Authors Note:

Okay, so I want to do a time jump, but I felt like it was a good thing to show this little part! Let me know what you think and leave a review! :)

Chapter Fifty One

Karina POV:

Today was my first time talking to someone about everything that happened, and how I reacted to it, and I was pretty nervous. I knew I messed up with everything I did to Aunt Izzy, and Uncle Simon, and I hate that I broke the trust that they had in me, and I wish I could take it back, but I just couldn't.

My mom and dad dropped me off at the office about 15 minutes ago, and I was waiting to be called back. I couldn't be more thankful for those two. I knew they weren't happy with me, but they still were doing everything in their power to help me. I don't know where I'd be with out them.

"Karina Herondale?" I heard and I looked up and there stood a woman. "Follow me." She said and I stood up and followed. We walked down the hallway and into a room. I took a seat on the couch and she sat in the chair. "Good morning Karina."

"Good morning." I said and she smiled.

"What brings you to me today?" She asked.

"A couple months ago I was sexually assaulted." I said and it still was hard to think about let alone communicate.

"I'm so sorry." She said.

"He didn't get past groping and kissing, but…" I said as I trailed off.

"Sexual assault is sexual assault. It doesn't matter if it was just kissing and touching." The doctor said. "How did you escape?"

"It was actually my brother who pulled him off me." I said.

"Your brother was there?" She asked.

"My parents run an Olympic Training Facility." I explained. "I was doing some last minute inventory for my dad in the snowboard shed, and when I was leaving he pinned me up against the shed. My brother lives on the property and he found me and pulled him off."

"What happened after that?" She asked.

"I don't really know. I was crying." I said. "My dad came out and scooped me into his arms and took me inside."

"How did your parents react?" She asked.

"My dad kept a close eye on me, and my mom was just really supportive, but after about a week my mom thought it was a good idea to send me to my aunt and uncles house so that I could just get away and clear my head and stop thinking about it."

"Where do your aunt and uncle live?" She asked.

"New York." I said.

"That's pretty far." She said.

"Yea, but my mom was right. I just kept staring at the shed, and thinking about what happened. I needed some time away, and I was glad that I got to go visit them." I said.

"How long were you there?" She asked.

"A month and a half." I said. "I was supposed to stay for two months, but I messed up."

"How so?" She asked.

"I stole some of my aunts make up, I stole her car, I stole money from my uncle." I said. "I was a real bitch. Wait, can I say that?" I asked and she laughed.

"You can say whatever you want in here." She said and I nodded.

"I mean, they opened up their home to me, and were extremely supportive and caring, and I go and just break all of that trust? Who does that." I said.

"A person in shock." She said. "Someone still being haunted by what happened."

"My sister confronted me about it after I came home." I said. "She told me in so many words to get my head out of my ass and start thinking about more than just myself." I said.

"And how did you feel about her telling you that?" She asked.

"I slapped her." I said. "Really hard."

"What did she do?" She asked.

"She was pissed, but before anything could happen Gallagher stepped in and broke us apart." I said.

"Is Gallagher your boyfriend?" She asked and I smiled.

"No." I simply said.

"But you want him to be." She said.

"He's an athlete at my parents facility. I've known him since I was like 5." I said. "He's always been a really close friend of mine. I didn't really think much of feelings or anything like that until I went to stay with my aunt and uncle. I realized that I actually really missed him, and when I got back I was so glad that he was there."

"Did something happen between the two of you?" She asked.

"I kissed him, and he rejected me." I said.

"Because he doesn't feel the same way?" She asked.

"I didn't really give him the chance to explain." I said.

"Why not?" She asked.

"He told me that it was his last session at the facility, and I just stormed away from him." I said. "I avoided him the last 5 days, and than he left."

"And you haven't spoken or seen him since?" She asked.

"He lives in Australia." I said. "Not a very easy commute." I said and she laughed. "I've texted, but he hasn't answered."

"Do you think he's avoiding you?" She asked.

"I don't know. He told me that things at home were tough, so I have been trying to tell myself that it's because he's busy, but who knows." I explained.

"Well Karina, our time is up for today." She said.

"It's already been an hour?" I asked and she laughed.

"Time goes by when you have a lot to say." She said and I nodded. "Same time next week?" She asked and I nodded. "Great. See you next week Karina." I walked out of her office, and into the waiting room. My dad was sitting there waiting for me, and some woman was twirling her hair and talking to him. My dad was far too polite to completely ignore her, but I could tell he wasn't enjoying the conversation.

"He's married." I said as I made my way over to them."

"Certainly not to you sweetie." The girl said and I laughed.

"I would hope not." I said. "He is my dad after all." I said and her eyes widened.

"You ready to go baby?" My dad asked and I nodded. He stood up and turned back to the girl. "Nice talking to you." He said and than we left. He draped his arm around my shoulders and we made our way out to the car.

"Where is mom?" I asked.

"We figured we'd get some lunch after you were done. She's at the restaurant waiting for us." He said.

"You left her alone?" I asked and he laughed.

"She's a big girl. She can handle herself." He said and I laughed.

We got to the restaurant and we were led back to the table. The waiter was standing at the table talking to my mom, clearly trying to flirt or something, but failing miserably because my mother didn't look happy about him being there. When we got a bit closer I decided to speak.

"She's married." I said just like I did for my dad and the waiter looked up, mumbled an excuse and than left. My dad and I took a seat and they both laughed. "Honestly you two, you need to be a little meaner." I said and they both laughed again.

Lunch was great. I felt like I was getting back to my old self, and I was glad that my parents didn't give up on me. They were so incredible patient with me, and willing to do whatever they could to help me. I don't know why I jumped off the deep end so far, but I knew that I was never going to do it again, and I was going to spend the rest of my life apologizing to Aunt Izzy and Uncle Simon for what I did to them.