I apologise for me taking so long to update. If any of you are wondering, it is because I have taken on a Big Bang challenge called Journey Story. It is to write a story, or story series or one shots about a journey. The journey could be anything. I am doing two story series for it, since there is plenty of time and both ideas sprang into my head. While one, a Doctor Who one done in River Song's POV will need a lot of pre planning on my part, the other, a Star Trek: TOS series does not.

Both are emotional journeys. One between River and the Doctor and them moving towards the relationship they have that is being hinted at. And the other is a series which spans from Spock leaving for Starfleet to Sarek's death in Unification and their father/son relationship.

I have been spending most of this time writing the Star Trek ones. And since I am a slow writer and write mainly a few hundred words a day, I am almost finished 2 of the stories now, and have the ideas for plenty more. Most are from canonical television/movie events, though a few are my own made up story and not based off of anything other than my own imagination. I do not class the books as canon, so I am not using them as material. Neither am I using TAS. Just TOS, TNG and the first 6 movies give or take one or two.

There will be twelve stories in each series. And they can all be read separately or together, as they are interconnecting one-shots, not a chaptered story, though they will follow chronological order and be posted as chaptered stories here. Well, as chronological as you can get for River's :P Each will be 1000 words or longer.

I will try to remember this story exists while writing my new little series, but my mind is more focused on TOS Sarek and Spock right now, not AOS Sarek. So, until they are written, expect sporadic updates of this when I get an idea and work it in.

Sorry for the inconvenience, though I hope some of you will be interested in my story series.

Yes, this note is much longer than the actual letter...

I'll shut up now and let you read :P


Amanda,

Spock has asked me if I had any visual reminders of you. Since the only thing I have was your last birthday vid, I gave him five minutes of footage from that. He should be pleased with it. It showed both of us happy. I think he believes me incapable of catering to your emotional needs.

I did not watch the vid. I am not ready for that. I cannot stand the thought of seeing you there on the screen looking so happy and alive, while knowing you are dead and no longer here.

I am depressing myself with these thoughts.

I doubt I will sleep tonight. I will be too busy wondering what Spock will say about that footage.

It may help him sleep to see your image.

I only remember it as the thing that broke me, right now. I will watch it when I am ready, not a moment sooner.

Will there ever come a time when I do not wish you were here with me to help him through these problems?

I need to go and do something positive now, before I go back to lying in bed staring at the walls or ceiling. I do not like when my mood drops that low, it is hard to get back up again.

I understand that now. I never did when you were grieving.

I love you.

Sarek.