"Rebecca? Rebecca?".
"Hm?", I looked up from the bed where I was laying on my side and looked up at Jay who had just come back from going outside for fresh air. It's been a month since we've seen Tim, and not even seeing him around town was starting to get to me. I could understand him being pissed at Jay for leaving him. To be honest, I was slightly peeved by that as well. But I would have thought he'd contact me... Unless of course he thinks something happened to me, but the footage from my camera and Jay shows I was fine. Though we never did see who it was that knocked me out and brought me to the car.
"I was just checking my phone for missed messages, and Tim called last night".
"He did?!" I sat up so quickly it was surprising I did'nt break any part of my body.
"Yeah", Jay nodded. "I just called him and we're meeting up in a little bit".
"Well let's go then!", I said as I got off the bed. At that moment I did'nt know whether to be relieved that Tim was alive at least, or pissed off because he was gone for so long and did'nt contact us. The possibility that something had happened was the only thing that would keep me from just loosing it with him.
We arrived at a small housing estate, during the daylight hours thankfully. Me and Jay stood outside the car as we waited for Tim.
"So, you sure this is the place he said?", I asked Jay.
"Tim said this was the place", Jay answered. "It's the right address".
"I know this is a stupid question to ask, but do you think Tim's okay?", I asked hesitantly.
"...I'm not sure", Jay mumbled. "And, to be honest, I'm not sure if I can one hundred percent trust him".
"Why do you say that?" I was trying my best not to let my emotions show in my question, but I was peeved by what Jay had just said.
"It's just that, with everything that's happened, I feel like... I feel like my ability to trust has been badly damaged", Jay answered. "No offense, but I'm surprised that your able to still trust".
"It's really only my brother who I think I can't trust", I admitted. "I mean, he tried to kill us during those missing seven months, and he attacked me just a month ago, and for all we know he could have murdered me".
"That's true". We were silent again before I asked,
"Do you still trust me?"
"You've been with me from the beginning, and stuck by me even though I've messed up your life", Jay told me. "I mean, if it was'nt for me, you would probably be happy in college right now. Maybe you would have gotten together with Tim earlier even", he added dryly.
"... Jay, there's something I have to confess", I said. There was something I've been keeping from him for a few years and I felt I had to get it off my chest.
"What is it?"
"... I never just decided to take a year off before college", I admitted. "I signed up for a scholarship for this course I really wanted to do, and I got it because the guy who originally had it was in a coma. But, a couple months before I was going to go, I was told the guy woke up from his coma so I lost the scholarship, and it was too late to apply to other colleges. I did'nt tell anybody because... because I felt like to admit to it would be like... like saying I'm a failure and an idiot for putting my hopes in that scholarship. So, I just told everyone I decided to take a year off. I was going to try and apply the following year, but when you contacted me and I thought I could hold it off a year".
"What about your Aunt Edna?", Jay asked. By the sounds of it, he was surprised by my confession.
"I told her the same and got a part time job at a book store".
"... Why are you telling me this now?"
"... I just feel, if anything does happen, that it would be wrong for you to think I just decided to take the year off".
"... Does Tim know?"
"... I was thinking of telling him", I admitted. "I mean, I know he is'nt going to think any differently of me so I guess I don't have a reason not to tell him. But I don't have a reason to tell either".
"You told me", Jay pointed out.
"Touché", I mumbled. "And one more thing Jay, if your going to upload this to YouTube, I'd appreciate it if you did'nt add any of this on".
"Sure. No problem", Jay agreed with me.
"Good". I nodded my head and thought back to the flashdrive I had a few months ago that had me possibly murdering Michael. "And, there's something else I need to-". But just a few seconds before I could say anything, we heard a door opening and we looked behind us to see Tim getting out of his car. I guess we were so busy talking we did'nt hear his car pull up.
"We were'nt sure you'd be coming back", Jay said as Tim walked up to us, holding the camera he had with him back at the trail. He seemed to be limping slightly and looked like something was really bothering him.
"What happened?", I immeadietly asked.
"I don't remember", Tim said before he held the camera out to Jay. "Had this with me the whole time though".
"Okay, thanks", Jay said as he took it.
