6 Months Later
The house was damn quiet for once no damn dog driving me insane and no cat trying to eat my baby. It only meant one thing Jess was still asleep, because when she awoke those two devils she had following her around at the house caused havoc. I wanted Jess to come back to Charming but not in these conditions. She was barely here, she was quiet and kept to herself she was going to lose herself if she kept like that. We all go thru it and I would take her damn place for her not to be hurt.
"Jess" I called out as she had closed the door to her room. Really on this day, I had to put the I'm in charge of the Old ladies and treat Jess as my daughter. She needs me right now, she is still not strong or ready to handle this. I walked into the room as she was walking around the room claiming that she wanted to be alone and to think about something. She finally sat down and just started crying.
"Mom please not now" she said as I just sat next to her and pulled her to me. "I don't want to hear the it happens to all of us." she mumbled between sobs.
"Screw that shit" I said as Luann walked in. The guys all stayed downstairs they don't deal with this crap, we are the ones that suffer with this shit. I needed Donna up here, she would probably know what to do. Jess had not stopped crying and began claiming she just wanted to be alone.
"Shit what the hell is going on?" asked Luann as she stared at us.
"Just get me Donna" I told her as I realized she was probably the one that would be able to calm her. Luann didn't ask anything anymore and ran downstairs. Moments later Donna came into the room and went straight to Jess.
"Jess it's alright" said Donna as Jess hugged her back but did not stop crying.
"Maybe we should get her something." said Luann, both me and Donna looked at each other and then back at Jess. Rest would help her, and after we can talk after she had time to process this.
"Just give it to her." said Donna making the decision.
"Alright hold on." said Luann as she left the room in a hurry as Donna and I holding on to Jess. She was a mess, Luann walked in with a water bottle and something else.
"I don't want it just leave me alone" said Jess as she just stayed with Donna. Donna just grabbed the bottle and the pills and was able to coax Jess into taking them. We helped Donna stand up and get Jess to bed since she passed out.
"I'm staying with her" said Donna as she got in next to her as we left the room. I sat outside the door as Luann joined me. We had both go thru this, well Luann was going thru this we just needed some time Jess would come around.
"Everything is going to be fine. Jess is strong she will pull thru with all this. " said Luann.
We needed something, for know Ellie had become a good distraction for her for now.
"Morning" said Clay as he walked in and sat down. "Is Jess sleep?" he asked as he looked at the keys. I just nodded.
"Should have figured why he was out" said Clay referring to my baby. I just glared at him, he just bonded with that Midnight since they both hated my baby.
"She got back late" I said as he just nodded after visiting Hap she seems to close up a bit then after a day she seems back to whatever she is right now.
"Did she talk about it?" he asked he already knows the damn answer.
"No maybe I could get something out of Donna" I said since they have been together the whole time during this ordeal. Not that I expected otherwise.
"I"m surprised she hasn't moved over there." he said. I get what he is saying. At first Donna stayed over here, then Jess stared staying over there after sometime they went back to normal.
"Jess wants to move out." I said as Clay just looked at me. I knew he preferred her at the house.
"Has she asked Hap about that? He asked.
"That's what she was going to do yesterday." At first she had made the decision on her own but then I told her to ask Hap about it and it bothered her. Knowing her she was just going to do what she wanted.
"Well she can't move out till he gives her the okay." he said since Hap told her to stay at the house.
Happy
Jess was still adapting to seeing me here. It probably would have hurt her more to see Jax sitting here rather than me. The fact that we didn't have to talk just sit there, she rambled for what seemed like hours on the letters but when she was in front of me she just enjoyed the silence and the small amount of time we had for each other. Four fucking years was nothing to me, doing time for the club never bothered me before but now I had an Old lady to care about it wasn't just me in all this but the club came first.
"How would Jessica Teller handle that, she is after all she is very young." he said as he had finished questioning me after I refused to answer any of his shit. I didn't say shit, typical asshole bringing her up in this bullshit. I talked to Tig to have my back with Jess he said that I didn't even ask. She had all Samcro looking out for her.
"Four years is a long time Mr. Lowman." he added. He thought he could use the fact that Jess was out there alone, but the fucker did not know who Jess was really like. "Well you will find out then, beside she is young and still hasn't found her way yet." he said as he walked out. Fucking asshole.
She was going to change and will take us some time to adjust when I got out. Seeing her here was a good and bad thing, she made it seem like nothing was going on and that this was nothing. I knew she held back what she was really feeling when she came. At least she stopped getting all tear eyed every time she sat in front of me. The last visit started out going a direction I was not in the mood for, she was going to do whatever she wanted and I couldn't do shit about it yet.
"I'm looking for an apartment" she said as Tig had left the table to give us time. I would of preferred Tig to stay so that if a fucking fight he was here to protect her.
"I prefer you at the house" I said she was safer and a little controlled. I knew her crazy ass would not do that good alone.
"I know but it's better for me Hap since me and mom clash a lot." she said as she looked around. She was used to this shit but what was pissing me off was the fact that she decided this in herself rather than asking first.
"Then do whatever the fuck you want" I said as she looked at me and just nodded.
"I'm going to go visit your mom, she called me the other day I have been trying to keep all this covered but she is worse than you figuring out that I'm lying." she said as she smiled at me. I just grabbed her hand as the guard looked away. Memorizing the feel of her touch I fucking missed her and we still had a long fucking time to go. Time was up and the guard was ready.
"Do what you need to do" I said as she hugged me. I wanted her to adjust if something went out of my control here.
"I love you Happy" she said as the fucker cleared his throat. She moved out of my grasp and walked over to the exit.
I had plans for her when I get out of this shit hole. I knew this probably wasn't going to be the last time I would end up locked up but I will at least try for her and for mom to stay out of this shit.
Jess
I awoke I had to get myself together. This happens all the time almost everyone goes thru this I told myself this every morning. I threw the covers off me as I noticed Killer was snuggled with Midnight next to me. I guess I'm not alone, who the fuck am I kidding my companions are a cat and a dog. I had to get out of the house to make sure mom wouldn't see this as a permanent thing. Four years seemed an eternity to me, what the hell were we suppose to survive all this shit. Hap was acting all natural when it came to this. He was not the one thinking that he was going thru a depression stage after all I was the one avoiding the clubhouse like the plague and would end up crying myself to sleep like a crazy person. I had to go out and find myself, yeah I tell myself that every time I wake up too. I had to go visit Luann for more sleeping pills without Donna knowing that sounds harder than it sounds. Talking with other Old ladies does not help. Precious told me that they come out different not used to anything any more. Colleen told me to run now that I had the chance. Linda said I had to take the good with the bad and that everything would be fine. I just don't want to lose sight of who we are. I just miss him all the time, it's not sometimes it's constant.
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