Happy Grey's Anatomy Season Finale Day! Let's hope for something good!

Derek searched all over for Meredith. He knew all of her favorite hiding spots, she wasn't in any of them. When she didn't want to be found, it was nearly impossible to find her. He had no idea how he was going to dig himself out of this mess. He just knew he had to. He confided in Addison, and she told him he had to apologize until she listened. Meredith wasn't the type that you bought flowers and a card. This was going to be much more complex than that.

Meredith was stressed out. How could they deny their granddaughter a chance at survival? She would never understand it. She couldn't deal with the stress of her life at this moment. She was angry at Derek. Generally, she would be upset. She would shut down. But Derek had made her mad. She needed to hide. She needed to be away from her friends and away from Derek. She found an empty patient room. She sat back in the chair and flipped on the t.v. It was perfect. No friends, no Derek, no stress. She took a big bite of her sandwich and thought about her current situation.

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"Has anyone seen Meredith?" Derek asked as he walked up to the intern's table. He never went to their table. They always assumed he was too good for interns. But not too good to sleep with them, Alex always said.

"Nope." Izzie said quickly.

"She's hiding from you." Cristina said frankly.

"I assumed as much." Derek sulked.

"What did you do to her?" George asked nosily.

"He basically said she was immature, and irresponsible." Cristina explained.

"Not exactly." Derek explained. "If you see her, can you let her know I'm looking for her."

"Sure." Izzie said.

"I'm not sure it will make a difference." Cristina said sarcastically.

"Just tell her, okay?" He said as he quickly walked away.

"He said she was immature?" Izzie asked Cristina.

"Ouch." Alex added. "I guess she is a little..."

"She has been a good friend, let's not bash." Izzie warned. "Maybe we should find her. Maybe she needs us."

"She needs us..." Cristina started. "She needs us to leave her alone!"

"Fine." Izzie answered defeated.

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Meredith had managed to avoid Derek all day long. She let out a big sigh of relief as she pulled out of the hospital parking lot. Derek's car was still there, so she knew she was safe for awhile. She stopped by and grabbed a burger and fries. She didn't like fast food, but she wasn't cooking, and Izzie was on call. She moaned as she pulled into the driveway and saw Ian's car. Just one more problem in her life.

"Hey." Ian said with a smile.

"I hate you. And you are a loser. You don't even have a job. And you sit on your ass all day." She said angrily as she threw her bag of fast food on the table. "What do you do all day anyway?"

"Well, I would go out, but where? You did steal all of my money." He said frankly. She shook her head in agreement.

"So you just sit here, and run up my bills?" She asked as she took a big bite of her burger.

"Pretty much." He replied as she grabbed her burger out of her hand a took a bite. "I go trough your stuff too."

"You do not." She said, giving him a warning glare.

"I do." He said with a shrug. "I have to say, I like your collection of thongs. You have some nice ones."

"You are so full of crap." She said as she threw a fry it him.

"I like the purple one the best. Very sexy." He said with a smirk.

"You ass. I can't believe--" Her face dropped as she started, "Yeah, I can believe it. That's not cool."

"Yeah, well..." He said, taking a fry. "I couldn't find your book."

"My book?" She said innocently. "I don't know what you're talking about..." She laughed.

"I think you do. But you'll never admit it, will you?" He asked. She shook her head. "So, where is McDemented?"

"McDreamy." She said smartly as she punched him in the arm. "He and I are--"

"Over?" Ian said with a hopeful look.

"Taking a break." She clarified.

"That's not good. It's over." He stated.

"No, it's not." She said. But she wondered if it was true herself.

"Well, you have me." He told her quickly.

"Too bad I don't want you." She said sharply.

"I was going to say you don't know what your missing...But you do." He said with a seductive smile.

"Ha. Very funny." She returned. "Never again. These legs are closed to you...forever" She sighed.

"I will never believe that those legs are closed to me forever. It's like a party in my pants. You and I, we are amazing. People dream of that kind of sex, you know." Ian said happily.

"Yeah, well I have that kind of sex. With Derek. All of the time." She said, rubbing it in.

"Evidently, not anymore." Ian pointed out.

"So, where are the tapes?" She asked him, as she shifted in her seat.

