stay."
"Really?" she asked. Her eyes were sparkling, but I could see apprehension in them as well. We had talked about having a true wedding night and she told me she was ready for it. I believed she was, but could understand her fear and started preparing myself for more abstinence if she needed it.
I pulled her tighter into me. "Don't worry. Nothing has to happen. We've talked about it one hundred times. I don't want you pushing yourself to do something you aren't really ready for."
She laid her head on my shoulder. "I'm ready. That doesn't mean I'm not nervous. No matter how long I wait I'll be nervous."
We pulled up to the dock and I quickly tied the boat off and jumped back on for my bride. With my biggest smile I said, "Mrs. Cullen, your honeymoon awaits you." I picked her up again and listened to her laughter.
I entered the small beach house and set my angel down. Her eyes were huge as she looked around. I told her I was going to quickly grab our bags and that she should look around. When I came back in, she hadn't gone far. I smiled to myself seeing how she appreciated all the little details Esme used in decorating. Walking passed her, I opened the French doors that led out to the beach. She slowly followed behind me and gasped when she walked outside. I couldn't help but chuckle. My mate was not used to being around anything extravagant like an expansive porch that opened on to a beach of white sand and crystal clear water.
It was only late afternoon, as we had traveled through the night, and while I knew Bella was likely tired, I also knew she was probably nervous. "Do you want to go for a swim and get refreshed?" I asked.
She let out a pent up sigh. "That sounds like a good idea."
I led us back into the house looking for a bedroom. Once I found one, I put the suitcases out on a dresser and opened them so Bella could see what was packed for her. She had been hoping to take a peek at what was packed before we left thinking it would give her a clue as to where we were headed. It was my surprise for her, so I made sure she hadn't gotten get a glimpse of anything.
She came over and looked. "What in the world is this?" she asked holding up a scrap of cloth and strings.
I tilted my head. "A bikini top?"
"Seriously, what made you think I would wear that? There's nothing here."
I smiled hoping to appease her. "That might be my fault. I told Alice to buy you some swim wear. I didn't exactly specify what kind of swim wear. She only wears bikinis."
Bella rolled her eyes and mumbled, "Stupid vampires."
I was shocked when she made no further comment. Instead she walked into the bathroom with the small bits of clothing she had been holding. I gulped back venom just thinking of her in so little. A small part of me was happy that she didn't even consider all of her scars that would be showing, scars that I had now seen many times and not reacted to, making her feel less self-conscious.
I pulled out a pair of swim trunks, changed into them quickly, and then started putting everything into a dresser while I waited for Bella.
Sooner than I anticipated, she came out of the bathroom. I drew in a sharp breath as I saw more of her than I had ever before. Her milky white skin formed over a slender body that had curves in all the right places. She started fidgeting and I realized that I was staring at her without saying anything. I shook my head hoping to clear my thoughts, but it didn't really work.
"You are beyond anything I could have ever asked for or imagined."
I was rewarded with a faint blush that went halfway down her chest. "I have some suntan lotion here. Let's make sure you're covered before going out there. The sun is hot and I don't want you to end up burnt," I said with a smile.
She put lotion on her front and I helped with her back. I tried to imagine I was putting lotion on Mike Newton, hoping that would calm me down, but it didn't do much good as it was obvious it wasn't Mike I was touching.
As soon as Bella was covered in lotion, I went to the bathroom, grabbed some towels, and led her outside. Cold showers didn't work on vampires, so I doubted going into the warm ocean was going to do anything to cool my libido but I was willing to try. I needed to gain more control because seeing so much of Bella made me feel like I was going to lose it.
I set our towels down and walked a few feet into the surf. I turned and saw Bella trailing behind until she got to where the surf was just coming up to her toes.
"Are you scared of the ocean?" I asked.
She quickly looked at me smiling. "No, it's just . . . it's so warm I can't even feel a temperature difference."
I loved the excitement I saw in her eyes. "It is pretty warm compared to the ocean water in Washington State."