"I know it was recording the whole time we were at the park", Tim said as Jay put the camera in the back seat of the car. "But the batteries are dead now. I don't know how long they lasted".
Jay mumbled something I did'nt really hear before sighing.
"Listen. There's some things we need to talk about", Tim said as he sat on the edge of the pavement.
"Alright, well now would be the time", Jay commented.
"There's something I need to show you too".
"Around here?", I asked.
"No. Neither of you are going to like this, but we need to go back to that hospital", Tim told us and for that moment I felt like I had forgotten how to breath.
"The fuck?"
"What? Why? No, why would we do that?", Jay demanded.
"Look, if we're going to keep working together, it's just something we need to do", Tim explained. "I guess you'll just have to trust me on this one".
"Not really a trusting person anymore Tim", Jay said.
"I know, I understand that. I would'nt ask either of you to do this if it was'nt important".
Jay seemed to be thinking this over, but he soon had a reluctant looking face on before he asked,
"Are you sure it's going to help?"
"Yeah".
"Your positive?"
Hmm".
"If he really thinks so I don't see why not", I added hesitantly. After what happened last time there I was a bit reluctant myself, but in hindsight I doubted we would go into the maintenance tunnel again.
"...Alright, let's go over there now and get it out of the way", Jay gave in.
"Wait, hang on", Tim said as he tried to stand up. He seemed to be having some difficulty so I gave him a hand which he seemed pretty thankful for. "I can't just yet. I need to... go talk to my boss and see if I still have a job. Probably don't, but it's worth a shot I guess". I frowned a little as Tim said that. I had forgotten about the fact that he had a job unlike me and Jay and would possibly loose it. I felt some guilt coming up for what happened at the nature trail. Maybe if I had'nt left Tim and Jay halfway through then I could have helped Tim out.
"Okay. Yeah, do that. I'll be around. Just call whenever your done, and we'll head over there", Jay said as he went ot go into the drivers seat.
"Okay", Tim mumbled as he went to his own car, but I quickly went up to him.
"Wait, Tim".
"Hm?"
"...", I bit my lip and gave him a comforting hug.
"What's that for?", Tim asked, a bit surprised but my sudden action.
"I just... I just felt like you needed a hug", I mumbled, feeling my face heat up from embarresment.
"...Thanks", Tim murmured before he kissed my cheek and got into his car.
"So, what are we going to do while we wait for Tim?", I asked Jay when we got back to the hotel to wait for Tim to call.
"Well, we might as well see what happened to Tim at the trail", Jay mumbled as he held up the camera. I swallowed and nodded my head. I felt I had to see what happened. I felt it would give me some closure on what had happened to Tim.
However, I could'nt help but second guess the need for closure after watching Tim drowning, shouting for me and Jay, being dragged through a forest, finding the body of the man Alex murdered, having some sort of seizure, coughing up blood and possibly something that scared me the most, Tim hallucinating at the hospital and trying to OD on pills. I don't know if it's because of how terrified Tim seemed when he was at the hospital or the fact that as someone who has had hallucinations, if there had been a time off camera where I had tried to kill myself. It seemed farfetched a little, but it could have been possible.
At the end, when Tim collapsed onto his back, all I could do was hug myself and try to keep my breathing steady. Even Jay seemed shaken.
Date: 19/11/12
Time: 12:15
Tim is back, but the stuff we saw happen to him on the tape makes me feel ill.
We're going to be meeting with him back at the hospital. But, Tim suffered there. Even if he does'nt remember what it is, I still don't see why he would go there of all places in the world.
It must be pretty important.
Rebecca Kralie.
That entry... So many feels... So many.
Rebecca: *sniff and shaking in corner*
And thus Troy Wagner's sadistic side was revealed to us on November Nineteenth, 2012.
At least Rebecca was able to give a hug to Tim for the fandom!
And congratulations! As of November twenty fifth, this story has had fourty four chapters, thirty four reviews, 100350 words and has given me both pride in knowing I have created a story people like and love! It gives me confidence in my ability in writing since I want to be a writer.
What I'm trying to say is, thanks for the support, reviews and all of that!
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