"They are at home. I only threw one in with your stuff. When you went with you-know-who..." He said with a faint smile. She nodded, acknowledging that he stayed true to her wishes and did not say Nate's name. "I thought if you watched it, you would miss what we had..."

"Ian, we don't have anything. I loved you. I will always love you. But it's not that kind of love you need or want." She said, remorsefully.

"I guess I've always known that." He said, dropping his head.

"Well, on that note...I am going to take a quick shower. Do you want to watch a movie?" She asked as she stood up.

"Is Meredith Grey being civil..." He asked.

"I guess she is. You better take advantage of it quickly." She told him.

"Sure, we can watch a movie." Ian said as he stood up.

"Make some popcorn." She yelled from the stairs.

"You just ate." Ian told her.

"You have to eat popcorn during a movie. Pick something out. No porn!" She yelled from upstairs.

"You're no fun!" He shouted back. He could hear her laugh. It made him smile.

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George never came home. Meredith assumed that he went to Callie's or that he was at Joe's. It was just she and Ian. It should have been uncomfortable, but it wasn't. She and Ian could be friends. He would always want more, but she knew how to fight him off with a stick. Several times during the movie, she could feel his eyes on her, but she ignored it.

"I'm going to bed." She stated as the credits rolled on the t.v. screen.

"So soon?" He asked with a grin.

"Yes. I, unlike you, have to work tomorrow. Well not work. I have a thing. But anyway, I have to get to bed." She said as she stood up. He looked at her Oxford tee shirt and smiled.

"Goodnight, Mer." He said as leaned back on the sofa. She looked at her cellphone. Derek had called fourteen times. She threw the phone down and headed up the stairs.

Meredith laid back on her bed. It was lonely. She missed Derek. She missed the way the bed shifted when he was trying to get comfortable. She missed that he had to have the left side of the bed. She missed his shallow breathing when he fell asleep. She just plain missed Derek. She rolled over and clutched his pillow tightly. She closed her eyes, and opened them quickly when she heard a noise. She quit breathing. It was the wind. It was a branch hitting the house. There it went again. She froze. Should I run down and get Ian? Yeah, like he would be any help. I'd have to protect him. It continued to get louder. It was outside her window. She got out of bed and grabbed the bedside lamp, ripping the plug out of the wall. She quickly opened the window and looked down.

"You have got to be kidding me!" She said with a laugh.

"Oh, thank God, Mer." He said, out of breath. He was near the window.

"I am shutting the window now." She told him as she started to push it down.

"No! Please! I have been climbing, and I-- I'm tired!" He moaned loudly. "Please, don't shut me out. Physically or mentally. Help me..." She sighed as she grabbed his arm and helped him the rest of the way up. "Thanks. I have been trying to climb up forever."

"Why?" She said sarcastically.

"Because I love you." He said happily as he threw his other leg in.

"No, why Derek?" She said again.

"Oh, because my key worked, but the dead bolt was locked." Derek answered. She laughed at his pants that were now ripped from his many tries climbing the house.

"Good reason." She spat as she turned and walked away-..

"Here." He said as he pulled six calla lilies out from his back pocket. "I know you aren't the flower type..."

"Calla lilies are--" She started.

"You favorite." He finished her sentence. "Roses are cliche. You like calla lilies. White are classic, but you like lavender when you are mad, it soothes you, and yellow when you are sad, because they are bright and cheery." He explained.

"You remembered." She said in awe.

"I listen to everything you tell me." He said softly. "I am so sorry. I was an ass. I was an ass' ass. I never met you hurt you."

"But you did. And now I am afraid to trust you, Derek." Meredith explained. "The things you said..."

"I didn't mean it." Derek explained.

"You did. What you said, it didn't come randomly. You had to have been thinking it. So, Derek, you did mean it." She said regretfully.

"Okay, I did. I did mean it. I was thinking it. The minute I saw you, I knew you were something special. I knew I was meant to be with you. I was leaving Seattle, but my plans changed. They changed for a reason. It was fate. But you were with Chase. I was jealous, I wanted you. Then it ended. We were free. You make me so happy. We were happy. When Ian came, it was overwhelming. I tried to be nice and supportive, but do you have any idea how hard that is? To find out that the love of your life is attached, is legally married. And then to have to face him everyday. I know it was my idea to have him stay. I thought I could keep tabs on him. I was wrong. I was wrong all the way around. And I know I promised I wouldn't leave you, and I am sorry. But driving home, I realized I wasn't driving home. I was driving away from home. Because home for me, Meredith, is where you are. Whether it is a cardboard box, a trailer, a house, or a car. It is where you are. And I love you. I am so sorry, and that is all I can say or do. All I can do is love you." He said as he looked into her tear-rimmed green eyes.