Soon she joined me and we swam for a while, playing and splashing, then finally just floating and enjoying the quiet. It was amazing that Bella accepted me as I was, a sparkling vampire, and made no comment. The sun was bright and I soon became concerned that Bella would need more sun lotion, plus she might be getting hungry. "Do you want to go in for a bit? We've been out here for a while and I don't want you to get burnt."
She flipped over and smiled. "Yeah, I'm ready to go in for a bit. This place is amazing. Can we check out the jungle?"
I laughed. "I don't know that it is considered a jungle, but yes we can take a walk through eventually. There aren't really any animals that can hurt you and there are some lagoons and nice beaches we can see."
As we walked, we talked about the different things to see and do on the island. I had never been here before, but Esme and Carlisle had given me plenty of ideas.
When we walked into the bedroom, Bella turned to tell me something and stopped. She looked at me and her eyes dilated as they swept over my body. If anyone else looked at me like my mate was looking at me now, I would be disgusted, instead I was instantly aroused.
We stood looking at each other for an eternity when she finally spoke. "Edward, I don't know how to say this. I don't know what to do right now."
I stood staring at her not knowing if she wanted to proceed where it felt like we were going or if she wanted to stop. "Do want to stop and go get something to eat?"
She whimpered and shook her head.
I let out a silent sigh of relief. "Bella, do you want me to touch you?"
Her earlier whimper turned into a moan and I could smell that she was aroused. I momentarily pondered if I should make her vocally articulate an affirmative response, but remembered that she was going to be control of everything so I let her moan be answer enough at this point.
I slowly walked over to her and took her hand. "Whatever you want, whatever you need," I whispered.
Her eyes dropped from mine and stared at my chest where there were still droplets of water. Slowly she raised the hand I wasn't holding up and touched my chest. "You aren't as cold," she said in surprise.
I softly pulled her to me. "The warm water and temperatures here make my body warmer, though I'll never get as warm as you are."
She nodded absently as she continued touching me. She soon let go of my hand so she could touch me with both of hers. I simply held her gently not wanting to do anything that could startle her. I was making sure to monitor her heart rate and noted it was faster than normal but not alarmingly so.
Then for the first time ever she placed her fingers on the waist of my trunks. She glanced up at me and I nodded so she knew it was alright to do whatever she was thinking. I saw her draw a breath and then she slowly tugged them away from my body drawing them down my legs.
Her hands had a slight tremor to them as she reached out and touched my erection. I groaned at the feel of the heat and softness of her light touch.
She looked up at me through her eyelashes. "I don't know what to do."
I pondered how to respond. It felt wrong to ask her to do what I did with myself to masturbate, but she wanted to know what I liked. I took her hand in mine and showed her how to touch me.
In an amazingly short amount of time, I reached down and stopped her ministrations. "If you keep doing that there will be a mess."
She blushed brightly. "Uh, would I get hurt?"
I was confused and removed her hand. My ability to think and form coherent sentences was in danger with her holding my penis.
She must have sense my confusion as she elaborated. "Your venom, would if hurt me if you . . . you know . . . did that on my skin?" At this point her skin was flushed to her stomach. I was amazed that a blush could travel so far.
"No, you wouldn't be harmed by that. I talked to Carlisle and there isn't much venom in that form of excretion." I internally rolled my eyes, "that form of excretion," I was talking like I was addressing a class of medical students and not my mate during an intimate situation. "I didn't ask you to stop for fear of hurting you, but because I want to touch you as well."
"Oh, okay," she replied shyly.
After a few moments of us staring at each other again I spoke. "You know we don't have to. We can do something else." The monster inside of me howled at the thought of being so close to being with my mate and not finishing.
"No!" she practically shouted. "No, I don't want to stop. I just don't know what to do."
I stepped forward and embraced her. "I don't know either. I know the technical, physical way things are suppose to be done, but this is a first for me as well. We'll learn together how to do things and what we like."
