I've developed a new routine now that Eva's been home for a few months.

Get up in the morning and get breakfast for me and Eva ready.

Work from home for a while.

Playtime and story time with Eva.

Nap time…for Eva anyway…usually it's my time to run around like a chicken with no head as I try to clean the house, do laundry, or get some more work done.

By the time Eva wakes up, I'm usually exhausted, but it's also when Edward usually comes over.

He helps during the afternoons now…every day.

I keep telling him he doesn't have to, but he says he wants to…he wants to be here for me, because I shouldn't have to deal with all of this on my own.

So while he handles lunch and the afternoon with Evangeline, I get to finally take a shower, and a nap, and run errands if I have to.

Sometimes your mom or Alice or Rose come over too.

I try not to laugh every time Esme or Alice tries to keep that stupid teddy bear of yours near her.

They won't listen to me when I tell them that she doesn't like it…she always tosses it out of her crib or away from wherever she is.

They don't listen to me about a lot of things…Edward is the only one who really seems to listen to me, to ask about me and my needs and wants and not just the baby's.

Edward thinks I should say something…I'm too afraid to though.

Not because I don't want to hurt their feelings, but because I still have so much of my emotions to work through in regards to you, that I'm afraid I'll take out my anger at you on them.

Edward thinks I should think about seeing a counselor or something to work through it all…or at least open up to him.

He worries because I don't ever speak any of it anymore unless I absolutely have to.

Maybe he's right…maybe I need to talk about it…maybe I need to say something to the rest of the family…because right now, I feel like I'm reaching my limit.


A/N: So sorry for the delay in posting, but I was overtaken by two plot bunnies for one shots...one for a contest and one for the Fandom For Preemies compilation. They're both finished now though, so I should be getting back to daily updates again :-)