"Well, okay then." She said, trying to be flip about it. Her lips began to quiver. He cocked his head. "I'm sorry." She said as she let the tears fall.

"Mer..." He said as he had rested on her shoulder.

"I was a bitch. I have been horrible." She admitted. He pulled her against him. "This situation has been hell. Hell for both of us. I'm trying, I really am." She explained between sobs. "I missed you..."

"I missed you too." He said.

"Stay with me." She told him. He nodded, and walked her over to the bed and she laid down. She pulled him down next to her. She laid there and looked into his eyes.

"I loved Nate..." She explained.

"Mer..." He started. He didn't want her to talk about it if she didn't want to.

"No. It's time." She returned. "I loved him. I loved him a lot. He was kind, he was a great guy. I was going to leave Ian. I was going to run away with Nate. We would have been happy. He went out of town for a few days. He called me five times a day at the least while he was away. We were going to meet at the club when he came back. I waited. He never showed. I went to his apartment, and he left all of my stuff in a pile in the middle of the room. I never saw him again. I thought he was dead. I called hospitals and checked the paper. Then a year later, I saw him in the park. He was fine, he was alive. I guess he just chose to leave me. I loved him so much, and he just left. He left me with Ian. If felt like I was abandoned. That is why I don't trust." She said as tears streamed down.

"Oh, Meredith. You don't know what happened." He said as he pulled her against him. He wasn't going to say anything about what happened to Nate. If he did, he feared that Ian would retaliate, and never divorce Meredith. "Maybe he had a reason. I'm sorry I left you like I did."

"I'm just glad you came back. And you climbed up the side of my house like Spiderman." She said with a giggle.

"I nearly lost my pants." He said with a chuckle. "I may not be able to move my hands or arms tomorrow. But it was worth it!" He said with a laugh. "You are worth it." He said as he kissed her forehead. "I think I need to start working out."

"I think you are fine just the way you are." Meredith returned with a smile as she poked his abdomen. She rolled over and spooned herself against him. She felt his hand slid down to her inner thigh. "Did you apologize just do you could get some sex?" She said with a snort of laughter.

"No. Sex is the last thing on my mind. In fact, if there was a list of the things I don't want to do, sex you be number one!" He boasted, trying to convince her.

"Oh, really?" She laughed, as she sat up.

"Really." He said with a faint smile. She pulled her hair out of the loose up-do it was in.

"What about now?" She asked as she ran her fingers through her hair.

"Still number one." He said with a shrug.

"Oh, I see." She curled her fingers around the bottom of her shirt and slowly pulled it off, revealing her red lacy bra. "What about now?" She asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Well, still pretty high on the list..." He grinned.

"Let's see." She said as she stood up and peeled her sleep pants off. He took her curves in with his eyes. She twirled around. "And now?"

"Uh, slightly lower on the list, I'd say." He told her. She could see the need in his eyes.

"Okay then." She said as she rolled him on his back and straddled him. Her hips moved strategically. She could feel him begin to rise. He let out a slight moan. "Well, if you really don't want to..." She said with a giggle as she rolled off of him.

"Get over here." He said with a laugh as he pulled her on top of him. "Now. Thanks to you, sex is number one on my want to do list."

"I bet it is..." She said with a giggle as he began to kiss her chest.

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"What time do you have to be up?" Derek asked Meredith. She just moaned. She hadn't gotten much sleep.

"Shhh. I didn't get any sleep...no thanks to you!" She said with a smile.

"It's five." He told her as he wrapped his arms around her. "I have surgery at ten." He moaned.

"I don't have to be in until eleven." Meredith said quietly. "So goodnight."

"Eleven? That's not when the shifts start..." He said, quickly becoming alert.

"I'm not going in for a shift. Goodnight." She moaned.

"It's not night. And what do you mean? What are you going in for?" He asked quickly.