She melted into my embrace. "I like the sound of that."
"Now, knowing I'm not an expert, I have heard that things might be more comfortable if we are on a bed. How does that sound?" I hoped to lighten the mood a bit.
I felt her nod against me and I swept her up into my arms, moved to the bed, and laid her down. I rested above her with most of my weight off of her.
I leaned in and brushed my lips across hers. "I want to kiss you now."
Her breath caught. "Please," she breathed out.
"At any point you want to stop, tell me," I said as I leaned in and kissed her with all the love I had in me.
I worked my way down her throat past her collar bone, and started nuzzling at her breasts as I removed her top. It never ceased to amaze me how responsive she was to having them stimulated. I wondered if I could eventually bring her to orgasm just through stimulation of her nipples.
As I licked at her bosom, I let my hand drift toward her barely covered mound. I slowly stroked her above her bikini bottoms, entranced by the sounds my mate was making and the way her hips were bucking into my hand. I stopped sucking her breast and slowly pulled back so I could look my fill at her. She stared at me, lying completely still. I held her gaze as my hand slowly pulled her bikini bottom down. When it was off, I continued to look her in the eye a few moments longer before letting my eyes drift down. She was beautiful and I was in awe that such a creature was mine.
As I looked, I noticed that she was. I slowly circled a finger above her hair should be as I quirked an eyebrow at her. "Do you usually shave?"
I hadn't given any thought to what Bella would do with herself in that respect. I knew from the thoughts of the high school girls I had been around that it was more common in this era, but for some reason hadn't expected Bella to shave herself that way.
She turned red again. "It was Rose and Alice, the sisters from hell."
I stared at her in shock not expecting such a response.
"Remember when they took me for my special spa day full of relaxation last week?"
I nodded remembering how they wanted her to have a special day before the wedding to rest and relax.
"Yeah, well part of their relaxation day was getting waxed. They talked me into it saying they wished they could do the same and that you would probably love it."
"You know I would never want you to do something you don't want to, especially if it causes you pain." I bent down and kissed her where I had been touching her making sure to keep as far as I could from anything too sexual while still being in the area hair would normally be. "Let it grow back out if you want."
She shrugged. "I kind of like it now that it's done."
I nodded, done with conversation. I leaned over her again and started kissing her in earnest. Once she was responding, I slowly slid my hand down her side, paying close attention to her every reaction so I could stop if she showed any fear.
My hand was where it had never been before. I drew in an unneeded breath slowly slid my finger into her outer lips and felt the heat and wetness that covered her. I felt around until her hips bucked and she almost screamed. From her reaction, I assumed I was touching her clitoris, so I kept circling the small nub gently. By this point I had stopped kissing her and was watching all of the emotions my touch brought her cross her face. It was beautiful.
After a few more minutes of touching her like that she screamed out and her hips jerked so violently my hand came off of her.
I let her catch her breath and I moved my hand down slightly until I was circling her opening. I was nervous about hurting her knowing how she had been hurt in the past. When her breathing evened out, I looked into her eyes that were pleading with me as I inserted a finger into her. She shifted her hips and started moving against my finger. I groaned, thinking of how soon I it was going to be something other than my finger.
I wanted to make sure that everything that could be done to prevent her from being hurt was done. So I tentatively added another finger inside of her. I could feel her muscles stretching against me, but she gave no indication she was in pain.
"Are you okay? Does this hurt?" I asked.
"It doesn't hurt," she breathed.
"All right," I whispered.
" Edward?"
"What, my love?"
"I'm ready. I want to."
I stilled and didn't know quite what to do in that exact moment. Bella must have sensed my dilemma and she pushed on my shoulder. I followed her direction and laid back. We had talked a few weeks ago and I had told her that until I knew what to expect I wanted her to be in total control of our joining. She had been very hesitant at the idea, but understood that I was terrified of harming her by slamming myself into her too deeply or hard.
