Chapter 51
Rick stood in his office glancing around. He let out a snicker and took a seat at his desk. He rummaged through the files that were piled on his desk, unsatisfied with what he found he flicked on his computer and impatiently waited for it to boot. He tapped his fingertips on his desk till it was ready for his use.
He opened his case archive and scrolled through till he found the one he was looking for… Lorenzo Alcazar murder trial, Jason Morgan defendant was the title of the court transcript.
Rick sat reading when he was interrupted by a knock on the door to his office. He minimize the program and opened one of the random files that were sitting on his desk. "Come in."
Mac entered, "D.A. Lansing, can I have a minute of your time?" he asked.
Rick flashed a half smile, "Sure commissioner, come on in."
"Welcome back." Mac mumbled insincerely.
"We both knew there was no proof, I am innocent." Rick stated.
Mac crossed his arms on his chest, "Rick, we have to work together, whether we like it or not. Whether I like you or you like me, I do not want this investigation to damage the work we do here."
"And what work is that Mac, bringing in the bad guys?" Rick laughed, "Funny, I don't see that happening. Morgan and Corinthos… their business is thriving… growing. What do we do, go after each other instead of them."
"I want to take them down as much as the next person… but legally. I am not going to entrap them, lie or break the law to bring them down. That would make me no better then them. I think you should follow my example." Mac said.
"Follow your example. For years you have been unable to catch Sonny and Jason…"
Mac cut him off, "Correction Rick, I have been able to catch him, you have been unable to convict him. You need to get past your personal issues with them and focus on your job. As long as you keep this vendetta you will never win… and Rick, I know that you are a good lawyer."
"That's so sweet of you Commissioner, now I'm days behind on my work if you don't mind." Rick looked back to the file in front of him, disinterested but Mac took the cue and left the office. Rick looked back to his computer screen and clicked the mouse bringing the case back to his computer screen. Satisfaction… he would definitely feel satisfaction.
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Elizabeth was dressed in a black pantsuit and her hair was back in a ponytail. Jason had insisted that Max drive her to and from the funeral. She sat staring out the window, unsure of her feelings about Lucky. Was she relieved that he was dead? Sad? She had thought about it a lot… she felt both. She was sad because she truly loved Lucky, the Lucky she fell in love with years ago. At the same time she was relieved. The Lucky she knew over the past couple years, the one she married was only a small fraction of the Lucky she loved. She was relieved that he could not hurt her anymore… and that he would not hurt Jason.
Max pulled the SUV to a stop in front of the church.
"Thank you for driving me Max." he nodded and did not reply. He climbed out and opened her door for her. She made her way toward the door and turned to see Max leaning against the car watching her. She knew that he would be standing in that same position when she returned.
Elizabeth reached the door and sucked in a deep breath as she grabbed the handle. She entered the church and found it was full, Bobbie, Mike, Luke, Tracey, Lulu, Nicholas… they were all there. Many cops from the PCPD were there as well as Rick Lansing. She sat in a pew in the back of the church and did not speak to anyone or offer her condolences.
She spotted Emily and Monica talking at the front of the church and did not move when they started toward her.
"I'm glad you came Liz." Emily said pulling Elizabeth into a tight hug. Elizabeth felt Monica's hand on her shoulder and her eyes welled up. The three women stood exchanging nice memories before the service began. A short time later they were all seated, Emily and Monica at the front and Elizabeth alone in the back, barely visible to the other mourners.
The service began with a quick prayer then a Eulogy by Nick. He did well and outlined the good qualities that Lucky had, all of which Elizabeth agreed with and smiled when she thought about Lucky when they were young.
They opened the service up to anyone attending to say words, memories or feelings of Lucky. Lulu was the first to speak. She got through her first sentence and broke down, falling to the ground crying. Logan went to the front to console her and helped her back to her seat.
Luke was next, he looked at the picture of Lucky sitting next to the coffin "Well cowboy, it looks like you are going on one last adventure. You are going to have to start this one alone." He looked back to the dozens of eyes on him and noticed one set sitting in the back, alone. He met her eyes and spoke, "My son had a hard life. It is hard enough having the last name Spencer but he fought through it and made a good life for himself. He got himself a good job… a family. He fought through the demons of this world…" He glared at Elizabeth. A few others saw his glare and turned in Elizabeth's direction. "Look, there is one now, Elizabeth, his beautiful ex-wife. He loved her very much. They had that young love… Elizabeth, you made my son so happy, then you completely broke him, you manipulating, lying, cheating…" he sighed and saw many eyes turn curious. "… anyway enough about her. He…"
That was all Elizabeth heard. Her face flushed and she ran from her seat as fast as she could. She exited the church and saw Max standing exactly where she had left him, as she had expected. "I take it did not go good." He said as he opened her door for her.
She climbed in the car, "Max, can you take me somewhere?"
He nodded and drove her to the destination she requested. "I'll be back in a few minutes." He stayed in the car and watched her approach the house.
Elizabeth sat on a bench on the porch of the Spencer house. She spoke in almost a whisper.
"Lucky, I know you probably don't want to hear this but I'm sorry. I'm sorry for how all of this turned out. I know I am partly to blame. I pushed you over the edge, I lied to you, I betrayed you. For that words cannot express the guilt I feel and will feel for the rest of my life. You were always there for me, you loved me when I felt I did not deserve love. "
"I wanted a family and loved you so much it hurt. When we were young I would dream about marrying you and having kids… grandkids… dogs, all of it. I guess along the way we grew up, grew apart, and neither of us wanted to admit it. Instead we chose to hurt each other. You were my best friend, I never wanted this to happen Lucky. I still love you so much, I always will love that boy that used to sneak into my window."
"When I took those vows, I meant them. I would have stayed with you forever. I know that your love did not fade as mine didn't. The more we stayed together the more miserable we became. When you were addicted to the pain killers and I caught you with Maxi my heart broke. I was lost and sad… and I felt alone. Jason helped me put the pieces of my heart back together Lucky."
"I see now that we were each others first love. Everyone has that first love. The one that you grow up with, experience new things with, first date, first kiss, first love. You were my first love… I will carry that and you with me always… but Jason is my soul-mate, I hope you can understand that."
"I have to move on from everything that has happened Lucky. I need to get past this and live my life with Jason… a man you despised. Despite that I love him, he loves me and I know that he would never hurt me. Please understand that."
"When he is older I will tell Cameron about you, who you were to me and how you helped me… and loved me. I will tell him stories of us and hope that he will remember you as well."
Elizabeth stood from the bench and wiped the tears from her eyes. She stepped off the porch and looked back that the house that was once her home. "I will always love you Lucky."
She took a deep breath and walked back to the car then home to Jason.
