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Chapter 50
APOV
I appeared at home, seconds after leaving Jasper and Peter. I brushed by Harry and began to pack my things in a hurried fashion. "Annie what are you doing? Where are you going?" Harry asked me, confused and starting to panic. "I don't know anywhere but here." I said as I threw clothes into my suitcase. I didn't even register Harry's, "I'm sorry." Until my bedroom door shut and was warded from the outside.
I knew that I could break the ward on the door, but that meant hurting Harry and I wasn't prepared to risk that, no matter how badly I wanted to leave. I placed my hands on the door and begged Harry to let me out; I began to scream when I felt Jasper and Peter cross onto our property. No! I can't let him find me here! I thought as I began to push against the wards and began to scream. By the time I felt them come up the stairs I was half screaming, half sobbing for Harry to let me out.
I knew that it wasn't going to happen so I curled up in a ball, dry sobbing and rocking back and forth. I was so caught up in crying that I didn't even register that the spell had dropped, let alone that Jasper had entered the room, until I felt his arms wrap around me, "Sweetheart don't cry please. It kills me to see you cry." He whispered into my hair. "What are you doing here?" I asked once I had calmed down. He brushed my bangs back from my forehead.
"I'm here because I love you. I wanted to correct this whole giving me back my ring thing, because I want you to be Mrs Jasper Whitlock forever. I meant it when I was human and I mean it now. I love you; please say you'll wear my ring again?" I was speechless as he pleaded with me. I studied him, looking for any kind of false feelings or lies and found none. He really meant what he was saying.
My heart unclenched as I threw myself at him, saying, "Ne vous inquiétez pas, mon cœur. I won't ever leave you. I couldn't leave you. It hurts a more and more each time I leave you. I don't think the next time I would be strong enough to leave; I love you far too much." I let him pull me until I was straddling his lap and gave myself over to the passionate kiss he was giving me. We stayed joined at the mouth for a long time, just savouring the taste of one another and relishing that we finally had the chance to kiss each other in private after so long.
As we kissed I felt Jasper's hands slide underneath my tank top, resting on my phoenix tattoo and I felt rather than heard him purr at the feeling. His bare hands on my skin felt amazing; they were so warm and rough even when I knew they shouldn't be. It finally registered what was happening when I felt his hands slid further up my back. I froze and wrenched myself away from his lips. I stood across the room from him and looked at him pleadingly.
"Non Jasper, you don't want to do that." I whispered, shaking my head. I knew it was stupid, that he had scars of his own, but I still felt like he didn't need to touch me at all. He sighed as he stood and tilted his head to the side. "Why wouldn't I want to touch you? I need to touch you, Morgana. Please don't deny me that." I sucked a breath in as he said this, while walking toward me.
I shook my head, my lose hair flaying everywhere at the force of the action. "No Jasper please. You won't like what you find. I'm not perfect." I curled my arms around my body and I stopped almost stopped breathing as he stopped a hairs breath away from me. "I don't care, Morgana. I'm not exactly perfect myself yet do you still want me?" I nodded, of course I wanted him. "Well if you can still want me then, I can still want you." I sighed and looked at the floor. My head shot up when Jaspers white t-shirt landed on the floor in front of my feet.
"Look Morgana. I'm covered in scars from my years in the South, with Maria. Can you feel that fear?" I nodded the fear was so intense, "That's what I'm feeling now, I'm scared you're going to turn away in fear or disgust and I'm going to lose you. Am I?" He asked me, I knew he was waiting for an answer but I was so furious I couldn't think through the haze of red that clouded my vision.
I broke out of my rage induced stupor when he tried to reach for his shirt. I stopped him by placing a hand on his chest, over his heart. I registered how good it felt to touch him but I was so blinded by rage all I could do was snarl out, "Who the hell is this Maria? Where can I find her?" I let my hand gently explore his chest and almost purred at the touch. I knew he could feel my anger and I didn't care, he needed to know how much I cared about him.
"Why do you want to know?" He asked hesitantly. "I want to know becuase I'm going to hunt her down and make her suffer for all she put you through. I'm going to make her pay for the pain she has caused us both. She is going to fear me." I snarled out, my different magics vying for dominance. I could see in his gaze when he realised that I really would go after Maria and I felt a flash of paralyzing fear before he dragged my hips into his and kissed me fierce and quick.
"I love that you want to avenge what was done to me, but I never want you anywhere near Maria, ever. She will hurt you just for the fun of it and I don't think I could stand to see you in pain." I heard him whispered against my lips. At this statement my anger vanished and I knew my eyes would be ruby.
It thrilled me to the bone that he just wanted to keep me safe, but he needed to understand my feelings for him and how they affected me. "Jasper she can't hurt me. The only person who has that power is you. You are my only weakness." I whispered sending all of the feelings I had for Jasper at him while placing a soft kiss on his lips.
I lost myself in the kiss as Jasper clutched me tighter and kissed me passionately. I jerked back when he ripped my tank top off me I stood there nervous and hoping that he didn't shrink away in disgust. He looked me over slowly before whispering, "God you're beautiful." His face had an awestruck look on it. Salazar I am not beautiful. I thought as I shook my head, turned around and swept my hair over my left shoulder, letting him see the full collection of scars.
There were several scars made by a whip, from when Riddle had tortured me for Harry's location. I also had several curse and hex scars that due to their dark nature had to heal without the help of magic and so had scarred. I knew that he would be seeing the Phoenix at the base of my spine, where he placed his hand and I purred when I felt his fingers lightly stroke over it.
"Like that do you darlin'?" He whispered into my right ear before placing a kiss on the Magnolia blossom behind it. I shivered and sighed out, "Yes Major. I love that. Can't you tell?" I knew that teasing him probably wasn't the best thing to do, but it turned out that he ignored the teasing and pulled me closer anyway, his chest to my back.
Suddenly I went from enjoying the feeling of the contact to being turned around and pushed onto my bed. I fell back onto my bed, my head on my pillow with my hair fanned out around me. My eyes followed Jasper as he stalked up the bed like the predator he was, running his hands up over my legs and across my stomach before lightly passing over my breasts. He finished by resting his hands on either side of my head, looking down into my eyes. "Do you still want me darlin'? Even after all you can see? After all you know about me?" He asked, resting his forehead on mine.
I smiled up at him, nodding, "I don't care what that evil whore made you do Jasper. I don't care what you look like. I will always want you, you are MINE Major. Both of you belong to me, just as I belong to you. There are not enough words on the planet to describe how much I want you." I passionately told him before grabbing his hips and pulling his body down to rest on mine. "I want you so much Major, Jasper. ¿Quieres ayudarme a salvar a un caballo? Well will you major?" I asked cheekily, quirking an eyebrow and smirking. "Por supuesto, querida." I heard him whisper before he began to kiss me passionately.