Bella slowly straddled my hips and I helped guide her. "Are you ready?" she asked.
"Completely. Are you?"
She nodded, reached for my erection, and guided it to her entrance. The damp heat I could feel without even being inside of her caused my already tense muscles to seize up tighter. She started lowering herself and I couldn't determine if I was in heaven or hell. Heaven, because the sensation was unbelievably amazing and hell, because it was all I could do to not give into my monster, flip us over and plunge fast and furious into her.
Once I was inside Bella as deeply as I could be, she paused for what felt like an eternity, and I knew if I was human I would have been sweating bullets. Slowly, she started moving her hips. I quickly became overwhelmed with the sensations and moved my hands from her hips looking for something to grasp onto. Within moments, every sensation coalesced within me and I ejaculated while crying out Bella's name.
When I could think coherently again, I was shocked and more than a little embarrassed at how quickly I had come to completion. I glanced at Bella who was staring at me in wonder and amazement as I was still sheathed within her.
"I'm sorry." I wanted to say something insightful or monumental after our first time making love and completing our bond, but I was to upset about my lack of performance.
Bella smiled and leaned over and kissed me. "Don't be," she said when she pulled away. "I thought it was amazing seeing you like that and I love having you inside of me. I feel whole in a way I never have before."
"It's our bond. It is fully formed now. I feel complete too."
She grinned at me sheepishly. "I know I'm not the most experienced person, but aren't you supposed to be softer by now?" She emphasized her question by squeezing me with her internal muscles.
I moaned at the sensation. "If I was human I would be, but vampires have pretty much no recovery time and can go for hours and with multiple ejaculations."
She looked surprised. I guess it made sense that no one would have explained that to her as it was just how things were and I know it never occurred to me to explain it before hand.
"So we could keep going if we wanted to?" she asked.
I gave her the crocked smile I knew she loved. "I'm ready for more if you are."
She tentatively started rocking her hips again and soon she found a rhythm that she liked and a position that made her moan. It was all I could do again to keep my hips stationary and soon my hands, which had been holding something to give me control, were free. I sought out something else to grab and was distracted as the walls inside Bella clenched tightly and she called out as she came. I was blown away by the sight and the sensations and followed soon after her.
When she was done she, fell boneless against my chest. As soon as I felt in control of myself I reached down and held her. Part of me hoped that somehow time would stop and I would never have to let her go. Everything felt right and perfect in that moment.
"I love you," she whispered.
"Not nearly as much as I love you," I replied.
"Thank you, Edward, for giving me the perfect first time."
I was grateful for her considering this her first time since I definitely didn't consider what happened to her to be a real first time. "It was perfect, huh? Would that include my race to the finish in the beginning?" I was hoping Emmett never heard about it or I would never hear the end of the pre-mature ejaculator comments.
Bella scoffed. "I think it was perfect. It was a perfect beginning for two people who don't know what they are doing and learning together. Everything doesn't have to be candle lights and romance, sometimes life is better when it's real."
I kissed the top of her head. "No matter how life is, it's perfect when you're with me."
Bella didn't respond and soon her breathing let me know she had fallen asleep. I considered moving her off of me, but didn't want to move her even one inch so I let her sleep on while I dreamed of how perfect the rest of our honeymoon was going to be.
So what do you think of that? It wasn't the prefect first time, but I felt it was realistic. I'm sure some are upset, but hey it's how I have seen it from the beginning.
Right now I am planning one more chapter that will wrap all the lose ends up. I know there may seem like a lot of them and yes I know you all want Bella to become a vampire. Chapter 50 should be out soon. I have more than half of it written.
I am sorry I haven't been responding to reviews. I am reading them all, but I have very limited time to write. So it was either take a lunch and respond to reviews, or write and edit. I figured you wanted a chapter.
Huge thanks for Nissa for sticking with me and pre-reading and a HUGE, I mean HUGE thanks to Burtncore for beta'ing for me. This was a pretty long chapter.