"I'm pregnant." She said with a laugh.

"You're WHAT?" He asked in shock.

"I'm kidding. No children are on their way." She laughed. "I am going in to donate bone marrow. So, good day." She moaned as she covered her head.

"Donate bone marrow? Seriously?" He asked with surprise.

"Yes. I am serious." She moaned. "For Anna."

"Are you sure? Do you really want to do this?" He asked, unsure of her decision.

"Yes, Derek. I want to do this. It means a lot to me. I want to save this little girl. I am a match. So, I'm doing it." She explained.

"If it is what you want to do, I support you." He said as he wrapped his arms around her. "I just wish you had told me sooner. I would have cancelled my surgery." He told her.

"I'll be fine. It's not a major thing. In and out general anesthesia. I will be okay." She assured him.

"I love you." He said as he pulled her close. "And good day." He said as he closed his eyes. She smiled.

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"So I see you're back" Ian said with a faint smile as he looked over the newspaper.

"I see you're still here..." Derek muttered.

"Ah, yes. Sounded like you had a good night last night." Ian stated dryly.

"As always." Derek returned, rubbing it in. "And you didn't...I assume."

"So what did you rate?" Ian asked. Derek gave him a puzzled look. "She rates everyone she sleeps with. She has a book."

"A book?" Derek said with confusion.

"Oh, you don't know..." Ian said happily. "Her Mum gave her a journal when she graduated High School. It's got a brushed stainless steel cover with her name engraved on it. She was supposed to use it to write down medical things in college. That is not what she uses it for." He said with a laugh.

"You are--" Derek started.

"Telling the truth for once. She writes down her conquests in there. She has her own scoring system. It's good reading! I have to boast, last I checked, I had the highest score. A ten, with a bronze star. It gives you a goal, something to work towards." Ian said with a grin.

"No..." Derek said, unconvinced.

"Yes. You should take a look. If you can find it. I would be interested on how well you scored." Ian laughed. Meredith walked in.

"What are we laughing about?" She asked Ian. "Are you tormenting Derek?"

"No." Ian said quickly.

"So, tell me about this book." Derek stated.

"What book?" Meredith said quickly, as she glanced at a smiling Ian.

"What's my score?" Derek asked confidently.

"Derek, honey, what are you talking about?" She said sweetly.

"The book. I just want to know about the book and my score." Derek pressed.

"I have no idea what you are talking about." She said with a smile.

"Oh, come on Mer--He knows." Ian spat. "I told him about your book of conquests."

"There is no book." Meredith insisted. "We have to go, we're going to be late." She said to Derek. She looked back at Ian and gave him a nasty glare.

Meredith sat quietly in the car. Every few minutes, Derek was asking her about scores and books. She had to laugh. He seemed bent out of shape over it. She was worried. She wasn't sure what was going on with Anna. Dr. Watson told her not to worry about it, and that they would get the bone marrow to her no matter what. She was just hoping he was right.

"So, if there was a book, what would my score be?" Derek asked.

"Damn-it Derek!" Meredith said loudly.

"Hypothetically." He nodded.

"If there was a book, which there is not, you would probably be a ten, with a gold star." She said with a smile.

"I'll be damned..." Derek said with a smile. "So there really is a book... You are such a man."

"Am not." She giggled.

"Are too." He laughed.

"Well you didn't think I was a man last night." Meredith pointed out.

"Last night you were no man." He said happily. "So when do I get to see this book?"

"The book that doesn't exist?" She asked.

"Yes, that would be the one." He pointed out.

"Never." She said happily.

They pulled up to the hospital. She held her breath. She was nervous. She had nothing to be nervous about. She knew that, but it didn't help. It was so empowering, knowing she is saving a life. She sighed as she began to walk to the door. Derek grabbed her hand.

"Are you ready?" He asked.

"As I'll ever be." She stated.

"I'm proud of you. This is a big deal." Derek told her.

"You think?" She asked.

"I know." He said. You know what else I know?" He asked. She nodded no. "I love you." He said as he leaned and kissed her temple.

"I love you too." She said as she leaned her head against him.

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I fixed it...This is good, right? I expect tons of reviews. I have to say, I was surprised that you all were against Mer on the fight. I was expecting some Derek bashing. Anyway, please, please review!!